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Our saddest Love Story ever written (Part 2) *Part 1* https://read.cash/@Mayiee/our-saddest-love-story-ever-written-568f68ab *Finale* ***Kiana's POV*** For the nth time, I rejected Gab. Actually , I didn't want to refuse on his wedding proposal but I also believe that my responsibility to my family is not over yet. I'm the eldest among 7 siblings and most of them is still studying. I know that my parents will support my decisions anyways but I don't want them to carry all the burdens and obligations. I don't want to settled as long as my siblings is still studying. But I hate myself because I'm scared on telling this matter to Gab. I'm so unfair, I know. I always run away everytime he will going to asked me about something. Gab will understand me definitely but this scared cat don't want to tell this to him. Hayst.

I run away to his wedding proposal and go straight to our condo. I thought that he would not go there because for Pete sake ,I know that he was hurt when I said " ***No***" to him. Even my parents is a bit disappointed about that decision but I also know that deep inside they understand me. But I was surprised because he still go home there. He still smiling at me and hugged me while saying " ***I'm sorry if I rush everything between us, it's just that I'm sure that you're gonna be my future***". I want to cry while hearing those words. Did I really deserve this kind of man? He's so worth it to be loved but why I hesitant to say " **Yes**" to him. Move on. Both of us forget about that wedding proposal and we still live in our condo. I can say that our relationship is strong as before and I can also feel that Gab did everything to show how he loves me so much. Everyday, I asking myself what I have done good and God give me this wonderful man. After 2 years , I said to myself that I am ready to take the risk about our relationship. It is the right time. But it seems that destiny really wants to ruin the plan I have. A week after, Gab proposed to me ,a wedding proposal. But for the second time, I refuse him again. I hurt him again. I know that I'm said before that I'm ready to level up our relationships but the problem is I discovered problem within our family. My parents have a debt worth of 200,000 and they need to pay it before the end of the year. And it's already October now. My mind is so occupied because I know that I will shoulder that debt. That's why I decided to refuse Gab's proposal because I know him, I want to settle that debt first before settled myself. I know that he will help me if I say about this problem but I don't want him to shouldered all of my family problems. " ***I'm sorry, I hurt you again***". I said to him but instead he hugs me and respond " ***It's okay, I'm willing to wait until you are ready. You know, I'm an expert on waiting you. I can also feel that it seems that you have a problem. Want to share it to me?"*** I cried in front of him, " ***You is enough. I'm already contented to know that you still love me despite on my insensitivity. You still choose me even I said " No" for several times"***. Then he kissed me on my forehead and gives me an assurance that he will gonna wait for me. Because of that debt, I become so busy. Besides on my job, I need to find another job to earn money. Now, I have 2 part time jobs aside from my regular work. I also needs to pay my sibling's tuition so I need to work hard. Because of this, I seldom see Gab because it seems that I only go home to our condo to change clothes and go again to work. Sometimes , he even asked me if I'm still okay but I only said that I'm okay. I know that he is also curious about why I need to work all over again. Honestly, I'm so guilty because I also sacrifice our time to hang and interact with each other. " ***Sorry love If I pay all of this, I'll gonna make it up to you".*** But as I becomes so busy, Gab seems to be cold. Unlike before, he just give me a smile and sometimes he didn't notice my existence. It seems that he is already busy on his own life. But I should not be mad because I know that I also owe time to him. When I'm home, he will immediately go outside without talking to me. And when I asked him if there's a problem, he only said that his okay and he only needs to see his friends. I can't do anything because I know that I'm in fault. So , I urge myself to work hard more so that I can pay the debts immediately and I can fix our relationship. After months, I successfully pay the debt. My parents are so ashamed on me but I said that it's my duty as the eldest. Now that I settled their debts, it's time to choose my happiness then. I know that it might be sound weird but today , I planned to propose to my boyfriend. Yes, you read it right. I'll gonna proposed to him. I believe that there's nothing wrong about it especially that I already refuse him before not once but twice, so now it's the perfect time to do my duty on him. I'm so nervous because I can't really thought that I'll gonna do this such thing. But for my love, yes I can. I asked my friend's to help me and I'm planned to propose on our condo because I know that he will be go home here. We decorate some stuffs then I also prepared the ring. This is it, okay Kiana you can do this.

I heard the sound of the door so I immediately position myself. When he enters the room, he was so surprised about the decorations and I suddenly kneeled to asked him " ***Now, I'm the one who will asked you this. Gab my love, will you marry me?***" Then he hold my hands while crying then he responds " *I'm sorry I can't"*. But wait ,did he said that he can't ? " ***Why? Are you already tired of me***?" I asked out of desperation. I can't believe that he will refuse me. " I admit that after you refuse my second *attempt of proposing to you, I feel like that you didn't love me at all. Like , yeah since the beginning I know that you have a problems but you didn't said it to me. I am your partner but I don't know what's really happening to you. I can't deny to myself that I also get tired because of this. I'm tired because you always refuse me. I'm tired on guessing what's the problem on you. I'm tired to the point..*" I cut what he was trying to say " ***I'm sorry if you are already tired. For Pete's sake , I already decided to said " Yes" to you before but I can't because of my family. I need to fulfill my obligations as the eldest. I know you are so tired because I'm also tired but can we start over again ? I'm here and I'm ready to fulfill all my responsibility on this relationship".*** " ***I'm sorry Kiana because I can't. The moment that you get busy, there's is someone who makes me feel that I'm worth it and accidentally I fell for her. And the worst thing is she is pregnant to our baby. I'm sorry Kiana , I said to you that I'm willing to wait but this time, I think I love Micah than you. Sorry***". Then he cried out loud. We both cried. I know that I'm not in the position to blame him because I know from the start that I'm the reason why he also gets tired. I can't also blame him because for more than 10 years, he did nothing but to love me. He did nothing but to support me. So this time even it's so painful, because I love him I will let him go and let him choose his happiness. I hugged him with a bitter smile then said " ***Go. Go to her, go to your happiness. Thank you for being part of my life and I will never forget. Just give me a favor please. Love your girl and your son to be too much. I know that you became a good father. I'm happy for you Gab"***. Then I let go the man that once to be mine. *The End.* Images from Unsplash *Greetings!!* Hey crazy dreamers 👋👋 How are you? Even though that I give you a sad ending again,I hope that you still like this one though. Because I believe that " Wala talagang forever, so cancelled all your dates on Valentines" . Hahah bitter much. Just kidding but honestly, I'm much comfortable on writing sad story huhu. Hope that it will not happen to my future in real. Hope that you enjoy the night dreamers. 🤗