First day High, New Beginning.
This is what I've wished for, to have a new beginning a new start and a new work to provide for the needs of my family.
My October first experience and my First Day of Work.
I set my alarm at 5 am, but I wake at quarter to 6 am because our place was so cold they call it a little Baguio that is why it's so hard to go away in the bed. When I wake I am getting ready for breakfast and LunchBox. But I was assisted by my husband, he help to prepare because for almost 1 month staying in the I feel so sick.
When we depart in the house, it's so early it's 7:25 am and I know the employee of the LGU will arrive at almost 8 am before they were late. While riding the motor I told him don't drop me immediately in the Municipal because I am ashamed when I am the first one will arrive. So we turn over the Rotonda 2 times when the time was already 8:00 am I arrived at the main door of the Municipal Hall and Still the utility was there.
I hesitate to go to the third floor of the building but my husband told me that wait for my co-employee on the third floor. I am walking slowly up the stairs until I arrived at the Vice Mayors office, when I look at the office the Vice Mayor secretary was already there doing some work. She saw me, so he called me to come inside and set in the coach for a while because she was busy printing some paper works.
Some u arrived and ask something from the Secretary. When the secretary finished printing some paper works she gave it to me and told me to write the names of the Barangay Councilors for the invitation of filling of Candidacy this coming election.
When I'm done with the first task while waiting for the second one I am sitting again in coach and the secretary told me to photocopy some pages of the folder she fold. They point me into the SB Secretariat office and she asked Emelyn how to operate the photocopier. I know how to operate the photocopiers but the basic one, I am so ignorant with their photocopier because it was touch screen. Hahaha. She introduces herself to me and I introduce myself to her. After I photocopy and we chitchat with something I am going back to the office of the vice mayor again but I am going to the SB Secretariat again to photocopy again and at this time I am the one who operated the photocopier. And I am so happy I've learned a new one. Hahaha
When I am coming back to the Vice Mayors Office the Secretary told me that I will be assigned to the SB Secretariat but we will be having a meeting this coming Monday for the new assignment and task for me.
While sitting and chitchatting with Miss Emelyn, she invited me for snacks and Coffee but I refused her for the coffee because I am in going with medication for my Urinary Tract Infection. So I accept the biscuit she offers.
After a while, someone arrives at one of the officemates who was assigned to the satellite, but their satellite was only on the ground floor because the client will not be allowed to come inside the Municipal Hall. Together with the new Employee at the same time. We started together but he was given immediately a task to the satellite.
During lunchtime one of the Councilor arrived and he brings Ice Cream and Patatas but before we eat that we eat our Lunch first because it's already noon. While eating one of the Office mates give me a banana.
Only the banana peel I took pictures of because I am shy about taking a picture of everything. Hahaha. Because we are not close yet😉
After we eat our Lunch we eat the ice cream that was given to us by the counsellor.
While chitchatting we never notice time it's already snack time. One of the employees in the vice mayor office was given to as a snack and he said it was healthy and never used oil it was used by the oil of the plants. He said it was a Vegan Cake and Cookies.
And he is true, the sweetness is natural, and the taste was good. "Hindi nakakaumay" but I need to adjust my tummy because I am on diet. Char. Hahaha. I am ashamed because on my first day of work I keep eating less work but there is a lot in eating.
While waiting the time, or while waiting the time out. I keep scrolling my phone. Charlene gives us the Patatas that we don't eat together with the ice cream so we bring them home.
While I am going home, my husband fetches me up. And he surprises me at the home with the pizza and the milk tea because he treats me for my first day of work.
I am so happy that my husband was changing, he never gets jealous. And he is thoughtful and I think he was inspired by his work because he has his income.
Note to Self:
Just wait for the right time, never stress out yourself for being harsh about everything. The work will come but just keep in asking for the vacant. Haha.
Happy reading😉
Goodye September, Goodbye Stress.
The previous month was so challenging and Hurtful. Full of heartache, that is why I've experienced my anxiety ever.
I am so happy to celebrate my birthday last September 3. It's my 30th birthday and my husband surprised me. I am expecting that I will just prepare I chicken for the big day. And a simple pancit.
This is the food surprise by my husband. The cake and the Pizza😋
We are so happy with my birthday just the 3 of us because it was just MECQ in our place.
The next day, my husband has a delivery. And in the afternoon he invited his one friend to drink with and after that, my husband got high blood. I am so nervous at that time. I am so panic, so need to drink something or anything just to treat my nervousness, stress and anxiety. I have anxiety because I am so afraid when my husband got sick. When he got high blood.
And after a week my brother in law died as a suspected covid but we are so stressed in the morning before he died. Because we need to an oxygen tank before we enter to the hospital. We are so stressed because we can't find an oxygen tank, we can find but there is no oxygen inside. The refill will be the next day but we need the oxygen as soon as possible.
I can't continue the busy days at 5 pm I am asking my husband to send me home because I can't understand d what is my feelings. I am sick, I have a cough and cold slight fever, hyperacidity and nervousness. I think I have anxiety of that time at the first time because when I am thinking that I think I am with a covid too I feel nervous, hard to breathe and got a fever.
My September was so sad. Because from September 5 up to now I still need to treat myself for what I have to feel. When my cough and cold are gone, I need to treat my hyperacidity. After I treat my hyperactivity my fever is still coming back every morning or at night. I feel it's not normal because sometimes I feel a shortness of breath and the right side of my stomach is have pain.
I am struggling with that feeling for almost 2 weeks not including the first week that I have a cough and cold. I am waiting for my last salary in my former job, but it doesn't arrive. So when the copra is ready to sell the profit of it we use it for our diagnostic.
We went to the diagnostic centre last September 28 we got the result for blood chemistry, sugar and urinalysis. My blood Chemistry, Sugar was Normal but in my Urinalysis, there is something wrong. My PUS Cells was so high it was 15-20 but the normal was 0-5 that's.why my fever was never lost it always coming back. So the doctor gave an antibiotic good for 7 days. But before that, she asks if I am pregnant ang I told her that I don't know. And she said I will give you this antibiotic because it is okay to drink this even if you are pregnant.
While the result of the blood chemistry of my husband is there is something wrong also. He was high blood. So the doctor gave him medicine for 1 month and follow up blood chem after taking that medicine for 1 month. Our September was full of stress and thanks to God we Survive.
My husband got work from toktok and I was hired again in the LGU (Local Government Unit) but I was assigned to the vice mayors office. And Start on October 1. Despite all the challenges and problems that came from being jobless for almost 1 month and having a lot of problems for September.
Hoping this Month has a beautiful welcome to us. I have a job and as well as my husband.
Note to Self:
Keep on fighting, everything was just a blessing in disguise.
My Son Saw Something
I believe in the third eye and also I believe there is another world that we can't see who live in.
When my son was very young he was always crying, he made the night a morning and he keeps sleeping during day time. He made it for almost 1 year. I am so thin at that time because I don't have enough sleep and also don't have enough meals.
When he was 6 months old while using his nipple, he keeps saying "koykoykoy" while smiling. And I am expecting that it's normal because I think he was playing with his angels. When I left him in the living room or even I am beside him he will cry without any reason and afterwards he laughs. I am still thinking it's normal.
When I am visiting my parent's house and also I visit the house of my cousin I told it to him. And he said to me that my son has a playmate a dwarf one. I am not so sure, or I don't believe him so much. My cousin will know like that because he has a third eye and can cure **an affliction caused by the appreciation of a trait or character. "Buying"**
When there are times we sleep in my parent's house, my son can't sleep there also because his playmate that lives in the house of my in-laws want my Son to be near him. My Son will be sick if we are sleeping in the far place we need to go home with my inlaws house.
**One day** when we are working for Copra, and we joined them and my Son playing on the ground. And also the coconut drier was in the front of the old house. That house was the house of my husband's grandmother. And that house held a burial of my husband cousin because of an accident and she was pregnant at that time. ***My son told us and explain to us, who was that woman watching us from the window of the old house and it was pregnant.*** But that time I can't talk properly but we understand what he wants to tell us. We are so afraid of that time because we think that the babies their third eye were open. When that happened they never work overtime for drying their coconut they only do that during day time.
