Sorry to deviate from my story which I have been diligently uploading daily - sometimes even twice within the space of 24 hours, for the few readers I have. While I specialise in writing fiction and telling stories with my account, as is my talent, sometimes I need to vent, or just talk about what's happening in my life and how I've been.
And of course, hope that someone is reading and responding. Why? Because I'm a mess right now, and just a littl short of a complete emotional wreck whos barely getting enough sleep to continue living and functioning. And until I pass my professional exams, that's not likely to change.
Speaking of which, we stopped lectures about two weeks ago, if I'm not mistaken. Whether or not we finished everything on the couse outline is something I cannot say for sure, since I barley kept up with this semester's lectures, but we've finished.
All our practicals, the assignments, all of that- done. Finito.
And just today, we concluded our mock examinations. I don't know whether all schools write this, but these examinations usually have a mock which is preparatory for the final examinations, but still carries some vital marks which could well be the difference between passing and failure.
No pressure, right? Positive affirmations, right?
Well I hope that will settle, because I cannot really say if I did too well on this mock exam. My Physiology exams were the last, and I wrote them today. Excellent stuff, if I say so myself. Pretty easy to begin with, based on what they taught us, and comprising of a lot of past questions. I liked it, even though our invigilator today was a nutcase with a loud voice and a lot of hurtful words in his arsenal. Luckily, I managed to get through the whole thing without being embarrassed by him. Maybe my luck is becoming a lot better after all.
Medical Biochemistry? That was yesterday. And it was, well, 50/50 more like. I did know some questions, maybe at least 50 out of the 120 which I was sure of, and the rest, I guess are in the hands of God, because I definitely did all I could.
Anatomy? Nothing to write home about. Sadly, the lock carries 15 out of the 30 marks left aside for assignments, and then again, my other fifteen marks aren't even certain because our first test results were slashed for no reason while the second test was so hard, I doubt I'd ever written something so difficult before.
It was even worse than calculus, because it made you look foolishm
like you barely even read at all. The exam officer did warn us about that but still, no one expected this sort of thing.
As it stands right now I have to focus on the main exam and hope to carry enough marks from there. The pass mark is 50 and I'm sure I don't want to be resitting any of the examinations or repeating the class, so I would literally do anything to make sure I succeed at this point.
That aside, it's becoming extremely difficult to maintain relationships and friendships with the people I care about even in school. I just met someone who I was close to - who I have been and am still close to actually -and she was sad because we had not chatted in a week and I never asked about her. I did remember to ask about her during the five-day period she was talking about but I kept on forgetting because of all I had to cover and all the reading I had to do.
Sad.
Anyway you are okay now and I later found out that her phone got spoilt when it fell from a moving car. Yikes.
Anyway I'm pretty satisfied with what my health has been like, all this while. I'm okay as far as some general body health is concerned and maybe I'm having a little blocked nose but that's alright, I can manage that.
The real terror is sleeping and it's getting worse because then I may actually start losing breath in my sleep and start asphyxiation; having to sleep with my mouth open is quite uncomfortable, so I hope this clears up as soon as possible.
I'll be reading a lot in the next three or four weeks; the main exam starts in the next two weeks and runs for about weeks, so I'll have to devote all my efforts into passing for that duration of time.
I hope I can still keep up it's all my interactions on this platform but even if I don't I would like to go to know what's happening and see if you have for me or just hope and believe in me, send wprssnof motivation and affirmation because those are the nice things I'd really appreciate.
Either way, that's enough talk about me, and that's definitely enough ranting for one day. There wasn't a real place to say all this without being asked questions I don't want to answer, so random online people I'm friends with (I guess) it is!
What about you? What's new in your life? How are you coping? Wins? Losses? Or are you just going through it? I'd like to hear from you! Stories that unite us under the common experiences and struggles associated with being human. Anything better? I'm yet to see it!
Thanks for Reading!
We've both been suffering from exams bruuu 😂😂😂 but how did you do? I passed mine UwU