I just want to ask, How are you?
Happy Thursday dreamers!
I am so busy since early in the morning because today is my nephew's dance performance.Actually, we go there at exactly 8AM and we go back home almost 6PM. Attendance is a must so we need to went there early but we didn't expect that their performance will be at afternoon schedule. At first, they said that it was 2PM but it actually happens at around 4PM. Very Filipino time haha. So because of that, I can't think a nice topic go write today so I get one question from the random generator. The savior when we don't know what to write lol haha.
Here's what I've got. So my answer for this question is very firm. If ever I given a chance to asked all of the people that I've met, probably I would asked them " ***How are you?***" I know that it is just a simple question but I know that it can be deep to someone's who can heard that question. It is so easy to asked but not everyone has the courage to asked this question to their love ones. At some point, maybe some got shy asking this especially if they are not totally close. But you know what, this question might be a comfort to someone especially for those who pretends to be strong even they are aware that they are not okay.
When was the last time that someone asked you " How are you?" In my part, I can't remember when was the last time I heard that question. I know that we are too busy in personal life to the point that we don't have time to each other. But I remember before that I cried when someone asked me this question. That time, I admit that I waiting for someone to asked me that because I feel like I really someone who will listen to me. You know what, sometimes I am more comfortable to share my problems to a stranger rather than to my close friends. I don't know why because I feel like that I can express myself when that someone doesn't know me at all.
Observe your surroundings, look at the people. What did you sense from them, are they really okay? Asking them how they are doesn't cause you a harm. Especially inside the house, you should always asked that "How are you?" to your partner and most especially to your kids. By that question, I am sure that it can be a way for them to open up their problems or shares the updates in their life. Giving them a little bit of your attention and time to listen is actually a big thing for them. Moreover, you should asked yourself " ***How am I?"*** because I know that you also fight a lot of struggles in life and sometimes you forget to check yourself. Don't neglect yourself just to provide some for others. Always have time to assess or to check how's your life going.
Tonight, I just want to asked everyone's here " ***How are you?***". I hope that you are really okay though. That life becomes little kinder to you. That struggles is not too heavy to carry. I want this question to be convert to a warmest hugs for you. Life is simple but being alive is complicated but nevertheless we should choose to fight rather than to surrender. And for those that are really not okay right now, I just want to remind you that your situation today is just a piece of your life's history so don't stay with that phase, learn to move forward even a little. Hang on there until you became okay. Big hugs to everyone!!
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*I just wanna say Thank you to everyone who motivates and give their concerns to me. I really appreciate my Ates and Kuyas here who always remind me that I should be responsible with my health. Thank you also for always dropping by at my article. Have a great sleep ahead dreamers!!*
Good evening!! Kakauwi lang namin from school events of my pamangkin. Grabe, inabot na sila ng Gabi dahil 2:30 na nag-start taoks ang dami pang messages. Ending nagutom talaga yung mga bata and one of his classmate is umiyak dahil wala na sa mood. Anyways, here's my two nephews photo. Medyo inip na sila nung mga panahong to.
Anong ulam nyo for dinner? Siguro bibili na lang kami since tinatamad na din kaming magluto and may class pa ako later.
And here I am, waiting for my nephew's dance performance. Actually medyo matagal tagal pang hintayan to dahil 2PM pa daw performance nila but they need to go here early kase they need to attend sa mass and also attendance is a must. Ako talaga yung naiinip kase kala kaming masyadong kilala dito and bawal din masyadong maingay kaya behave lang kami ahaha. Sobrang init na ngayon dito and I'm hoping na matapos agad to.
A chaotic and a problematic 2 days for me
*Good evening dreamers!! How are you today? I really hope so that you are doing okay and healthy. Don't forget to take enough rest laster okay!*
Since last night, my head is so painful just like it would be explode at any time. I don't know how it started so I just sleep early last night hoping that it would be gone. But nahh, the pain is still here. I take some medicine to cure this one. No one should be blame but myself. I am aware that lately, I am lack of sleep so maybe it is also one of the reason why I'm like this. I also checked on the calendar and I'm already delayed for 3 weeks. Good thing that I don't have a boyfriend or else, you know what others might think hahaha.
Aside from lack of sleep, I know that overthinking is also the culprit of it. I look at the mirror and gosh, I'm so pale and to be honest I feel like when someone push me even a little, for sure I will instantly collapse. My face our also so dull and the stress can figure out on my big and dark eye bags. ***What's probably in my head?*** Actually, I avoid to think a lot but my head can't cooperate with me. It stressed out and worried to everything. Even I sleep for 8 hours last night, I feel like my energy did not regain at all. I'm still sleepy and lazy to move.
Yesterday, we went to the University to passed the draft of our paper. And I'm so exhausted searching for my ID. I also notice that I'm become forgetful recently. So I searched for almost 2 hours and finally I found it inside my books. I immediately took a shower and go ahead to my destination. When I am in front of our University, the atmosphere is so different unlike before. I feel like it turns to be a haunted place because it is so quiet haha. There's only a guards and some of the professors and you can't hear noise from them. So me and my friends immediately went to the faculty room to pass our paper. Our thesis professor seems so mad early in the morning and her madness also bumped to us. She said that we are already late even though we came on time. She also let us to wait for 2 hours before receiving our paper. So we just stand there for the whole time while waiting for her to accept our paper. What's her problem right? She also said that we should came back after some days to get the paper and edit it again.
It is raining that time and we can't stay inside the campus. And we are also irritated because it is not allowed to use the comfort room there. There's a guard who is following us from the start. So no choice, but to go back home. I didn't bring an umbrella because the weather is fine when I leave our house. I wait for the tricycle when someone hold me and share me to her umbrella. I don't know her so I was looking at her. She is somehow looks 28-30 years old and she just smile at me the whole time. She said that I should always bring umbrella because the weather changes in an instant. And not only that, she also pay for my fare. She is so really nice and I hope to see her again.