**One day** when we visited the cemetery because it was the death anniversary of my husband grandmother. While walking in the cemetery my Son told us ***"who was that little girl sitting on the top of the grave and crying"*** he was just almost 2 years old at that time. While walking I hold his hand and looking for a little girl but I never saw it, I just saw a name of a child the same age as him. When I saw that one I never talked and hold my Son's hand and walk straight. I am so afraid at that time but I never talk to them until we finished in the cemetery, while riding home I told the family of my husband about that and they are afraid too.
While I am at work and I bring my Son to the Office, in the office he never walks and goes to the Comfort room alone. I was angry with him, but he told me that there is a big black guy near the Comfort Room walking across to the USC Office. I believe in him saying that he was just 3 years old at that time.
**One day**, while I am working there is one student who already graduated told me "**Ma'am are you okay**?" *I said yes and why*.? **Don't be afraid but a black guy is standing near you**". *I ask him if he looks bad or something* "**he answered he looks good but he is just black**". *I ask him again if I can pass him or get hit when I will set to my table* " *he* ***answered yes and advice to change the position of my table just avoid any inconvenience because we can't see them***".
After that time, I transferred my table change my position. I am afraid because I can't see them I don't know what will happen if I hit him every time I am doing my work. And sometimes when I am doing some overtime I bringing my husband or some friend with me because I am afraid alone in the office.
One time, there is one friend of us studied as a "Manggagamot" about the other world. He said and ask my husband, "**is your son leaving or staying in your parent's house will get sick or there will be something bad happens to him as an accident?**" *And my husband answered YES*. "**And he told us that don't allow your Son to go there alone or, no one watching him playing alone because there is someone out there it's a girl that wants to bring your Son into another world**". He was just turning 4 years old at that time.
After knowing that, I teach my Son to be slightly bad. Because if one human being is so good no sin at all it was so attracted to them. I teach him to say bad words, but not all the time with limitations also.
Now, my son was 8 years old. He never saw anything but sometimes have but it was mixed with his imagination what he was watching on YouTube.
It was so challenging and heartbreaking feelings to experience like that. I am so afraid because we can't see them.
Until now I still monitored my Son even he was playing in the other house.
Enjoy reading. . . .
Adjustment is Needed - 3
*Life is not challenging if you don't need to adjust to each other.*
I have a lot of challenges in life, my family, money on how to raise my Son, married life that was my main problem when I was married.
In the last article, I wrote about what happened to the work of my husband. And I am still writing about continuation in my life story as a married woman.
Almost 6 months suffering from a shortage or out of budget buying some milk and diaper for my Son. I used **"Lampin"** and change it now and then the whole night. Boil an **AVOCADO LEAF** and I put some brown sugar in it, that will be the substitute for the milk if I can't buy milk for my Son. While my profit in. Selling Chocoballs in the School was not enough so I need to save my profit to buy the milk and diaper but he will consume them for 3 days only.
I am asking for my parents and sister when I have nothing, but I am ashamed too because I can't raise my own family I am always depending on them for almost six months. My sister is having a month old baby boy but sometimes when he bought groceries for his Son she will buy milk and diaper for my Son also but I am ashamed of that.
After 6 months my husband stay with us, and he brings a motorcycle for "PAMAMASADA" that was given to his parents, but only the downpayment. The monthly payment will be in his effort. We stayed in my parent's house for almost 2 years. As good in-laws, we need to adjust where you leaving. But my husband was different I am the one who adjusted and I will explain it to my parents, brothers and sisters. He was greedy/selfish.
When there is delicious food on the table my husband will it with it, if he doesn't like the food I will cook noodles, fried sardines with egg or egg. Sometimes the egg was the groceries from my sister but he will never leave a little of it he consume everything. And I told him, your Son and I will it with it and he told me you can buy your own or ask your parents for the food. I am so stressed out about the attitude of my husband but I can't leave him because he will not leave in our house he is the one who came here. I am already leaving him in their house.
Most of the time my sister will be the one to buy some food in the house because she was the one who blessed for work for that time. And my parents were just a farmer but my father was a barangay captain until now, but the salary was enough for them because he was a small salary. After all, it depends on the barangay ERA.
The election passed by, the mayor we supported won the election. As they promised to their election campaign every barangay there will one or two will be employed in LGU. As the daughter of the barangay captain, I am the who was hired in the year 2016 month of July was my first day of work.
My husband was still driving on the motorcycle, my Son left in the house with my parents while I am working in the LGU. When the time that I am adjusting myself for work, office mates and surroundings. My husband keeps in jealousy of me, he was jealous of my office mates, mostly the guys.
There are times that I am over time I need to work late. From 8 am to 12 midnight because it was a fiesta in our town and there will be an event in the gymnasium and I am the one who assigns in the gate to put some stamp who enter inside the gym. I've noticed that my husband was scandalous also, he told me that if I don't go home he will be forced or slipshod me to go home even if there is police watching us. We have a big fight that night because of his jealousy and insecurities. We have a heart to heart talk with his parents because he did not bring me home he bring me to his parent's house.
I told them, it was part of my job. It was double pay. That was the first time I saw the eyes of my husband so angry and he was always drunk at the time. He doesn't have income in motorcycles and he told me because I am late going out from the house or I think he keeps watching me while at work so that he can't catch some passenger.
I don't like him, because when he was so angry he will break some things, like a phone even my Facebook pictures he will delete them and unfriend all my friends on Facebook. Delete my contacts or even damage my sim card because of his insecurities. Even my brother in law when visited the house he was jealous of it. And I told my parents that I can't live with my husband anymore I will send him home to his parents but my mother keep stopping me because of our Son.
And also my father told my husband **DAGKU NAMAN MO NAG-ILA, UG MAPUL-AN KA SA AKOA ANAK AYAW SIYA PASAKITI E-ULI SIYA** *"you are big enough to meet with each other if you don't like my daughter don't ever hurt her instead return it to us"*
The time came, my sister could no longer adjust to my husband. She forced us to leave the house if we will not leaving the house, she will be the one who leave the house. But I am thinking of my parents because they can't leave without the support of my sister. So I've decided to leave the house searching for a house for rent but while searching and computing my income is not enough for the rent, electricity and water.
It's already 9 pm we are forced to leave and I can't talk to my sister. We went again to my husband parents. My sister doesn't like my husband because he was so noisy, he went home late, drunk and he mocked the door. My sister doesn't like that because when she wakes up she can't sleep again until morning and she was stress about her work.
But I only leave to my inlaws house for almost 1 and 1/2 months. We applied for a loan, it's just 25 thousand just to build a small house for us. We leave in an unfinished house, our bedroom has no window we put some temporary window, our living room and kitchen has no wall. The year 2017 until now our house is still the same. We never continue building our house because of some family problem.
To be continued. . . . . . . .
I've been busy these days because I need to go diagnostic don't have feeling well for a long time, I need to check my health first. Soon or when the time that I am free and can concentrate on writing some new Articles I will update them here.
Adjustment is Needed - 2
This is the second part of the last article that I've posted.
When the time that my husband encounters a major accident in Parang, Cotabato. Our big problem came, my in-laws hated me so much too. My husband got a case of reckless imprudence resulting in damage to property, physical injury and homicide. I don't what exactly the case but it sounds like that. My son was 6 months old at that time. I don't what I need to do because I am depending on my husband at that time.
As a fish car driver at that time, and his employee was a policeman. As a policeman, they want a process of the case step by step but the parents of my husband don't like that because they want to get my husband in the prison. We are so afraid of that time even if he was in the prison some people came and bring some guns just to scare or threaten my husband.
My husband got in prison for a week. His parents paid bail for 30 thousand just to get him out of the prison. At that time the case still going on, the person who was died at that time wanted a payment of 600k just for the payment of the graduating student who died in that accident. That was the rule of the Muslim people, but they are not Muslim they are Christian they adopt the attitude of the Muslim people.
