I laugh and I would cry
Sadness laughs at me.
I laugh at it too.
It's still here.
I laugh and I would cry.
I am ugly when I am sad.
When I smile,
I remember being sad.
So I'm afraid to be happy.
How long does grief last?
They say it takes a long time.
Some say it never stops.
Who should I trust?
But I want to be sad.
What now?
Maybe to be sad today.
And to laugh tomorrow.
But what can I say if they ask?
When I'm sad why?
When I'm happy again why?
It's not good either way.
I think it's best not to explain.
I think it's best to say
I do it that way.
Author: Musician
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That's really the mystery for me so I'm scared to have fun so much because I know that there is this unexpected thing that would ruined it and change it into sad and painful one.