Social issues: Figure it out
Social issues can be define as hindrance in our daily lives, it influences a considerable number of individuals that may lead them unproductive in doing things they're interested with. It may be an aspect of society that people are concerned about and would like to get it changed. Social issues are usually from diverse opinions of society on what is told as the standard to follow. The concern of a social issue may be objective or subjective. It doesn't necessarily refers to a problem to be solved, but a topic to be discussed.
**CAUSES**:
There are many causes of the social issues. Social issues arise due to inequalities in society. Different individuals and different societies may have different perceptions about a problem giving rise to a social issue. There can be disagreements about which social issue is important and worth solving, or which should take precedence.
**Here are some social problems teens struggle with every day.**
**DEPRESSION**
According to The National Institute of Mental Health, an estimated 3.2 million adolescents in the United States had at least one major depressive episode in 2017. That means about 13% of teenagers may experience depression before reaching adulthood.
Depression can be a threat because it targets the mental health of a person which may cause them to harm their selves. It is a serious topic to discuss especially most victims of depression are teenagers. For me parents should always monitor their children so that they would know what their children been through and at the same time find a solution to prevent them from dangerous acts. I also experience depression way back 2017, and honestly it was not easy to deal with specially no one understands me. It's hard for me to cope up and be healthy mentally when no one's interested in things I want to express, what I did since no one's listening I just write all my rants in life and cry before sleep. I always felt alone that time and I started to walk away from my friends because they really don't understand what I've been through and I put in mind that maybe they're really not friends after all. Fortunately this time, I find one person who listens and understands whenever I'm having a mental breakdown and also he's the only person that never left me in times I'm in need.
**THINGS TO DO:**
Depressive disorders are treatable, but it's important to seek professional help. If your teen seems withdrawn, experiences a change in his sleep patterns, or starts to perform badly in school, schedule an appointment with your teen's physician or contact a mental health professional. Do not delay getting help for your teen if you notice these symptoms because if it will not be treated right away it may gotten worse that will lead them to death.
**BULLYING**
According to the National Center for Education Statistics, about 20% of teens in the U.S. experienced bullying in 2017. One explanation the research has cited for this is the rise of social media use by teens, which has made bullying much more public and more pervasive. In fact, cyberbullying has replaced bullying as the common type of harassment that teens experience.
Personally, I experienced bullying when I was in highschool. My classmates often call me names that are based on my physical appearance. I admit that I'm not the standard but it doesn't mean I don't deserve the respect what beautiful girls have. From that time I felt insecure and wish to have a pretty face to gain respect. It also leads me to depression, I cannot tell my mom about it because I don't want her to worry so I just endure the pain it cause me.
**THINGS TO DO:**
Talk to your teen about bullying regularly. Discuss what they can do when they witnesses bullying and talk about options if they become a target themselves. Being proactive is key to helping your child deal with a bully.
It's also important to talk to your child about when and how to get help from an adult. Remind them that asking for help is not a sign of weakness, but instead a show of courage. Talking about how someone has humiliated them is never an easy topic.
**SEXUAL ACTIVITY**
Based on the 2017 Youth Risk Behavior Surveillance data, 39.5% of high school students reported being sexually active. That means sexual activity had declined slightly over the past decade.
Nowadays teenage pregnancy is rising because lack of knowledge. Teenagers should go to school in order to have information about sexual activities and through that, they would truly understand that in every action there should be a consequence. This issue could be worsen and turn into poverty if they will keep on dealing activities like this.
**THINGS TO DO:**
Parents may not be aware that their children are sexually active, however. Talk to your teen about sex, even if you don't think your child is engaging in sexual activity.
**ACADEMIC PROBLEMS**
About 5% of high school students drop out of high school each year in the United States, according to the National Center for Education Statistics. A high school dropout is likely to earn $200,000 less over his lifetime when compared to a high school graduate, which can have a significant impact on a young person's future.
But, it's no longer just the "troubled teens" who are dropping out of school. Some teens feel so much pressure to get into a good college that they're burning themselves out before they graduate from high school. Stay involved in your teen's education. Provide support and guidance and be ready to assist your teen if he encounters problems.
**PEER PRESSURE**
While peer pressure isn't a new issue, social media brings it to a whole new level. Sexting, for example, is a major cause for concern as many teens do not understand the lifelong consequences that sharing explicit photos can have on their lives. But sharing inappropriate photos is not the only thing kids are being pressured into doing.
More and more kids are being pressured into having sex, doing drugs, and even bullying other kids. To keep your kids from falling victim to peer pressure, give them skills to make healthy choices, and to resist peer pressure. Also, talk to teens about what to do if they make a mistake.
Sometimes, kids can make poor choices and may be too afraid to seek help. Make sure your kids are not afraid to come to you when they make a mistake. Demonstrate that you can listen without judging or overreacting and instead find healthy ways for them to make amends and move on.
**SOCIAL MEDIA**
Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter can be great ways for teens to connect with one another; but social media can be problematic for several reasons. For instance, social media can expose your teen to cyberbullying, slut-shaming, and so much more.And, while there are some benefits to social media, there are a lot of risks as well.
Social media can have a negative impact on friendships and is changing the way teens date. It can even impact their mental health. But, no matter what precautions you take, teens are still likely to be exposed to unsavory people, unhealthy images, and sexual content online.
**THINGS TO DO:**
Help your child learn how to navigate social media in a healthy way. Talk about ways to stay safe online. And most importantly, know what your teen is doing online. Educate yourself about the latest apps, websites, and social media pages teens are using and take steps to keep your teen safe. You may even want to take steps to limit your teen's screen time.
The Maid and the Prince
Xai and Tom come along with Thali to save their beloved. Although he wasn't really sure about his feelings for Crisha but he only knew one and it is to save Crisha from their kingdom. Xai truly understand that he's still confused to his true identity. But he could do nothing but follow the rules of the place he never grew up in.
The couple Gray and Juvia didn't even come along, because they had a child waiting for them. And as Clay said, Xai is the star of this story. However, Tom also seems to have played a big role, as he is willing to embrace one sided love just for Crisha to be happy and achieve the true love she hopes for. Even though Tom knew his heart would break, that was his compensation for Xai's goodness to him.
"I want to see Crisha right away," Xai said, that they were just about to get down in a private helicopter.
Tom was only observing and didn't say a word. It's not a castle that you could see in his eyes like those in fairy tales. They were just in front of a huge mansion yet elegant. There are gold wall decorations and diamonds. The surroundings are also very wide, a great example of nature. The breeze was fresh and quiet. Charles didn't even notice it because the only person in his mind was Crisha, to see his beloved.
"She's inside" Thali replied frugally and her feet started to walk. But she stopped again when she look at Tom.
There was no reaction to Thali's face, but her mind and heart were glad. She likes Tom. She never forgot the day their lips touched even when it was just an accident. Thali also didn't lie when she confronted Xai and confessed that she didn't really like Xai that she was only forced by her parents to have an agreement for the sake of their kingdoms. And the princess also knew that Xai would not agree.
"Show Crisha first," Tom added and Thali's mood suddenly changed. Xai looked at him and barely punched him to the side.
"I already told you right? Do you not understand what Gray said, I am the star of this story so let me handle this" Xai said.
"The story is not fun without a villain. Forget first all that we put together, all the help you gave me. For now, treat me as an opponent first. Not an opponent of the massacre, but an opponent in Crisha's heart, "Tom responded and shook a frugal smile on his lips. Tom's feet walked closer to Thali. And when he stood in front of the princess, his eyebrows raised.
"Take me now to Crisha," he ordered Thali. The girl just looked at him badly.
In fact, the blood was boiling over the princess's body, not because of Tom but because of Crisha. She could not accept that someone like Crisha who was just an ordinary citizen was being loved by these two men. Thali didn't answer Tom. She just turned her back on the young man and walked her feet quickly to the large mansion.
"What happened to your princess? There must be something in her brain that you can't explain, is she normal? " Tom's smiling insult to Xai. Xai's feet also crossed. As he approached Tom's presence, he reacted with a smile. He even tapped Tom's shoulder. Xai still shook his head. Tom was thinking constantly about what was going on in Xai's mind.
"As far as I know Thali admits to me that she doesn't like me. Now I just realized that he liked someone else as I watched her earlier. Maybe you already know who---"
"I don't care who she likes. I'm here for Crisha" Tom said immediately.
Tom knew the princess wanted him because Thali had confessed it to him. However, he didn't feel anything for her even though she's a royal. Tom did nothing but follow Thali into the mansion. Xai continued to shake his head and the smile remained on his lips.
Finally they reached the main door. It is huge and very wide. Thali just stared the door with no word out of her mouth nor hit the doorbell nor did anyone else, but the door opened. Xai and Tom looked each other. This time around, they both became serious. As they looked each other's eye you can definitely see a conversation with their eyes which is reconciled and understood. They only want to get Crisha and will leave the place.
But...
When they entered the mansion. Everything seems to be planned. The King and Queen sat on their throne in the hallway as they talked and laughed at Crisha. Thali's eyes were dimmed, she's annoyed again because Crisha had acquired Xai's true parent's will. The two young men were surprised because they could not expect what they were going through. All they could think was Crisha is in danger. But now that they see the girl, it's in good condition.
When Crisha hugged them she was overjoyed. She quickly got up from her seat and ran to the two. Crisha hugged Tom first she jumped on the young man and embraced it tightly. Tom loved it too. When Tom confronted Xai, he released his tongue slightly to tease him. Tom wasn't disappointed because Xai was actually annoyed. Xai with no doubt pulled Crisha from Tom and hug the lady.
"Oops! I'm sorry, I didn't notice you I thought Tom was the only one who cared for me. I thought he was the only one who would save me here, " Crisha insulted. Xai stopped. He held Crisha's hand tightly and dragged her away so they could leave the area. But before they could reach the door the King and Queen stopped them.
"Wait, Prince Xai!"Due to the annoyance and anger that Xai felt, he confronted his real parents.
"She'll be your personal maid when you first think about staying here. We will not force you but at least for a little while you will give us a chance to explain and be with you, "the Queen explained to him. Suddenly Xai thought. Not because his mother asked him. But because Crisha will be his personal maid. Many series immediately came to his mind. His mood changed right away.
"What?"she shouted.
"A famous good actress like me, you'll make me a personal maid of Xai? Oh c'mon King and Queen! No!"Crisha complained boldly.
Xai would have opened his mouth to speak, but Crisha's mouth was like a gun.
"I promise I will help you negotiate with Xai, but not in this way" Crisha again spoke to the King and Queen. Then she turned to Xai.
"Look Xai, you know how much I love you even though I still scream all over the world. But I can't accept that---"
"I agreed to stay here and keep what you said. She will be my personal maid and nothing else" he said as she stared into Crisha's eyes.
"And he will be Thali's personal driver," he added and pointed his finger to Tom.
"Are you crazy?" Crisha grind on Xai. He drew his mouth to her ear.
"If this is the only way to keep your eyes on me I will accept their offer. You might even trade me with others " he whispered.
"Xai!!" She shouted. Tom smiles in anger. Thali's heart was celebrating again in particular, Xai asking Tom to be her personal driver.
.....
A broken heart story
Let me tell you a story...
Haven't you met someone that change your life? I guess all of us meet someone like that.
But not all of them stayed longer....
"You're Claire Hazel right?"the woman asked.
"Why?"I asked at the same time while looking at the envelope she’s holding
What’s with this envelope?
"Uhmm someone just ordered me to give you this. She replied and gave the envelope to me.
"Thanks" I was a bit upset but I thanked and closed the gate
Ordered? Tss...
I opened the envelope and saw a paper that was fold inside so I took it and read it.
"Hi Claire"-Jacob
"What?"I don't know if I'll laugh or what. But did I understand it correctly?
In the midst of my surprised emotion my cellphone suddenly rang and I read the message just coming.
From: Jacob
"Hi, did you receive what I sent to you?"
Instead of replying him through text I decided to call him. And I didn't get wrong with my decision because he answered my call right away.
"Hey babe" he said.
"Jacob are you crazy?"
"Hey! Seriously?”
"What’s going on?”
"Secret. I'll go there later, be ready now. We will go somewhere" he said
"Okay copy"
"I love you" he added.
"I love -" and he drop the call
Argh! That stupid guy!
Jacob is my five years boyfriend. And if not for him? And if he didn't come into my life? I don't know where to go
He warned me when I was a fourth year college. I was loosing hope that time in finishing my studies. I attempted to kill my own self. With that kind of problem, but then this guy named Jacob saved me.
He changed the course of my life. He taught me what to do every time I feel down again and that is to pray.
After our talked in the phone and a few hours of it. He came and fetch me.
He took me to a grand place full of decorations.
When it comes to surprises my boyfriend is different.
One of my unforgettable days was that day. When he kneel down his one knee and open the red box with a ring inside of it and said ;
"I guess you didn't get it. I already said Marry me using your name. I still laughed because you called me crazy. But can you still call me crazy?"he asked
Started to shed tears at the same time as she asked
"Will you marry me Claire Hazel Fernandez?"a question I don't need to think anymore.
"Yes babe. It's a yes "I cried and he put the ring in my hand and he stood up and kissed me.
I never thought that 3 days after that proposal of him I would know..
"Jacob what's the meaning of this?!"
"Claire?" He was shocked to see me but the woman who covered the blanket with her was in bed.
I was about to surprise him but I was shocked.
I immediately turned around and left that room immediately. But Jacob reached me when I was about to leave their gate.
"Babe let me explain" he said at the same time as he hold my arm.
"What? What now!”I cry out in anger and pain that I felt" And yet you did a proposal to me"
"Babe you know Trix right"
"I knew her because she was your fucking ex"
"Babe it was just... Babe I was drunk" he said and slapped him hard
"Drunk? But you prefer to! You chose to do that shit!” I shouted and he cried "I hate you" and threw the ring back I left.
He's really good in surprising. Jacob was really different.
Starting that day he went home. Sometimes I could catch him lying in front of the gate waiting for me. But who cares?
I am not a fragile woman. That's fine? That sounds good and good. Because I was hurt and didn't want to?
I really don't want to.
"CLAIRE? WHEN ARE YOU GONNA STOP FANTASIZING JACOB! IT'S BEEN 3 YEARS IT’S TIME FOR YOU TO MOVE ON NOW. JUST PLEASE STOP BEING DRUNK JUST BECAUSE OF A GUY, THEY WERE LOTS OF GUYS OUT THERE WHO'S MORE DESERVING THAN HIM”
Yes... Jacob and Trix are in with both arms together now.
But if I gave Jacob a chance the time he begged me? Maybe there was a chance that we were married.
If only I had listened to his sorry and would have broken maybe..
"CLAIRE! Are you listening?"my cousin shouted" That's right "
"If only I had listened to him right?"
"If you just listened? Why go ahead if you get married if you just listen? What do you think will make you happy with him? You'll be okay? You'll forget that they made a baby when you married her? Go ahead "
I cried of her words... She is right, I will never forget the day they fool me when we got married. You will maintain a memory of pain.
"It's not you Claire. You're fine with your life. It's not you anymore. That's not you anymore"
I laughed and threw the wine to the wall.
I cried.
Well, THE WRONG KIND OF LOVE WILL TURN YOU INTO SOMEONE YOU'RE NOT.
But starting tomorrow. I'll stand again and fell in love again with myself.
This would be my last heart ache from a wrong guy.
Next time I’ll make sure I'm in the right person.
"I swear tomorrow... Is my time" my response at the same time
TIME TO FALL BACK IN LOVE WITH MYSELF.
~ END
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Mental health: All you need to know
Hello everyone, in this article I'll be talking about mental health. A lot of you experienced having mental breakdowns especially in this pandemic that's why don't hesitate to seek someone that will listen and understand you. Having an illness in our mental health is not easy, even me experienced that and my only way to ease it is to find or explore things that would eat your time such as writing, drawing, photography and many more activities. I find it helpful because it prevents me to overthink. So to all people who's reading this and having a hard time to find a way to escape from mental illness just keep yourself busy from other stuffs without noticing that you're slowly getting away from this illness. I know it's not that easy but try to do it with enjoyment so that there will be no regrets at the end.
**WHAT IS MENTAL HEALTH?**
*Mental Health* includes finding weight on all sides of your life - physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. This is the ability to enjoy life and face the challenges in the future - including choice or decision making, adaptation and coping with serious problems, or expressing needs and those desires.
As your life and circumstances continue to change; so be your condition of will, mind, and welfare. Finding is important to weigh your life from time to time and in different situations. It's natural you don't feel right sometimes: for example, sad, worried, scared, or suspicious. But that can be a problem these feelings when interfering with your daily life-long time.
**WHAT CAUSES MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS?**
There are many beliefs about why people have health problems of the mind. According to scientific reviews, there are many serious problems with mental health caused by biochemical disturbances in the brain.
