Well, I’m happy because at last I came up with a decision not changing my account. I don’t know what happened why rusty didn’t visiting me for almost 3 months (Since august 24, where the readcash where updated). I’m still planning to change my account but maybe not now, maybe soon? Yes, surely soon but still not a decision yet 🤣.

I know I can’t reach my 1bch goal this year and I only have 14$ left in my pocket, but as for today, I’m happy to have you all even if I know that earnings is important 🤣.

Okay so let’s proceed about my October’s Month diary.

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My Mother Told Me That She Wished Not To give Birth To Me.

• I’ve been crying for almost 2-3 weeks because of what happened. My whole October is kinda messed up and I don’t know why either. So what happened is she asked me some money to buy fairy (Facial wash set), but I told her no because my money will be use in buying medicines that I need to take. She got angry and told me that she’s wrong giving birth to me, I didn’t do anything wrong...just that.

Can’t Progress Well And I’m Bleeding For Almost 2 Weeks

• I have too many school works that I still didn’t finish. I have this problem where I experienced a Heavy bleeding due of my monthly visit. They said it was normal because I’m taking birth control pills (Althea), but still I have this problem because I feel tired for almost straight 2 weeks since my monthly period starts last Oct 16. I’m just sleeping whole day and my energy is super weak.

No Interest At Everything.

• Most of you noticed that I become active in noise than here, I’m active too but I become a silent reader especially if the topic is in one of the users community...I can’t give a comment because I was block to that community. And I am at my life point where I don’t have any interest when it comes to the things around me, I just don’t care..maybe because of what I hear from my own mother.

All Of Sudden Book Flight.

• this is the one that’s driving me crazy, one of my cousin book a flight for me to go in Baguio and start a work. She said it’s better than I wait on my graduation before working because of my mental health issue cause by my family and she said it was the only way that I can help my family and also myself..she said that I need to learn how to stand up on my own feet incase no ones there for me. Awww I appreciate how worry she is.

Being Insulted By A Sister

• So one sister called me a magnanakaw, or a thief. So what happened is I’m always at MIA (Mary Immaculate Academy) one of the private school here, because My classmate lives there and we have a group project always that’s why I go there. She told me that, “This school is a private property. You should not be here because maybe you’re one of a thief”, and I was like, “What?”, Eyy..I wanted to say that I didn’t even touch a Centavo and other things that is not even mine..how I become a thief?! My family will kill me.

Being Strong Again.

• I still remember the night where I am crying while having a Video call to the love of my life, I’m kinda ashamed since I’m not used to it...This is the first time that I cry into someone’s presence...But I’m thankful because she’s listening and also giving advice to me whenever I feel down.

Being Thankful To The Users Who Reaching Out Via Telegram

• I’m so thankful to the users who send me a DM in telegram asking if How I am and how’s my day went, I’m so thankful to you guys because even in a one question it moves my heart into the next level HAHAHAAH. I mean, I’m being thankful because you guys were still asking me if how I am and don’t hesitate to reach out first. May the God Bless you all!

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So it was 6months from now before the flight, Im kinda excited but I know this will be the challenging one away from my comfort zone. I can’t do anything, I also need this for myself.

I’ll not go there to put my life into a good space or what, I’ll do this so that one day I know how to stand up on my own feet without depending on someone. May the God bless me.

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Author’s Note:

So I don’t have much plan but please help me decide again 🤣. Self decision is what i struggled for almost many years 🤣.

hi! Thank you @CrazyRichFilipina for renewing your sponsorship! I appreciate it ❤️. Godbless everyone!

I wanna share my another weightloss journey ❤️. Maybe in my next article 💕

11-01-21
by: OfficialGamboaLikeUs.