Base on the explanation of the case.
That motorcycle has four passengers together with the driver. That motorcycle was coming from the "Sabong" the road was downhill it's hard to engine brake because they have a heavy load of fish. That motorcycle unexpectedly appeared at the crossing and the driver was drunk. The four-passenger there is one person who died. But after that, we are so happy that we won the case bit off course we paid 600k for the dead and the hospitalization of the 3 people.
When they settled the Case my husband stop at that work, he was stand by at the house taking care of the banana plantation. Every time he harvests the banana he sells it but it was not enough for us and also not enough for the needs of our 6-month-old Son.
After a month he was back as a truckman but only here in our place did they deliver a rice husk in the Holcim company because they made it as cement. But he stops after a month because he could not bear the dust of the rice husk he got cough in that work.
I have a lot of adjustments in our married life, at that time his parents kept audible every morning they start at 5 am. I always hear a lot of "Parinig" from them, I hear it during meals, during free time, sometimes we fight the way I take good care of Son. There was a time that one time the older brother of my husband tell us that we (with Myson) bring BAD LUCK in their family because the time when we arrive in their family we bring a lot of problems they said to me. I cried with that for almost one week because I am so hurt.
And also our married life experience a third party, there are times that my husband doesn't sleep early every night because he got a chat mate his classmate when he was in high school. They got a relationship in chat because they are far from each other the girl was abroad. They send each other a nude picture, they say "ILOVEYOU" with each other, they care with each other. He says happy valentines day with each other than me. There are times that he have money from selling coconut but he never bought even a diaper for his Son.
On the day of valentines day, his phone was left at the altar. He never closes the app that he use on that day, and thanks to God he never put a pin on that time. Because there are times I can't open his phone because he put a pin on it and I don't know what is his pin. That time, it was valentines day, that's the time I discovered that he has a faraway girlfriend.
I know they are far away from each other but when the time you discover that your husband playing another team is so hurt. I can't explain my feelings, I don't know what to do. I call him and confront him about why he does that to me. But you know what, what is his answer denied, he never does that to me.
After a week, her mother never stop of what she was doing to me. Her mother was regretful that they sale their land just to pay the bail of my husband to clear his name for the case. So I decided to go home, and also we have a little gap to my husband in their house of what happened. I am always stressed, every time I cried, I think about my stress and depression my Son drink it from my milk. I am so thankful that even I don't have enough food to eat in their house I still survive but I am so thin because of stress.
I only visited my in-laws if I have money to pay my fare in their house because my husband was back as a motorcycle driver bit he never gave enough money for the allowance of our Son. We separated ways for almost six months, my husband stayed in their house while my son and I stayed at my parent's house. There are times we argued with each other when I am asking him for the diaper and milk for my Son. I am asking for milk because when my Son turns one year old my breastmilk was gone because of stress. Adjustment is life. 🥺
My Son always got sick because he was not immune to always walking on the ground. When the time we are living in my always they will angry if my Son got dirty. When I stay in my parent's house they told me that it's better to immune my Son from dirty places or it's normal to get the baby dirty because it's part of their growth. At that time my Son always suffer from Amoeba, my Son was not immune to walking ang playing on the ground.
Because of shortage, I made Choco Balls, Monggo Toron and sale them to the School where my Cousins son was studying. My income for that after 4 days I bought it Lactum milk and a diaper for my Son. Because my money was not enough I walk for almost 3 kilometres from house to market just to buy the milk and diaper for my Son. There are times that my husband never give me money, and I cant owed milk in the store near us. I only boil an "AVOCADO LEAF AND PUT SOME SUGAR WITH IT" at first my Son doesn't like the taste with it but we don't have any other choice. Almost 3 nights for the adjustment of it, but the other night, my Son can drink milk because I never stop texting and argued with my husband just to give me milk for our Son.
I always cried at night and also my Son feel it because he is crying at night also. I don't have enough sleep every night. But at least we survive, because sometimes when my sister has salary and when she was doing some grocery for his Son she will buy milk and diaper for my Son also. I am so happy ang thankful for that.
To be continued😉
Adjustment is Needed -1
Every Relationship needs an adjustment, every people need to adjust with each other but not all the time.
Before when we get married, in the year 2013. We live in my mother inlaws house together with my husband. My husbands work that time as a single Motorcycle driver. His income is just enough for my cravings because I am pregnant at that time. We got married when I was five months pregnant but my stomach is not so big at that time because as they say if only a few will know that you are pregnant your stomach will not so big.
When I am turning 6 months pregnant my husband applied as a truckman in the fish carrier, as a pregnant woman and living in an in-laws house is so hard for me. The time when he leaves in the house for the first time that I can't see him in the morning drinking together hot milk in their house and I can't sleep with him at night is so hard for me to adjust. There are times that I still have cravings even if I am six months pregnant but need to say no to my baby because we don't have money to buy for ourselves.
To be honest, when I was pregnant and leaving in my in-law's house is so hard to adjust. It's different if his Son is in the house, my husband went home for 2 days only whenever it's a full moon because that time they can't deliver fish at that time. But because I only depend on my husband I need to adjust for that situation. And that time, my husband send money to her Mother not mine but that's fine to me because I am living on their roof. I can say no choice.
Days before I gave birth, my husband doing some works in their coconut, my husband lack of sleep at that time the day before I gave birth. On the day I gave birth, my husband was sleeping in the other bed beside my bed after I deliver a child. He was lack of sleep. His parents keep mandate him to do this, to do that and everything because his father doesn't like to see the Som that always setting he want that my husband is doing something or anything.
I am struggling with how to breastfeed my child at that time and I am so worried at that time because I don't have milk and my Child kept crying because he was so hungry.
It's almost 2 days my child still crying because he can't drink some milk in my breast. One hilot told to my husband that I need to drink a **HAGIMIT** and **UGAT SA UWAY** and he boiled it and I drink it afterwards. And after 3 hours and I've got some milk, I am so happy because we can't buy milk for him.
After a week husband was back in his work as a truckman in the fish Carrier. I want to cry but I need to adjust again because we have a child to buy some vitamins and diapers. At this time my husband sends money to me, not to his mother anymore.
At that time I am the one who budgeted the money for my husband that sends to me but my mother in law keeps idle talk about the budget in the house, most especially the food, the dish, the electricity etc. Just a month since I gave birth but I am so stressed because of the attitude of my in-laws. And also I am so stressed about how to budget my small amount of money. I want to give but please don't force us, our income is not enough for the needs of the baby but they keep shouting, idle talk to me mostly in the dawn 5 am.
One time I woke at 5 am to cook our breakfast but just to stop her talkativeness during dawn. But she restraint me why I am doing that, it's not necessary for me to do that but why she keeps shouting during dawn about her work that she was tired of, etc. When the time I bought some groceries in the house she told me why I am doing that it's not necessary but if I don't have something to bring just only the stuff to my child she will be angry. I think she needs cash, not the groceries and not my help.
I feel that my mother in law doesn't like me because she keeps talking bad words to me only my mistake she will see not my accomplishment in the house. I am suffering for that almost 6 months, not including the time that I am pregnant. It's been 1 year since I adjust to my mother in laws attitude. I don't know how to adjust anymore but need to do that because I don't have any house to leave for.
When my son was 6 months old my husband got a major accident in his work because at that time he is not a truck anymore he was a driver for a fish carrier so that he will have a bigger income than before. He only delivers 5 times and got a major accident some part of Cotabato.
To be continued😊
I don't have any idea until you Came "My Rusty"
I never expect something in return, a big return I am just being me sharing my experience here.
One night, I am just setting in the corner of my bed thinking about what to do. I just survive 2 weeks sick, I experience what is the feeling to catch the virus of the Pandemic.
So, it just arrived in my mind that I will write some article about my experience on how to Survive having a feeling of a Mild Covid. I wrote it at 10 pm and I never finish it that night because there is no electricity and Internet connection and I am worried that night because I did not save the article that I am writing.
