Fear not!

Fear plays a vital role in human's emotion. It balances man's need to break free, to fly and to free fall. It makes man have a second thought on the things that she likes to do. It is a fuel for man to be brave. The absence of fear doesn't make a man brave rather it makes a man not a man at all. Furthermore, being brave means that you continue to dive head on even with the fear you've been feeling.

Fear is viewed as something that makes a person weak. It is thought to be a thing that could hinder you from doing the things that you love. Fear limits your capabilities.

There are different factors that triggers our fear. It could be a person, a thing or a situation. As for me, here are the things I fear:

First things first. I fear death. I'm scared that the day might come when I would bid goodbye to a lovedone. As much as, we know that death is inevitable, I cringed at the idea. I couldn't even imagine it. I remember when I attend funerals, I used to put myself on the shoes of the mourning left lovedones. (Oh, I wouldn't be able to bear the pain).

Second, I fear change in a sense that I would have to go through a phase in my life alone and without the people I used to be with. I fear of being left alone. It would be hard for me to go on with life if somebody leaves me eventhough the person would promise to be back.

Three, I fear that I might disappoint and hurt my family. As a kid, I made sure that I follow house rules. I don't want to cause headache to any of my family members but of course, we cant be perfect. There were instances that I failed and I don't want to go through the same experience again. Today, I'm far from being perfect. I've committed lapses but I want to get back on the right track again.

Four, I fear people's criticisms. Moreso, if they are from people whose opinion matters to me. Many times I've cancelled plans and dreams because I'm under the influence of other's opinion.

Five, I fear that I couldn't meet expectations. Sometimes, I regretted how I behave in school and at home and wondered what if I was the opposite of who I am now. Maybe, my family and other people around me wouldn't mind me that much.

Those are the things that scares me. That prohibits me from being happy, from enjoying life and from reaching the dreams I have for myself. Sometimes, I think of undoing my life and sprinkling the characteristics that I would need just to be a little bit more of a risktaker and not a weakling but this is how I am. Maybe I can't undo me but maybe I could renew me. Some days, I pray hard that I wouldn't be the same. I want to be braver and stand on my own even with the fear inside me.

We fear because we are placing our faith on ourselves, on people and in our dreams. All these could fail us. People including the ones we love and even ourselves fear us but if we assign our faith to someone perfect and all-knowing, we'll be confident knowing that no matter we dive head on first on any of our undertaking, we won't be lost even when we fail because our faith tells us that we could bounce bach through His help. So, faith over fear isn't enough. Double check where you assign your faith into.

How about you? What do you fear?

Thank you for reading. Please feel free to comment on things I could improve on and suggest on things that I have to do in order for me to be better.