I also went to the market to buy some stuffs for the house. Actually, I don't like to go in the wet market but I don't have a choice. There are so many people and it is so crowded that time. I hurriedly buy all of the things that I need to buy then I ride on another tricycle. When I got home, I sleep because I feel like my feelings are so heavy. I didn't even fix those stuffs that I buy. So when I woke up, I get my wallet then I found out that I lost Php 1,000. I checked my bag hoping that I drop it there but nothing's there. I compute all of my expense and yeah, my blue bill was gone. I don't where I lost it or did someone stole it again. Or maybe I lost it when I get money from my wallet when I pay in the market. But if I'm not mistaken, it is still there when I get Php 11 for my fare int he tricycle. I just withdraw it the other day because I need to pay something in our paper then in one glimpse, it's gone. I know that I'm become careless for that moment.
It's the happenings at my side on that particular days. I've encountered a lot of chaos and problems but I know that I am the one who should blame for it. Earlier there's also a fire here near on our area. The electric wire suddenly burn out but good thing there's an immediate response. I'm hoping that my headache will say ba-bye tomorrow because I need to attend on my nephew's dance performance. It is his first performance in school so we are very excited to witnessed him.
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*I guess that's all for tonight's blog. I will take a rest early again. You also should get enough sleep okay. Have a wonderful night everyone.*
Are you ready for upcoming Christmas Holiday?
*Happy Monday dreamers!*
The breeze is already cold. Sleigh bells ring. We better watch out because in 34 days, we will celebrate the most awaited day of the year which is the Christmas. I know that the kids are so excited for this specific holiday season. But are you ready as well for the upcoming Christmas holiday?
Me, myself and my wallet is not ready yet. But actually, I have a lot of plans on that day. I want this day to be special for all of us. To be honest since September, I tried to save some because I know that I need money on that occasion. Lucky for those who still not have godchildren but I think I am much lucky to have a lot of them. I don't know why their parents choose me to become their kid's Ninang ( godparent) haha. But of course, they say that it is a blessing so I should not refuse when someone choose me to be one. And if you are wondering how many my godchildren as of the moment, well it is just a little bit joke haha. I have now 27 godchildren ,so many right. I don't know why I'm so lapitin to be a Ninang. Should I say that it is a perks of being a friendly person? Haha. I want to be fair to each of everyone so I'm thinking what should I give. Should I give them cash or a gift? Before, I am usually fond of giving my godchildren a gift because I want them to remember me when they are using it. But now, I am hesitant to give a gift to them since I don't know their sizes. What if I give them a small size right? So maybe, I will be go for the cash this year haha.
Tomorrow since I'm going to University, I'm also planning to went on the mart to buy Ang Pao. I believe that it's better for me to start preparing now especially I am still have money on hand. Aside from this, I also have some plan for my family. I have 2 nephews here in the house and I want to give them a gift. They already requested what kind of gift should I give to them and as an obedient Tita, I want to give it to them. They requested a military and fire truck vehicles. I tried to search on Shopee and I found one that caught my attention. I know that they more enjoy when you give them a set of toys rather than only a piece. So I think that it is a good choice for me but I am still not buying it. I will wait for the 12. 12 big sale so I can have a big discount haha.
Next week, we will having a draw game for our Monito/Monita or exchange gift. The amount is Php 1,000 and I'm excited who will be my Monita. Last year, I received a necklace, dress and a bundle of handkerchief from my Uncle. I don't know why he gives me a lot of handkerchief haha. Maybe, he is aware that I always giving my handkerchief to some strangers especially when I saw a crying one. I also know that I will become busy next month since it is our final examination, thesis defense and we will help our Auntie and Uncle to their upcoming year-end party for their employees and customers. I know that Christmas Holiday requires me to spend some money. But it only happens once in a year, so I guess I'm okay with the expenses as long as I know that they will be happy on it. But now, I need to save, save and save. Since Ber-months start, I cut off those unnecessary expense so that I can save a little. I am also excited because this year, I feel that it become more happy since it seems that we totally back to the normal. I am also waiting for some people who will do caroling here in our place.
How about you? What you plan for the upcoming Christmas Holiday? But aside from party and celebration, we should not forget the true reason why we celebrate Christmas. Christmas is a combination of two words which is Christ and Mass do we should not forget to be grateful to Him. Let also remember all of His sacrifices to us. I hope for a Merry Holiday to everyone. Advance greetings to all.
Happy Monday everyone!! How's the weather in your place? Medyo maulan pa din dito.
So I was busy since earlier because my nephew have dance practice and all of the peeps here have work as well. I need to do household chores para may magbantay din dito sa isa kong nephew. Actually ,naglaro kaming hide and seek kanina sa 3rd floor tapos maloka na ako kakahanap sa kanya, yun pala nasa kitchen na siya and look what he's doing. Tangay tangay na niya yung Toblerone hahaha. Nagutom daw kase siya kase ang tagal ko daw magbilang ng 1-20 haha.
A janitor should receive the same respect just like any other Jobs
*Good evening dreamers!! The weekend is almost again and another hectic and busy days for us. How are you? Did your mental and physical is still fine right now? I really hope so. Don't abuse yourself okay, you must give yourself a break from everything. Take a deep breathe and rest. You did a good job today even there's uncertain events happen. Still, you should be proud of yourself for overcoming all of the struggles you've encountered.*
**Job**. How can we define the word job? ***Should we define it through describing our own job or by showing our titles in particular job? I*** know that job have different meanings base on the person who will gonna describe it. Some can say that job is the source of their income. Some can say that job is something to do with their passion. While others can say that their job lift up their confidence. An endless words and phrases that you can connect to that one word. Nevertheless, I believe that job is a job whatever kind of work it is.
What I don't like about the job is not the job itself but sometimes the people who use their job to discriminate others. I know somehow that we should be proud having a good paying and a well-known job but we should not use it against others. What I'm talking about is some people who have successful job or profession mocking those people who have an ordinary job. They see themselves as a powerful one since they have those high ranking jobs. They really thought that they have the right to belittled others because of their job which is I hated the most.
