People always have something to say

Happy Sunday, everyone! I'm here again to write about my mom-frustrations. Lol. I took a break for five days and that includes not writing in here too. I hope the generous, Rusty hasn't forgotten me.

My panic attacks have been haunting me every night that I lose sleep and during the day, I feel like I am floating. I thought I would be admitted to the hospital but I am thankful to God because He gave me strength to shoo away these panic attacks and He also enlightened me that everything bad I think of would not happen. I don't know but I fear death. Whenever I feel something painful in my body, I would resort to thinking that maybe I have a cancer or maybe I have a leukemia and I might die in a few days. Sometimes, I would also think that my baby is not feeling well even though she is. My partner even told me to calm down because I am acting like crazy. What can I do? This is what my anxiety says.

Anyway, I am fine (I guess). My panic attacks are gone and I hope I will be fine totally.

Last Tuesday was Clea's 6th month.

I was so excited because I can finally let her eat solid foods but at the same time, I was nervous too for she might not like the food I'll give her.

When Clea was still a month old, I searched on the internet the best solid food to give for infants and I found out

that mashed/purée veggies and fruits are good for them. Carbohydrates like oatmeal is also good. I made a meal plan for Clea and decided that she will have vegetable purée during the first week. She had squash with breastmilk purée within three days and then potato with breastmilk the next three days. It was just yesterday, Sunday, that we tried to give her Cerelac, an instant cereal.

We just tried giving her Cerelac so she'll get used to it too for there will be times when we are busy and we don't have time to steam fruits or veggies and mash or blend them afterwards but as much as possible, I like to give her organic food and not the the instant ones.

I am glad that Clea likes squash and potatoes purée I made for her. She still even opens her mouth even though she had eaten much already. I also noticed that her po*p is fine like it wasn't so watery. However, when we give cerelac to Clea, she doesn't like it very much compared to veggies. She would cry after 5 teaspoons we gave her and so her dad took over, made her laugh and happy and then she continued eating.

Actually, before Clea turned 6 months, my partner decided to celebrate it at his parent's home. Well, I have no problem in celebrating Clea's 6th month there only if her mom and aunties won't intervene with my decision. I knew already that my partner's mom is mrs.-know-it-all and she would let me follow what she believed is right. Just like letting Clea eat cerelac for her entire life. Lol. She told me that giving mashed veggies/fruits would take much time so I should buy cerelac instead with wheat banana and milk flavor. And I was like, duh? Why would I let my baby eat instant cereal when I can give her fresh foods. I have nothing against instant cereal because I know they're good for babies but isn't it a problem if make purée instead? Aside from that, I would not spend much. I am just here at home so I have time to prepare my baby's food.

I told my partner about his mom's intervention and he told me to not follow if I don't like it. After all, I am the mother. My partner told his mom about my meal plan for Clea and she just smirked and said that I'm just wasting my time. I still have a pinch of respect left so I just ignored her like what I used to do.

I thought the instant cereal issue is over but it was not. Just yesterday, her mom and aunt told me to add sugar to the potato purée I made even though they already saw that Clea liked eating it. They told me they pity Clea because she's eating tasteless food. They also added that I should not blend Clea's food so there will be big granules of veggies that she can munch. And not just that, everytime I will let Clea eat, they will again say that I should add sugar on Clea's food. Lol.

My partner knew that I am pissed and thank God he answered his mom and auntie. He explained why we give purée and why we don't add sugar. However, they're not convinced because they said they knew better for they had kids already and I was just a first-time mom. Blah blah blah whatever they say. It's my baby, so my rules!

There's another one. Because Clea doesn't like cerelac that much, my partner's mom asked if I bought wheat banana and milk and I told her I bought rice and soya (on purpose so she'll get annoyed haha). And then there she goes again. She told me Clea doesn't like the one I bought because it's not wheat banana. Lol.

I am starting to lose my patience that I decided to go home today. My partner told me if we can go home tomorrow but I told him if he won't come with us, he can stay in his parent's house as long as he wants. I can't afford to be with perfectionist people.

I don't know why people have always something to say. When you do the right thing, they still have something to say. When you don't do it appropriately, they criticize. If there's one thing I learn from this experience, that is to do what you think is right. Other's opinion doesn't matter so we should not let it get into us. Let's stay unbothered! Haha!

Thank you fam for supporting me. I may not be able to respond immediately but I promise I'll make it up when I have the time. Thanks to my sponsors and to those people who upvote my posts. You guys are big help.

Ciao! ❤️