@Noyon999 24 January 2022 more from that month

You get lost in a cruel reality

No more asking, no more dreaming. I loved you, I did no sin. I have never wanted so much impurity in my love. I saved it from all my faith, the result of which you lost. I thought people are alive because they have dreams, people reach their goals because they have dreams. Contrary to what I understood today, dreams never come true. I will never blame you, it was all my fault. I know what you were, how you were, but I did nothing wrong. Because I knew there was no happiness in the address of happiness you were looking for, there was heartache. And suffering means a fresh hell. I can't bring you to that hell knowingly. Not everyone can bear this pain, and neither can you. I can, I have to. Because in this hell called suffering, my survival is suffering, no matter how hellish it may be, I can understand all these movements and behaviors. I know this is what you would say. I will endure even if it is difficult, because that is what I have received. The village can be filled with emotion, but not too much can be held. When the face falls to the ground, the pain can be felt on its own. And that is the cruel reality. I can't explain to you how much I am suffering today with so much remorse. There is no moon in the sky of my mind, there is no light of the moon. No one understands the pain of that miserable life, no one can understand it. Which is very difficult for a human being to bear. Sometimes I think maybe I'm not human. Just a machine doll, which people call a robot. I'm just a robot. Whoever drives me, I am only a slave to his command. Even if I'm in trouble, he doesn't care, because he knows the robot has nothing to say. But this is really a man made of flesh and blood. I have a mind, I have two eyes to cry when I am in trouble, but no one understands. I will not tell anyone, not even one day, the end of my suffering. If you ever know these words, you will probably hate me even more. However, if you can, please don't hate me, forgive this hated man. I know you will forget, if you can remember these words, then delete them from your mind.