I've already encountered a lot of successful people who mocking those ordinary workers. It really happens in real life and you know what's worst? Some of them even proud of having that job while showing disgusting attitude. I remember before while I am in queue in a fast food chain. There is someone who suddenly shouting and he really pissed off on the janitor in front of him. He uttered bad and hurtful words towards him. I don't know where his madness came from. The janitor only excuse himself because he already cries. I heard form the other customer that the janitor mops the floor when suddenly the customer came and got irritated with him. The customer didn't stop but rather he continue shouting and even searching for the manager. He even say " ***Don't you know me? I am one of the successful businessman here in this place"***. All of the people got irritated because of his attitude. ***Successful***? I don't even know him haha. Then, he just throw the food he ordered in the floor and calling the same janitor to clean his mess. Of course, the janitor immediately came towards him to clean those mess. He can't do anything because it is his job.
Another scenario that I didn't forget is when someone asking direction to the street sweeper. Base on her uniform, she seems working in the office. But when the street sweeper tap her shoulder to pinpoint the correct direction, the girl suddenly got irritated and said " ***Don't touch me. Your hands is so dirty, my uniform will become dirty as well***". Then she immediately walk away without saying proper thank you to the street sweeper. Me and my friends just sigh when we witnessed her attitude.
That two scenarios makes me realize that success is not only about having a successful job but most importantly, it is about the good attitude you show to others. Anyone can be successful in their chosen field but not everyone can be successful in terms of having good attitude and manners. I believe that whatever the person job, whether she is a janitor, a service crew, maid or even she is a businessman, successful doctor or even one of the most well known CEO, we should give the same respect to them. If we can respect those successful people, why not also respect those ordinary workers. All job is the same. Maybe the salary is far different from each other but the importance of it is the same. Imagine how can your business become successful if you don't have a crew who will gonna serve the food to customer. How can you attract your target customers if you don't have janitors to maintain the cleanliness of your company/ business. How can you buy food in the groceries if we don't have factory workers who manufacturing the goods. Look, every job is important to us so we must appreciate all of the job. As long as you know that you earn from rightful job, you should be proud of your job. Don't let anyone mock you because of that job. And for those who are successful on their job, ***always remind yourself to be humble and show a bit of kindness and respect to everybody***. You don't have a right mocking someone because you earn too much than them. We are all the same who's struggling in life in order to put foods on our table. All types of job deserves to be recognize. Hats off to all of the workers who continue doing their job not only for their family but also for the whole community.
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***Thank you everyone as always. Have a great Sunday sleep ahead!***
Thanks to her, she saves our Day and Money
*Happy Saturday dreamers! How are you today? Is it also raining in your area? Maybe others spend their day lying on the bed since it is also a good time to sleep and have movie marathon. Perhaps, some still need to go outside for their work. Nevertheless, I hope that you still enjoy this day somehow*.
I woke up around 4AM and I read a message that suddenly change my mood. That message is coming from our professor and she said that we need to passed a hard copy of our thesis paper since it is hard for her to checked it in soft copy. She even said " ***Sumasakit ulo ko sa mga gawa nyo. Ang sakit sa mata. By Monday morning, I need your hard copy by hook or by crook***". Before, she said that we shall send our paper online so that it is less expense for us but I think she change her mind again. I understand her point but honestly, I'm bit disappointed with her. Imagine, she only attend the class twice on the whole semester. And the moment she enter the meet, she will immediately say that we should passed the whole paper now because it will be our Midterm exam. She didn't even guide us about the paper. She just want to finish it in just a snap. Last semester, I also remember that we waited for her the whole day in her office because she said that we need to pass the Chapter 1-Chapter 3. But guess what, she forgot about to tell us that she is in vacation leave that time. We got irritated since our time was wasted waiting for her and also our expense for transportation which is so expensive. But we can't do anything since she is our professor and we need to follow her orders.
It change my mood because I know that it is another expense for us. And we are all aware that she didn't even read the whole paper and sometimes she only marked a big "X" using red pen without reading it. So I immediately talked my groupmates about it and all our reactions are the same. On just checking the paper, we need to spend Php 500 for the print. I know that it just a small amount for others but for us it is already big since there is another expense after this. After checking, we need to prepare 4 copies for the pannelist, we need to pay for them, we need to hire a grammarian and cost for the book binding after the defense. Plus there is additional expenses we need to endure. We already estimated the possible cost, and we need to spend for about Php 7,000 for this thesis paper. But for now, we need to print one copy of our paper and it is 100+ pages.
I supposed to go on printing shop but suddenly the heavy rains pour. So I cancelled my plan to print our paper since I know that it will become wet once I print it away. Then someone chatted me saying that she will the one who will print our thesis paper and we just need to pay 1 peso per page. She's a blessing in disguise. Of course, I immediately agree since it would be a discount for us. Imagine it suppose 5 pesos per page but in an instant it became 1 peso. So she print it right away and we will gonna meet up Monday morning on the University. She also offers that she would be the one who gonna print for the 4 copies for the pannelist. I computed the cost and from Php 7,000 before, now we only need to pay Php 4,800. There's a big differences right? I thanked her because she really saves our day and our money as well haha.
So I am happy since I can also save some for upcoming Christmas holiday. Actually, I have a lot of plans on that day. I also wondering if I will gonna buy gifts or I just give money to my grandchildren. Speaking of godchildren, I remember that I'm also blessed to have a lot of that haha. I want that day to be special for them so I want to prepare little thing for them. I'm still undecided on what particular thing is that. But I'm really happy because we got a discount today haha. I'm hoping that we can also get a passing grade on our final defense this coming December. After that day, I know that Holiday would be completely happy for us.
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*Thank you everyone for all the support that you gave to me. Thank you for always dropping by and leave some comment. I appreciate it a lot. Have a great Saturday night sleep to everyone!*
I was about to go somewhere tapos boom biglang bumuhos malakas na ulan. Wala pa naman akong payong since pinahiram ko kay ate. So I guess cancelled na lang ulit and better luck later. Ayoko din naman makipagsapalaran since thesis namin ipapa print ko. Baka mabasa lang siya ng wala sa oras.