Professionals also believes that there are various causes related to psychology, society, and environment also affects your well-being. Mental health also affects the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual factors part of your life. Stress affects your ability in anything part or all of these parts and it may hurt your day-to-day management.
**YOU MAY STRUGGLE WITH DIFFERENT ISSUES SUCH AS** **:**
-Divorce
-the death of a loved one
-car accident
-dealing with a health problem
-growing up in a war-torn country, leaving your country origin, or adapting to the new country (usually, it is relevant to immigration and resettlement experiences).
-dealing with racism or other class of judgment with prejudice (prejudice) (reason for sexual orientation, age, religion, culture, class, etc.).)
-low wages or homelessness
-not having equal opportunities in educational attainment, activities, and health care
-having previously had mental health problems in the family, or being a victim of violence, abuse, or other trauma.
Your mental health can also be affected lightly by the love, support, and acceptance that you get from your family and those others.
It is important to know that all cultures do not view the same mental health.
For example, people have foreign beliefs with schizophrenia there are special powers and knowledge. Drinking alcohol and using other drugs does not usually cause mental health problems. But they are often used to help in solving the problem. They may even include the health problem of mental. You and your health care provider need to work together to identify the problem is, find out what might have caused or added to your difficulties, and how you can help.
Whatever the cause, you must know that it is not your fault for mental health problems.
These types of mental health problems Often the shape and class of mental health problems vary at different times. There are people who are depressed (depressed). Something else is anxious and scary. A child may appear in a non-standard or class of smoke avoid others. There are non-fooders. And there are some extras food. Some drink alcohol or rely on other drugs to numb painful feelings. And some are missing the handle on fact.
For example, they can hear voices, see things who is not there, or believes in false things. Others are thinking suicide - and others really commit suicide. There are those who become irritable and aggressive. And there are also some people who have trauma causes in an event, such as a serious car accident or a cause for a problem ordered for a long time, such as abuse for several years as a child. Many people have more than one of these problems.
We have long thought that mental health problems will always come back or never lose. Now we know that there are many people restored to these challenges. Many people have health problems of the mind healing by exercising their own strength and ability (resilience), support of family and friends, psychotherapy, ways to reduce their stress, and medication, if necessary.
There are people who break the mood when they find out how doctors have their problems. They may be glad to get one analysis that gives an idea of what to do and gives suggestions on how their problems can be remedied. But there are others who may not find help if you know the result evaluation. They may regard it as a mark or a catch that does not describe their situation. Or they may believe they are conditions are caused by difficult circumstances in their lives and not illness.
In fact, there are people who are tested wrong and then wrongly given in their swabs. Sometimes the review is over and over again to their mental health for years so they are losing trust the system. But proper evaluation helps others choose the right scarf and bring it home with the best care.
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My sketchbook knows
Most women dream of getting married to the man who holds their hearts, and Celine is one of them. She didn't deny it. Since before she had imagined in her mind where she's going to get married, what she's going to wear, the song to play as she walks by the isle straight to her beloved, and who the groom she wanted.
“Today is a perfect day to get married.” Celine smiled at herself, holding a Biedermeier bouquet. It consists of different types of five-layered flower that formed a ring and in different colors. She was wearing a simple off-shoulder, white dress, accented with pearls on the linings. Her hair was styled to look like a rose.
The sky is very clear now. The wind is not cold and the sun is not too hot. It looks like the weather is going to be good today.
Gradually people came and saw her from the window and saw the broad smile of them. She could not help but remeinence that specific day...
She sat near the shore and held her sketch book, trying to draw the magnificent sea view surrounded by mountains and illuminated by the sun, next to her and her friends.
“You always keep drawing the sceneries but you never even tried to draw me,” she slammed into him as he wiped his damp hair from the sea.
Celine was slightly stunned by what she was doing and looked at how Gab was smiling. He has a feature of being a korean because of his small eyes,white skin, tall height, and a thick eyebrow. “Why should I draw you when I know in the first you're not a good view” she responded seriously before returning to what she's drawing.
They have been like this for a long time. They didn't take it seriously because they knew each other since they were a kid, so words like that doesn't hurt them at all.
“that's why no one would attempt to court you because of your seriousness.” Celine stopped of what she's doing but couldn't take a look of Gab because he now wears his white t-shirt to change.
“that's why no one would attempt to court me because I prefer no to.” she cleared to him and now sits beside her.
“Whatever.” Gab's response was not in mood here. He stood up and handed her his hand that Celine had just stared at. “let's go, let's just take a walk to dry my shorts before returning home!” he said to her.
A sigh was released by Celine before Gab's hand was taken and pulled upright. They took their belongings and decided to take a walk near the ocean until they reached a hill where an old church stood.
Many people were there and had a wedding decoration.
The two sat nearby while watching the crowd applaud as the newlywed was coming out from inside the church. They are look happy and very much in love. “ Here comes the newlywed!”their guests shouted in the midst of applause and scream.
Celine smiled as she watched them. She only attended one wedding and was only five years old. She doesn't remember that much because like any other child, all she wanted was to play with the other kids.
“Do you want to get married someday?”
Gradually her curve lips became a line. She glared at Gab looking at the church seriously. People are leaving and they are definitely heading to the reception area.
“We are still sixteen but you're asking me that? Seriously? ”
“Well you can actually answer it right away if you want to since it's just answerable by yes or no” Gab cut off what he had to say while meeting her eyes. He looked serious.
Celine was swallowed up because she didn't know why this was so serious about the question from him, “Sure,” she answered and stared at the church.
“then what's your dream wedding dress?”
Celine thought. 'What is it?’
She pictured herself being a bride to the man she loves and a wide smile automatically painted on her lips. “Maybe it's just white gown... the off-shoulder one,” she said dreamily. “My hair will be styled like a rose. Then the bouquet will be shape round with different flowers.”
Daniel also smiled at her description, “how about the wedding song?”
Celine put the index finger on her chin and thought slightly, “Born for You by David Pomeranz. Because it means, I am destined to be yours.”
Gab fix his seat and also imitated the details that she was telling him.
“Any wedding destinations you have in mind?” he asked further.
“At Saint Ignatius Chapel in Baguio City,” no doubt of answering. She was still smiling and doesn't want to get out of her imagination.
She had just returned to her head when her mother called her, “Celine! Come on and maybe we'll be late.”
They are currently in a lodge house near Saint Ignatius Chapel. They stood up to follow her mother while a smile on her face is still there. She gave a final glance and her reflection at the full-body mirror.
“Off-shoulder, white gown, check.” she whispered. “Rose-styled hair, check.”She looked while holding a bouquet, “And lastly, a round bouquet of various flowers. Check check!” she smiled at her reflection before finally leaving the room.
She closed the door tightly and walked to the hallway out. A white car was waiting for them outside - the vehicle that would take her to the chapel.
Saint Ignatius Chapel is located inside the PMA compound. There is a stairway going there and surrounded by some trees. She always dreamed of getting married to a place like this - simple, quiet, and has a beautiful view. A perfect place where she would promise to love and cherish her groom till death do they part.
The door opened to get off the car and climb the stairs, where she was sure Gab was waiting, She couldn't help but look back
When they returned that same day she immediately sat at the foot of her bed, released another sketchbook she had kept under the bed, and spread pages containing sketches she had in her beloved which is Gab.
Her fingers crossed the young man's face as she spoke in mind. She was shivere because her long time crush/ best friend asked her about her dream wedding, 'it is also possible that he has a secret crush at me?'questioning herself in mind.
That sketchbook was filled with her favorite memories of the young lad but she never had the courage to let him know how she truly feels. Then, when they are in their right age, or when she truly understands the concept of love, that is what she always put in mind before she'll confess.
At last, she's now at the final step.
She walked to the door and she heard the pianist playing the song she like while walking down the aisle. She also look at Gab with a smile. He looks great wearing a royal blue suit hugging his broad shoulders, his jawline became more prominent as they are grew older, and his eyes reflected love.
People were on their way and she noticed that Gab was staring at her as well.
But she knew it was just an illusion. She slowly turned to the woman behind her. She looks like a princess in the wedding gown she is wearing and still crying because it will finally walk to the altar to the man she's been waiting .
Celine gave the bouquet to the bride before facing forward again. She looked up to prevent the grain of the swirling holes from pouring out of her eyes.
"Today is a perfect day to get married,' her brain said. 'I am at the chapel where I want to share my vow to the man I love, wearing the dress I dream of while my favorite song is playing as I walk down the aisle, and my groom is happily waiting at the altar... but, too bad, I'm not his bride".
The End.
The escape of a murderer (part III)
"What happened? What's with the text and why you're shaking?"he was still curious as he approached the phone that had been thrown to the floor. I couldn't speak right away because of the mixed panic and fear that had engulfed my whole body today. I seem to be stoned in my seat and I would like to speak too without knowing what to say.
"Beware Sheldon?" read the text message I just received.
"Who's it? Why is it unknown from your contact?"he added.
"I-I don't know! How would I know what the number is?!"I answered sarcastically.
"Okay!"he objected to me but it was obvious that he didn't seem to believe me. He even came to me again and returned the phone I had fallen for. He looks like he doesn't care about the weird happening right now.
After he returned my phone he calmly walked over to the table and drank some water.
Looking at him makes me think about something. Is he numb or I'm just overreacting?
I just stared at him as he drank water. I look forward to the right opportunity to reopen the conversation between us. After he drank, he looked at me and said,
"Stop doing that! It's scary 'you look at it."
I will often come to him as I try to chase my breath just to confront him.
"Won't it be more scary 'to eat food that neither of us cooked?
Imagine, right here at home the food is cooked while you were at HQ and while I am sleeping!"my dear.
From there the wonder fled to his face. In my case he just got me seriously after I told him.
"S-so you mean, you did not cook it?"he said.
"No!" I replied.
The two of us were quiet at that time being but obvious as he looked like he was just trying to speak again.
"Sheldon aren't you just stress? You may be unconsciously cooked then you can't remember because your mind is too focused on Carin's murder case? or something like that, "he was very upset.
"What?! You can't be serious!"I said at the same time turned away from him. "That's impossible because my mental health is okay," I added in my low tone because I wasn't even sure if my mind was still stable.
"Stress, anxiety or depression can cause forgetfulness' bro. You may have been drowning in sadness over what happened to Carin, "he said, even though I doubted myself.
Silence again resonated with both of us. I can't argue anymore because Raj has a point too. I'm a bit forgetful and honestly I'm very focused on the case, which may be why I'm dreaming of Carin.
"'Bro try to relax. Then don't spend the rest of your life in the case. If Carin is here, she'll probably get mad.
I'll rest in the room first. If you need something, take care of it. I'm sleepy!"he continued before finally leaving. I was left near the sofa. I seem disturbed by something I cannot determine what.
I can't blame Raj for thinking I'm losing my mental health because I don't even know if my brain is still in order. Who wouldn't lose himself if someone killed his beloved in life right? To think they were four, I just thought about losing.
There I dropped my body on the sofa and clung to sleep alone. Out of nowhere, a thought just popped out in my mind saying,
"If only I could turn back the time... I'll definitively save them."
...
"Kali what?"Carin repeats what I said in her confused tone. This is the first time I've mentioned to her my team's look forward project.
As she was busy stirring the coffee, I continued to talk.
"Yes! Kali. It's the Hindu goddess of death and doomsday, "I explained to her to relieve her confusion. She quickly stopped putting a coffee mix in the cups and confronted me.
"I see!"she said delightfully as she was wonderstruck by it.
I couldn't help but smile after seeing her reaction still blowing. In my case she would enjoy what I was talking about. Then she turned around to continue to stir the coffee.
"So how come your project will be called Kali? I thought it was about..." She was cut off because before she could finish what she wanted to say I immediately spoke to make everything clear about Kali.
"Yes you know it right! Kali is designed to achieve time travel.
Her name is Kali again derived from Sanskrit, because Kali is not just a goddess of death and doomsday. She's also the goddess of time, "I explain.
It was only a matter of time that she also confronted me with two cups of coffee in her hand, so I immediately came to pick them up. We sat down at the dining table as I waited for her to speak again because I didn't really know if she would still like to talk about Kali.
She sighed in the cup and then again she continued to ask questions.
"Then why Kali?"
I mean, you said earlier that Kali in Hindu means goddess of death and doomsday, right?"she was sure that I was answered by the nod.
"There's a lot of time gods in there. Is Deus or Cronus' not?"she said once again sip coffee.
I also tasted coffee as I thought about what I would say to her next.
"You don't want the name Kali?"I ask economically.
"No its not like that. ... the creepy is just because of the background and history of the name.
It's like it brings chaos, destruction and extinction, "she pointed to her serious and seemingly distressing tone.
I couldn't help but laugh because of her answer. I never really thought she'll take it seriously to this content.
"What are you laughing at?"she said.
"Nothing! It's just that I can't believe you're being serious about Kali.
As far as I know, you have no interest in these things. And that's exactly the reason why I'm laughing right now, "I explained.It takes me by surprise because her fur rise.
"Oh you're scared?!"I reap in a lot of laughter because Carin is not really credible in fictional entities. Strange but funny hahahahaha!
"No I wasn't!"she denied.
I take a zip so I could not speak right away. That was probably Carin's chance to continue speaking.
"The weird thing is! I'm not scared right now. I do not understand why my fur rose suddenly, "she continued.
"You've been overwhelmed by the caffeinated drinks love."
She barely raised her eyebrows and said, "Neither do! Maybe that's just a sign that you should replace Kali. Why not Deus? or Cronus?"
I could scarcely pour coffee into my mouth because of what she said. She's more interested than I anticipated. When she saw me holding back the laughter she was red and spoke constantly.
"Okay nevermind"
Then what should I do? First of all I'm not included in your team. Secondly, I'm not into that topics and lastly..."she said because she ran out of words.
"Lastly..."she tried again but she had nothing to say.
"Lastly what?"I feel sorry for my laughter.
Suddenly she filled me with a sharp gaze. Looking her like that I can say anytime soon she'll be mad. And when that happens, bloody good will happen again.
"Lastly, whatever name we come up with, that would never change my love for you. I will always love you, every day and until death," I said to her. But her face didn't look serious.
As I hugged her tightly I whispered and said, "I love you forever and always Carin."
She also answered a hug to me so I was reassured. For a long time I felt this pleasure.
But not long ago that enthusiasm suddenly had a voice that suddenly spoke to me.
"You killed me Shelly! You killed me!"
I was so overwhelmed by the tight hug of Carin after hearing her voice inside my head.
My week is in different directions and in every corner of the house just to look where does the voice came from.
"Sheldon, you okay? What's going on with you?"said Carin while trying her very best to calm me down.
"It's all your fault!
You killed me!"
To be continued......
Life lessons; Road to happiness
Experience leads us to a lesson that can be learned. In this world the're so many lessons that we wish to had while we still have the opportunity to appreciate and apply them. The thing with wisdom, and often with life lessons in general, is that they’re learned in retrospect, long after we needed them. The good news is that other people can benefit from our experiences and the lessons we’ve learned.
**HERE ARE THE LIFE LESSONS YOU** **SHOULD LEARN:**
•**MONEY IS NOT THE KEY TO SOLVE YOUR** **PROBLEMS**
Money is a tool; a commodity that buys you necessities and some nice “wants,” but it is not really what you need. Tho it helps you ease your sadness but it will never give a lifetime happiness, it only gives you a temporary joy and then after get back to the real delimma. Too much love of money may leads you to danger, that's why you should use it properly. Personally, money was my escape from reality. Everytime a storm came I always look for trendy clothes and spend too much in expensive restaurants. But then I realized from time to time I'm a total coward because instead of facing my problems to get rid of it, I always pack myself to avoid from it which I think I didn't grow.
There are a great many people who are living on very little, yet have wonderfully happy lives and there are sadly a great many people are living on quite a lot, yet have terribly miserable lives.
All of us would agree that with money you can buy a house, a nice vehicle, designer shoes and clothes but money on the other hand cannot fix a broken relationship, cure loneliness, and the “happiness” it brings is only fleeting and not the kind that really and truly matters. Happiness is not for sale. If you’re expecting the “stuff” you can buy to “make it better,” you will never be happy.
**• DON'T RUSH YOU'RE NOT IN** **A** **COMPETITION**
Sometimes people often rush into things that they really wanted especially when they reached the adulthood stage. They seemed to do everything at once which is not the proper way to do, you need to decide everything, plan out your life, experience everything, get to the top, find true love, figure out your purpose, and do it all at the same time.
Take it easy— just slow down you still have a lot of time don’t rush into things without a plan. Let your life unfold then decide. Wait a bit to see where it takes you, and take time to weigh your options. Enjoy every bite of your food, take time to look around your surroundings, let the other person finish their side of the conversation. Allow yourself to think beforehand.
