NO. I am not. What turned out was way different from what I planned. Far more different from what me and my grandparents planned. I graduated in college last 2019 and until now, I'm still not successful. You know graduating is not the finish line but the very first step towards the battle of real life. I took the Licensure Exam for Teachers and I passed. I thought that's my ticket towards the teaching world but then I was wrong again. My license was not a guarantee that I can get a teaching position. The license is just one of the requirements to be admitted in Teachers' ranking. Isn't it amazing? We work so hard to get the license only to find out it's just one of the requirements.
But then again, we need the job so we hustle again to be part of the Teacher's ranking. And take note, it entails money because you will not have your pertinent documents if without a fee. But I don't have much complain about it since it's for our own record.
After having all the pertinent documents, they will be submitted to the nearest Division office. And so I did. We waited for the schedule of demonstration and checking of documents. The schedules were out and so we went to the Division office. I passed the ranking and still need to wait for months for the final lists of registered applicants. Because of the pandemic, there was a delay in everything. The process and all about the ranking result took time. The absorbing of new teachers got a delay too.
That's why most of us who took the ranking were not yet called to start teaching. And so we need to wait again. Waiting has been our friend since we graduate. I believe my batchmates can attest to this for some of them are here in the platform. Padajon gihapon ta mga mamsh!
Until now, I can say that I'm not yet successful. I don't have a stable job yet, but I do have a current job which is online teaching but I don't think I can call it as stable job for things might change and maybe one day the ESL company might stop operating. That's the reason why I also searched for other ways to earn and am very glad to be able to find Read.cash. Not to brag but I do earn in this platform and this has helped me in my financial problem greatly. As much as I want to hodl, the greater the needs are also arising.
My family has high expectation about me as well and I was confused if I would be happy about or be mad.
Happy because they have trust in me and mad because I felt like I need to give everything I have with nothing left for me. I know I need to help them but providing all the needs would be too much. I need to work on my future too! Elder sons/daughters can relate to this. The pressure is real. But then again, we have this culture to put family first.
I don't have a stable job yet and I am not living the life we planned. Since I was a kid, my grandparents build the dreams. They dream for us to have our own house, own business, and for my siblings to finish school with my help. I didn't complain that time because I didn't know how hard it is to earn when you are an adult. But now that I know how it taste like, I need some time. And I do hope my grandparents will know that success really takes time. 😌
I am not complaining here. I just want to let out all the dramas in life. The drama of being pressured. Lol. I don't want dramas but then there are times we need it to vent our frustrations. Don't worry about me, I will be okay after I write this one. I am also planning to let my grandma read this. I need to be heard too. I do have my own problems as I walk this adulting life. I want then to understand me and have more patience towards my success.
My time will come and I am sure I bring them alongside me always. God knows everything and He is just preparing me for bigger things I deserve. He didn't gave me the things I want in an instant for He knows what I truly deserve.
And for that, I will wait. I will work hard while I wait.
And someday, I can proudly say that I am living the life I want.
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I also feel like I am not living the life that I am supposed to be. I am now in my waiting season waiting to bloom like flowers and is still being pressured by people who surrounds me. But one thing is for sure, we can all be in a better place one day, in the place of our dreams.