Anyways, kamusta weather dyan sa inyo? Maulan din po ba?
"Wherever life plants you, bloom with grace". So instead of drowning ourselves to overthinking, let remind ourselves that problems would come and go, as long as we have faith in Him, everything will be under control.
Happy Saturday morning everyone! How's your sleep? I really hope so you had a great rest last night. It is only 6:22 AM but it is already hot over here. By the way, it is the flower that I capture when I visit my Aunt's garden. It is beautiful, isn't it?
My plan for today is to finish all of my activities and to prepare for my upcoming reports. But I also plan to finished it until 2PM so I have a time to rest. Have a great and productive Saturday ahead!
An Epic Fail Birthday Surprise to Mommy
*Happy Friday dreamers! Another weekend yipiee! How's everyone here and how's the weather in your area? I heard that it rains a lot to some areas. I hope that everyone is still doing fine and still able to be productive somehow.*
The whole house is so busy somehow because today is our Mommy Divine's 48th birthday. She is my auntie but we call her Mommy since she is the one who take care to us here in Manila. Without bias, she is the sweetest among all of our aunts. She is also vocal and everytime we achieve something in school, she is the one who always say that she is proud of us and she loves to kiss and hugs us even we are already an adults. And what I love about her is, she loves to treat us everytime she get her salaries.
Actually we don't prepared a lot of foods or invites visitors. As much as we want to but she really don't like to have a celebration or to be crowded to a lot of folks. But of course we want to make this day special somehow. So we plan to have a small birthday surprise for her. We disseminate different task to everyone. I'm the one who is assigned to buy a cake and do a diy cake. Some of my cousins is the one who prepares for the decorations and other stuffs. We talked about it last week and poor me because yesterday, I didn't realize that it is already November 17. Ohh shocks so, I make the diy cake but holla, my candies is not enough so I asked someone to buy it for me. And guess what? I'm asking the birthday celebrant to buy some candies for me. She hesitate at first because she knows that I'm not a fan of sweets but I said that it is for our nephews since he throws tantrums last night. I think she somehow convince on my alibi hahha.
Then our other Aunt who prepares for the food went to market but unfortunately, the celebrant wants to accompany her. So ending, she discovered that our Aunt will buy chicken and ingredients for pancit. I know from that point, she already know that we have a little surprise for her. Little did we know, our nephews already spoiled everything to our Aunt. They already said to her that they are practicing the Happy Birthday song for her. Then one of them even said " ***Aunt, we have a surprise to you but it's a secret shhh"***. So it's already failed at the beginning hahah.
But the exciting part turns into embarassing scenario earlier. We really thought that her out from work is 8AM but her boss allow her to out at 6AM. So when she comes home, we are still sleeping and she already saw the set up downstairs haha. Then she immediately go to our room to sing Happy Birthday song. We were surprise then we all just laughed because of that happenings haha. The she told us everything, that she already know everything haha. I guess even it is an epic fail, we still make her feel special today hihi.
I only have one wish for her, it is to achieve a peace of mind. Since her work is so stressful and demanding so lately, it is hard for her to have some time for herself. She works for about 16 hours a day and sometimes their company didn't pay their overtime. It is just they do some charity work for the company. She really wants to quit on that job but she can't since she still have 2 kids who are still students and she thinks that it would be difficult for her to find another job since she is already 40s. That's why I'm praying that despite on that kind of work environment, she can still able to attain peace of mind.
***Happiest Birthday Mommy D.***!!
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*Just wanna say Thank you dreamers for your endless support to me. Thank you for always dropping by, leaving comments and upvotes. It is a big thing for me. Have a great night and enjoy your weekend!*
Unfriend anyone who does not add Joy to your Life
*Happy Thursday dreamers! How's are you today? I really hope so that despite of the struggles we've encountered today, you still end your day with a fulfilling outcome. You did a great job today and I know that there's someone who silently rooting for you. So laban lang.*
What would be your reaction when you discovered that someone is unfriended you on social media? Or what if he/she unfriended you in real life? Will you feel offended or will you regret to befriend with that person?
I actually don't know about it but I saw it earlier on Facebook that today is "***National Unfriend Day***". It is a sign to unfriend those people who didn't appreciate you as a person and also added your burden in life. I'll be honest here, before I don't understand why do people choose to unfriend someone especially those who are so close to them before. ***Like is it really necessary to cut the ties between the both of you? Is the closeness is not enough to keep your relationship?*** That is what my idea before about unfriending someone. But it totally change especially when I reach the adulting stage. Now, I can say that I fully understand why there are some people who unfriending someone not only in social media but even in their life.
I believe that unfriending is not a childish act but rather it is an act for protecting yourself from a toxic one. Of course, we don't want to keep people who always insult or give us negativities. I admit that I also unfriended some people and worst, some of them are my relatives. I'm not proud of it knowing that I need to do that on my own bloodline. But it comes on my life that I decided to cut off my connection to them because they are really toxic to the point that I blame myself even I did not do something to harm them. They always pinpoint my flaws and all of the insecurities I had. There's also a point that they create a story that cause depression not only for me but also to my parents. I also remember that they said that I will not be successful in life even I worked so hard. That is the time that I decided to ignore their existence in my life. If they can't acknowledge me for who am I, better to step away myself from them. But I actually don't mad on them but I just only disappointed that the family that supposed to lift me up would be the one who drag me down. I unfriended them on social media and for me it is equivalent to a peace of mind.