The following night, when I open my account Thanks God there is an option to save or delete what I have written. And I continue writing the article and publish it.
When I publish it for the following, I am so worried and slightly disappointed because only 4 people read my article until morning. So I did not open my account for almost 24 hours, and the following night I was so shocked when I saw upvote my last article titled "*I think I am Mild Covid Survivor*". It's only one person **TheRandomRewarder**.
I never thought that there is a RandomRewarder because I just learn about this platform in Noise. cash. When I post a short article about saying Thank you until one writer posted an article about **Rusty** and mentioned my name that's the time enlightened my mind that I am so lucky, that he/she noticed me.
I am so happy that @Sweetiepie give some ideas and enlightened me that there is still hope and if ever no one notices your post with your followers just believe in God that there is someone who came just to give you more inspiration.
I am just new here, I write mostly about my real-life experience. *Literal Talaga na* real-life experience because I am not good at making some stories. I am blocked in my life story how much more if I am thinking or imagining some stories that never happens in my life. But soon, I can do that. There is no bad in dreaming and becoming a writer in another way.
It's not so easy on this platform, writing and thinking about what to do is so hard. There is time you will become blank even at the start of writing you have a lot of ideas. Even in small and big things that you are doing there is a lot of challenges just to finish it.
What happened to me yesterday is a big accomplishment. This is an inspiration, this is a new challenge that tomorrow, soon or someday I will become a better writer. I claim it, and I believe it to myself.
Life Is A Big Challenge.
Life is full of journeys.
Life is a gift from above to be treasured.
Enjoy every moment and be Thankful for every Blessing in Disguise.
Whoaaahhh! I can't explain my feelings tonight. I never expect this much. I know Thank you are not enough for you but Thank you soo much @TheRandomRewarder.
I am doing all my best to write more, you inspired me very much.
I think I am a Mild Covid Survivor.
I am expecting that it was just ordinary sick but it goes wrong.
***September 04, 2021***
In the morning I feel something wrong with my health but I am thinking that it was just ordinary or if I will make a baby sick it will take more serious, so that, I continue what I have planned earlier to wash or clothes. It was 5 loads in the washing machine. And in the afternoon, I am so tired and I don't like to move or to cook for our lunch but I have no choice because I have an 8-year-old Son to feed and I need to finish washing the clothes. When my husband arrived from his work, as a Toktok rider he said that I need to take my medicine immediately.
At night, I feel super tired it was my first-time feel like that tiredness. My legs, my arms, and my head were aching. But I can manage my headache. I did not get my temperature that time because our thermometer was broken but I feel that I had a super high fever in my body and I chill also.
***September 05, 2021***
When I wake up in the morning I feel fine, that feeling that I don't have a bad feeling last night. I feel like nothing happen to me but I have a little bit of tiredness but I can handle it.
***September 06, 2021***
I am fine at that time, but I have a little feeling of nervousness and a little bit of feeling of chill even if it's hot. I don't have a fever, I feel a little bit of sore throat but it was gone immediately when I used to gargle (bactidol) and (betadine). The sore throat was gone but my cold is still there, I don't have a runny nose but my cold is something inside that can't go out.
***September 07, 2021***
Today I take a bath because I feel fine but I continue taking my medicine for my cold but for my fever, I stop taking it yesterday.
***September 08, 2021***
In the morning. My bad feelings are back, I feel tired that I don't like to move. My cold become severe that one of my noses was blocked. My throat was so dry even if I drink a lot of water. In the afternoon I feel so worried because my sense of smell was gone, I smell a little but it's different from everything that I want to smell it smell the onion, garlic it's smells nothing but I can smell the alcohol but it hurt my when I smell it. I want to smell the expensive perfume that was given to me by my sister in law but I did not smell the fragrance of the perfume.
My husband was on the delivery at that time, I never contact him about what I feel that day I wait for him until he went home. When he arrives he asks me why I pack some things I told him that I lost my sense of smell I want to report myself to the RHU (Rural Health Unit) to isolate myself. But my husband told me that don't do that if you got a mild covid you can threaten it in the house what if you can catch a severe covid in the isolation area because your immune system is already low.
So stop panicking, even if I don't taste good food also. My sense of taste is also gone, but I only taste the sweetness of the Orange fruit but the other food there is no taste at all.
I suffer those feelings for almost 6 days, those days I panic because there are times that I feel shortness of breath. And I told my husband about it and he said just relax don't panic just continue drinking the medicine and your multivitamins.
***September 12, 2021***
I am searching for a medicine called Lianhua because they said it was an effective medicine for Covid patients and they said it was a traditional Herbal Medicine of the Chinese People.
This herbal medicine was so effective because my clogged nose was slightly relieved. And also my brother in law was taking this medicine he was the one want to buy this medicine so that we are in a hurry to search and buy this medicine.
We are in the hurry to buy this medicine because on his schedule of dialysis last Saturday he was diagnosed also that he was positive with Pneumonia so he needed that medicine for cure.
***September 13, 2021***
Early in the morning, my brother in law called my husband and he told him that he needs to go to the medical centre for the swab test and he told us he was having difficulty breathing but he is already suspected of covid so we are requested for Ambulance in the RHU.
This is the hardest part for us, requesting an ambulance for suspected covid is so difficult. The RHU doctor called the medical centre to that we have a patient that needs medical attention because he is also a dialysis patient but the medical centre can't accept my Brother in law if we did not bring 2 oxygen tanks. The Medical centre was out of stock of oxygen because of a lot of positive patients of covid, if we bring my brother there without oxygen tanks they did not accommodate him. From 9 am up to 1 pm we keep asking our friends, near hospitals where we can borrow or rent oxygen tanks but sad to say it all was out of stock the refilling station was available for the next day.
At last, we found an oxygen tank but my brother need to wait for almost 3-4 hours his sister will bring it to him. But sad to say my brother in law did not survive he did not wait for the oxygen tank, he just passed away at quarter to 1 pm.
On that day I am not yet fine, my home isolation was broken because of the emergency, I've got nervous, palpitate, nauseated, vomiting shortness of breath on that night.
While my husbands are so busy with the burial of his brother, they buried it at 11 pm because it is suspected covid.
I keep calling my husband to update what is my feelings in the house. Until they arrived at midnight in the house but my feeling is still something wrong.
***September 14, 2021***
My feelings are still the same, I feel that I have a hyperacidity I have a fever, I have a cold on the inside that that doesn't go out. I don't have a runny nose but I know I have a cold on the inside and sometimes my fever was on the inside. I feel bad in my stomach that's why I need to buy antacid and Omeprazole for the medication in my stomach upset.
The wife of the cousin of my husband prepare a juice of Sambong leaves but it tastes so bitter so that I vomit after I take it. And after I vomit I feel better but slight. I sleep early that night so that I can rest well.
***September 15, 2021***
When I wake up I feel better but still have the feelings in my hyperactivity and a slight fever on the inside. But much better than yesterday, but sometimes I feel shortness of breath. And my husband bring me to the hilot so that he will know what happened to me. And the hilot told him that there is nothing wrong but observe me for 2 weeks because she thinks that I am pregnant. And the hilot said to drink a bogayana so that my fever or cough will get outside after I drink that.
***September 16, 2021***
Today I feel better I don't feel the stomach upset but I continue drinking my medication and also at this time my sense of taste and smell was slightly back. So I am happy that I recovered little by little. And also I eat a lot of guavas because someone told me it will help to bring back the sense of taste.
***September 17, 2021***
Atlas, at this time I can take a bath because I don't have a fever anymore. Someone told me also to put some Sambong Leaves, Pomelo leaves because according to the oldies it will help that the fever will not come back.
I take a bath every day after that but sometimes I feel shortness of breath and I still have feelings of cold inside. If I can smell or feel the cold of the aircon or when it rains and it's very cold my nose feels pain on the inside. I think this is the effect of the mild covid to me.