**•PLEASING EVERYONE IS NOT A GOOD IDEA**
Focus only to yourself if you want to live a happy life, trying to please everyone is not necessary because all of us have differences. If many people likes you then that good but if there are some who don't then don't bother their judgements that's totally normal it's already in a humans' nature all you need to do is to ignore negativities and live on. Other people cannot give you the validation you seek so be it live your life with positivity and by that happiness shall stay with you.
**• VALUE YOUR HEALTH**
Staying fit and healthy can definitely help you live longer in this world. Health is our most valuable asset so always appreciate, nurture, and protect it. Good health is often wasted on the young before they have a chance to appreciate it for what it’s worth.
We tend to take our good health for granted, because it’s just there. We don’t have to worry about it, so we don’t really pay attention to it until we realized that we have to take care of it because this is only our card to live longer. And the only key to value yourself is to embrace your flaws, learn to accept it and make it as a motivation to keep going.
**• DON'T EXPECT TOO MUCH**
Expecting too much on something that you really want can't lead you to success. We all have this situation that no matter how carefully you plan and how you work hard for it and it didn't work accordingly well that's okay because that's part of life, sometimes things just don’t work out the way you want them to and it's normal that's how life works. But it doesn't mean you'll end up there sometimes life gives us challenges before we find the right direction. Don't give up and don't be afraid to fail explore few things and learn from it so that on the next time you'll try you're now at your destination.
**• IT’S NOT ALWAYS ABOUT YOU**
The world doesn't rotates in you, you are not the epicenter of the universe. So stop thinking that if a problem will come to your family you don't have to carry all, put in your mind that sometimes you need a companion to fix it. Don't hesitate to seek help find someone that can be trusted and share it him/her. It’s very difficult to view the world from a perspective outside of your own, since we are always so focused on what’s happening in our own lives.
Being aware of what's happening around you is normal as long as you handle it properly and don't get too affected then be it. It helps to keep things in perspective.
**• DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK IF YOU DON'T KNOW NOTHING**
No one in this world knows everything, no one figured out everything. Nobody has all the answers unlike you're google. There’s no wrong in saying “I don’t know.” What wrong is pretending that you know all things even if you really don't. It just makes you neurotic to keep up the pretense of manufactured perfection.
We have this mindset that there is some kind of shame in admitting our limitations, but we can’t possibly know everything. We all make mistakes and mess up occasionally. We learn as we go, that’s life.
**• ALWAYS CHOOSE TO LOVE**
Love isn't just applicable in having relationship to someone, start loving yourself and someone will follow. That burst of initial exhilaration, pulse quickening love and passion does not last long. But that doesn’t mean long-lasting love is not possible.
Love is a choice that you make every day. If you choose love then you're in the right path even though others won't love you back that's okay it's not your loss by the way it's theirs. We have to choose to let annoyances pass, to forgive, to be kind, to respect, to support, to be faithful and to be happy.
**• HAVE A GOOD PERSPECTIVE**
Everytime we’re worried about things that are happening to us, it means we’ve lost the perspective we set in our minds. Everything that is happening in our lives seems so big, so important, so do or die, but in the grand picture, this single hiccup often means next to nothing.
The fight we’re having, the job we didn’t get, the real or imagined slight, the unexpected need to shift course, the thing we wanted, but didn’t get. Most of it won’t matter 20, 30, 40 years from now. It’s hard to see long term when all you know is short term, but unless it’s life-threatening, let it go, and move on.
**• BE APPRECIATIVE**
In life we often don’t appreciate things what we have until it’s gone that includes your health, your family and friends, your job, the money you have. Appreciate them especially the memories you had with your parents, we'll never know when they'll lasts in this world so treasure the moments you have and love them everyday.
When you’re young, it seems that your parents will always be there, but they won’t. You think you have plenty of time to get back in touch with your old friends or spend time with new ones, but you don’t. You have the money to spend, or you think you’ll have it next month, but you might not.
Nothing in your life is not guaranteed to be there tomorrow, including those you love.
This is a hard life lesson to learn, but it may be the most important of all.
Choose to live in happiness because life changes instantly. Make sure you appreciate what you have, while you still have it because regrets will always be in the end.
Favorite and Memorable scenes in Harry Potter
This movie tells about a young wizard which became an orphan when he was a baby. His parents died by the hand of the Dark wizard,Voldemort. So, he had to struggled on his whole life living with his aunt, uncle and cousin they treat Harry like a slave. And fortunately Hagrid take him the day of his birthday to Hogwarts. Hogwarts is a school of wizardry. In there, he learned everything about magic, and also he found his true friends, Hermione and Ron . Hermione is a muggle and she's the brightest wizard in their batch. Ron is part of a low class status in wizard world which are the Weasleys. They always helped Harry Potter in everything, whether it's right or against the rules. They do this all together, happiness or sorrow. Harry Potter also discovered the truth about the tragic death of his parents and Voldemort's main objective.
From the story, I learn something about love, friendship, against everything bad with courage. That’s why this movie becoming my favourite ever, because the story is touching, even it’s just a fiction story. But it doesn’t matter because we get everything in this movie the great adventure and the philosophy of this movie.
THE FOLLOWING ARE MY FAVORITE/MEMORABLE SCENES IN HARRY POTTER
•**CHESS GAME FROM THE PHILOSOPHER'S** **STONE**- As I watched this scene I was very amaze and excited of the game because I couldn't imagine how will they play that real big stuff. And I admit it's kinda dramatic, watching Ron sacrificing himself just to let Harry get inside the room they're aiming but before hand Ron should sacrifice his knight so Harry could checkmate the opponent's King.
•**FIRST QUIDDITCH TOURNAMENT**- First year in Hogwarts Harry already felt the fame, Professor McGonagall noticed that Harry can be a seeker so she introduced Harry to Gryffindor Quidditch team. A seeker's job is to catch the golden snitch because this is the most important ball and a very hard to catch because of its speed. Fortunately at Quidditch tournament Harry manage to catch it and their team won, I was just amazed how he handled to catch it although it's epic because instead of ending it by his hands it ends on his mouth. Hermione was pretty cool on that scene as well because she easily noticed that someone's putting a spell on Harry's broom which she managed to undone the spell.
•**DOBBY'S FREEDOM**- this scene tells that whatever creature you are you should be treated well. I love how Harry put an end of Dobby's awful situation from Lucius Malfoy as a slave. He tricked Lucius by giving Tom's diary with a sock on it and Lucius gave it to Dobby because he's a slave. In elf's rule if their master gave them a piece of cloth it means they're free already. And also I find ot interesting when Dobby showed his loyalty to Harry by standing in front of him the moment Lucius wanted to harm Harry.
•**DUMBLEDORE'S SACRIFICED**- I was very mad watching Snape ends Albus life, I really thought he will help Harry rescuing Albus but he didn't. I felt sad for Hogwarts as well because they lost the one of the most powerful wizard.
•**NEVILLE'S BRAVERY**- I stan Neville on this part when he pulled out the sword of Godric Gryffindor to kill Nagini which happens the last horcrux of Voldemort that will truly end his life. He really showed bravery in the end even though he'd been a lot that war.
•**MRS. WEASLEY'S ATTACK TO BELLATIX**- Try not to cheer as sweet Mrs. Weasley drops a curse word and shows Bellatrix how the proper witches do it. You can see how fed up she is with Death Eaters messing with her family. Even though Mrs. Weasley focuses on her family, you can see by the way she flings curses, she’s a powerful witch.
•**SEVERUS SNAPE'S DEATH**- At first when Snape was nearly in death I said in myself "he deserves it" not until he asked Harry to take his tears and said "you have your mother's eyes". I was surprised because that's the first time he compliment Harry. He might have hated Harry all his life but that did not stop him from loving Lily. So when he told Harry to look at him he simply wanted to look into the eyes of the woman who he loved his entire life for the last time before leaving the world forever. And when Harry knew the truth he found out that he wasn't his intention to kill Dumbledore. This part really hurt me so much, after all Snape was the real legend of this story.
•**HARRY AND SIRIUS BLACK MEETING**- after twelve years of waiting Sirius Black finally found out where's the real traitor whch happens to disguise as Ron's rat Scabbers it's real name was Peter Pettigrew, he's the one who told where the Potter's family at. Days of luring with the three, Harry found out the truth that Sirius was a friend not an enemy. I felt sorry for Sirius because he was imprison from the thing he didn't do and on the other way around I felt happy because Harry finally have a family.
•**SAVING SIRIUS FROM DEMENTORS**- A heroic moment for Harry that proves that working hard at something really can pay off. Harry showed bravery in this scene, imagine how many dementors are aiming for Sirius life but still he managed to defeat them by casting patronus charm.
•**BLOWING UP AUNT MARGE**- that wench truly deserved it, I really love how Harry blown her up asking help to his cousin to do something haha. She annoys me the way she judged Harry's parents and treating him like her servant, she doesn't even know what are the sacrifices Harry's parents did.
________________________hello thank you for going this far, I hope you enjoyed reading this. Keep safe y'all :')
My first crush in high school
Nung nalaman ko na yung section ko ay pilot section, nalungkot ako hindi dahil boring ang section at puro aral nalang inaatupag. Sa katunayan mas gusto ko pang mag-aral kaysa gumala, nalungkot lang ako dahil sa tingin ko hindi na ako magiging honor student kasi alam naman natin kapag pilot section maraming matatalino. Sobrang nabahala ako nun kahit wala pang pasok haha. At yun na nga, first day of school na syempre pumasok ako ng maaga para obserbahan yung bago kong classmates. Unang pasok palang nya nako po! Napaka gwapong nilalang, ang linis nya tignan at may dating. Kumabog agad dibdib ko haha, pero hindi lang pala ako ang may crush sa kanya halos lahat ng babae dun sa classroom. Bakit ko alam? Kasi sila mismo umamin sa kanya pero ayun dedma lang si FJF (initials nya po yan, baka kasi may makaalam na nagbabasa hehe #safe) Pero there's this one girl na patay na patay talaga sa kanya, grabe yung girl makapag effort parang gusto nya talagang jowain si FJF. Umiiyak nga yung girl kapag hindi pinapansin eh, haha jowa yarn? Seatmate ko nga pala yung girl haha tawagin nalang natin siya sa pangalang AC. Naging mag best friends pala kami ni AC nung grade 7, I'm the one she's been sharing topics about FJF. Ako naman si mabait kinig lang ng kinig kahit na may feelings rin ako. Hindi ko magawang sabihin kay AC na crush ko rin yung crush nya kasi baka magalit siya sa akin,sa katunayan ako yung una na nagka-crush kay FJF sumunod lang siya nung second day kasi she's a transferee from section B, kaya ayun tinago ko nalang. Naging close rin kami ni FJF kasi pareho kaming mahilig sa math sa katunayan kapag may exam sa math kaming dalawa parating top, magaling rin siya sa drawing may time kaming dalawa ang naging representative sa grade 7 para sa poster making contest, sa quizbee din naging magkalaban kami, at syempre sa quiz bowl. Kaya siguro naging close kami kasi may common grounds na tinatawag.
Ito yung mga moments namin together (ang assuming ko masyado dito)
Grade 7 days
•July. Parati niyang pinapalagay mga gamit niya sa bag ko. Bigla-bigla nalang akong napapaisip bakit sa bag ko pa?
•September, Science month. May contest na sasalihan ang buong class so nagpractice kami, hindi ko namalayan na may babagsak na gamit sa ulo ko pero ang nangyari sinalo nya. Syempre ako namula akalain mo yun pang kdrama.
•November. Nagka cellphone ako, ayun naging textmates kami pero yung conversation lang namin nun ay "dumating na ba si ma'am", "nagsimula na ba yung misa", "anong oras kami papasok" at tsaka tapos may time pa na sobrang aga naming pumasok na halos wala pang students sa school. Ang ginawa namin bumili kami ng ice cream libre niya.
•2nd week of December. May contest na naman and this time Caroling contest. By pair yung sayaw lalaki at babae, eh wala naman akong close na lalaki kundi siya lang ang nakakagulat na part siya mismo nag initiate na partner kami.
*nalaman kong crush niya yung best friend ko itago nalang natin siya sa pangalang J. Kaya ayon lumayo loob ko sa kanya kasi akala ko ako, char! Pero tinanggap ko nalang kasi maganda naman talaga si J kaya nga muse namin yun eh tapos ang talino pa at tsaka ang bait.
*may time na lumindol tapos may klase kami sakto last subject na pero pinauwi agad kami habang may tinatapos pa kaming activity. Napag-alaman kong tapos na sa activity si FJF kaya nanghiram ako kasi kinabukasan ipapasa, saktong sakto nanghiram din yung crush niya kaya hindi na ako umasang ipapahiram niya sa akin pero nagulat ako kasi ako yung pinahiram niya.
Grade 8 days
•First day of school nakipagkwentuhan agad siya. Madalang kasi siyang lumapit sa babae. That's why I didn't expect I thought our closeness before will end there but he initiated not to.
• Parati siyang ngumingiti kapag tinatawag yung scores ko at scores niya na magkapareho. Minsan nahuhuli ko siyang tumitingin sakin. Ako lang ba?
•Halos araw-araw nagpapapansin, minsan nga nahampas ko na siya ng walis eh tsaka nakalmot ko narin. Akalain mo ba naman sa lahat ng gamit sa classroom gamit ko pa talaga napagdiskitahan. There are times we're running on the ground because I was trying to get my hand towel from his hands.
*Wala masyado akong assuming moments dito kasi nga gusto niya best friend ko. Siguro napansin nya rin na lumayo loob ko sa kanya( kaya siguro palaging nagpapapansin yun), nag momove on kasi ako kaya ganun. Ang hirap kaya mag move on kung parati mo siyang kasama. Also I tried to ask him why he's ignoring AC from the day she confessed her feelings to him. He said "I'm ignoring her because I don't want her to expect something from me". That's why I decided not to tell him my feelings baka hindi rin niya ako pansinin, tinago ko talaga at ang hirap pala lalo na at kaharap mo siya palagi.
Grade 9 days
•4th Grading. Kailangan namin mag practice ng Noli Me Tangere upang makapasa. Sa araw-araw naming practice araw-araw din kaming nag-hoholding hands at umaakbay sa isa't-isa. Tinutukso na nga kami ng classmates namin kung kami na ba char! Tapos he will respond to them "it's official". Alam ko namang joke lang yun pero kinilig ako dun pero hindi ko pinakita para di halata.
•JS PROM. Inaya niya akong sumayaw pero napakapabebe ko that time, inayawan ko siya. Hindi dahil sa ayaw ko syempre gustong-gusto ko pero yung dress ko kasi maluwag binully pa nga nya ako nun eh kaya daw maluwag kasi flat walang makakapitan.
*hindi po ako yung nag-iinitiate na makipag holding hands siya po lahat. Si AC din po ng time na yun nagseselos sa akin kaya lumayo yung loob niya at hindi na kami nagpapansinan dahil dun. Pero para sakin mas mabuti narin yun dahil napaka bad influence niya sakin eh, akala ko pa naman totoong kaibigan siya pero hindi pala. Mas gusto kong maging kaibigan si FJF dahil hindi siya yung tipong ibaback stab ka. Si AC kasi ganun siya she's a back stabber nalaman ko lang din yun ng may nagsumbong sa akin na kaklase ko. At tsaka kapag nagsasalita yung teacher namin parati nalang siya nakikipagdaldalan parang ayaw niyang makinig, may pagkakataon nga na principal's office siya dahil sa sobrang talkative niya buti nalang hindi ako nasali. Kapag may exam naman parati siyang nangongopya sa akin, ang unfair lang tignan ako yung nag-aral siya yung kumukuha lang ng sagot. Ayaw ko rin naman siyang sabihan sa hinanakit ko sa mga ugali niya kasi alam ko magagalit lang siya, ayaw ko kasi ng may taong galit sakin kaya hinahayaan ko nalang.
Grade 10 days
• Super close na kami yung tipong normal na sa amin yung holding hands, akbay at hug at ang bango niya sobra. May time nanghihiram siya ng mga gamit ko ganun din ako. Bihira lang kasi yung nakakahiram sa gamit niya kasi napakaarte nun pagdating sa ganyan.
•Teachers Day, OCTOBER. Dahil Student council kami sa school hindi maiiwasan na kami talaga yung mag-oorganize ng mga events. Minsan hinahablot niya nalang yung kamay ko para makipag holding hands sa harap ng maraming tao. Naku po! natatakot nalang ako minsan kasi crush ng bayan po siya hindi lang sa classroom kundi sa buong school, baka lang may magalit sa akin pero buti nalang wala.
•Sa sobrang close namin kapag nauuhaw siya hindi siya magdadalawang isip na uminom sa water bottle ko, medyo nakakakilig yun pang kdrama moment.
•3rd GRADING. Hindi kami nakapasok sa top 10 overall, lumapit siya sa akin at nag iyakan kami hehe hindi man nakakakilig ang cute lang tignan.