Peace. It is probably one of the reason why someone unfriended a person. If she really think that the person is not good for her especially in her mental health, she choose to unfriend it rather than dealing with that toxic one. We can't please everyone so it is good for us to be aware what kind of people we want to be part of our life. Some did it because they want to set a boundaries or limitations for themselves. I remember last Sunday a priest shared on his homily that " ***We should not be too attached to a person. We should not depend ourselves to someone because sometimes those people who you treat as a friend will be the reason of your downfall. The real enemy is not a stranger***". If we are too attached to someone, we tend to blame ourselves if something happens in your relationship. It has a tendency that we were questioning our own worth why that person cut ties to us.
On the other, I also be unfriended with some. She is my friend in High School and I was actually surprise when I saw that we are not friends anymore on social media. I didn't get offended in what she did because if it is something that giving her peace, it would gonna be totally fine with me. Maybe I also did something in the past or she just want to have a fresh beginning without me in her life. ***As long as I know that she is happy with her decision, that's enough for me***. I just to remind you that unfriending someone is not a selfish nor a childish thing but instead, it is the most selfless thing that you can do for yourself. You are allowing yourself to bloom without the thorn in your surrounding. You just prioritizing yourself beyond others. But we should also be responsible with it. It doesn't mean that you have the power to unfriend someone at all, you should also evaluate the reason behind your action. All I can say is, we must unfriend someone who does not add Joy to your life. You are a gem that should not be surrounded with a fake one.
***Appreciation!!***
*Thank you dreamers for all of your warmest support to me. I am happy that I can still able to express myself here. Thank you and have a great sleep ahead!!*
Good morning everyone! Kamusta mga tulog nyo? Maaga akong nagising dahil sa nephew ko. Ako kase maghahatid sa kanya today and guess what, 5AM palang ginigising na niya ako para ihatid siya. Nakaready na siya that time kase 4AM pa lang kinukulit na niya Mama niya na liguan na siya. Sobrang early bird naman nito haha. Sabe ko later na kase 8AM pa naman pasok niya and 10minutes walking distance lang naman Scholl niya from our house. Sana until paglaki niya, ganto siya ka-excited pumasok sa school hehe.
Ingat sa lahat ng mga papasok ng school at work. Have a great Thyrsday ahead!!
Even Life is Stressful, Don't Choose to End it
*Good evening dreamers!! How's your life? I know that most of us battling with a lot at this moment but I hope that you still face it with a positive outlook. It must be tiring but it is worth it once we overcome all of it. So don't be hopeless and always put God on the center of everything.*
I was happy earlier but it suddenly change when I heard a news. The whole class covered with a sad aura when our professor shared something. There is another student in our University who is passed away a few days ago. He said that there immediately held an urgent meeting with the officials. They are alarming because since the start of the semester, a lot of students mostly graduating students died. And what worst most of them are coming from our course. We don't know the real reason behind it but we pray for their souls to rest at peace. It is so sad that we are decreasing in numbers because of that. So earlier we don't have a class but rather our professor asked us how's are life recently.
While listening to my classmates, I realize that we are on the same situation right now. We are demotivated but we still choose to hold on. Mahirap pero kinakaya. I believe that our prof did a good act earlier. To asked how are we because I know that not everyone have someone to share their problems. Sometimes they even get shy to share it to their parents. Sometimes they choose to not tell their problems because they don't want be a burden to their family. But knowing that our professor listen to us is such a big thing. At least, we know that there is someone who is willing to listen to us. There is one student who suddenly cried when he asked "***How are you?***" That student said that it is his first time that someone asking him how he is because most of the time he just pretend to be okay. He is the breadwinner on the family so he don't have time to vent out his problems. His family didn't bother to asked him that question, as long as he can give financial support to them. But behind that, he is broken, we are all emotionally broken. So in the end, he is not only the one who cried but most of us cried because of what he shared.
I realize that sometimes we tend to forget to asked those people in our surroundings if how they are. I know that it is just a simple question but I also believe that sometimes it feels comfort to that person. But what's worst, we tend to forget to check ourselves if we really okay. We literally see our problems but we forget to evaluate how's our emotional and mental status at the moment. It is really okay to admit that you are not okay. If no one are willing to listen to you, be the one who can listen to yourself. If no one cares for you, at least gives comfort and care to yourself. At the end of the day, yourself is the one who can help you. So if yourself asking a break, have it. If it asking for rest, get an opportunity to have it.
Nowadays, I know that life is stressful in different angle but please don't think that it should be the end of your life. Don't let the negativities makes you to think twice if your life is still worth it to live. It is just a challenge for us and once we overcome it, another new opportunities will be open for us. That problems that you have right now could be the reason why you become successful in the next day. Just think that it is a lesson that we should learn through a hardest time. It's not the end of our life story but rather it is the beginning of our new chapters in life. May everyone who have doubt on themselves will find peace within. May everyone who struggling right now receive the greatest blessing tomorrow. May each of us be courageous enough to face every struggles we've encountered. Malayo ka pa pero malayo kana kaya kapit lang.
*Closing Thoughts!!*
Sending hugs to those who are in the darkest point of their life right now. Never let the problems controlled you, let you control the problem. Alam kong kaya mo at makakaya mo pa sa mga susunod na araw. Fighting. And if you have the means to be someone's safest place, don't hesitate to be the one. Let them feel that they have you when their life got blurry. Let them feel that they have someone like you who can they lean on.
Sleepless nights are really paid off! Finally, I'm done with my report and also, we already send our drafts in thesis. I'm happy because I got a good grades earlier in our report. Sa wakas, makakapagrest na din ako for the mean time. Anyways, kamusta ang lahat dito? I was away since the other day since I need to cope up in my reality. I hope that you are doing okay. Early lunch na din ako since I didn't get a chance to eat my breakfast earlier. Kain po tayo hihi
Why Life is so Tough Lately?
*Good evening dreamers!* I hope that you are really doing well today!
How's life lately? To be honest, I've so demotivated and down lately. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. Even I just woke up, I feel like I am already tired. It's so heavy as if I carry the whole world's problems. I miss my side that I am so energetic and inspired to everything that I do. I miss those days that I can totally rest without thinking a lot. Now, it is so hard for me to sleep even my eyes wanted to. My mind don't stop to think that leads me to be wide awake until the dawn. Even people here in the house notice that changes in me. I'm always not in the mood having fun with them. I keep silent and just nodded if they asked something from me. I always lock myself on the four corners of my room. Actually, even me don't know what's really happening on me right now. Is it just I'm bored in life or is it that I'm already drained too much?