Even though I have nothing to do I feel shortness of breath sometimes. Upset of stomach, dighay Ng dighay. When I google it, it says when the virus reaches the inside we can feel that way. And also my sister in law was a mild covid survivor she feel this way also for almost 2 weeks. So that, I need to observe myself for 2 weeks if it continues I need to see a doctor. Yeah, I need to see a doctor because I feel that I have anxiety about what happened to me these couple of weeks.
I stay at home for almost 2 weeks before I got that virus, my husband went to the hospital together with his brother who died last week for the swab test. I think they catch that virus in hospital and they bring it home so that I catch that virus too.
At this time I believe that the covid is very true. And when I saw some post on Facebook that the Humidifier or the thing that release a negative ion will help so that I bought that one for Son because we need to protect our child today. We will follow us soon if I can find another budget.
And also we take some Vitamin C and my husband is an ever on.
I believe that it's too hard to have that virus, it got better soon we need to take that vaccine too. Because my sister in law told us if we got vaccinated we will get better faster it will not last more than 15 days. Because we still feel the symptoms sometimes but I think it was mix with my anxiety.
I hope I will be better soon and have no feelings like this. It is too hard and you feel nervous too when you at weak.
Stay at home.
Keep safe.
It's been a long time since the last post I made here. I've been sick for almost 2 weeks and after that, my brother in law got sick also and he is a suspected covid that is why we are so sad because he was buried immediately and until now we still mourn. I am hoping that as soon as possible I can write a new article here if my mind is ready. I will do my very best. Thanks.
Unexpected
I never expect that this will happen earlier but still a blessing.
Way back in 2012, in December I am just thinking that I am just sick with a slight fever or something. Because I have also Hyper Acidity, so Mom treated me a herbal medicine just to treat my Hyper Acidity. But it does feel good it was just continued up to a week. I did not enjoy the food of Christmas, and New Year.
There was a baptism of my Niece and I am one of the Godparents but I did not attend the mass because I am not feeling well. But we went to the reception and of course I did not enjoy the food, there is a lot of food like Lechon Baboy. I went home immediately it was Christmas Eve. No, I did not go home to my parent's house I went to our boarding house and I meet my boyfriend there. But in the boarding house, my cousin also leave there.
The day before the new year I am still not feeling well, I feel that I have Hyper Acidity everything that I want to eat I will vomit. For almost a month I am not feeling well, but before that happen that I feel sick. My boyfriend asks his friend to buy a PT (Pregnancy Test Kit)
And when we see the result is positive, he told me he will become a father and I saw happiness on his face. But when I ask him about the responsibility for being a father what need to do or something, he keeps on thinking because at that time I am a fresh graduate with no work. And he was a part-timer not yet responsible for everything at the age of 24.
We attempted to abort but most safely, I drink a sap of Panyawan but I can't drink it because of subrang pait. That's the start of my not so good feeling so I keep on vomiting started that day.
I told him I will not do it anymore I will fight the baby no matter what because I know at first my parents will angry with but soon they will accept it. When my parents know about it, and as I expected my father was so angry. Very very angry. When my parents ask me who is the guy, where he lives because they want to talk to him. When I ask my boyfriend at that time he wants to marry me but his parents don't like me. His parents have a lot of alibis so that they can't go to our house, they also said they are afraid in our place because it has a lot of guns for hire. But I tell them that fine and it's safe here or if they wanted they will be escorted by police for their safety. After a long discussion thru text, his parents agreed and went to the house.
That pamamanhikan happened surprisingly to my other relatives and friends because my father hates issues. After all, he is a barangay captain at that time. So as we expected every people in our barangay talk about me.
I never expected to become pregnant as early as 21 but of course, it's my fault also I know it. 100% unexpected but everybody said it was a blessing so never feel to a baby that it is not welcome because they feel it too.
My 7-month conception.
My pregnancy is not so easy, because until 7 months my conception is still there. My womb becomes bigger but I still have vomit every morning. Or they call it morning sickness, I don't like to eat sardines or even the smell of that. I don't like my husband will not be here beside me.
I am so thin when I'm pregnant, at 7 months my womb was big and my body was thin. Only the ferrous sulfate will help me a little. Sometimes at dawn, I want to wake up my husband because I want him to buy me some Chicharon but he neglected me because it already dawns no stores were open at that time. Early in the morning when I wake up my husband was not on my side because he went to the market earlier to buy me some Chicharon but my cravings for that food was expired already. Hahaha. The next day I want some Siopao, but when the siopao arrives I don't like to eat it, I just want to watch it. And also I want to play the nose and mouth of my husband so the nose and the mouth of Son look like him. Hahaha.
He is so cute🥰 I am so lucky that I can't take Sap of Panyawan because God will not forgive me if that will happen. And as I say, everybody will accept what will happen.
And my experience of labour is not so long pain but it takes almost 24 hours. Hahaha. But it's worth the pain because I have a beautiful gift from God. I am so lucky to have a very handsome Son a very playful and makulit.
Look at this for months old baby boy. The unexpected thing that happens to me is now into a real-life was so nice. I know this is a big challenge for us in my partner, we need a double-time for double income but as a wife, I need to stay at home to take good care of my Son. We live in my Inlaws house, we are not so close but I need to adjust because we don't have enough funds to build our house.
Our unexpected thing is now our everything. He is 1 year old at the time, his happiness is to go outside and walk and walk somewhere and everywhere.
He is now our everything, we love him so much even he is so makulit, not doing his module sometimes. Hahaha. My sleep buddy never falls asleep if I am not the one beside him. He keeps holding my hands because it feels soft and cold he told until he fall asleep.
I am trying my best to become active here but my body doesn't cooperate. I am not fine yet, I need to rest. I am very sick. I will update soon, hope you understand. thanks
"gOOdbye ALAK na please".
Parang AWA mo na, SANA HULI na ito.
Bakit ba may mga ganitong tao? Parang uhaw na uhaw kung hindi makainum? Galit at wala sa mood, basi sa ***observation*** ko sa asawa ko. Hindi pa pwedi sa aming bahay nalang mag-inum? Iyong tamang-tama na sa katawan at pwedi kana matulog kung iyon lang naman ang kailangan ng katawan at utak niya hindi sana iyong para takaw na takaw sa alak.
***Way back last year,*** graduation ng isa sa barkada niya ng Senior High School. *(bata sa kanya ang barkada niya dahil kasama nya rin ito sa DRAG RACING TEAM). Me*ron pa akong work sa panahon na iyon, nagtext siya sa akin na meron daw maliit na inuman malapit lang din sa bahay namin. I sad yes, hindi ko naman siya pinagbabawalan but I told him na alam mo ang limitasyon mo. In the afternoon, nagpasundo ako sa kanya from work. At ng makarating na siya sa akin, sinabihan ko agad na siya na uuwi naba siya diretso dahil lasing na siya. Pero habang nakabyahi pauwi he kept pleasing me na payagan ko siya bumalik. Dahil nga ayaw ko din ng gulo, I said yes ulit at bumalik siya agad.
***After two hours,*** hinatid siya ng isa sa kasama niya sa inuman. Sabi sa akin na lasing na lasing na daw nahulog na nga daw sa inu.upoan niya. Pina.upo sa upuan sa bahay mahuhulog na siya, sabi ko pwedi pakihiga nalang sa higaan? Pinagtulungan ng dalawa niyang kaibigan mabuhat lang papasok sa kwarto. Kinabahan na ako sa mukha ng asawa ko, ramdam na ramdam ko na na hindi natural na lasing ito. Iiwan na sana siya sa mga kaibigan niya na naghatid sa kanya pero sabi niya na huwag pasamahan muna siya.
