It's funny how thoughts just spawn inside your head and you have no idea where it all came from or when your brain decided that these thoughts were to be your priority. They appear like uninvited guests ready to ruin the party and no matter how patiently you try to wait for them to leave they just don't. They declare war against your emotions and before you know it you are plummeting down earth with no gravity straight to a blackhole you yourself have created. I want a way out. I need a way out. Believe me when I say I don't want this. Words of wisdom from left to right just doesn't help because somehow while this was going on I decided to build a cell block around me where no amount of words could save me. I don't want this and I am sorry for trying to keep defending my bullshit and still constantly try to keep crying out for help. I am lost in all these thoughts. But I'm still fighting because if I stop then I know I will explode..