Theres a lot of feelings inside of me that i cant explain.. nor tell to other because im afraid that they cant understand me or just simply think ive been just over reacting. So thats my reason to keep it me. And just writing it as an article.
Everytime im starting writing, my mind feels relaxed, and calm. Read.cash is also my stress reliever .. this is very helpful for those people who can express their feelings verbally.
But still i will never ever forget my God who always strengthen me whenever i feel down, i feel unworthless. He always gives signs to encourage me to still fight and dont ever give up.
Growing up was never meant to be easy, i've always blame up myself for all the wrong decisions ive made. I still look up for improvements , i still find things whats best on me specially these hard days and while searching we cant control our minds from thinking everything and that eagerness for "do something" than "to do nothing" is not helpfull for me, because i know i need to "pause" and breath and do my things smooth no pressure, take you time. Being impulsive always results lots of errors, i had made one and i will not let happen again.
I cant count how many times i blame myself for that "mistake" and still haunting me everytime i'll try to make a disicion. Thats not very easy for a grown up like me because i know that it always depends on my future, yes ive made one and its just a small matter but it left me a big impact in myself what more for the big mistake.
Good thing i know how to control myself and making decisions are always i have to be careful of. 😉
Ps. I was really not good at writing in english but i want to thank you all those peoples who notice my works here in read.cash , i really appreciate it 😍
Just sharing ~💖
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