Dahil kakaiba na talaga ang nararamdaman ko, habang naghihilot ang mga kaibigan niya. Nagtatanong ako kung may ***HIGHBLOOD*** ba siya, sa paulit ulit ko na tanong na sa kanya bigla niya sinabi na ***"Meh ge.HIGHBLOOD ko meh"*** agad ako napatakbo sa bahay ng INLAWS ko at naghingi ng gamot para sa ***HIGHBLOOD***. Ilang oras din namin siya pinagtutulungan na hilutin, nilagyan ng yelo ang sa may liig, ulo, at sa dibdib para sa *first aide* para iwas *blood clot* daw pero ang paa niya ibabad sa sa *lukewarm water* pero ayaw niya magpa-upo kaya maiinit na tubig nalang na nilagay sa *glass bottle* at binalot lang sa tela.
Halos dalawang Oras namin siya tinulungan to revive kung ano ang nararamdaman niya daming naghilot sa kanya. At isa sa kaibigan niya dumating sabi niya, ***gatas daw ng Ina ang ipanghilamos sa kanya.*** Mabuti nalang may isang kaibigan na agad tumakbo at naghingi ng gatas sa isa kamag-anak din ng asawa ko at hinilamls ito sa kanya. Pagkatapos ng ilang minuto agad naman siyang nakatulog.
Para akong mabunutan ng tinik noong nakatulog siya, hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko. Iiyak ba ako, magpapanic, or magwawala. Nanginginig ako at kinabahan dahil nakita ko ang itsura ng asawa ko na iba na talaga, tumulo luha niya ng hindi niya alam. Pinagsabihan ko siya kinabukasan, dahil wala na daw siya maalala pagkatapos na hinatid siya dito sa bahay.
***Yesterday***, pagkatapos ng delivery niya pag-uwi niya sa bahay hindi ko alam meron pala siyang plano na mag-inum. Ang paalam niya sa akin *Pocket Size daw na Tanduay*, pero noong sinundo na niya ang kainuman niya asawa din ng pinsan ko ang dala nila ay *Long Neck na Tanduay*. At agad ko naman siya sinaway sabi mo maliit lang bakit ganyan kalaki.? Ang sabi nila hindi daw nila uubusin kung hindi na kaya.
Natapos na ako magluto for dinner, sinabihan ko sila na kumain na. Hindi kumain ang kasama niya sa inuman hindi din siya kumain. Masayang silang nag-uusap, halos dalawang oras nilang ininum iyon.
Past 8pm, tumayo siya sa kinauupuan niya para umihi. Pagbalik niya sa pag-upo bigla niya sabi, ***wait sa HUBOG NAKU, tuyok na gyod akoa panana.aw (****sandali lang lasing na ako, umiikot na ang paningin ko). Nakita ko siya na pawis na pawis, tanong ko siya kung nagka Highblood naman ba siya sabi niya wala daw nahihilo lamg daw siya. Binigyan ko ng unan, dahil gusto niya daw humiga.*
Hinihilot namin siya kasama ng kainuman niya dahil pawis na pawis na siya, nilagyan ko agad yelo ang batok niya pinainum ng gamot na subra noong una kasi dalawa ang bigay nila. Dahil hindi na maganda ang nararamdaman ko talaga, pumunta ako sa bahay ng pinsan niya para maghanap pa ng katulong. Kaya agad naman tumawag ng tulong ang asawa ng pinsan niya may nagdala din ng manghihilot para sa "KABUHI" kasi daw hindi nga kumain tapos uminum ng alak.
Sumuka siya, at ang gamot na pina.inum ko ay naisuka niya.
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Sa pagkakataon na ito, mas takot na ako kaysa sa dati kasi kakagaling lang niya sa lagnat noong isang araw palang siya nakaligo. Tapos hindi pa siya tapos sa medication niya sa ubo at sipon nakipag.inuman na. Habang tinutulungan namin siya maiyak ako sa sabi niya na hindi daw siya makahinga dahil nga may sipon siya.
Sinabihan ko ulit siya punta tayo sa hospital bahala na covid ang maging sakit mo dahil may sipon ka at nahihirapan ka huminga. Ayaw na naman niya. Hanggang sa nakatulog siya ng ilang saglit. Maiiyak ako tumingin sa hinga niya kasi habol na habol. Akala ko kasi kung ano na or talagang covid nga kinabahan ako ng subra. Ilang minuto na pagtulov sumuka siya ulit, madami na siyang naisuka. Pagkatapos niyang sumuka at pinahiga ko ulit sabi niya sa akin "Okay na ako Meh" nakahinga na ako ng maluwang. Nagsiuwian na ang tumulong sa amin pero nagpasama ako sa pinsan niya para incase may katulong ako.
Hanggang hating gabi ako nagmonitor sa kanya, tinitingnan ang hininga niya. Labas pasok ako sa kwarto kasi nasa labas lang siya nakatulog hindi na namin siya pinalakad papunta sa kwarto. At pagdating ng 4am ng madaling araw nagising na siya at uminum ng malamig na tubig at natulog na katabi namin.
Mamaya paggising nito pagsasabihan ko talaga ito. Sana naman iyon na ang huli niya kasi hindi siya nagtanda sa una ehh. Ang kinabahala ko kasi, paano kung ikamatay na niya at hindi na kaya sa first aide ang lahat? Ang hirap hirap pa naman sa Hospital ngayon, kapag mag symptoms na kaunti sa covid iyon na agad. Kahit may ibang sakit na silang nararamdaman. Pero kagabi okay talaga na ihatid namin siya sa hospital, aayaw talaga siya kasi kaya daw niya. Pero nag-alala talaga ako sa tuwing makikita siya nahihirapan huminga, may sipon din kasi siya. But thanks to Almighty God he is finally fine. Sana naman malaking leksyon na ito sa kanya at hindi na siya uulit, kung iinum man siya hanggang tikim lang hindi na talaga iyong lasing na lasing siya.
Hanggan ngayon, kinakabahan pa rin ako sa nangyari, 2 hours lang din ang tulog ko kasi magigising ako sa kaba ko ehh. Ayaw ko na talaga maulit ito, Sana magtanda na siya.
Cant update you as of now, I've got a fever. If I will be fine I will update soon. I need to rest first I can't handle my headache too. See you soon guys.
A Relationship called Friendship.
*We cannot choose who will be your friend, it arrives unexpectedly.*
I never expect to meet this girl again after a long long time ago. We are schoolmates before in high school. I saw her every time because of the house of her tita and cousins near in the School it was just the wall in between. Her Tita sells something in her house, like barbecue, bihon etc. We are not close we are just strangers to each other.
After so many years passed by I meet her again but we are still stranger to each other.
Her two brothers and my husband was a member of an El Mechanical Racing Team. A team of drag racers was known before the pandemic. The time passed by, we still meet with each other at some events like birthdays, weddings, Invitational drag races, town parades.
She is a single Mom with a baby boy.! His son is now 10 years old. She is a beautiful, kind-hearted, trustworthy kind of friend. You can share a secret with her that secret will never. Leak I swear.
There is a time that we've been together in Sinulog here in our place just the 5 of us. The close friend of my husband, it's a close friend, not the best friend.
To make it short, the close friend of my husband died because of a pandemic. We knew that they are in a relationship, they keep it secret for almost 1 year or more only one knew. That time also she is the one chat with me and tells the news, and we never believe that. We immediately went to the house to confirmed.
That day my friend always chatting with me and shared everything about their relationship goes on until that very sad moment happened. We always chatting day and night sharing her saddest moment, painful moment, sharing their sweet and lovely memories.
One day, on the wedding day of his brother we came into their house for dinner because she invited us and of course with a little bit of "inhuman". We never thought that in our group there will be a troublemaker, the trouble never happens on that night it happened days after but we settle it immediately because my friend doesn't like any trouble so she never shares anything.
She is so helpful, she's helping me to be recommended for work but sadly I did not get the job. My husband offered something from a friend and now my husband is doing his new and first job. I know it's not permanent but it's better to have that than nothing.
She kept advising me to become strong because sometimes I share with her my problems about my heartaches in losing my job. She's always telling me to become strong like her because I have a son to take care of.
I admire her for being so strong for everything sometimes she cried and quit but she can handle it. She is dedicated to everything just for the sake of his son and to his family.