Ps: sa Final grading nakapasok na po kami sa top 10
Pero hanggang NOVEMBER lang yun kasi nalaman ko nalang nung christmas party na may girlfriend na siya at ang masakit pa classmate ko pa, hindi ko talaga inakala na magiging sila. Mas tatanggapin ko pa siguro kung si J kasi nasa mabuting kamay siya kaysa dun sa jowa niya that time. Pero hindi nagtagal naghiwalay rin sila. Mabuti na rin yun kesa magtagal sila, napapansin ko kasi nung Senior high kahit hindi na kami magkaklase nag-aaway sila ng jowa niya sa classroom nila, normal naman po yung away sa isang relasyon pero dapat ilagay sa tamang lugar hindi yung maraming tao ang nanonood tapos nakikita ko nalang siyang umiiyak. Magkatabi lang kasi yung room namin kaya minsan nakikita ko siya sa lobby. Hindi ko siya magawang lapitan kahit minsan kapag nagkakasalubong kami at tinatawag niya pangalan ko hindi ko siya pinapansin kasi nagtatampo ako, kasali na rin yung nagka jowa siya pero ang dahilan talaga hindi man lang niya ako sinabihan parang wala lang ako sa kanya. Minsan nga napapatanong ako kung magkaibigan ba talaga kami o ako lang yung nag-assume na kaibigan kami. Kahit paalam man lang wala akong natanggap parang na ghost ako that time.
Ps: Wala na po akong balita sa kanya kasi nasa ibang university siya nag-aaral. Yun lamang po at maraming salamat! Sana nagustuhan niyo.
The only reason why I became an Introvert
I used to be a happy and friendly person. In fact I have many friends, they are the ones I always run into when I have problems, they make me happy too. I'm excited to go to school because I'll see them again. Our friendship started in grade 7, it was fun to think that we friends got in the top 10 not just in the classroom but in all grade level of the school it lasts until we graduated Senior high. It took seven years, until we were gradually separated from destiny. Our priority in life was also different when we were in college. Various courses were taken at different universities. I also can't blame them because our dream to become successful is more important. And if you are a true friend you will support them right? All I can't think about is that when they have a problem, right away I will immediately reach out of them while when I have a problem I need to come to them first. From time to time I was wondering if they were really friends of me or were they just friends with me because they needed someone that would reach out on them? And I decided to stay away from them because they might be really busy and I understand that, I always will. I tried to block them in fb to test if they were really worried about me, and if they are... they would make way to find out my reason why I did that right? But in the unfortunate case, they just proved to me that I am not valued. So, I conclude to end our friendship although it hurts but I also have to accept that there are people who really aren't for you. So far, I have no close friends because of my past. But there are some tried to enter into my life but I do not let them in, I observe them first whether they are qualified or not. Sorry if you think that I am so choosy I just learned. I also realized that it wasn't hard to be alone, in fact I have a lot of time knowing myself evenmore. And I have more time to go through things like playing guitar, ukelele, drawing and capturing beautiful scenery. Being an introvert makes me independent, I don't need anyone else to help with the problem I'm facing because I'm the solution myself. I'm not saying it's not good to have a friend, it's just my own opinion based on my experience.
The only reason why I became an introvert is because of the distrust of other people. If for others it is superficial but for me it is not. Trust has a big impact when it comes to it not only in friendship but also in love. You can't tell that someone is important without trust being shown. Trust connects people so that they can form an organization. I didn't get angry with them but I just couldn't bring back the friendship they were looking for me because it wasn't just once or twice but always, they always disappoints me everytime I needed help from them and now I think I learned my lesson and that is not to give everything what you could give, learn to value yourself as well and ask are they worth of my efforts? Are they going to do it for me if I'm at my lowest? And if not, then stop it you're just making yourself pity.
**EFFECTS OF MY LIFESTYLE AS AN INTROVERT**
• I don't like crowd
• I usually don't greet people first
• quiet but I'm not shy, I just don't like talking
• I'm always at my room and I only comes out when I'll be going to the c.r
• I usually decline invitations from others
• everyday I'm in social media but not that type posting on my own wall
•sometimes I used to record my dance in tiktok and post it but only me is the audience
•I often received late news/rumors from someone I know because I tend not to care others
•I can play lots of instruments because I have more time in myself
• I just came out of the house once in a blue moon
• Too focused on studies no time on others aside from my interests
**THINGS I LEARNED WHEN I BECAME AN INTROVERT:**
1. **COME TO NEW CONCLUSIONS**
I have a natural predisposition to the reflecting gesture. It means, among other things, that I have a greater ability to and more likely to come up with new ideas, especially if they are complicated.
2. **I HAVE A FACILITY FOR FANTASY**
It doesn't hurt to not dwell on reality. Imagination can be the best playground, have a great facility to clearly imagine, as O do not feel the need to direct my focus outside.
3**. I DO NOT DECIDE QUICKLY**
As a general rule, extroverts tend to see "opportunities" often, as they positively appreciate the simple fact of receiving certain doses of risk. In this way, the choice of launching themselves to try new things is attractive to them. The downside is that this bias towards risks can lead to a situation sooner or later where the price to pay for these decisions is high.
4. Introverts, on the other hands make it easier to decide based on reasonable standards, which helps to fix it. They have more reason to think twice before deciding on one option or another.
5. **I DO NOT DEPEND** **ON EXTERNAL DISTRACTIONS**
While extroverts should continue to create plans, introverts do not have to go there, because whatever happens they can always rely on themselves. So if your friends can't stay one day, staying home is not even seen as a problem.
At this point, introverts are more independent, as they are capable of developing challenging tasks without having to wait for their own interests to recognize the interests of others.
A smile from her
Miko was shocked to hear the voice of his neighbor, Joy. He saw her coming home from school with her classmates. The mouth is uninterrupted. It doses the dominant one while talking to others.
“ She really are loud and annoying.” he said to his self. “She's indeed noisy. Acts like she owns the street! College student but still childish!”
Jou didn't even move to that place - a resettlement area somewhere in Rizal - they were together and brought her there. They were neighbors but they were not good friends.
He could not help thinking about the past.
He was eight years old when their home were demolish, it belongs to a large squatter’s area in Manila, where they lived. The real owner took it and made it to a mall. But there is a relocation intended for every family house there. Not bad although it's a little far away because it has the added value for starting a new life.
Their life went well there. His father's work is only a regular employee in a rubber and synthetic factory as a machine operator. His mother has a sari-sari store. His sister and Miko also helped their parents in the store.
More than a year later their former neighbor left. They went back home to the province because of some realization of whatever effort they made still they're plagued with poverty. The house was not vacant because someone moved immediately. This is the family that bought the rights of the house.
October. Yup! It was October, he would never forget. The month in which he met the creature that would be important to his life. And it was also his birthday month so for him it was the most wonderful gift he had ever received in his entire life.
At the age of nine, he suddenly felt a woman's admiration. When he saw Joy, who was eight years old at that time. In fact, he was trapped in the front of their store and stared at her. Joy is so pretty. As she frowned while hugging a teddy bear she became even more noticeable because of that.
When Joy looked at him, she smiled. But that urge was responded to by 'belat' and circled her eyes. He felt annoyed. Very good enough to knock his daydream. She was the woman he first admired.
Joy became friends with her sister Ella. Both girls became close immediately. Somehow he had the opportunity to play with her. However, he was already contented with the little time that they spend to each other and he was already feeling happy. Even more often Joy was mean to him.
Few months later, Miko still carries his secret and true feelings for Joy. He kept a special prejudice in one corner of his heart. But the painful part is he didn't know why the situation is getting worse. It is not unreasonable to say that Joy treats him like an enemy.
“Joy is here! I heard her voice.”
He turn his head as he heard Ella's voice. Ella was behind him and peeked out the window as well.
“ Who are those?”
“No. They are quiet, aren't they?”
Ella stroked and hit him in the arm.
“The mouth of your best friend is really noisy. She didn't change at all.”
“she's just trying to get the attention of someone.”
He thought for a moment. “what? Trying to get attention from someone?”
“Why is your friend so mean to me?”
“Ask the turtle. I'll go now I still have stuffs to do.”
“Where are you going?”
“To Joy's house. I'll join them”
He just scratch his head. He thinks of what his sister wants to point out.
“But no, it's impossible” he whispered to himself. “It’s impossible for Joy to like me and besides she is mad at me. Is it because she has a crush on me too?”
Miko's eyes were shining and a literal wide smile in the lips.
“Maybe”
Sunday, Miko really intended to accompany Joy to the church. He doesn't care about the time of the mass for as long as he's with Joy that's more important. He also noticed she was alone so he grabbed the opportunity.
“Hi, Joy.”
She only respond by circling her eyes at him.
“You are still cute.”
“stop it.”
She continued walking but this time she walks fast.
“Why you so mean to me? I just said Hi.”
“I am not what you are referring to.”
“It's still early. Can we just walk normal”
Joy stopped.
Miko also stopped.
“Did I say go with me, Miko? If you're complaining ... go! Walk alone.”
He laughed. “I'm just kidding okay.”
“What do you want?”
“You!”
Joy's eyes widened seems like she's surprised of what she heard.
“I'll love you for a long time. Ever since you moved here. However you have treated me differently. Why are you so mad at me? You are treating me like your enemy, I tried to be your friend. But why? I really don't have an idea”
Her face blushed as she stared at him.
“Joy, I love you. I only felt this way from you. I don't look at another woman because you alone is enough. You are here...” He pointed to the middle of his chest. “Even though you treat me like your enemy.”
“M-miko...”
Her tears were dimmed but she forced herself to smile.
“I'm sorry,” he replied. “If you didn't like what I said, I'm sorry. But remember this Joy, that's true it's from my heart.”
"Maybe you'll not treat me like an enemy this time but a terrible villain. It's okay, Accept it. What matters is ... I have said to you what I have been kept for a long time. All right. I'll go now. Take care”
When he turned his body, he stepped on a large one to get away. In fact he was cold for confessing his feelings. That was not in his plan but he did not know why it happened.
All night he did not sleep mentally. Joy repeatedly intervened in his brain. He was guilty. It's not bad to express real feelings but the thing is, it's not the right way and not in the right place.
“I will go to Joy later after school.”he whispered when he got up in bed. “I will apologize. I'll talk to her properly.”
Because he had a morning subject he bathed immediately. Dressed in his uniforms. Self-organizing. Then eat. He first had a small conversation with his mom before saying goodbye to going to school.
When he came out the first door of their house, Joy had in his mind again. He was really determined to go to her later to talk. He would not allow her to be treated as an enemy again.
He suddenly stopped. His eyes widened seeing Joy sitting in the window of their house. It used to be made of wood but since it was replaced by a sliding window it's already a glass.
It seemed like Joy heard her name inside Miko's brain. She look back at him. Seeing her suddenly torn her beautiful smile. His heart sank fast. He meant to jump in joy.
For the first time, Joy just smiled at him.
Ideally he would thank God. As well as all saints. The miracle of heaven is taking place. And he certainly - he sure is - that there's a meaning about that smile.
“seems like you saw a ghost” Joy said. “you're going to school right?”
He answered by a nod. He was unable to speak because his throat still stiff.
“take care, Miko.”
“Thanks!”
Joy laughed because his voice stiff. His face was red with shame.
“Anyway, happy birthday in advance,” Joy said. “your birthday will be next week, right?”
He nodded. “Thank you coz you remembered my birthday.”
Joy laughed so hard because he stiff again.
“Bye. Take care.” this time he made sure he'll not stiff again.
In the jeep, he was still floating in the sky. He could not lose in his mind the beautiful smile from the girl he's been dreaming of. That was his sign to pursue the plan of going to Joy's house. Not just to apologize but to start courtship.
THE END
The escape of a murderer: PART II
According to the article, she was found to have no life in her own room and her neck was broken. My hand was still trembling when I saw the pictures in the article so I pulled out my phone and threw it on the floor.
My whole consciousness seems to be at a disadvantage. Sailing through memories are very similar to what is happening today. Mia was first, Wendy was done and now Tracey is. Is coincidence still all that?
I thought it was over. I thought the death of women close to me would never follow. That curse is supposed not longer exist. The curse was lifted by Cari-
I didn't even finish my girlfriend's name because...
“N-no!”
I was eager to turn my eyesight to find my emerging phone. I have to find that because that alone can calm me down. Something can't happen.
“Carin and Lily. They're all over the news. Did you know?”words that echoed in my mind. Words that deepen my thoughts.
I was trying every corner of the floor to find my phone. I'm breathing heavily and I can't calm myself. I didn't even run or do anything but gasp and catch my breath.
I wanted to continue searching but my body suddenly fell to the floor. From then on I found what I was looking for. It's under my working table and I insist to reach it. I am aware of my teammates' presence but I only focus on reaching the phone before I lose consciousness.
It was loud and surrounded by my co-workers who panicked too. But I want to reach my phone. I try to reach that.
A little bit more!
I could reach it when I suddenly saw blood dripping on the floor on the other side of the table. That blood hit me in the face so I was stuck.
When I opened my eyes, the next thing I saw next to me was Carin. She’s painted with her fresh blood and she’s uttering something.
“It's all your fault Sheldon! Y-you left me!”
Before I could ever lose consciousness I had the strength to reach her face and call her name.
“Cari-“
“Hff... hff... hff...”
I woke up and felt tears in my face.
It was indeed a dream!
To this day I still think of Carin. A series of dream where she blames me for her death. After that day when she died I always woke up in tears and didn't know what to do and feel.
I lost Carin. I let her die and maybe she blames me for the death I would have prevented if I was by her side. If I hadn't been able to get grand tonight and didn't leave Carin alone, maybe she was still alive.
When Carin died, I just realized that its not like I am cursed. It is not a curse but a not responsible enough. I lost those girls that were important to me because I neglected them. And it hurts me each and everytime I see my face in the mirror, looking good despite of knocking that four girls lost their life because I let them down.
It's been a week but Carin and Lily's murder case is still running low. The investigation is difficult to move because of the clean crime. The police had various assumptions and also had an angle of view that not only one person killed them and it was only by chance that they were killed in the same place by two different killers.
No evidences and weapons were found at Lily's home but according to the investigation there was a missing kitchen knife in their home that most probably was the culprit used to rub Lily's neck. We workmates and I have never known her at work or even in her personal life. Lily's such a sweet girl and I can't imagine that she'll be killed by such a terrible way.
Carin's death was the same. There was no traces of the murderer. No one knows what actual happened because it was not hours of the night when the crime happened and there was also no CCTV cameras around. So hard it is for the police to know what happened and who is behind Carin's horrific murder.
Everything remains vague for now, just one clear thing for me. They continue to wander behind the deaths of Carin and Lily, living their lives normally as if there were nothing happened. Why did they do that? What a motive they had to kill a woman who's innocent.
My eyes slowly searched the clock on the wall and it was two o'clock at noon. In the past because I was too weird for my sleeping pattern. I am usually awake during the night and sleep in the morning.
I got up and fixed the bed and looked at myself. It's still messy now in the room because I just moved here to Raj's house which is my friend and co-worker. He's in HQ now so I'm alone here at home so I have to get up to start my day too and I'll even go to the police station to meet the investigation's updates.
I closed the forehead open window before slowly walking into the kitchen to check it out when there was food. Sometimes Raj cooks too much for me to eat too, but sometimes nothing left, especially when he's running out of time. Raj is not strict with me especially on food and consumables. He just lets me do what I want to do as long as I won't damage anything.
When I saw the kitchen, I knew Raj didn't cook breakfast. The place was clean and there was no trace of cooking so I immediately checked the fridge to check out what I could eat. It turns out that little bacon slice was just there and two pieces of eggs so I took that too for cooking.
As I am on my way walking towards the stove I noticed a casserole. I looked inside and was surprised to find that dish.
"It's cooked!?"its me wondering and asking myself at the same time.
I was expecting that hot water only. Then another one, I didn't think he cooked because his kitchen is clean now. Usually because he spreads everytime cooking and I clean it for him. Weird but well and clean Raj left the kitchen and cooked something to eat for us.
I warmed up to Raj's porridge and then I leaned for rice. I was busy eating in the small kitchen space when I seemed to feel strange.
It seemed to me that someone's watching my actions. I tried to calm myself down and take a deep breath. At the same time I released a heavy breath and also embraced the cold air on my skin. Reason for my fur to be stained.
I calmly sit in the dining table chair and drink some water. I can't calm myself now and I can't explain what weirdness dominates my body.
I absentmindedly inserted my left hand in my pocket. I intend to distract myself by scrolling through my news feed. But my phone is out of my pocket.
"Wait, where is it? asked myself and stood back to spin my eyesight around.
After realizing that I haven't been able to hold my phone since I woke up I went back to the room to find my phone. I made no mistake because it opened to me over the night table.
