@Mayiee 1 August 2023

I got a cheer from a Kid ***Good evening dreamers! I hope that you are doing okay. I'm also hoping that you still have an energy for this week.*** Oh it's the first day of the new month. Happy 1st of August everyone. *How's your new month so far?* I'm sure that we are all hoping for a fruitful month. So let's manifest and work for it. ***Demotivated***. That's exactly what I am these past few days. I don't know why but I don't feel like doing anything. I admit that my body is still not recover from the fever. I still have a cough and my head is still aching. My energy turns to zero because of it. I am aware that I need to get up from my bed and do something productive. Though I am not motivated at all, I push myself to get my notes and tried to answer some of my reviewers. I also make some coffee hoping that it will help me. I found myself looking at my notes. I can't focus on studying. Even my cousin notice that I am not on the condition. I'm still trying to focus. I take a break for a moment and went to my room. I almost cried without knowing the exact reason. I know that it is not me. I am not like this. I am always motivated on everything I do but now, I don't know what happened to me. I'm sobbing silently when someone hug me from the back. It's my 6-year old nephew. He was asking me what I'm crying and I can't answered him. You know what, he is one of those person who understand me well. I know that he is still a young and innocent kid but he knows when I am happy and when I am not. He suddenly tap my shoulder while saying, " ***I believe in you. Kaya mo yan Tita (You can do that)"*** with matching Aja with his hands. I feel suddenly at ease when I heard those words. I can't believe that this little cutie boy in front of me is the one who will cheered me up. I know that I should not show weakness to him but why it seems that he is stronger than me. In the middle of doubts, I am happy knowing that there is someone who believes in me. I'm aware that I am being challenge now. Laziness, being demotivated and health issues but if he believes, I should believe in myself too. Not today but surely, I will overcome all of the struggles. I'm praying that He will give me patience and confidence to continue. ***That's all for tonight. Thank you for dropping by!***