I WAS GOING TO BE A DAD ; HOW COULD I NOT HAVE KNOWN : I've had too much liquor that same night when she choose to break the news of having missed her to me. 🤥 I couldn't really phantom the possibility of that occuring as I've always been extra careful during our course of mating. DO I BECOME THE NEW KWAME IN HER LIFE? I thought out really loud; Well That takes us back to months ago when we had just started dating, and upon our course of first date we both agreed it was just for the fun of it as she had to gain some financial assistance and vice versa. This time around, I wasn't going to be the MOTIVATIONAL Speaker she wanted who would always encourage her through any phase she passed Because really we weren't going to go through this together. Wicked huh? I know 😤. I was going to let my first child be born without his/her father being around ☹️. I was going to be the man she'll ever remember as leaving her when she got pregnant; But the truth is that I've always Walked out of one or the other relationships not because I couldn't really be in them but because I WAA NEVER GOOD AT HANDLING PRESSURES; WHAT COULD REALLY BE MORE PRESSURISING THAN THIS?. This time around I didn't want to be the KWAME in her LIFE, this time around I didn't want to be the man who left his child be born without a home just because I was pressured. Diana was quite a bright lady and irrespective of the fact that it was going to be just for the fun of it, I had also developed genuine likeness for her. I didn't want to be the man who disappointed DIANNA. I prayed to God to really give me the strength to handle this pressure because it doesn't take "NO PRESSURES" to be a man. Really being a man have never been a day job. I knew I took the right decision when we discussed about each other's fear rather than just GHOSTING. 🤓.