While I'm doing my thesis paper, suddenly my tears fall apart. I didn't cry because my that paper and I also don't know what the reason behind those tears. I realize that life hits me so hard lately. I've been facing a lot these days. I admit that I am already tired. My body is tired, my mind is tired. Everything in me is already tired. It is my first time to feel very demotivated like this. Before, I am always the one who push and motivates them to continue life. But now, I can't even tell all those motivation to myself. It seems that I can't apply all of them now. Also, I don't have the energy to reply on all the messages I receive from my friends and classmates. This is what I hate from myself when I am demotivated, it seems that I want to walk away from people. I just want to be alone until I recover myself from that phase of my life.
No one knows that I'm already battling my own breakdowns. I also don't want to tell to anyone since I don't want to be burden to them. While I'm still helping myself to recover, my brother message me. I unintentionally read his message and that message makes me feel lonely even more. He said that our other brother and him had a fight because our brother got addicted to gambling again and worst, he used the money that they earn from the farm. Our Mom also got stressed and almost collapse because of that fight. I thought that he already change but I am totally wrong. Since our Dad passed away, he even got worst. We don't actually don't know how can we help him to realize about his doings. My brother asked me to talked to him once again since he seems to listen to me more than him. But this time, I don't know how to talked to him especially since I am younger than them. I have right to do that? I just think about it.
I'm sorry if you read an article like this from me. I just want to vent out and release all the heaviness I have inside. Right now, I am physically and mentally unstable but I will not let this phase be longer. At this point that I am filled with a lot of problems and chaos, I believe that I should find a way to get out of here. I should not let myself be cornered by overthinking and negativities. I even didn't get doubt on Him, I know that He is still in control. I suddenly remember the homily last Sunday. The priest remind that " ***We should not be deceive and we should not be afraid in life***". I also repeatedly tapping my chest while saying ***" This too shall pass***".Everything that I experience today will be worth it one day. It's really hard finding myself in the dark but if it's His way to teach me the hardest lesson in life, okay I choose to be stronger. Not now but I believe that this too shall pass.
Hugs to those who also experiencing and battling on their own battles. I know that it is hard to overcome those silent battles alone, just go on and believe that everything will be put on it's place.
While scrolling to my gallery, I suddenly saw this screenshot. Mga panahong stress pa kami sa kasasayaw sa P.E. Pero honestly, nakakamiss din Yung gantong eksena. Yung 11AM call time tapos 1PM na kami darating hahaah. Ngayon kase wala na kaming PE and mas stressful na din. Pero I realize na 4 years na din pala kami magkakaklase but ilang beses pa lang kami nagkikita personally dahil sa pandemic before
Good morning! I out on the bed a bit late since I don't have a morning class. I also have a good sleep last night even though I have a headache. I think rest lang talaga kulang sakin lately. Kayo kamusta Monday morning nyo? Perhaps, you are already busy sa mga gawajng bahay or sa pag-asikaso sa mga students nyo. Maybe others already at there workplace. Ingat sa lahat. Anyways, I have this bowl of sopas for my today's breakfast. Kaya lang wala na siyang sabaw since late na ako gumising hahaha. Have a great Monday to us!
Childish things that makes me Happy even I'm already an Adult
***Happy Sunday dreamers! How's your weekend? For some, they used this as a rest or bonding day. On the other hand, some still have work during weekend. As for me, I didn't do any stressful activity today, I just let my Sunday becomes a normal yet a enjoying one. Nevertheless, I hope that you still give yourself a chance to breathe or to take a break. Don't be too harsh on yourself.***
I'm already an adult but there's still a side of me that acting like a kid. ***Am I only one who having that side?*** I guess even you have a moment that you will realize you already enjoying things that only kids always do. At some point, we wish to be kid again. Sometimes, I asking myself if I already a grown up lady or I just still a kid being trapped on the body of an adult. Just like today, I found myself enjoying doing childish things. And these things are the following;
***1.Playing and popping the bubble wrap***
**Bubble** **Wrap** https://images.app.goo.gl/BTWiyeoCRA3PX8rL8
I don't know why but I can't resist doing it. Everytime I receive a parcel, the first thing that I do is not to check the product but rather, to get the bubble wrap and pop it one by one. The bigger,the better haha. It is also one of my stress reliever to be honest. Sometimes, my cousins find it weird since I always do that but I find it comfortable hehe. It is so satisfying when I saw that I've already done popping it.
***2.Playing and running on the playground***
At my age, I'm still enjoying sliding or ride on the swing. To be honest when I with my nephews, I feel like I'm happy than them haha. Moreover, I also still fun doing outside games like hide and seek or just running like there's no tomorrow. I know that some kids today can't relate to this but I think having a sweat because of playing outside with your friends is one of the best childhood memories. Doing this makes me forget for the meantime my problems in adulthood.But of course after being a child in a second, I am still aware that I need to face my reality.
***3.Collecting different coloring materials and ball pens***
It is also one of the things that makes me happy. Whenever I saw a color pens, I can't stop myself by buying it. I love arts even my hands don't ahha. I always love creating colorful drawings using those pens and crayons. Way back before, I save my allowance just to buy school stuffs like that. My Mom even asked why I always using my money to buy new crayons even I still have one. I guess this things turns me to be an impulsive buyer. And if you would asked me, yep I still collecting and buying coloring materials now. But I also let my nephews and cousins to used that. I'm okay with it as long as they didn't broke it.
