The market is red and so am I.

Red for me is blood and when there is blood, there is pain.

But before that, I just want to share how I am saddened when I saw the value of BCH. It's going down for real and for me it's a curse since most of the time, I am converting my BCH earnings to buy our baby's needs. Whew! I never thought having a baby would cost us much but we are not complaining about it. Although sometimes, I admit I get tired and my last resort would be crying but when I look at our baby, I felt guilty for being a tired because I shouldn't be. I always think that our baby did not choose to be born in the first place so there's no reason for us to complain. So here I am, despite of getting tired, sad and mad, I am still here surviving everyday.

Going back to the BCH price, I screenshot earlier its value and it pained my eyes lol.

So bloody red. The worse thing is, is that I need to convert my 5$ earnings from my article yesterday.

The BCH amount for 5$ that I earned in read.cash was only 0.008.

It should be 250.00 php or 240.00 php plus but it became 232.00 php only. I had no choice but to convert it still so I sent it to my coins.ph wallet so I can convert it into our fiat money. The sending process from Bitcoin to coins.ph will took 2 hours or more so I waited again hoping that it goes green when it will be transferred to my coins.ph wallet.

While waiting, I read articles and leave comments. I saw there writing prompts and challenges that I really wanted to join. One of them is the writing prompt of ms. @CoquiCoin about virtual gift giving. I just love the idea that we can give gifts to others virtually and maybe we can really send gifts for real in a way convenient for us. You can visit her profile and read her article about it.

The other one is the 'How I know I am pregnant' by sis @Momentswithmatti. I was smiling the whole time while reading articles about the challenge. I can relate to some moms who wrote their pregnancy experiences and I have a lot to tell too. I planned to write about it today but I end up writing this instead. Maybe it's because I am in a bad mood as of this time. Well I am in a bad mood always lol. I got mood swings. Yesterday I was happy but today I am mad and sad. My mind is so bloody red and my heart is in pain. I felt like I am always alone in this motherhood journey. I thought I would be happy but I am not. I am near to getting crazy. This article can be a proof that I am.

So that's it. I chose not to write about the challenge because I am mad and sad. I want to write about it when I am happy because I want to recount my pregnancy journey smiling.

Let's go back again to the BCH I transferred to my wallet. It's in now and I am so hurt after seeing that my 5$ just turned to 199 php. Oh my!

This is worse than a break-up.

What can you say?

Thank you fam for supporting me. I may not be able to respond immediately but I promise I'll make it up when I have the time. Thanks to my sponsors and to those people who upvote my posts. You guys are big help.

Ciao! ❤️