I successfully get it but it stopped me when I could feel the wind from the window again. My eyebrows met as I approached the window to close it.
My eyebrows met more while staring at random things in the room. Did I leave like that?, but I remember myself closing the window before I went down to the kitchen earlier. I remember but I wasn't even sure if I closed it though.
"Did I close it?"
I was confused to walk out of the room while getting a headache.
When I got back to the table I didn't think anymore and after eating I bathed. I quickly prepared myself and landed safely at the police station with my two wheels. As expected, nothing has happened in the murder case of Lily and Carin.
...
On my way home, I just drive home. It's been a few days as long as it's been over and over again. Sleep, wake up, eat and expect lead in the pending murder case. Then again and again.
After I parked my motorcycle I was tired of walking to the door. When I got in I found Raj eating while his foot was sitting in the chair. When I caught his attention he immediately asked me,
"Hello, is there any news?"he examined me with his mouth full.
I went straight to the kitchen and get a glass and put water from the pitcher on the table and drank.
"TL is saying regards to you. They're all worry about you bro, " Raj opened a new topic.
After I drank I walked into the living room and lay on the sofa.
"You tell them I'm fine," I replied.
"Yeah I told them that you are."
"When do you plan to get back to work? Our team badly needs you, " Raj said again and it seemed like no intention of letting me down.
"So far I don't know bro," I replied frugally.
After that the whole house was quiet again. In my case Raj also felt that I was not in the mood to talk today.
For a while I felt like a drowsiness was embracing me. After I whipped and lost a heavy breath I settled down to sleep well.
I was about to get caught up in the words of my friend who just finished eating.
"How much more you spend for the dish?"
I automatically opened my eyes when it sink in my mind what he said.
"Spend? Aren't you cook that?!"I answered him while still lying.
"Hah?!"he seemed confused.
"You're the one who cook it, aren't you?"I repeat.
"It's not me! At HQ's canteen I had breakfast and lunch, "he said.
The fragrance immediately stopped me after he cleared that he was not the one who cook the food we ate. If he was joking it's funny.
"Legit?"
"Legit!"he replied emphatically in his face with confusion.
I bowed down because of the confusion. I know for myself that it's not me and if it wasn't Raj who cooked the food we ate, who?
While thinking, I suddenly remembered 'the open window earlier. 'The open window I knew I closed it before I left the room.
I was in the middle of thinking while tagging all the unexplainable things in the back of my mind when my phone suddenly vibrated.
And when I open the screen, a message from an unknown contact was sent to me. When I opened that message I was thrilled to have my phone released, because the message contained therein was...
"Beware Sheldon!"
To be continued....
The escape of a murderer
[CHAPTER ONE]
When I gathered the clock was past three o'clock. There was light outside but I still didn't visit drowsiness. I keep sneaking on my phone from time to time with Carin's message to me, but to this day there is still no dot message from her. I'm camping but no matter how much I worry about her.
I love Carin and with her I imagined a family I want in the future. She's been there during my ups and downs and I'm so lucky because she managed to give up her rich life to come with me.
She always supported me in things I wanted to address even more impossible and contrary to her own beliefs. She loved me and I'm fuckin' aware of it. So I understand why she doesn't want another woman around me except her. And that's the reason why I had to sleep here again at Raj's house. Whenever Carin and I were arguing, I would rather go far so we could avoid getting into the both verbal and non-verbal manner.
I also decided to get up on the couch and look at the view from the other side of the window. It looks good I see but my mind is too shallow and doesn't see much to care of anything. I'm missing Carin but I can't do anything but wait for her go signal before I get home. It's only weird now because it should be by this time I have a text or call that I have received from her.
Carin is so sweet and that sweetness of her is my daily dose. So I missed her a lot less than a whole day later when I left home. I didn't want to go home without realizing her mistake. Well I admit that I have a flaw in our relationship because of my job as a research agent and we are good at that issue. Time is never an issue because she knows my job. The case here is that, she was always jealous everytime with another woman around me.
Actually, even if shee doesn't say I avoid getting closer to other women besides her. Besides we are sorry that I have past traumatic experiences in women as well. It seemed like a sudden it was given to me that every time a woman came to me they would be doomed.
It took me a while to get the last one to ruin a woman near me. And it seems that the curse was actually lifted by Carin. Weird but since Carin came into my life, all the bad things in my life have stuck. She's an angel that saved me from the curse that fucked me up in the past.
So even though we had a fight a few times, I won't let her go. We will fight but I cannot agree to separate.
Just a moment later my phone suddenly vibrated. So I immediately unlocked it because I'm sure that's the message I was looking forward to from her. But I was disappointed when I saw that I was wrong. The message was sent by my team leader. He's calling out the whole team and asking us to rush over the headquarters.
I was really wondering what happened to HQ and it seemed like we needed it there. Why this early? And why now yet me and Carin has something to fix?
I just sighed as I tried to absorb everything that was happening in my life today. While walking back to the bed, he accidentally opened the bedroom door. It's Raj chasing his breath. He looks so panic and I think I know what brings him here. I had no expression of him as he waited patiently to speak.
"Sheldon 'our project!"he said.
My eyes went round at that instant. I was shocked to come to him and waited for him to speak again.
"What's up with our project?"I'm curious.
"It was a found broken! And the team leader says it's not just bad luck because it was crushed by someone when they saw it this morning!"Raj continued.
I automatically frowned myself. We've been working on that project for a long time. It's not just a bad project 'cause we just don't sweat and spend time there. There lies my team's pride, honor and credibility. Calling our team crazy because of that, then when we were about to prove everything, then it happened. Shit!
"Who destroyed it?"I asked him.
He shook his head and said, "I don't know! The team leader mentioned nothing to me."
That moment I guess we really need to head at the HQ as soon as possible. Raj and I didn't waste time and we went to HQ.
From there we were met by our other teammates and of course the team leader. We both seem to be plunged by heaven and earth while looking at the fragmentation of our project.
I immediately approached the project in which Kali's crushed parts were scattered. Kali in Sanskrit means the Goddess of Time, Doomsday and Death.
It was too much of a will to see and hold Kali in that way. All the misery and effort we had to finish was just gone.
"I found out that Kali was like that and because of the fact that I messaged you all right away," said our team leader.
Everyone was quiet and no one had the courage to ask so I do it myself and turned my eyes to our team leader.
"Is it too late to fix it?"
He avoided looking when I filled him with that question. He seemed to be more lost in his self when I heard what I was saying. He even gathered courage before speaking again and said,
"It's so happen that all the CCTV footages here on our place are deleted. So technically, I'm also clueless about who's behind it."
We were all surprised after hearing those words. Not even to say the ones that run through their minds I know we have only one thought.
The footages by themselves are not made available. If true of the deleted all footages on the wing we without any power interference or systemic error is obviously someone who has delegated that. People are sure to have something to do with our project.
"Since we just winged it and found no problem with the system, I presume that someone wanted to do it," TL revealed.
"In short, there is a sabotage happening?"Raj said and in confirmation TL nodded. There opened many doors to the question in everyone's mind. Questions even one of us couldn't answer.
Who?
Why?
How?
The silence wrapped our wing because of the frustrations of what happened to our Project Kali. Add to that our thinking on questions we don't know how to answer. I automatically clenched my fist out of my frustration. I was angry because of the sabotage on our team and that anger was even more intense because we had no lead in who everyone was planning.
I walked around the corner of our wing and sat on the thick layer of research papers. I don't know how I can release all the negative emotions that make my breath go away. I was able to touch my face. It went straight to my head and I slowly pulled myself out.
I thought I had enough today but not yet. My phone rang for a while. And first, I thought it was Carin who's calling me but it was indeed Lily - a friend of mine. I didn't answer it because I would first entertain another issues unless related to Carin and Kali. I was going to put my phone in my pocket when it vibrated because Lily was texting me. I had no intention of opening that message because we were in the middle of the meeting and the team leader was still discussing at us, but when I saw Carin's name attached there I immediately opened it.
"Carin and Rikka. They're all over the news. Do you know?"
I was shocked after reading that message. What did she mean? What news? What happened?
"News? What's with the news? Why are they in the news?"I replied.
Raj immediately noticed my anxiety and immediately asked if I was okay. I nodded so that our conversation wouldn't go down. For now, I want to know first what is in the news that Lily is saying. And to gratify my curiosity, I patiently waited her to reply.
Soon she reply and sent me a link. Weird but I don't like what my instinct is running. I quickly pressed that link and it redirected me to a news website. Loading the whole article as well as the pictures. First the headline saying ,
"Woman, found dead in Villa Teresita."
Rikka came to my mind first and I found her looking for my teammates. The ferocity I felt intensified without seeing Rikka. My companions immediately noticed the tension and frustration I was showing and one of them asked,
"Sheldon what's wrong?"Clyde turned my attention to my comrades. I let go of a heavy breath while biting my lower lip.
"Rikka, is she here?"I asked them while trying to find Rikka for the second time.
"I texted her earlier but she didn't respond yet."
Coincidentally when I returned the article I was clearly seeing the whole of it. As I read the words printed there, my eyes almost widened.....
To be continued
Goodbye to you my child
It was dark as he returned to their home, as usual, he quietly opened the stainless gate. At its extreme it was inevitable to create noise as it opened, but he carefully moved it and closed it afterwards. Inside their compound he notice the abandoned garage, the wild grass is set and the house is obviously old, people say it was build by Spaniards. It is also often a roundup of sensational stories about the massacres of the only living souls here. Made of wooden windows and pierced ceilings, towering columns and covered floors and cement. The door upstairs seems like plants were born. It seems like a decade of joining them. While he was throwing a paper from a government institution to ask for help, he did nothing to do with it.
He gently opened the door, much less bright inside. He overlooks the whole living room, old chairs and just a broken piano. It brings back to his memory the beauty of the living room full of joy and the bow of happiness that you have had in the good past, with a small smile lived in those moments. Above the piano are certificates of recognition as a teacher, diploma, portrait of his youth, his family and his broken wife. In those moments a memory was rebuilt where the incident was their conversation of a sad and rainy afternoon as they looked out their window.
"Forgive me and your daughter my dear, because of us your teaching stopped”
- his wife's language as she fed the food to his mouth
As the food approached to him there was a little thrown into its mouth that Biyo quickly wiped the thing and the woman continued to speak,
"Promise me my dear, take care of our daughter, he has nothing to expect but....You."
- Biyo just smiled and continued to eat.
His observation continued on the object over the table and wall. A little while looking at them, their family and newlyweds were a memory of their sworn lifelong companionship. It also didn't take long after the deadly illness hit the housewife and lost her life one morning in their room. He wiped his eyes and headed into a quiet room.
In opening the room he definitely see his child lying in the bed. An old widow also stood up who’s taking care of it, this would be her last day because she hadn’t received a salary for almost three months. The old lady slowly came out of the room and didn’t said goodbye to Biyo. Inside the room is a young woman fighting for a brain cancer. The smell of the surroundings, the bimps and some equipment are stained and faded. Spreads of medicines, rotting some litter and wandering flowers bent over vases. The person lived and suffered for a long time, the room being a witness to all kinds of pain and suffering of life, becoming a symbol of sadness and it remains to this day.
She woke up to feel his presence. Here comes the cruelty of illness, an unimaginable curse that depicts an inability to change or even the power of mercy even in love. Sulfurous weeds suffering from longevity, hairless, pale lips. The body understands but never of the mind where it is more protected by the debilitating diseases and endless pains that are at the core of the soul. Even in such a situation it smiled at him as he saw. Dad Biyo had a crush in his pocket, two pieces of candy and happily showing them to his daughter, it seemed like a child played and boasted that little thing, parchment and gently sprinkled with the girl's mouth, the woman eat it and smiled at him again.
He didn't want to see the people crying out in pain and suffering from this illness, the things he witnessed before. So in a small way it will be softened in the meantime and it will fly to happiness.
Such is the constant encounter of the father, sometimes he went home from work to give her money, when blessed he definitely buys fruit, medicine and clothing for his child, and otherwise the only stories and tenderness in front of the child to hide the ways he went to failure. It's always been this way for a long and tedious time.
He kissed his daughter's forehead, while remembering the day his daughter was born in this world, and how he had promised a lifetime to accompany, but it would not continue. He gently pulled out of his right pocket the syringe that would end it all, and again he sang a song that creates a happy world between the two as he slowly crushed the matter into the small body following the shed of his tears and asking for forgiveness.
"Pa....pa..."
-the little girl’s language as her eyes were about to close looking at him with sadness and understanding.
He hugged his daughter tightly, while the little angel was leaving the world with false truths of unbelief in hope.
End.
That creep me out!
"1...2...3..Cheesy Potato Chips"
They didn't obey it but they laughed.
Click! I caught the smile with true happiness and joy. That's okay though it's pretty Killjoy because I didn't have what I wanted to say.
" Wow! Big sis the photo is nice"
"Yeah but next time it has payment already!"I said and left the kids taking pictures
I travel from Cebu back to Laguna. It is also tiring to go to different events. Yes, I'm a photographer and I lt's my part time job as of now. Way back highschool I have been practicing around with photography in various angles. Anyway my parents support me in everything so whatever I do in my life is fine. I took Bachelor in Arts major in broadcast communication and journalism in college, I just graduated last year. I’mm just putting things first where I'm happy before letting go of my real career coz there are so many ways to be happy.
" Hey you’re back, long time no see”
"Would you see me here if I didn't?"
“ I don’t even know if you are a ghost or something” I sarcastically smiled at what Karlos said, my bestfriend
"Do you believe in ghosts?"he asked more
"Ofcourse not! they say life is more scary than dead"
"Too scary" plunge it while staring at me
His my classmate in highschool. I can't remember how I became friends with this mole! It just came that day when we were about to lean on each other. Our passions were so different that even the course we took in college was far from over. He wants to be a CPA lawyer someday and of course I support him. How many years have I endured it now that I will not support her?
"Hey! My cousin is getting married, they are taking you"
" Really!? tell them I’ll go there!"
"Even if I didn't say that..I know you are!"so it said
A Beach Wedding took place. From people to Venue I took a picture. Obviously rubbing the wedding from the flowers to the wedding dress really impressed me. When can I experience this?
“ Kris, let’s eat first”Karlos suddenly appeared next to me, he was the Best Man lately so he was a gallant and very clean creature in his appearance today
"I just got a moment! "
"Why? Beach Wedding is also what you want?"he asked, I immediately stared at it. Come on? Why does it seem like he has something else to say? I didn't realize I was gaping as he looked at him so he made me hold the bread
"You’re so annoying" I find it difficult to speak the size of the bread he put in my mouth
" Hello, how’s our photographer? did you take me a lot of pictures?"I first swallowed what I ate before speaking
"Why? Are the one who’s married?"
"No! but I'm so handsome that I'm feeling- "
"There it is. Wind power oh! you might be released"
"You really have no support!" he said so I gave him the Camera first
“ you never really faded! "it compliments
"Hey it’s me, Kris no one else" I said
" Hey pards, you look at this last c-cake you captured" he's still speech-less
"Why?"I looked at what he was showing me
The picture I last took is the Cake where two new wed can be found but the side is blurred as if it had a curved body. Do I see right on the side? One person? Karlos and I looked up
"Give me that!"at the same time I shouted
I breathed a sigh of relief when I noticed the sand on the side of my Camera. This may have been why my last shot was blurred.
"You know Karlos you're just scared!"I'm sorry
"Then why does you look scared I suppose you don't believe in ghosts?"
"Not really! but you think who this guy is?"I asked at the same time to the Camera-drawn man who was a little fuzzy because of the sand on the side.
"It’s big bro Van "
"You know him?"
"Yup! He was big sis Fria's ex-boyfriend, I thought there was a marriage truth earlier but when I looked at him it was just smiling "
"But behind those smile is a broken heart" I said
"You think?"
"I dunno knoe, that's why it's so frequent on shows?"
"It's been 3 years, so if I see my ex marrying others? even if we say that I am moving on I will still be hurt "
" Really? look at the pain?"his forehead immediately grabbed me
"Just a joke!... You know big bro Van can handle that? He's a brave and selfless man "I say
"I also think he still loved big sis so much that he loved it so much that he let it be fun. "
"I wish I could find a man like him"
"Ugly doesn't matter to you!"its plunder at the same time
"Hey! Take it back! I'm serious!"
That's how we treat each other. Honestly because if you didn't ask I crush her nung highschool and I'm super friendly even though I crush my bestfriend. I'm not even a Friendzone case while longing for longer I'm more afraid to admit. I'm afraid he'll change my deal, super close so we can even wear that he'll wear it everyday to me yet he asks for a free picture from me.