***4.Watching Christmas Lights and putting sock on the window***
***Who is excited for Christmas season?*** Since Christmas is coming, we can see a lot of Christmas lights over on the street. I really love seeing those lights, I found it comforting. Earlier my sister asked me if I want to joined to go on Ayala Triangle Gardens since there's a christmas lights display there. Of course, I immediately give my approval since both of us know that I'll gonna enjoy that. We still planning it and there's still no exact date for it. On the other hand, kids in the house preparing for their socks and I also prepares mine hahah. At 6, I already discovered that the one who put gift on my is not Santa Claus,it's actually my parents. But still,I found it enjoying to put my socks, hoping that I can receive a gifts.
***5.Watching Cartoons***
**Spongebob** https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fm.media-amazon.com%2Fimages%2FM%2FMV5BNDUwNjBkMmUtZjM2My00NmM4LTlmOWQtNWE5YTdmN2Y2MTgxXkEyXkFqcGdeQXRyYW5zY29kZS13b3JrZmxvdw%40%40._V1_.jpg&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.imdb.com%2Ftitle%2Ftt0206512%2F&tbnid=r4bygiiqcNgEdM&vet=1&docid=6kD5m2wBjBvywM&w=960&h=540&hl=en-US&source=sh%2Fx%2Fim
Are you ready kids? Aye, aye captain. Aside from watching Kdramas, I also love watching cartoons. If I have free time, I usually re-watched all my favorite childhood cartoons like Ben10, Dora the Explorer and SpongeBob Squarepants***. So childish right?*** Hahaha. They already know if I have pop corn or chips besides me, they know that I watching cartoons haha. Sometimes they teasing me because I already an adult but I still enjoying such things. But doing it really makes me happy so I just nevermind them lol.
Bow you can definitely say that I am childish on those aspects hahaha. I will accept that because it's really true. How about you? What is the childish thing that still makes you happy until now? I believe that you also have such things, so share it in the comment sections hehe.
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***That's for today's article. Thank you for dropping by. Have a great sleep ahead!!***
Just got home from somewhere. Actually, I really don't know where is my exact destination haha. Every other day kase naglalakad lakad lang ako to breathe and to interact with nature kaya kung saan ako dalhin ng mga paaa ko, dun ako haha. Kamusta Sunday nyo? I choose not to do any activities today, just time for me to relax. Sana kayo din po nakapagrest kahit papaano. For sure kase tomorrow, another hassle week na naman for everybody.
While I'm busy watering my Aunt's plants, I suddenly saw this flower. First time ko tong makita here sa garden niya so I asked kung saan galing, tapos sabe niya sa tabi-tabi lang hahaha. Oh diba ganyan mga tao dito sa bahay, they will not directly say kung anong name na nagbigay, Basta si ano or si tabi lang sinasabe nila abhaha. Nagandahan lang ako dito sa white flower but I don't know kung anong tawag dito. Lagi ko din tong nakikita sa church or sa cemetey but di ko talga alam ano yan haha
No Coffee for this Morning!
Last night, I go to bed as early as 9PM para matulog na sana. I feel like gusto ko mg matulog nang maaga. Pero yung diwa ko gising na gising pa din. I tried na mag-exercise hoping na makakatulog ako dahil sa pagod pero walang effect. I also count 1-100 and tadaa, dilat pa din ako. Kaya for now, kahit masakit ile-let go muna coffee ko.
Anyways, Happy Sunday everyone. Kamusta kayo? I hope na magkaroon tayo ng chance makapag rest today. Keep safe and have a great day ahead!
Hello! Medyo nagbusy busyhan ako the whole day kaya medyo di nakakabisita dito. Tinuruan ko din kase nephew ko sa dance performance niya next week. Pero to be honest, mas naenjoy ko yung music nila hahaha. But I'm finally back again. Someone gave us puro with salted egg and cheese. Someone kase I don't know kung sino, sabe lang nung pinsan basta si ano haha. Pero thanks kung sino man siya hehe, solve na merienda namin today.
Happy Weekend noisers! I know that most of us especially students are happy because they can finally take a rest. Also for those who didn't have work today. Anysways, how's your sleep last night? I had a great sleep and I think I have the full energy for today's activities. It's okay if you don't have a plan for today at all, okay lang if magrelax ka today because you are already been stress during weekdays. Pero sa mga may work pa din, ingat po sa biyahe. Have a great and fun Saturday everyone!
I think my Friday will ends here. So good night na po sa inyong lahat. I will gonna sleep na para naman makabawi ako ng tulog kahit papaano. Lately kase kulang or literal na wala akong tulog so I will give the entire night for myself to rest. Feeling ko din kase at any moment bibigay na eyes ko. I hope naging happy Friday nyo. Have a great sleep and sweet dreams to us.
Problems aren't always negative
*A happy night Friday dreamers!! How are you today? I really hope that you can able to overcome all of the uncertainties and struggles you've encountered today. How big or small it is, I believe that you should be proud of yourself for overcoming. And don't forget to give yourself a rest that it deserve since you also did a great job form the whole week.*
***Who definitely wants a problems?*** I believe that none of us don't want to have a problem. As much as possible, we want to have a peaceful and a stress-free life right? If we have a problem, we can't stand still and we tend to overthink too much. It seems that you are being trapped in the basement and no one can hear you. If problem will be describe in other words, some will say that it depressing, stressful and they really want to vanished it. Sometimes because of it, we suddenly cried in silence because we don't know how to solve it. And worst we are asking Him, ***why did He gives such problems to us. Is it because we did something awful or is it a punishment for us?*** We can't avoid to be lonely when we have a problem. But even we don't want to, we actually encountered a lot of problems in our life. Sometimes it is a small problem and we are just the one who make it big. On the other, some circumstances will give us the hardest problem that even an expert don't know how to solve it in an instant. That's life, it is a roller coaster ride for everyone.
But actually, problems aren't always negative. Yeah it might affect to our emotions but we look at the other side, we can say that it is also an opportunity given for us. I'm not saying that you should be thankful because you have a problems now but what I want to imply is sometimes it allows us to be a brave person. Everything negative- challenges, problems, pressure turns into an opportunity for us to rise. It is called "***problem***" because we need to find a solution to it. Instead of staying and overthinking, we should allow ourselves to discovered what is the best way to eliminate this problem. Definitely, worry doesn't empty tomorrow's sorrow but rather it empties your capability today. There's a saying that you should not problem the problems, let the problems problem itself.
