The Voyage Why am I here? What is the big idea? Who is responsible for my being? Do they care at all about my fate, my feelings? I ought to have a say if I want to be here or not? What's the point to these many unending questions? How many comfortable, rich or affluent people ask these above questions? Looks to me like I am stuck in a circus cycle and my duty as a parent would be to make sure my offsprings too don't ask these ridiculous unending questions, at least not from…
I am new here My name is Morning_Star, I stumbled upon this platform in my quest for essence; life's essence that is. I am not much of a talker, more of a thinker. Yes, I am sure everybody thinks, but some people consciously put their minds to work, trying to make sense of things; life, death, happiness, sorrow. Things that make us laugh and those that make us sad, those we have control over and those we don't. My outlook to life warmed me up towards stoical philosophers,…
Calming the storm with meditation Sometimes, life gets at you in more ways than one, and in your state of confused helplessness you flounder, lose your sense of purpose and slip into depression. I don't need that feeling anywhere around me because it is usually tricky getting away from it when you allow it build a nest and settle in. Many times, my emotions have gotten the best of me and I become an absolute train-wreck, but I am usually aware, aware that that is not who I…
I fell in love with a Sociopath (Pt.1) ***The Hunter On My Prowl*** I was on my regular early morning run, headphones on, music banging. On my heels was a very beautiful lady who from her warm smile, seems to have been tagging along, oblivious to me. She waved at me, and I returned the gesture and continued on my bounce. She is beautiful alright, but I hadn’t the slightest interest in any intimate stuff, I was in a good place at the point in my life and didn’t need…
Accidental Atheist. ***As It Was In The Beginning*** I was born into a family that believed in God, I wouldn’t say a true Christian family because my parents never went to church, as far as I can remember. I mean, yeah, they were wedded in the church but I think that’s about it. My dad was a police officer, he was just all about work and his family - nuclear and extended. My mum ran a restaurant, a well known brand at the time and was always at the restaurant. None of them…
The Diary Of A First Time Dad ***The Anticipation*** Right from when my daughter was still a seed in her mother's womb, I had always wondered what she was going to look like. I bet this is the same with all first time parents, the wait, the anticipation and the ultimate satisfaction from their arrival. I remember the joy that filled my heart as we were looking at the ultrasound monitor as the doctor presented what appeared to be the first picture of our baby girl. It was a…
Life is a beautiful mess ***Dont Sweat it, Life is not random*** One of the reasons I make conscious effort not to complain about life when it deals me a bad hand is, I believe in fate, in destiny. In my mind, nothing happens in our lives randomly, life and death aren’t random in the grand scheme of things, the reason these things happen might not necessarily be to our benefit, but they had been scheduled to happen and there is nothing we can do to stop/change them, so why…
The Paranoia of parenthood and raising a girl child ***The Unique View from My Angle*** Since my adolescence, I figured I had been wired to see things differently. I see things that others usually wouldn’t see, in my head I always paint many possible scenarios of one particular event and how they may pan out. This puts me in a mode of perpetual paranoia. If I am going out on a first time date, I would imagine spilling food on my body and embarrassing myself in front of my…
I Thought My ex Was Going To Be My Last ***Cupid Had A Thing For Me*** I believe some people are destined to be together, you know twin souls destined to endure the ups and downs of life together - Soulmates. But Cupid had struck me so many times in the past, that I was beginning to think that he was personally assigned to me, my own guardian angel. This led me to question the idea of "soul mate", because at some point in every one of those past relationships, i thought I…
Reason Why I Went Broke. ***When You I Had It Good*** When it comes to living the good life, what we desire and what we can afford do not always agree. Now I am not a professional in the field of money management nor am I a specialist business consultant that can point you where the money is, but, I have lived enough and made enough financial mistakes to know that it doesn’t really take a professional to know how not to go broke. But, what better teacher than experience…
My Bodybuilding Story ***The Genesis*** I got into bodybuilding because I needed to look good for the ladies. (LOL) Of course, a good number of dudes who aren’t professional body builders go into bodybuilding to impress. Have you been to the gym on a Saturday? Truth is, humans would always seek validation, it may not be OK but it happens a lot. It didn’t exactly start like that for me but something like that happened along the line. While growing up, I had 4 older brothers…
Making Sure My First Marriage Would Be My Last. ***Giving Up Your Portion*** The only times an adult human is truly free to make his/her own decisions are right after they'd left their parent's house and a couple of minutes before they say I do. Now, it might not sound entirely logical comparing a budding adult still under the care of the parents to an adult who just got married, after all, what they have in common is just that one thing; they don't get to have all the say…
Rekt: My Crypto Story ***A Telegram Message I Got Through Whatsapp*** It was around 23rd of October 2017, I was at home and a message popped up on my Whatsapp and it was my friend "strong man". He said hey, do you have Telegram on your phone? I said huh? He said "Telegram", I said dude, I don’t understand what the hell you are talking about. He mocked me a bit, and then he told me Telegram was just like Whatsapp, a texting app. Well, I said no, I don’t have Telegram, what’s…
A journal for my beautiful daughter My beautiful Sugar. I started this journal today, the 20th of July 2020, and you are exactly 10 months and 12 days old. I would have loved to start this journal earlier, but things don't always go as we would want them to, because life is never straightforward. Always remember that, things in life don't always go as planned but don't let it stop you on your track, keep moving anyway. Well, better late than never right? I would have loved…
A Journal for My Beautiful Daughter (2) ...cont. Your mum was getting restless and it was scary to watch, I was afraid she was gonna let you out there, in the open, in the rain. I rushed upstairs and knocked on our neighbor's door (Frank) begged him for his tyre jack, got it and dashed down. Changed the tyre there in the drizzling rain, while your mum went back into the house to wait for me. I was done and we headed straight to the hospital. The roads were very bad in Owerri…
The Criminal Enterprise ***Asking For A Better Country*** On 20/10/2020, in a bid to scuffle the peaceful protest going on, the Nigerian government committed genocide on her citizens by unleashing the Army on unarmed peaceful protesters at Lekki Toll gate, Lagos State. There had been some signals days prior, which had pointed to something like this happening but it was never taken seriously because nobody in their right mind would believe that government would make good on…
Bad Cop, Worse Cops. October 2020 was an eventful month in the modern history of Nigeria. An unprecedented event took place, it shook the country to its core, after which there was a deafening silence, confusion in tranquillity – The End SARS protest. What started off looking like the usual social media rants, took physical form and manifested into a full-blown protest, spearheaded by the youthful population of the country who have had enough of the unending harassment,…
From East To The North: The Clarion Call ***Where The Map Leads*** The day finally came, the day I had silently dreaded, the day I was to go collect my NYSC call up letter. I dreaded the day because I knew I had done nothing to influence my posting, I would have, but I didn’t because I didn’t have the resources to. I left my fate to fate, so I didn’t expect miracles, I didn’t expect better than I got, but I was scared nonetheless. Why was I scared and what the hell might I…
A Simp in a man's world. Marriage is a game of compromise, you compromise at almost everything that makes you who you are, but how much more can you compromise, without actually having your true identity totally eroded? The early stages of marriage, those stages when you haven't grown weary of your partner can be a total bliss sometimes, but it makes one forget that marriage actually takes practical work to make it work. Like practical, conscious, active work. The new…
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