You may rest now my love
"Gab! It's raining where are you going? Aren't you sleeping here? "
I just smiled at Sammy and go out immediately. It was dark around and very cold. I knew Kevin is going home from work so I decided to fetch him up and plan on surprise him too. He's my long time boyfriend but it's not continuous because we often break up with each other then come back again. Right now our relationship is already a year and I think it's the longest. We love each other to the point that even if we separate and get tired I will still be back by the time he rests.
I entered the office and waited for the elevator to open.
3...2... 1
I took my umbrella and was surprised to saw him. I also saw the shock on Kevin's face when I saw him. A woman confronted him as their lips closed. This is the first time Kevin has cheated on me because of a woman. He has never been to this point when he breaks up with me before, because it is often just a personal problem or stress at work.
I quickly picked up the things I dropped and ran out. I could feel that he's following me and at the same time pulling my arm.
"Sab, please let me explain" I face him and immediately slapped him
"Cheater!"
"No! That was just a misunderstanding "
"Really? Misunderstanding? How it be a misunderstanding when both of you are kissing?"
"Just please Sab, I'm also surprised by what she did"
"Oh really? But it seems like your enjoying it"
"Please Gab, don't be like that... I'm tired"
"Tired? you mean you want a break again? "my tears slowly dripped
"If that's how you understand "
"Why now Kev? "we were kept in the umbrella so my eyes could see his eyes
"I said I just want to rest Sab"
"Is it because of that woman? do you like her?"
"No! "
"then Why? Why are you always so tired? Why would you leave me alone? "
"I don't deserve you Sab, I'm sorry"
He slowly retreated away from me. He was already wet by the rain but he just ignored it. I want to chase him but he shakes his head and I just get hurt. He cheated on me but why am I not angry? Why do I still believe what he says? I don't want to think that woman is the reason that he wants to stay away from me. For both of us, rest means break up but now it's very painful. The pain he did.
I just cried as I returned to my bestie's apartment. I could never see my way through my eyes. I laid my umbrella and lay on the ground. I felt the pain in my heart but could not feel my body.
-
"Omg! Sabrina what happen?!! "Sammy looked at me from head to toe. I saw pity in her eyes.
"We broke up again but this time I think its over" I came up to her and lean over her shoulder as I looked into her eyes I saw her tears dripping.
"You know that he'll come back to you right? Why do you come home like that Sab?"
"He cheated"
"What?!!!"my best friend's fists were in anger so I held her hand to calm her down.
"I will be fine... soon "I said
-
"Sammy! open the door, let me see her" I heard Kevin's loud knock from the outside. The pain was still on me but I wanted to see him. I knew my bff was angry with him too so I nodded at her and smiled so she could open the door.
"How dare you hurt my best friend!"
"I didn't mean it"
His eyes were swollen and he was restless. He immediately grabbed me and knelt before me.
"I'm not breaking up with you Sab please stay with me... please "
I was swallowed and could not speak. I was angry, hurt, annoyed but so much compassion and love were overlap. I knelt down and grabbed his shoulders.
"I'll stay Kev... and you know that I always wanted to stay forever "
Sam just shook his head and allow us to talk. I immediately turned to Kevin even though he said he didn't really break up with me that night.
-
"I never cheated on you Sab" I immediately turned to him and then bowed my head.
"I don't know Kev, maybe I was just too emotional that time"
"I understand if you are angry with me and you should be angry until now"
"I can't do that to you, you know that right? "
I cried so much that I kept it under control. We walk into the Park now, while holding each other's hands. We were both smiling but deep inside I knew we were ruined.
"Please... stay "
"I will"
-
"Do you deserve me now Keb? "I asked, he sighed before confronting me and speak.
"I'm sorry Sab, I'm such a failure... I still don't deserve you even a ring for proposal I can't afford to buy "
"I don't need that! your love is enough, I know your priority for now is to support your family and it's okay for me to prioritize them first, I understand"
"That night-"
"Forget about it Kev" I stopped him but he continued.
"I lost my job Sab and I didn't know what to do. The girl you saw in the elevator, she's the daughter of my boss. She offered me something and this is what we talked about so I was surprised she suddenly kissed me ”
I know I should know all of that even though it doesn't matter now. I forgave him for my love but now I forgive him for his deep reason. The reason I couldn't find out right away. The reason why he was so tired that time.
"I'm sorry Kev-"
"No! you must not be sorry to me, please don't say that... just stay with me "
"I will"
-
Every day looks like a date. Where our feet just take us to nowhere. He gave me white flowers so I look at his face. The tears were swollen in his eyes.
"Why are you doing this? your just making it so hard for yourself" I said
"You know how much I love you right? "
"Yes... and I love you too "
He smiled and leaned my head over his shoulder. As our eyes stared into the sky,
"You think it's been a few years since we were tired? "I asked.
"7 years... and I will continue to come back to you because you are my home ”
"It looks like you need to evacuate" I joked but he took it seriously.
"I can't imagine I wake up and no one would text me, I can't imagine no one would bring me an umbrella... I can't imagine not seeing you for a day... How? I can't live without you "
" Ofcourse you can! You are not a failure and you have many other responsibilities here even though I am gone ”
"Stay with me forever Sab"
"I will stay until..."
"Until when? "
-
Some days Kevin couldn't sleep when he wasn't with me, so every where I go he's with me. I know he's having hard time with his life right now but his smiles are so bright every time I look at him. He told me that he had applied to various companies and that some had accepted him. I know him well and he's a very hard working person.
"Let's go Sab! I have freetime "Kevin said
"Freetime? That sounds great"
"Let us go Sammy" seems to have stumbled upon us
"Don't you see Kevin? they are making you crazy!"
"I have nothing to say to others, I don't owe them an explanation"
"Please... Kev let go of my friend let her rest! "Kevin seemed to be stuck with what Sammy said and changed his eyes on both of us. Tears quickly burst into tears. I was sobbing and unable to speak
"It's all my fault!!! Sam... my fault... it's my fault "
"It was an accident!!! "
Sam held his mouth shut while holding back the weeping. Kevin came up to me and spoke again,
"I'm so sorry Sab... forgive me everyone"
"I've forgiven you for a long time... I think I want to rest ”
"I can not do it... I'll rest for now, I promise you I'll come back. why are you asking for rest without a return?... I love you Sab "
"I love you too and I'm willing to stay until..."
"Until when again Sab? "
"I'll stay until you forgive... yourself "
_________
That night, I died in an accident. A car that hit me lost the brake. I was never taken to the hospital because I had lost my life. My soul came home bloody in my bff's apartment so much surprise, fear, sadness. Kevin and Sammt have third eyes. They are the only special person who sees me. I had been in the light for a long time but I could not leave Kevin until he forgave himself for my death. I love him so much and I don't want to lose half of his personality.
"Remember, It's not your fault"
"I'm sorry... I know that it's hard to me ”
"but I can't leave you like this-"
"I'm ok Sab, Remember that you are the only woman I love and will love you this way" the last time Kevin gave me lively smiles.
"I'll treasure the Love and Forgiveness for both of us"
"You can go now Sab, you can rest now"
Visitor
Wigo could not rest outside the room while looking forward to two doctors looking at Mariya. She didn't know what she should feel - mixed fear and joy. Fear that his wife may be sick. Glad they might have a baby. He walked down the aisle while Eury and Knox were just leaning against the wall. Her cousins' eyes just followed her where she was.
Ziarmine and Pamela are with Mariya in the room. Wigo was nervous so he couldn't join his wife. Also, he feels very good news that he can receive from doctors. You will surprise him. One of Wigo's qualities is that he always wanted to have a thrill in life. Eury couldn't stand it and approached Wigo. Knox was also dizzy as they were in the hallway.
“Relax! Mariya seems to be giving birth to your ex, ”Eury joked and Knox giggled. Wigo's gaze was drawn to two. Eury ran beside Knox and hid behind it.
“Just kidding,” Eury shouted. When Wigo was about to shoot his cousin Ziarmine was released.
The girl's face was sad. And because of the silence and sadness that met Wigo, the roar in his heart grew. Great steps were taken by her feet to open the door to Mariya's room. Her forehead was torn. Her eyebrows met. She found everyone smiling inside the room. A doctor mistook his wife.
“Congratulations!”Ziarmine whispered from behind her.
“Wow! You are truly a father, ”said his cousins in a different way.
When Mariya felt the presence of her husband and their other colleagues in their room, she burst into tears at Wigo. It just kept standing while he was crazy. She didn't know how she would accept for herself that she would have a child. Not because he didn't want to. Because it's so much fun. Someone will continue his clan. And it was her great pleasure because the mother of her child was truly in love. No one forced her to love Mariyyo
“What else are you building up there, Wigo? Approach Mariya and rub her belly, ”Eury whispered. His feet slowly moved closer to Mariya. And when she reached their bed where Mariya was sitting and leaning, she couldn't control her emotions anymore. He hugged his wife tightly. Tears flowed down his cheek.
“Thank you!”
“Why are you so grateful? You don't have to say that. This is our son, ”Mariya gently replies as she caresses Wigo's back. Wigo disappears from her embrace and kisses Mariya on her lips. Two doctors turned away. Pamela closed her eyes. Ziarmine gladly watched them. Eury and Knox struggled for the thrill.
“I could not imagine that a woman would come into Wigo's life that would truly give her happiness. I wish I could, too, ”Eury said to Knox.
“Be serious about women. Well, the girl just seemed to be here for me, too, ”Knox replied and his eyes shifted to Pamela. Although poor talker Ziarmine heard it because they were close to him. He didn't even care because he didn't want to argue first. She wants Mariya to be happy. But in the middle of their enjoyment. Ana enters Wigo's younger sister.
“Kuya Wigo, someone wants to talk to you,” Ana pointed out as her face traces the concern. Shy pops up next to Ana like a mushroom.
“Kuya Knox, you have something to know. The Cruxes have a bad idea for Kuya Wigo and Ate Mariya, ”the younger brother of Knox said. They all had a different mood. From their appearance to emotions. Wigo gave a signal to doctors that they had to leave so they would not hear the next two things to say. When they finally leave, Eury approaches Ana and Shy.
“Where is Ricia? Why don't you go with him?”
“Here I am,” Ricia just heard her voice. At the same time they gathered it with Jerome - the nephew of the Crux.
“What that guy is doing here? Who allowed him to enter our territory on no occasion. And up to Wigo and Mariya's room. Why did you bring her here? Have you forgotten the rules of this mansion?”Eury's voice roared inside the room. Ana and Shy were suddenly scared. They both held hands. Ricia is not afraid because she is used to her older brother.
“You are alone! Don't scare the kids. Poor them, ”Knox rebutted and tapped Eury's shoulder.
“My friend is Jerome!”Ricia admitted suddenly. Eury's eyes widened like owl's eyes. Ziarmine and Pamela looked at each other. Knox as well as Ana and Shy were shocked. Jerome didn't even talk about her boyfriend being Jerome's boyfriend. But that was Ricia's only thought. Eury slammed his two fists and big steps made his feet closer to Ricia and Jerome. He wrapped Ricia's hand and dragged it away to Jerome.
“Release her, she is hurting!”Jerome suddenly commands Eury. Eury stopped walking and confronted the young man.
“Who are you thinking, huh? You don't care because I'm your sister. And you, your kid, are just kidding you!”
“I will admit, I am here to climb wild with Ricia. But I have another reason that I think is more important than what Ricia and I have. I want to talk to Wigo, ”Jerome exclaimed.
“Why, you are so---”
“That's right, Eury! I read in his eyes that he was not lying. I feel in his presence with concern, ”Wigo disobeyed his cousin.
“I welcome you to our home. He would come in and close the door, ”Wigo ordered and Knox immediately followed. And Jerome realizes that Wigo really is the leader of the Montesidro. Whatever it says and commands, no one at all attempts to roar at its family.
As Jerome's dads walked into Wigo and Mariya's room, his eyes circled around. The atmosphere he sees is very different than the inside of his uncle's room. Until her eyes touched Mariya's whereabouts. Sitting on the bed while its back was leaning on the headboard. The blanket covered its feet.
“Is he sick?”Jerome whispered. Her eyes only glared as she heard Wigo's voice again.
“Sitting down. You seem to have a lot to tell us. Or you have a lot to confess that we need to know.
He is my first true love
"Hey love where are you? I’m already here in our meeting place"I told my boyfriend as he called.
"Love sorry I can't go I'm have lots of work to do" he said and maybe he's really busy, I know he’s doing that for our future so I’ll just let him be.
"I see, did you rested-"before I finished talking he hang up the call immediately.
“ waited 3 hours for nothing”-I sighed
I came out on the restaurant where Liam and I were supposed to eat. Liam is my first love since high school. By the way my name is Jade, 20 years old
Liam and I are already working in company at the hotel, I work as a manager.
As I walked into my car suddenly someone pulled me at the same time on the wall and saw his face as it was black masked and black hat black shirt in white and jacket in black.
I'll talk but he's ahead of me.
"You really thought I wasn't going to" he whispered to me.
"Love?"Looking at his face
He removed his mask with a smile.
"Love its you" at once hug.
So we're here today at Liam’s house because it's already 11pm and all the restaurants here or mall are closed.
And for me to tell you honestly, we haven't been in a single roof since we're not married. We don't even think about it because we're still young and he says we should enjoy it first so maybe he's right.
"Love what do you want? Coffee? Tea? Or me?" He laughed
“Your such a dork, of course you hahaha" at the same time I laugh
He went closer to me that’s why I leaned on the sofa I was sitting.
"L-iam what are you doing”
"Tell me you want to" he would have kissed me but I suddenly stood up to avoid what he was doing.
"I was just kidding earlier" I laugh at the same time
"Tsk" He went to the kitchen to get some wine and I knew he had been waiting for the best time with me actually but I insisted on not to, because we’re not yet married.
"Love we already talked this before,I promise myself I can't lose my virginity while I'm not yet married" once I hold his shoulder
"I know Jade but maybe we can do it because we are at right age already” he insisted
"Love I know we're at the right age but it's still wrong that we do this but we're not married yet"
"So what do you want huh? You want us to get married?"
"You don’t understand”
"I understand you but you don’t trust me. Do you love me? he asked me ,he really didn’t understand it's hard to lose virginity especially you are a woman because once and for all one day you will end up regretting
"Of course I do love you so much but-"my words have been cut short since he was ahead of me.
"Then let’s do this, I want you to trust me "he holds my shoulder but I do what he wants me to do I have truet in him.
And we did exactly what he wanted *
The next day I woke up trying to get up but it was painful to get on my feet I looked at Liam while sleeping a little tired of what he had done last night but the next thing was remembered I fell asleep that time because I was tired of standing up. In bed when I saw the blood in my bed and I realized it was wrong.
I was going to cook when Liam’s phone rang I would wake him up but he didn't want to wake up so I took his phone I looked at the name calling Liam.
"Calling Andy"
Andy? I don't know Andy huh? I wish I was wrong .
"Hello babe? Why you didn't come home last night? Your child is looking for you . Babe?"When I heard her say that, I was weakened .I suddenly drop his phone once I fell down I cried for tears because of what I heard.
It hurts to think that the one you love is cheating on you.
"Love? You're crying?"at the same time he was upright
"Get away from me” I cried
"W-why? What’s the problem? What happened? "
"The problem? You! You’re the fucking problem!”
"What are you saying ? "
"I already know your secret !"
"Secret? I don’t understand you "
"Who is she who is it!"
"W-what? "
"Liam! Why did you lie to me? I did everything to you, I give you everything! And then this is all I got?”- I extremely expressed what I felt
"Love, let me explain" he said
"Don’t you dare call me that! What else do you explain huh what else!! "My tears were almost exhausted by the weeping moments
"Liam why? Why me? Why did you hurt me? I trusted you”
"J-Jade, I’m sorry" he said softly
"I'm sorry? You’re just sorry cause you got caught. Keep it I don’t need that !"I said while crying
"I would not have done it I would not have sought to give that before then"
"So it’s all my fault?”
"Sorry Jade"
"Remember this, don’t you dare show your face again and you will never see me never again" I run away as I heard he called my name.
It’s so painful
I went to a bridge that was high and I poured all the rage I had to do with myself and the person I trusted the most,the person I loved more than my life had a family that had not been able to bear my mind to shed tears .
I lost my virginity because of trust that was broken
We will meet again
"He stole your FIRST KISS?! "
I nodded slowly
"so... what did you do? how does it feels like? "she asked again
"Nothing... I mean- my mind went blank that time and I thought it was normal, we both like each other "
But the next hours, I realized that his kiss meant a lot more to me. The way he looked into my eyes down to my lips as he moved slowly towards me, I felt so nervous. I got too crazy along with the butterflies on my stomach. I closed my eyes and let him , a quick kiss in my lips. It made me feel happier. My first kiss is now stock in my mind... I know... I Did!
-
It was Summer vacation and I went to the other side of a bridge at my usual time. The wooden house was on its usual spot behind the bamboo tree. I discovered it and decided to call it as my own base. This serves as my way to escape problems. This is also the place where I first met this guy.