I had this classmate and everytime I saw her, I can radiate a happy and light mood. It seems that she doesn't experienced any problem at all. But when I talked to her, she said that only you can dictate how will you face the problems and being happy is her way to solve it. And I agree to her, it really depends on us whether we choose to be serious, overthinker or make an actions to solve it. It's our problem anyways, so we are the one who can control to it. Whether if you make it big deal or not. Aside from that, sometimes problems lead the right path where we should be. He will give us problems to redirect us on the better decision and to give us the lesson that we should learn in life. I believe that the strongest person is not those who run away in problems but rather those people who choose to face it despite on the doubts. You should not walk away to problems because nothing will solve by doing that.
If you think that you suffered from a lot of problems now and you only worries without doing anything, definitely you will be drowned to that. On the other hand, if you evaluate those little good things you have right now, you will be inspire to fix the problems. Remember that what you focus on only grows stronger. So don't always hang around with the problems. Don't stuck yourself on that black aura of struggles. There's actually a lot of good things that you should be thankful about. I will end this article by leaving this one, ***" If you focus on the problems, you will continue to suffer. If you focus on the lesson from that problem, you will grow even better"***.
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***So that's all for tonight's dreamers. Have a great sleep ahead!***
I capture this picture earlier while nakatambay ako sa rooftop namin. Though kaninang morning medyo naging makulimlim yung weather dito, sobrang init pa din. Nagpakitang gilas din tong si Mr. Sunshine during sunset.Nagandahan lang ako and the same time, it seems that it reminds me na I did a great day today. Nalamapasan na naman natin ang isang araw. Kaya you should be proud on yourself hihi. Now, I'm get ready for our online classes till 9PM but I'm hopeful that it would finish early heehe
Some of my friends asked me if I didn't get bored inside our house and I just smile on them.Lately, I want to stay at home rather than go outside.I don't want to be stress on traffic and pollution that's why. Why would I get bored if I have this little cutie kid besides me. Earlier, he wake up me because he wants someone who plays with him. So, we will play and we are so happy on this picture because I lost on this game. This so hard for me especially that my hands is a bit shaky haha. To clarify, he is my nephew not my kid hahah. Anyways, did you already eat lunch? We are about to eat, so Tara kain po tayo hihi.
Happy Good Morning Friday noisers!!
The sun is already up but I still haven't slept yet. I remember that I need to do some errands today and later, I will continue editing again. But now, I feel give myself a rest. I'm gonna sleep muna even just for 3 hours. I feel like my eyes really wants to close itself because of tiredness. I will come back later.
Enjoy your Friday guys. I hope that you never encountered a hassle and stressful day today. Just think that tomorrow is weekend, so it's okay to be chillin'. Keep safe for those who will travel to work or school.
All my efforts were wasted; An Overload Tiredness on Thursday
***Happy Thursday dreamers! I hope that you are really okay right now. No matter what the problems, still choose to be grateful on the blessings you've received***.
If I can describe my day today, simply I am very tired, exhausted and worn out. I fee like I joined in a boxing all day. My eyes and head also hurts until now. But what can I do? I need to finished all the requirements I have. Earlier, I was looking at the clock and wishing it too stop so I can have some rest. But of course it will not happened and it seems that the two hands of the clock running so fast. Look, it's evening again and it would be Friday tomorrow. Literally, it's weekend again.
So why I am so exhausted right now? I promise to myself that I will become productive today. So I start editing our thesis at exactly 7AM. I'm too focus to the point that I didn't notice the time so I forgot to eat my breakfast and lunch. I also don't feel hungry that time until my Aunt asked me why my meal is still there at the side. I respond that I'll gonna eat at 1PM. She scolded me because it's already 5PM and we should prepared ourselves because we are going to church to witness the Christmas lightning ceremony. So, I am looking and working in the screen for almost 10 hours. And to be honest, for that long, I didn't stand on my place. I even didn't peep for 10 hours. And I forgot to take a shower again. My Auntie got mad on me because it seems that I always prioritize my school stuffs than my health. I am always like this and I am not proud of it since I know that it could affect on me.
And another reason why I'm so tired is because my laptop suddenly shut down and I forgot to save what I did earlier. I tried to recover it but nothing found. So all of my efforts from the morning were wasted. I need to repeat and do it again from the beginning. So I don't know if iiyak ba ako kanina or magmumukmok na lang ako. On the other hand, I know that I'm also have fault. I should save it every minutes or hour. Why did I forgot that basic rule when typing. Nasanay kase ako dun sa isa kong laptop na auto save na but I used my other laptop so all of my efforts were gone. I plan to do it again later at 12AM. I want to work when my surroundings is silence so I always choose midnight to do my academic activity. Pero syempre, I also worked out this as early as possible kase I need to a long time for this thesis paper. Our defense is coming in weeks now so we need to double our time.
I'm so really tired but I still manage to attend the mass and witness the countdown of Christmas lightning in our church. I think it is the only good thing happened to me today. There's a lot of people so we can't make it to go inside the church and we only stay outside. So we only listen to the speaker there. And after the mass, the people was so happy and you can saw on their faces that they are excited seeing those lights. I am also happy since all of my members (13/13) of the family attend the mass. Even I'm tired, I tried to set aside it and enjoy the event also. After we go home and eat our dinner. Now, I also feel that my back hurts again. Bumabalik na naman yung sakit niya before. I always take my medicine but it is still painful so I can't also sleep properly because of it. My whole system is so tired at the moment but I still choose to overcome it. I just remind myself that it is only a challenge given to me and I should not used it to be demotivated. I don't know what time will I going to sleep, maybe the next morning.
***I guess that's all for tonight. Thank you for dropping by. Have a great sleep ahead!***
@Mayiee