Ohh my God.! Thank you so much for the unexpected sponsorship @Zcharina22 I can't explain what is my feelings right now. This is one of the best gifts I've received for my birthday today.
The best gift from above comes from you. God bless you always I promised I am doing everything that I can to post more here.
So much happiness🥰
"I'm not 30—I'm 21 with 9 years of experience."
Today is my 30th birthday. Nothing more it's just an ordinary day.
I can't believe that I am turning 30 today, I feel to myself that I am still 21 years old with 9 years of experience. Hahaha.
In my married life, for almost 9 years I only celebrated my birthday thrice. Most of it is just nothing to prepare. I just only light a candle in the church together with my little family.
I remember the time when I am still single my parents prepare something for me, without cake but a happy family and course "may human".
**In the year 2017, on my 26th birthday** my husband threat me in the newly opened restaurant here in our place it is called " Tugkaran. Just a simple celebration for the 3 of us.
I don't know why, every time that I want to celebrate my birthday we don't have enough money to prepare something that the whole family will eat together. I think my birthday is not a lucky day for us🥺.
But that's fine, I still enjoy that day because it's the first time that we have a family date, just the 3 of us. Because we don't have enough time and budget for the get-together.
But still thankful that my husband has enough budget for us at that time so we simply celebrated my 26th birthday.
A time passed by I celebrated another birthday without the celebration year 2018 just like an ordinary day as well.
**In the year 2019, on my 28th birthday**, my husband surprised me with a birthday cake. He will not buy that cake if I did not "pinariringgan" he is not the kind of thoughtful and giver person he is an effortless kind of person. If I did not tell him to buy me something, he did not do that. But he is so sweet and caring 75%. Hahaha haha.
My husband loves surprises, he always surprises me with the expenses. The day he surprises me we don't prepare anything is just the cake that he gave me. I never expect that there is someone come into the house, so I obliged myself to buy 2 Lechon manok and 1 pansit into the market. My money that only 1k on that time was enough with soft drinks. So I argue with him after the visitor went home. Even my co-workers never know that it's my birthday because I don't have enough budget for that.
**Another year passed by it's my 29th birthday,** I kept it in my wallet worth 1500 just in case there is someone knows about my birthday but Gods grace nothing knows about it only the girlfriend of my co-worker. Before we went home I texted the girlfriend of a co-worker that I will treat them in OverView for dinner because it's my birthday. My co-worker asks me why I kept secret my birthday, and I answered him because I don't want to feed plastic people in the Office. In the Office, most of my Co-worker kept bashing me because of my field of work. Because I am the cashier they think that I spend the money at my own risk.
After we are our dinner in OverView we stop over at somewhere to relax and just have a little bit of quality time with my little family.
And today is my 30th birthday.! I have nothing to wish just good health, more blessings to come with us. And hoping that I can find a stable job.
Today, my husband has good news he has a booking for delivery because I applied him as a toktok rider here in our place. I think that is enough gift for me on my birthday that my husband has a small income for us. I am praying to God that it will be continued and God give him a healthy lifestyle to continue this job. Because I know it's risky that he is always in the street.
My only wish for a 3 decade of existence herein world is to see my Son to get married until I see my Grandsons and daughters. Wishing to God that I can receive more birthdays to come for me and healthy life for my family.
I can't explain my feelings, it's the first time received something from someone.
Thank you so much for your upvotes it's my very first time. Thank you is not enough to @renren16 By the is it allowed to mention names here.?
There is No Forever
There is no permanent in this world and one of these is your job.
Way back in 2016 month of July, that is my first day of work first day as an Office worker, not a part-time job. I know this is not a stable job because I am just a casual Employee at that time. I am a public servant for almost 5 years. My first assignment as a public servant is an assistant to the regular employees in the LGU, I was assigned to the Municipal Treasury Office. When the collector of the Water Bill was absent I am the one doing her Job.
The one who is in my back was the collector of the water Bill, I don't know where she is now after I was assigned to another department. Because in the MTO the department head of the time was angry with me if I will be doing some collections because she did not trust me in collecting money in the Office. I don't know why she doesn't like me that I am doing that task but her staff if she is not around they give me a receipt because they want me to have a task all day.
So that I only set at the table when someone is absent if they are all present I am just setting on the corner waiting for someone to give me a task or to buy something to them for a snack. I am so disappointed that time but I've survived for almost 11 months in that department.
After 11 months I was requested by someone to be transferred to another department, at first I am so angry and I've cried because I said to myself Why me.? I am not the one who requested to be transferred but why me.? So June 16, 2021, I enter the new department with new people, a new environment and a new attitude to adjust for.
That is the department that I've transferred to, it's a college School. After a week of adjustment, I've noticed that this is the better department than before because the department head was trusted me so much not like the old one that will become angry if I hold some collections. At first, I'm the one who processes the Salary of the Teacher in the School and I will process it in the LGU. After a month when the Disbursing Officer was promoted in the Department where I leave, I am the one who replaces him as a Cashier and a disbursing Officer.
The department head of MTO can't accept it and the department of Dolce Office talk about it. I don't know-how and does the MTO head allow me to have a receipt because I am the one who collected the tuition fee of the Student.
After a month the Government announce that our School will be granted one of the free tuition Schools. We refunded almost a million tuition fees that I've received for the 3 examination period. After that, the Main Campus announces that there will be hiring of staff that the rate and the Salary will be in National Office not in the Local Office. They a recommendation from the Mayor an Office. And we are glad that we are promoted and the School will not be affiliated with the LGU anymore.
June 01, 2018
After that, the Main Campus requested the Mayor's Office for a recommendation letter for the hiring of their staff to put in the External Studies Unit. And I am the one who hired in the National Office but as Usual, I am still a contract of Service. I was hired as Supply and Finance Staff. Same work as before but with a higher salary.
But in my 3 years as Supply and Finance Staff, my contract will never renew anymore. The School got a deficit because of the low enrollment in the School and did not Pass the College Entrance Test. And also the Librarian did not renew the contract too but she is lucky. Her husband is a Coordinator of the Governor she got hired again but I was back as a housewife again🥺
I cried for so many days, I have sleepless nights, I can't accept it. I am a breed winner in my family, my husband did not work for almost 3 years because he always takes good care of her mother that a senior citizen and his brother that a dialysis patient. I am so stressed, and also I provide some medicine to my father because he has a lot of maintenance to take after he got a stroke last 2018. It's too hard to lose a job at this moment together with this pandemic. It's too hard to get work because almost all of the company has a lot of changes because of the Crisis.
Even I'm so sad and stressed because of losing this job, I kept praying to God. I know God has a great plan for me, I know God this is the way to give me some challenges to make me stronger than before. I can do this, I know this is a blessing in disguise.
It's hard to say Goodbye but this is the part of the job that will not last forever.
Hurtful Month
Month of August
Last month, the month of August is so painful for me. I know I had a lot of blessings last few days or months but the month of August is not good for me. On the first day of August, I heard the news that I did not renew my contract that I only work for 1 month this month. I can't explain what is feeling, I can't explain to my family on the bow to tell them that I don't have work next month what are we doing? What to eat? How to pay our debts?
In the same week, I keep sending emails to the hiring company but sad to say until now I can't find a job. They always neglecting me. I am so sad and stress, I have a small family but my problem is where I can find a budget to buy food to buy milk for my Son. Sometimes I bought medication maintenance for my father and sometimes I give them money to buy their food because they are too old to work to have the income to buy their food.
Before I am not so active in Noise.cash and I am new here in reading. cash. When I open it again I've noticed that everybody enjoyed it. I know it does not work but a platform that helps you learn, enjoy, develop skills but they pay you for everything. This is so helpful for me, at least I have money coming to my wallet in a small amount but so helpful for small things.
Until now I am still applying for a job I used this for sharing ideas and sharing motivations that in life whatever challenges coming let's have a positive life to face it. I know soon I can find a great job, that will provide for my family and my parents. I know I have some brothers but they are both farmers so they can provide some food for them too but the medication of my parents is mine not every time but sometimes.