"Who are you? "
"Who are you?" he snapped, and his forehead wrinkled.
"I own this place! "
He acted like he was finding something and said "You don't have your name here"
I was even more annoyed so I grabbed his shirt and pulled him out. I quickly closed the door and listened to his complaints.
Within a minute I felt the cold air and heard the rolls of thunder. I gulped, The sky was getting darker.
With the first flash of lightning I opened the door to let him in again. He just smile coming in but I ignored him and sighed in the heavy rain.
We both glanced at the ceiling. Some fruit trees fall on the roof of the house. At that point it came to my mind how happy this day would be for me.
"They are here" I said, seriously
"What? who? "
"The DEMENTORS... of Azkaban "
He smiled at me and burst into laughter "You are a fan of harry potter?... hmmm why are they here? "He rides on my trip.
"because of YOU! "
"me? Huh? Why me? "
"You escaped from the prison... you are a convict! "
"Omg... I didn't do anything, I'm innocent...swear "he acted.
I had to bite my lips to prevent myself from laughing "I know... d-don't worry I'll protect you "
"and how on earth would you do that? "
I grinned. I searched for a small stick about the size of a wand. I pointed my wand in any direction to do some spell "Just stay behind"
We retreated to the sudden fall of some wood in the house part. He pulled me out but I suddenly resist.
"Come on, it's raining" I doubted.
"I thought you were my protector? Why are you so scared of rain? "he said
"Of course not! but... how's my base? "I looked at the little house just made of wood. It can't be ruined forever
"That might be a joke... let's fix it next time "
His concerned look made me feel like I was comfortable with him. We went out and let the rain fall. The rain was thick and it was soaked to my skin, very wet and frozen.
"What is that? are we going to run? "I asked
"No... "he pulled me back and showed something there. A bike that was just in our height, tied to a tree. It is black and with a crow symbol which is sealed in front.
"... meet Kage the fastest crow in the world!!"
"Will he agree if I'm gonna ride on it as well?"
"Ofcourse my lady... You just need to bow first" he moved closer and whispered "he's a bit sensitive"
We both chuckled....
I followed what he said before fleeing behind it. The thunder and lightning were gone but the rain continued. He runs carefully here and we continue to play.
"To your left! "
"Upstairs! "
I put the wand in the directions he was saying. When I was tired I took two candies in my little side bag and reached out to him one.
"What is that? maybe you're poisoning me! "
"It's just a candy" stopped it for a moment and took it "but that's not just a candy... It was an invisibility candy to escape the dementors"
"You're really crazy"
We crossed the bridge and the rain started to spread. I'm definitely going to be home because I'm bathing in the rain... take care of that. We had been together for a long time and laughed at each other
"I'm Josh"
"Claire"
That game is still followed by some memories. We became friends and tried to build our new base. At his young age, Josg was clever in everything. I learn a lot from him in every sense we make in life. He promised to visit me every summer vacation but when it stopped I never saw him again.
I still remember the day I cried because he never came. I treasured all my good memories with him but every time I age it is covered with new memories until I forget him.
12 years after my graduation he appeared again. He was taller than me. He stood with a good posture and matured looks. As usual he still carries his black bike but it's bigger now.
I acted like I didn't see him or maybe I don't know him but he himself came to me as if I really wanted to see him in that place.
"Claire- I'm sorry"
"Is that Kage? "I joke with his new bike
He smiled again that made my heart skipped. I lost all cramps and hate to him. We went in our usual base and he told me everything that I missed in his life. The reason for not visiting me for almost 12 years but my answer is just fine because what matters is that he is here again.
We created new memories. As he was, he often seemed to ride my trips and now his bicycle can travel far places.
"Do you remember when we believed that the world was full of magic? "
"Ofcourse, Mr. Handi Man.. the prisoner "I joked
"That's not me! "he complained.
"so... where is our next adventure? "
"hmmm... there! "he said, pointing in the Mountain of Sainay.
"Hey! Kage can't do that"
"Did you forget that he's the fastest crow in the world? "
"Yes but-"
"There was an enchanting voice at the appex of the mountain. The voice of enchantress was irresistible "
My forehead knelt "And that's where it came from? "
"I want to follow his voice and make friends with him"
"Okay! "
"They say when you get there she'll give you a magical stone. A stone that can make a dead person back to life "
I shake my head slowly "so whom will you use it?"
"When I get there I'll steal all the rocks and I will revive our whole clan"
I stopped"Are you serious? "
Suddenly it laughed like crazy so I get annoyed and left him.
" Hey! I was just joking "he said as he continued to laugh.
He's my first ever boy bestfriend coz the rest of my friends are girls. I never had an experience but I could even explain my feeling when I am with him. No words can describe our true relationship but I know that we are more than friends. He treated me as a Queen of the magical world. He made me feel special by his gesture.
"It's obvious that I like you "
"What do you mean? "
"I'm courting you Claire"
Yes, he finally said it. He couldn't look straight at me. He must have gathered some courage to tell the true meaning of his actions. I never said the word Yes to him but my answer was almost the same.
"I like you too Josh"
He doesn't have to be rich to be my man. He doesn't have to be cool to enter my world. When I look at him, I don't just see what he looks like. I see our entire future together. Being with him involves a lot of hormones that supercharge my feeling.
The day after he stoled my heart, he gave me my first kiss and the world suddenly stopped spinning. That was the symbol of declaring his love for me. He leaves me speechless and yet full of laughter. I almost shouted that he had done it all over the world.
"He stole your first kiss? "my friend and I nodded
I didn't realize it was the last time we met. My world collapsed the day he died because of the accident. I became numb because of shock and grief. Leaving me for a month or year was fine because I knew Josh would come back and forth but when I heard that I will be forever weak. At first I didn't believe it until I personally visited his tomb. He died... he died from an accident... Why? I have never been with you... we still have a lot to go to? Questions in my mind that do not run out of pain... illness caused by his death and makes me feel miserable.
"Claire... I'll give it to you, I know Josh will be happy too "
Kage, his favorite bike. Her mom gave it to me and every time I was with this bike, he's what I remember. Three weeks after still the pain is there. I was almost crazy to think until I thought of the more insane way.
I hiked in the Mountain of Sainay with his Kage. At first I just said that I wanted to fulfill the adventure he wanted but that wasn't what I had in mind. I list to the rhythm of my breath as I loosing myself. I walk slowly, looking for someone who doesn't exist. Don't care if I stop before or end somewhere else. Ready to push the limit and take the risk. I need to find the enchantress because I wanted..I just wanted to bring him back to life.
I could see the top of the mountain. I am close to the myth I believed in. I continued my walk while holding Kage. I didn't realize the tiny path. Kage was about to fall so I chose to place on the side. I lost balance and was stuck in some rocks. My place became dangerous as both hands clung.
I cried because of nervous and shouted "Help... help "even though I knew no one would hear. Gradually I lost hope "Have you agreed with me Josh?"
I looked up suddenly when someone pulled me over. My vision was not clear but I heard what he was up to until I finally got up.
"JOSH? "
"No... I'm Paul, why did you climb alone here? are you crazy? "
The way he speak and moved, Josh is still what I see. I knew Josh would say the same thing. But as I glared at him my shoulders fell and avoided him.
"Thank you... I'll go ahead "only I said
"What are you thinking? I'll let you go? "
I looked at him badly "There's nothing you can do to stop me! "
"Then... I'll go with you "
We got to the top while I was still pulling Kage. It's true that the best view comes after the hardest climb. I enjoyed the air like wild and free. But then it became clear, my real reason of coming here...
"Enchantress... let me see you!!! Give me your stone!!! "
"Who are you calling? are you really crazy? "
I ignored him and continued to cry as tears filled my eyes "Please... bring him back!!! "
I was weakened and Paul's arm was locked. I cried so much hard besides him. I can't explain the pain I felt. I never felt this before... I never thought of someone like this before.
"Why did he kissed me? Why did he say he loves me? If... he didn't want to be with me! "
"He wouldn't told you that if he doesn't want to be with you"
"so... why did he leave me? "
Pail was stunned by what I said. He stepped closer and hugged me. He touched and stroked my hair "If there's anything I can do to ease the pain, just let me know"
Paul and I became friends for a short period of time. He's always there with the intention to make me realize how much I mean to him. Completely by coincidence but he makes me feel better everyday. They don't get away with Josh's habit but I avoid comparing them, I always told him I wasn't ready. I always look at him with my blank eyes, I feel nothing because of my past. I think I lost my heart somewhere in my way but he didn't stop to find it. He was trying himself out into the world that other people would build until he made it.Yes, I married him.
"I maybe not your first kiss, first love or first date but I'm preparing myself to be your last "he said
It was really amazing how one day someone enters into my heart for the second time, and I can't remember how I ever lived without him. We were happily married with three kids. Paul loved and took care of me for a lifetime. At the age of seventy, he first recovered me and at the age of eighty-two I was happy to follow him to heaven.
Josh's P.O.V
"Is it possible to live again in the same year, same time, same place and same life? "I asked
"Nothing is impossible with him but there's a consequence for every action"
"I'm ready for the consequence, Please... let me live again "
"You will live in the same year, same time, same place, same mind, same heart but not in the same life. You will be reincarnated in a new body, a different person "
I agreed, I came back as a different man with the same spiritual part of human being. And no matter what my personality may be.The woman I loved the second time and the woman I loved the first and last time. I'm glad I'm not too late to save Claire on the mountain and to walk with her again through the rest of her journey. Our love was more powerful than a magical story because we believed in unbelievable and receive the impossible
Before I ressurected I asked the consequence and they answered
"That will be your last life, you will never reincarnated in the world again"
I smiled and nodded "Claire is my world, I could not asked for more"
I turned him into robot
"YOU KILLED ME"
"No, I didn't" I lied
"Yes you did" but he shook his head as I turned the control into sweet mode
"I love you Charles"
"I-Love-you-too- Chloe"
-
"Jenny hurry up! "
“Wait a second” she said, sprinted down the stairs of their house
"Oh! be careful! Ready? "I asked, excitedly
"Are you sure you will spend all your money? "
I went to her back, tapped her shoulder and even kissed her ear "Of course, since it’s our day”
“ Why don't you try to accumulate some money for the future?”
"Fine... Fine I'll try next time but now we'll buy everything we want! "
She just nodded and smiled at me. She always does it, sermoning me a little bit too. I know her well obviously because she's my best friend
"Wait, is it new again? "she asked in astonishment
"Yup, Dad gave it”
I turned 21 last month and already have my driver's license. Today is our bff day, we will just go to the mall and buy everything I want. 'Spoiled brat' that term makes me feel sick but I know it's true
"Have you applied to the test drive? "I asked
"What? Ahmm maybe next time "
"Why? I’m planning to give you a car, since it’s not used "
"Are you serious Chloe? I'm planning to but... I think after graduation anyway "
I immediately stop the car and look at her in grimace
"We still have 6 months! apply for it don’t worry I’ll be paying the fee for you "I said
She opened her mouth but no words could hear. If she doesn't agree we will just argue. I drove my car and immediately got to the mall.
Aside from Dad, Jenny is the only family I consider. My mom died when I was seven and I don't have little siblings. Because dad is always busy at work, he gives me everything I want. I think that was his way of saying I love you and I repeat it, Jenny’s the only person who sermon and nag me when I can't control myself in buying lots of things
"Jennyyy! Where’s the things you bought? Look at mine! "I said, pointing in my shopping bags
"I only got shoes which I really need... Thanks to this one”
"But wait I think it’s not enough let’s go in the jewelry shop ”
I pulled her hand forcefully in my direction. We entered a jewelry shop. I circled my eyes and almost shone but only one caught my attention
I glanced at the silver necklace with a red heart. I think the white fitted-dress thing I bought earlier is fit to this accessory. I still hold it until I hit a woman's hand. I looked at the girl and saw who she was
"Jen? ahmm... do you like it? "I asked
"What? No... Not "she said, waving her hands in front of her
My forehead knelt,. I know she likes it too
"It's okay Jen, I'll buy it for you"
"No Chloe! I will not accept that ”
"But-" I pouted
"I know you want it Chloe and remember what I told you 3 years ago "
"Yah, your words" I said
"Whatever you want even with me I will give you... that even if we both love the same thing I will always gave it up for you ”she reminded
"But you don't have to do that Jen" I said with a concerned voice
"I want to and I promise that to myself" she hold my hands and look and me with sincere eyes
Three years ago when Jenny’s mother operated on. She needs to undergo liver transplant. His foreign father and Tita Gina left her alone. I saw her being miserable and no one else was close because she didn't know her other relatives either. I decided to take all the bills in the hospital. I begged Dad to help her even if it was deducted from my allowance but my Dad did not want to help because whatever I was asking he was following. To this day Jenny has been very grateful to me.
That's what I really liked about her. She never took advantage of what I could give even when we were best friends. She always says that I give too much but she really deserves it. She changed me and I don't know how to live my life without her.
"Chloe, love letter again for you" said it to me
"Throw it away"
"Why? don't you want to read your secret admirer's letter? "
I just turned to Jenny and continued what I was doing. I often receive a love letter and I'm not bitter but I'm feeling like I'm just played when they're not introducing their names in personal. In all my secret admirers there is a consistent. Jenny and I know this because everything he gives is a smiley face brand that can even be effort even though it’s corny
"How about yours? How’s your crush? is there any improvement? "I asked her, too
"Ah...ahmm... no "she replied
"I know... I don't have a chance to him ... so I’ll let it go "
"I don't believe you will let it go... that’s your ultimate crush tho "I said that made her blushed
Months had passed and they continued to send flowers and letters to me. When I’m bored I read it sometimes Jenny reads for me but eventually we just laughed.
"Jen, your crush is coming... I'll push you just wait "
"What? Wait "
In my great timing, she bumped into Charles body. I saw how he backwards and could not feel sorry for what happened. He didn't say anything and look at Jenny but I saw his wide-eyes as he glanced at me
"What's his problem? "I wonder as Jen has never been able to get over to me
The time came when Jenny’s allowed me to find out who my admirer was. We made our own plan on how to caught him and rightly I suspect, It was Charles, the man whom Jen liked
"Why don't you answer his letters to me? "I asked, abruptly
"I don't really know how to make a fuss, what if he noticed?”
"That's the point Jen, when he found out it was you then that’s the time you confess your feelings to him"
I didn't even think about what would happen to our plan as long as I showed Jen how supportive I was. Although she looks desperate with this plan she is still nervous
"Meet me at the back of school ground" she reads the letter "Won't you go? maybe he’s waiting "
"Let him be"I have no good answer
I don't know what happened to Charles that day. I came home early and that was the last day he hinted
I felt something weird in my feeling. I always tried to open my locker and except some letters inside. I used to look around me begging that he was there and staring at me. I found myself interested in every bit of information about him.
"The day he wants to meet up with you Chloe... I went and confessed to him ”Jenny admitted to me
"Really? How? is there any improvement? "I asked, trying to give my best fake smile
"I don't know... he didn't even rejected me and he's really a good man, we go out sometimes and I know him better now…”
"Do you think you're falling in love? "I closed my shivering hands, waiting for her to answer my question nervously
"Yes"
One month left, we will about to graduate. I supported Jen and ignored my feelings. She told me everything and she just trusts me. Every time we were together Charles always came out of his mouth. I can't admit to myself but I envy her for having a good relationship with this guy
Until I prove what I really feel
" Hi Chloe, do you want to join us? "
"No thanks"
"Come on, just join us "concerned of two male students
"I said no "I cried
"Your car is--"
"Don't touch her! "
We all looked in the direction of the man who spoke. It was him... he came up and grabbed my hand
"Do we have any problem here? "
"What? Sir Charles, no... let's go "
He immediately removed the hand he held me "Are u okay? "he asked without looking at me, it's just as opposed to what I'm doing right now. I stared at him as if no one else was around me. What’s this feeling? Why does it seem like I'm slowly devouring it? Am I falling in love too? No... This is wrong
That night he took me to make sure I was home. I felt a sudden regrets at times when I didn't give him a chance to introduce himself, at times I didn't recognize him
I wanted to tell everything to my bestfriend but now I'm deeply thinking about everything I should do and I'm just leading the fear. I have nothing else to say so I have no choice but to tell everything to my Dad. Why am I trapped in this situation?
Graduation has come and I made a bad decision of confessing to him instead of telling it to my best friend
"I like you... no... no... I think I-Lo- "
"Wait Chloe , Jenny's best friend? " Charles asked as if he were avoiding the last word I would say
"Ah... Yes "
"Didn't she tell you? I’m courting her "my shoulder fell on what he said
"But that was me in the first place... you’re supposed to be courting me right now not her-- " I said
"Yeah you’re right, but you never give me a chance "
"Then I'm giving you now"
My gay boyfriend
I was once a victim of bullying because of my gender.
