Who is it?

Mankind is such a matter that so hard to comprehend and understand, acknowledging it might be chaotic, disheveled, messy, and difficult, sometimes its so confusing to be one. Recognizing oneself is a slice of it, one persona is much more delicate to understand. Lucky to those people who early understand themselves early as they can.

Having thought of this one, being a human is a conflict itself, If you will ask me why I said all of this, then my answer would be nothing haha, I just said for a good intro but it’s not really on my focus of this article haha, I’m no psychological person come on guys haha, I’m just here to write random writings again haha, the intro is so serious woah, okay I’m not the person I am a while ago haha that’s my other half serious self haha kidding,

So, let’s go dive into my randomness again,

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So again, TAKE 2 HAHA, let go with my purpose here,

So I was just wondering a while ago, yeah as in wondering and just looking at the nothingness haha as in staring to I don’t know where at, because early this morning I’m doing one of the assigned activity that will be due for tomorrow so but I found myself staring at nothing hahaha, I don’t know how will I do that activity for me sake hahaha, so I decided to just rest and go scroll to my phone and I found in my Instagram account, a story of one of my friends there, so I read it and she was answering a question of :

“IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND CHOOSE ONE PERSON TO CORRECT YOUR LOVE AND TREATMENT FOR HIM/HER THAN YOU DID IN THIS PRESENT TIME, WHO WOULD IT BE?”

I was intrigued by this one, I read her answer and surely, it’s all about her exes hahaha I know her haha, but as for me I would love to answer that question, but instead of answering it there, I just decided to write it here in my article,

As for me, if I had a chance to go back in time and treat one person better, then my answer would be myself, I want to take good care of myself better than I had right now, I want to correct my self-treatment I had with myself in the past, and I would probably choose to love myself differently this time.

Going back to my past, I see a naïve child that is so harsh to herself, she has very so shy and having no trust and confident to herself. I feel pity for that little naïve girl who always choose others than to herself, she down casted her own happiness, she doesn’t even know her worth, she just knows that it’s important to prioritize others and make others happy not realizing that she never really knows herself anymore, she became a stranger on her own self.

That girl that I'm pertaining to is no other than me, yes I knew that it may hard to believed it but I am that little naïve girl back then, and I really regret it not giving myself what I deserve back then, not giving too much attention and love is one of the most regretful thing I’ve done to myself, but now that I’m growing up I realized that self must always comes first, yes, it will be sounded like selfish one but it’s the truth, being yourself, loving yourself the way you deserve is not a selfish act,

So if you will ask me who will be the person I should love more dearly and treat better in the past is no other than myself, I wish I learned it much more earlier, I try to help myself, wipe my own tears and heal my own wounds and bruise, I gave myself what she deserve, piece by piece, little by little I tried to make up to the past things I wish I did to my old self, I tried to put back again the broken pieces of my shattered self and give it a second chance agaiof course

So, as I was just saying prioritized your self no matter what happens, when people leaves you, even your friends and family, then you, yourself is the only one you will have it, ofcourse there still God because he will never let you go alone, yet you still need to value yourself like how you value others maybe even more than that. But of course not in a narcissistic way haha.

Lead Image source:

https://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/secrets-of-self-esteem-how-to-work-on-loving-yourself-0410185/amp/

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https://aleteia.org/cp1/2020/05/04/are-all-bad-thoughts-sinful/

https://www.countryliving.com/life/g29661464/self-love-quotes/

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/640144534515326592/

https://www.dreamstime.com/alone-little-girl-backpack-sitting-bench-park-summer-alone-little-girl-backpack-sitting-image125907965

So that’s it for now, have a great Monday everyone, hope you all enjoy your day, ahkk I hate weekdays, even today is just the start of this weekdays ahead, I found myself looking forward again for another weekend haha, so again enjoy and stay hydrated everyone.