I've survived the month of August, I survived without spending too much money but earned a lot of lessons to face the new problem for this month I am slightly ready for something new challenges.
The month of August has a major problem that we need to face. On August 24 it's the birthday of my father we are so happy to celebrate his 63rd birthday. In the afternoon one of the employees of NGCP came to my parent's house just to take pictures in our house, in the rooms everything in the house. The mother told my brother to open the door of the underground because it was included for taking pictures in the NGCP but my mother did not tell my brother that doesn't come in but he still comes in and the accident came. The ladder was not so fixed, the floor of the underground was wet with a lot of dust that dust made into slippery mud. My brother was fall to the ground and he has head trauma. We immediately go to the hospital to do his CT Scan but my parents don't have money and also my brother because he is just a farmer.
I immediately talk to my husband that we need to appraise my necklace just to help my brother and for his medication after the CT Scan. A day after my brother recovered and the problem slightly solve. My problem now is how to get my necklace again.
The job that I've applied for last week everything is declined it's not my luck but I think this is the way I will say better luck next time.
Until now I'm still hurt from my previous job because I am the one who will get renewed the contract. But I think it's my time to left the job, I think God is having a better plan for me.
A place that not last longer
The year 2016 July 1st
This is the start of my Job in the Local Government Unit in our place.
I was hired at that time because the Mayor sitting in that position at that time was our ally. I am expected that I was assigned in the market as the Secretay told when I submit the Resume. But the time when I started my job I was assigned to the Municipal Treasury Office. My first task is to enter in the journal the receipt payment with the land taxpayers. After that, I put some paid stamps of the released cheque and vouchers of the Regular Employees, sometimes I collected the payment of the Clearances and collected the payment of the Water Bill.
At that time the Department Head of the MTO has no trust in me in doing some collection, but her staff trust me because they keep giving that task when the MTO Head is not around. There are times that the MTO Head arrived and we did not notice it, she's scolding her staff and told them why they allow me to collect the payment. It hurts when there is someone in your co-workers who doesn't trust me, she doesn't trust me because I am just a Contract of Service. Yes, I am a contract of Service at that time but there is one Contract of Service same as me that she trusts the most she allow it to collect everything and me setting the corner waiting for someone to call me to help them.
The year 2017, June 15th
I received a Memo from the Mayor's Office, that I am going to transfer to another department. They needed another staff because their Disbursing Officer was Hired in the DepEd. I cried when I transfer to another department because I need to adjust to the new environment. But I was wrong the Department head of the Office where I transferred was trust me so much. Before I was disbursing Officer and a month ago I became a Cashier she entrusted me to collect the payment of the Tuition fee of the Students.
At first, the Department Head of the MTO doesn't approve it but my new Department Head insisted so they give me the Official receipt to collect the payment of the Tuition fee. During the examination period, I was so busy collecting the payment in the whole day I can receive hundreds of thousands. I was so afraid because it is my first time collecting that big amount but eventually I got used to it.
There is a time that the Liquidating Officer congratulate me because I've reached my quota of the year. I've reached more than a million by collecting the Tuition fee of the Student and that collection is for the salary of the Staff and Salary for the Teachers in that School.
The year 2018, June 1st
We received the Memorandum from the Main Office of the School that affiliated with the LGU that the School was approved by the government for the free tuition. The main Office School requested the Mayor's Office to recommend staff to operate the School in a free tuition process. In that same year, we refunded the Students the tuition they paid for 1 semester because they paid that semester that the free tuition was approved earlier but the notice by External was a delay.
In the same month, the recommendation letter by the mayor was approved by the Main Campus and I am the one who will transfer to the School that is no more connected in the LGU. We process the papers, and I was appointed as a Supply and Finance Staff.
After a year the election came again the Mayor we supported did not win, we are sad but we are still happy because our job is not affected because the LGU was not the one who paid our salary so they did not kick as out. Hahaha.
For how many months we stayed in the Dolca office we decided to relocate in the one of the National High where we can 2 rooms because we are not affiliated with the LGU so we are not allowed to Stay in their building too. The relocation was finished immediately but arranging the the papers and the cabinet will last a little bit Longer.
We can say new place, new home, new Environment. Hhhhmmmp, I am really sure that this place is my new Environment to adjust or this is the place where I will disappoint a lot more.
That will be the topic of my next Article. Let see😊
In 30 years
I am turning 30 years old next month, but I don't know how to get a better understanding of the world.
To make the story a little bit shorter way back in 2012 when I was a fresh graduate in college. I am not certain what will happen in my teenage life after I completed college and I only focussed on being a part of the problem. I didn't serious about my life and on the other hand, I did not serious about my Job application. I am thinking that what purpose in searching for a job.? I have nothing to worry about food, shelter and even buying a load because my sister gives it to me when I cooked for herself and washed her Uniforms.
After a months ago, every Barangay hires an Enumerator for the RSBA (Registry System in Basic Sector in Agriculture) my father is a Barangay Captain at the time. My father recommended me as one of the Enumerator, of course, I am one of the priorities because I am the daughter of the Barangay Captain. That was my first job after I finished college.
And another month ago, I found a boyfriend at first it is very completed because he is the ex-boyfriend of my best friend we are not officially in a relationship at the time I am just a bridge of their relationship but my best friend keep posting in the Facebook year 2013 that I stole her boyfriend but that is not true. I am bashed even I am going to the market the friends of my best friend shouted out and says bad words and there is a lot of text messages of unknown numbers. I experience that for days, weeks to months. After a month we don't have a good relationship with my best friend anymore. At that, she stays in the house of my Auntie too where my Sister and I stay too.
She went home or she stays in the house of her Auntie because she is still studying at the time. But at that moment we have a little bit of Gap with each other. She continues bashing me and using a lot of different numbers and also she is doing that to her ex-boyfriend. One time her ex-boyfriend texted me, we share our hurt feelings after a month we fall in love with each other. But at first, we keep it secret from everybody.
I know the secret will not keep longer so everybody knows it. Everybody saw us dating, he visited my Auntie house, he brings me food, we dated and we enjoy it. So as we expected his ex-girlfriend kept texting and bashing us. A few months later I got pregnant with a very handsome and playful baby boy. As usual, we keep it secret for a month only because my parents did not believe that I am sick because it is not normal that me to vomit and I choose some food.
A time passed by we got married, even my father can't accept it immediately. My son was born in August and he is now 8 years old.
Being married was so challenging, we live in my Inlaws house for almost 3 years. We got a lot of misunderstandings and at that time my husband is not on my side every time because he is a truck and in a fish carrier. He only went once a month or when every full moon because there is no delivery of the fish that time. After 3 years of living in my mother In-laws house, I went home with my parents. My family was shocked because I am so thin carrying my Son, a month ago I am a little bit chubby and my husband also lives in my parent's house.
After 3 years of living with my parents, we got a misunderstanding with my sister. But at that time I am working in the Local Government Unit in our place because the mayor we supported win on that election. But of course, I am on the priority list because I am a daughter of a Barangay Captain. By the way, my father was a Barangay Captain for 15 years the first 3 years is he was appointed.
Way back in 2017 after our misunderstanding with my sister. I build a house, I apply for a loan worth 30k and I paid for it for almost 18 months. My husband also stops in his previous work as a fish car Truckman because his parents give him a motorcycle to use for transportation of the citizens in his barangay.
Being married life is have a lot of challenges, there is a time we don't have food to eat, our Son got sick, delay of salary, no income of being a tricycle driver. But I know the challenges of being married is the best experience that I never forget because this is the way that I made myself tough in everything trials that came to us.
Hi! I am a newbie here, I hope I am welcome here to explore the the new things and learn a lot about this platform. I think that this is a great way to start a new life in a few years back and forth between all the changes that happened to myself and in my life. It is about to begin the process of being able to get the best out of the box. I mean everything from my experience in the field and in some ways.
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