Chapter one: *****Memory of an old man*****. Replay from scratch. *****Submit***** : **This very day I decided who I would be, instead of walking into a cycle of doubt and denial, this is the form of cowards, and I am not one of them.** **Today, I remember and I remember and I saw everything that I did in the past years, and honestly everything that I did was not good.** **I remembered good people I knew and eventually won their enmity.** **I lost my writing skills because of my long hiatus and many problems trying to figure out who I really am and what I am.I looked in the mirror and said Stop, stop for the last time, friend, before you destroyed us together in this frail body.** **Since today I have decided to keep silent, yes, falarq was right, a lot can be said through silence.In general, I cannot win someone's enmity if I remain silent, for this mouth is the source of my problems**. ***God, how much I tried to change, but to no avail, the bad side of me reappears. Time after time.***

I promise myself from today that I will watch things on the other hand not as the general public sees them, I will analyze things in my own way, but silent, I will express my thoughts, but silent. And that's why you shut up and people talk. ****I'm tired now. it's been a long day.**** ***good night***.