Disclaimer: This article is a warning for those who experienced being delayed but still didn't want to have check-ups. Please learn from me. Enjoy reading!

So what is Ovarian Cyst? It is Bad? Or what does it feels like?

So this month, because it was Women's day Awareness, allow me to share my experience when I didn't know that I am positive with an ovarian cyst, my ovary was about to raptured when I didn't go operation, and I felt like my body is about to give up because of what I feel about my abdomen where I can't totally explain how hurt it was like I can feel there's a huge sharp inside of my tummy.

So a lot of you knows that I undergo surgery or what we called hysterectomy surgery where the ovaries or one of your ovaries will be removed because it's not functioning, I spent already more than 20k for my medicines and vitamins because I need it for my body to heal up.

So let me share my experience, years ago during the time where the cyst is still developing:

I was still at grade 9 when I experience being delayed like 3-4months, at first I didn't pay attention to it since I was still young and I thought it was normal.

I already noticed that there's something wrong with my body, I already lose weight when I reach grade 7 but when I reach grade 9, I start gaining weight again everytime that my period are not appearing come each month. So for me it was just normal bcuz I am chubby eversince that I was a kid.

Everything was normal at first, like I can do a lot of activities where I can do my part time well and anything that my body was looking for. Not until my period came after 4months of being delayed, it was the first time that I experienced something like my lower abdomen was really hurtful. I can't move, I can't stand and I start vomiting whenever I'm forcing my body ro do something. I just think that it was just a dysmenorrhea, but I already knew there's something wrong about it.

It was june 2016, I was so stressed at everything, stress at lovelife, stress at school, stress with the family and stress at life. After months of being so stressed that's where my delayed period starts. I can't remember it well, but last October 2016, I lost my consciousness while I'm in my grandparents grave at the cemetery.

When I woke up, I'm already at the hospital and my blood pressure was really low that time, the nurse told me to rest well and avoid stressing myself. She said I was so pale when someone brought me there, I don't know who it was but the nurse ask some questions to me little did I know it was the Obgyne doctor. She said I'm bleeding too much that time and maybe that was the reason why I loss my consciousness.

She asked me if I was pregnant, and I told her everything about being delayed like 4months but ofcourse I'm not pregnant. No one touch me yet, lol. She gave me a paper with the ultrasound request on it and she said I need to go for a check-up.

Because of being too stubborn, I didn't follow her lol.

At year 2017, same thing happened again, my period was delayed but this time it was different, I was delayed for like 1 year and go to check up at year 2018.

My period didn't came starting July 2017 until oct 2018, imagine how stubborn am I to avoid getting checkups hehe. So because of that, I plan to schedule a check up and my obgyne ultrasounded me and she give me another request for the ultrasound.

And because the ultrasound cost 900php or 80$ I still didn't go for a check up. And I didn't know something worst was coming.

When I go back last January 2019, my obgybe told me that looks like I have a cyst already. For me it was just nothing, that I just need to have period so that it will be disappear. So I didn't pay attention to it either.

Until it reach August 2019, that's where I experience an extreme pain sharp object at my lower abdomen. I really vomited and I don't feel well. I got chills and a high fever where causes me not to overworked my body.

August 2019 was the last time where I appoint my last checkup, my cyst was already 8cm that time and the doctor told me to buy this medicine because said maybe the medicine can still cure it, but I didn't listen and I continue being stubborn. I have a deep meaning why, so please don't judge me or say anything.

I already knew that my mother's sister died because of ovarian cyst, her cyst already reach 18cm and her ovary can't handle it anymore. It raptured inside that causes her to bleed so much and causes her death months after that. And my period didn't came again because I didn't drink any medicine.

Not until, March 2021 came. I'm already living with my parents house this time due of covid. This is the month where I open up everything to my partner, it was hard for me to open up everything because I thinking that my partner will leave me if she find it out. And that's where I am so wrong.

She start convincing me to run a test again, I told her I didn't want to but she kept pleasing me. It makes me feel guilty if I'm not going to listen.

After my first check up, my obgyne told me to have an ultrasound, and I did it. The cyst was already 11cm that time and I was shock, maybe that's the reason why my body doesn't feel alright.

She told me to have another ultrasound at the city, that was a 2nd opinion so that I can have surgery.

And when I go there 1month and weeks after my 1st ultrasound, the cyst grow at 13cm and the doctor told me if I'm aware that I have a cyst, I forgot what kind of ultrasound this is but it was where there's a small ball that will going inside your butt to see your tummy inside, it was hurt!

My surgery scheduled was last June 9, 2021, that was hell. I'm still conscious until my surgery finished. I don't want to experience to have anesthesia again, surgery is fine but injecting it to your spine? The hdmdkekdkeiei that was the real hell.

Imagine being injected to you back spine and you can feel the needle going inside of your bone 😭 I wanna run away that time because of what I feel at my back. They repeat it like 3x when that I was laying, and 3x again when they told me to sit.

Everything went well, I'm so thankful to the person who pursue me to have my check up and to go to my followup checkups. I appreciate it well, I really appreciate it well.

Until now, I'm still healing inside but I can feel the big line inside of my tummy, I mean I can feel the wound inside of me where when I feel stressed, there's a pressure.

The difference when my left ovary was gone.

• I become too dramatic, yes. The real thing is, having one ovary make me feel so much stress and my anxiety didn't go well after.

I'm not like this before, whenever I have problems before I can still smile and happy. And I can't let them pressure me, it was really easy for me to understand things. But when I'm done with my surgery, something is different. It was hard for me to handle my mood anymore, I'm crying easily and my ob said it was because I only have 1 ovary left at my right and it was because of my pcos. And she told me that I must avoid stress and pressure as long as I'm not okay, because the healing will be slowed down by them. But doc, it was really hard huhu.

There are some signs where we couldn't ignore, this is according to my experience:

• When you're hungry but when you start eating you feel full faster then the normal one.

• When you feel sharp object in your lower.

• You can easily get tired without doing anything.

• When you have your period, you experiencing more than dysmenorrhea.

• When you experienced a back pain where you really can't handle it.

So wait, before my sugery, I really experience this backpain where I felt like my body will give up. It was really hurt where I didn't feel I still can breathe, i felt like there's no air going inside of my body, so I'll end up this article here!.

Final Thoughts

Happy women's month! I hope you enjoy this article.

Please if you experiencing this things, kindly appoint a checkup and follow your doctor. Don't copy me where I wish for a death but God gave me a person and that person saved me.

I would like to say thankyou ate Jane for renewing your sponsorship, and for those who kept supporting me, thank you so much!

OGLU2022
MARCH13.2022

Additional Part:

For those who have PCOS, always remember that you're not chubby. PCOS causes obesity not OBESITY causes PCOS.

That's why there's a woman who's having a hard time to lose weight, it's because of PCOS. Why? Because it makes their body tired easily. And that's the reason why I'm taking vitamins supplement each day because it was preventing me to feel tired after a long period of time. And I thank God because I still feel energetic even if I do a lot of things to that day.

That why, don't judge them. You didn't know the full story behind.

Photo after my surgery:

Sorry it's not clear, I spend 11hours inside of the recovery room and when I got to my room the water or whatever liquid it is, is already looks like that.