What's wrong of being gay if you didn’t hurt any human?
What's wrong of being a gay if you just being true to yourself right?
People were bored to the point they’re destroying other’s life.
“Jasooooon baby!”
A lively shout from the man who accepted me of what and who I am.
“Ryker what are you doing we are in school”
“So what? You are my boyfriend and I am your boyfriend. What’s the deal? ”
"They just talking about us" I replied and looked around.
“Whatever! Jason we are bestfriend for ten years and we are almost five years now in our realationship you are not used to them?” he asked.
All my life I have never been so greedy not until Ryker Fuego came.
A man that a kind of something I can never share.
“Hi Ryker?”
some girls call his name when we are leaving the campus but Ryker just ignored them.
I thought we would be happy forever.
But after we graduated in college we have different job.
I'm busy for being a manager of a popular five star hotel in the city of Manila.
While him? He's busy for his singing career in a popular entertainment in the Philippines.
One time I didn't know that his meeting scheduled will be happened in the hotel that I manage.
I was about to go out because it was time for me to go home, as I passed the hotel counter then my eyes were settled to a man.
Which caught my attention.
It's Ryker, and he is with a girl they're talking, they're laughing...
Then I found myself walking towards them.
“Ryker?”
“Jas—”
“Seriously you brought a woman and to the hotel I really work for?” I said angrily.
“Jason- no! Hey let me explain— ”I did not let him finish and I immediately slapped him.
“I have loved you for how many years and this is what I got?”
“No!— ” he said and he approached me but I distance myself to them.
“Don’t touch me!” I shouted and leave.
I didn't look at the woman anymore and I didn't say anything else.
She's pretty, She's a girl? What a fight I have against her?
So it's really better to walk out than to speak.
“If you will get viral tomorrow. I don't even care. Eat your conscience tomorrow.”
7 DAYS AFTER that unexpected scenes in my life.
Ryker didn't really meet me.
But yeah I saw his post in his IG and it was;
“WE DOESN’T END YET. LET’S JUST GIVE HIM A REST BEFORE WE START MOVING AGAIN.” his post that I’ve seen first
“YEAH I HATE NOT TALKING TO YOU, BUT ME? FORCING YOU TO TALK TO ME NAH” the second one that I've seen.
And the third one
“I DON’T KNOW HOW PEOPLE CAN FAKE FEELINGS. I CAN’T EVEN FAKE A HELLO TO MY JASON.”
I don't know if that is his way to win me back.
I also know myself that I can't fake my feeling and that is I want to talk to him.
I wanted to say sorry to him and I want to give him a chance to voice out his dark secrets with the girl.
But before I could press the “Let’s talk” send to Ryker he already called.
I answered it.
And we talked...
WHEN MORNING came I immediately took care of myself since he wanted me to go on with him in a talk show.
I insisted last night that I would not go but he said he didn't accept no's.
Even if I will say no he will still come to me here in the apartment.
HOURS PASSED
And I found myself in the backstage of a talkshow.
Then from backstage I heard Ryker's voice calling my name and suddenly the door opened.
I was surprised because so many cameras were focused on me. And I even saw card boards,
“Ryson for the win”
When I realized that there was no host I looked at the stage full of decoration and looked at Ryker.
“Talk show? Why no host?” I mouthed because of my curiosity
Then a romantic song plays and the people started screaming.
Especially when Ryker sung Marry me by Jason Derullo as he approaches.
After that he barely knelt one of his knees at the same time.
“I respect a person who can put their ego aside and say; I made mistake and I apologize. I still remember how you said sorry to me last night. But then I'm sorry too Jason for being not so open to you about the things I do and plan. But for you to know It's for us.”
“Ryker?”I said when he opened the small box with a ring.
“the long journey we’ve together? Now do I have to cheat?” he said
“That girl is Tanya I met her because of this ring. I was supposed to propose you last week but then we ended up like that ”
I covered my mouth and cry
“I’m sorry”
“Enough with your sorry Jason. Instead I'll Thank you for giving me a chance to make it happened. I love you babe so let me spend my rest of my life with you” he replied and I nodded
“Will you marry me?" he asked and I immediately bowed down and kissed him on the forehead.
“Yes. Yes baby ” he put on the ring and everyone witnessed the thing he have done.
After 3 Years, we get married in Thailand and we even adopted a kid on the street who needs a parent's care.
Who else would not be lucky with the man who accepted and loved you completely and without question?
THEY SAID LOVE IS BLIND, BUT I DON'T BELIEVE IN IT.
BECAUSE FOR ME? THE REAL DEFINITION OF LOVE IS ACCEPTANCE.
BECAUSE LOVE ACCEPTS.
NO MATTER WHO AND WHAT YOU REALLY ARE IN THIS WORLD.
LOVE ALWAYS ACCEPTS.
“HOY BARTOLOME GUMISING KANA DIYAN!”
~END
A stranger in the the forest
"Do you believe me?"
"I will always believe in you"
I have asked him several times but he continues to answer me as if he had heard this question before.
"What will you do if you'll see him?" He asked me
I just stared at him and smiled just because I didn't know what to do so I didn't know what to answer. He looked back and restricted the steering wheel. I just focused on the places we were going through and leaned head to head.
I'm with my boyfriend and we're going to Bulacan Province today. I have wanted to go back to the place where I was born. It's been a long time since we left the place and went to Manila to forget about something that had never been lost in my mind.
(Flashback)
(Phone ringing)
"Mommy!!"I cried
"We will do everything as long as you just bring my daughter back to us! Don't hurt her!"
"A Million in exchange for your child's life"
It's been a long talk but this is all I've heard. I was just playing outside the house until a Black car passed by and I was forced to get inside. I can say that we are the richest in this province so they have no other motive but money.
I don't even know where I am. A small window overlooks the growing tree surrounding the area. Maybe the abandoned building I am in the forest is in the forest.
I was so scared back then. My hands and feet are bound. At the young age of ten I used to focus on guns just to keep me quiet. I experienced seeing the men in front of me with their loud laughter. Their bodies are big and the tattoos on their arms are scary.
During the waiting period and watching them I finally fell asleep
"AAaaaahhhh!!!!"
I woke up from a loud cry. I noticed that my hands and feet were no longer bound. My eyes widened. My fur were raised and my mouth was covered. I walked slowly
The men who had been drinking earlier had no life. Surrounded by long branches of misty straps wrapped around their bodies. My eyes still see a man holding his hands on the branch forcing him to lose his breath.
The old and abandoned building is filled with long branches and little leaves
I ran out even though I didn't know where I was going. I look around but only the tree I see
"How can I get home?"I whispered in the air and couldn't help but cry.
"The son of nature is here!"
"He's here"
My hands trembled at what was heard. Does the wind seem to talk to me. I covered my ear because it kept whispering to me. I ran away even though I didn't know where I was going
"Come on!"I was deeply moved to hear the man's strange voice.
"Don't be afraid" again stated it that calmed me down. It was just a gentle voice and I knew it was a boy too.
I approached a tree where his voice was getting stronger but I backwards due to a change in the tree's body. At the retreat I did not notice a boulder. I was clumsy and could fall apart but I felt the branches beating me and it seemed to embrace it. It was like I was now confined to someone's arms. I smiled and fell asleep again.
The wind was so strong and the leaves were lying to me. I was so sleepy that I had a hard time opening my eyes.
"She is so beautiful... I want to marry this woman"
"At the right time my dear son-"
I've been opening my eyes. I even shot them and stood up. I look around again but I still can't see who's voices are there.
"You're awake, come on let's play"
"Who are you? Where are you" I rotated around
"Don't you really see me?"
"No, how do I play with you?"I asked. I heard him breathing deeply
"Open your eyes"
"I'm the one you didn't see, my eyes were still open!"
"Open your eyes yet and not only will you see me but also the true beauty of those around you"
I breathed deep I didn't know what he was talking about but my eyes were closed. Emphasize that my eyes are closed and the environment is better.
The noise of the birds. The cheerful trees. The growth of weeds. The cold breeze. Growing fruits from the tree. Flowering plants and grabbing butterflies.
As I opened my eyes I saw. The real beauty of the forest. The hidden treasure of nature. It seems like a paradise. With a wide smile I raised my hands as if I could hold everything. I rolled my eyes, this place was wonderful
I stopped seeing a boy in front of me. If you look he's taller than me. In his dress it looks like it is still woven with leaves around. His skin is white and very smooth. His eyes are long but his green eyes are more striking.
The wind was flying over my long hair that almost covered my face. As I brushed my hair we were once again staring and the heavenly smile we both showed.
He reached for his hands. I slowly touched it. As he clung to it he pulled me and ran into the forest.
"Run!"
"Ara Faster!"
"We're going to hide? You used to not chase me- "
" ...and my name is Araleah! better to call me Leah than Ara tsk."
"No, I like Ara!"
He was still grinning so I was more excited. I even bought the run to chase him but this guy was really fast. We played all day in the forest. Hiding trees. Frustrated with butterflies. Jumping on the rocks and I also tried to climb the branches.
"Where are your parents?"I asked
"My mother is just around"
I turned around
"but no one's here"
He laughed.
"Ara! At the right time I'll marry you that's a promise!"
"Mommy says wedding is very sacred as well as the word 'Promise' so you shouldn't say that as long as you're not sure"
"But... You are Mother's choice for me"
I just shook his head. We're so young for that I didn't even understand them as long as I knew I couldn't get married Mommy said. He was determined by his promise but I still think about getting back to my family.
"It's great here! like magic, it sounds weird. Next time I will visit again and I will be with my family"
"All the forests in the world are like this. My Mother takes care of them... but-"
He stopped talking and shed a tear from his eyes. It still glows as it slides down his cheek.
"But what? Why are you crying?"
"We are slowly losing our wealth. In exchange for the governing buildings and the fruit of the people's work it is ruined. I hear my Mother's groin. Someday this forest will disappear too"
With what he said I couldn't help but cry. I approached and hugged him. I could feel the heat of his body. I could feel his heartbeat and his blood flow. All of this is true and I know he is true
"You won't allow it?"he wiped the tears on my cheek and smiled together
"We will not allow"
The story ended and we played when the darkness came.
"Go home! your parents are worried"
"Ahhhmm... I don't know where the right way is"
"Just follow the fireflies"
The surroundings illuminated the release of fireflies without knowing where they came from. We followed here as they lined up to point our way. Suddenly he stopped walking-
"This is my stop, see you again"
"What if we never meet again?"
"We will... and I will always watch over you, Promise!"
Again I hugged him tightly.
"What is your name?"I asked
"Me... si-"
He had not said that it had gradually disappeared. The fireflies light just kept going and I was good to follow it until I got to our house. I turned around several times but he was gone.
I got back to my family. I didn't even know if Daddy was still looking for those who had taken me before. I insisted on every incident in the forest but no one believed me. My family was just worried. Maybe I was traumatized-what's going through my mind. No! I know all of that is true. How I was save from the hands of evil men. The forest seems to be paradise. The boy I was with. But no one believed me.
We left the province to have a new life again. I have done nothing in this regard. They even consulted me with the doctor assuming I was crazy.
(End of flashback)
Wrong place,wrong time
My name is Elina, I've been a doctor at one of the major hospitals in our area for almost a year. I am a fresh graduate. as a doctor, for me it is our responsibility to serve our country, and that is what I did. I returned to my hometown to serve.
My parents are both teachers. They really worked every single way for me. They sent me to the best schools just to give me a good future. I was High School back then. When highschool there are always celebrities on campus. Every woman admired him. He is the best of all, sports or academic, he has it all. Let's call him Patterson. Very popular at school, everyone knew him.Talented, Athletic, and Handsome. Those are his qualities.
We first met during the Quiz Bee. We are on the same level, 4th year. It was a turning point, determining who we would represent in the finals.Everyone claimed Pat would win, but of course I didn't want to lose either, so the test started. Everything was eliminated except for the two of us, we had a break as they were preparing a set of questions. Patrick sat next to me and suddenly.
Pat: Hello. What is your name? (offering his hand for a shake)
Me: Elina (extend my hand)
Pat: My name is Patterson.
Me: yes, I knew you. Everyone knows you.
Pat: Woah. So that means, can I invite you later? (In matching smile)
Me: Hmm.. Let's see.
So, the quiz bee continued, and I won. After the event, everyone greeted me. My friends applauded the auditorium loudly. It was the most memorable day for me, not because I won, but because it was my first time shaking a man. I'll tell you honestly, I felt that moment. Since then, the moment of that handshake has never left my naive mind. Still leaving to this day.
By that time, the Facebook platform had been established, it had begun to gain popularity and users. Facebook was very low at the time. Everyone created their own accounts and started their lives on social media. I created an account and started posting pictures and chatting with my friends.
One day, someone sent a friend request and it was Patterson..
Pat: Hey Elina. It's me, Patersson. Why so busy on Facebook?
Me: (nervous) Haha not much. I just uploaded some pictures to remember. You, what are you doing?
Pat: Stalking you, You're so beautiful, are you the only the daughter?
Me: (my cheek blushed) Hahaha nah, I'm not beautiful, Yes I’m the only daughter.
Pat: No! You are so beautiful. During quiz bee, I will admit, you are beautiful.
Me: Haha stop joking Pat.
Pat: let's take a picture together.
That conversation is the beginning of our story. I stalked Patterson's Facebook. He uploaded pictures of his family. His father and brother. His mother is gone because she was abroad. They are very close to each other. He was perfect to everyone.
Since then, we've always been chatting. The late conversation at night. I always felt like I was in heaven when talking to him. My feelings grew daily when I saw him at school. He was happy. One day while I was coming home, I was walking down the aisle and saw Patterson holding a camera.
Me: why did you bring that up?
Pat: You know I have something I want?
Me: What?
Pat: Hope we have a picture.
Me: Well, whatever. your wish is my command.
We let my friend take a picture for us. After that, we should head home.
Pat: Elina, I have something to tell you.
Me: what's that?
Pat: Ever since we met each other during the exam, I have felt something for you. I can't explain why I'm so happy to see you.
I didn't speak
Pat: Elina, I like you. Can you be my girlfriend?.
Those words struck my heart. He spoke those words in the light of the sunset. I feel the same way about him. I can't stop myself.
Me: Yes, Pat.
He hugged me. And our world began to become one. I told my parents about it and they were fine, both with Pat's parents. He always visits our house. He was determined to give everything. We spend time with each other.
Six months later, we finished High School. We are very proud. We attended college but not the same university. He studied engineering and I took Biology as a pre-med course. It's pretty hard. But we always have time for each other. Our love is strong, until the storm hits.
He found his mother with another family abroad. He was depressed at the time. I, as his girlfriend, took care of him. But sometimes, he pushed me away, even his family. He pushed people away from him. Patrick lost his momentum. Got a bad record from school.
One day, he told me to meet us at the coffee shop.
Pat: Elina
Me: Pat, what are we going to talk about?
Pat: I don't want you to be despised because of me.
Me: What? Not really. Here I am, standing strong for you, Pat. I'm your girlfriend, that's my responsibility.
Pat: Elina don't pretend. I love you and don't want to see you hurt because of me.
I started to cry.
Me: So, what do you wan Pat? End this relationship? How about our plans together? I love you Pat and I will never let you go.
Pat: Elina those were just plans! If we keep going together, we will just end up hurting each other. I had to find myself, I lost it. Sorry, Elina. I have to do it. I love you.
He screamed, kissed me on the forehead, rushing outside. He left me there crying and all I had was pain. I went home and told my parents what had happened. They were very understanding of me and Pat. They understand Pat. I tried to contact him using Facebook but he deactivated his account. And I, too, deactivated my account. I finished my second year. I got a scholar to continue my education in Canada and went there to Med School.
A few years later I was able to finish and attend Med School. I was able to become a Surgeon. It was not easy, there were many struggles in my chosen profession but still managed to achieve everything with the help of God and my parents. I do and induce all pain and experience.
During my last week stay in Canada, I met Joshua and also a doctor. I only had time for dating after I graduated. We talked and agreed to hang out. Well, Joshua is a material husband. I wanted to give Joshua a place in my heart. I could see that he was working hard for me and it impressed me.
One time, he talked to me and said he wanted me to meet his family. Birthday of his half brother, whom I had never met or even seen a picture of. He told me that he really had his brother. So, I agreed because I missed my family too.
After a long time of traveling, we reached my hometown. I was captivated by its beauty. We are planning a vacation with my family after the birthday. After that, we got to their house.
Joshua: Elina, looks like my brother is in the garden. I want you to meet him. We have had no communication for a long time.
So we went to the garden. When we got there his brother turned and held a camera while taking pictures of the flowers.
Joshua: Brother!
His brother looked at us. I stood there, and I couldn't move.
It was Pat.
My oniichan
Take my hand, take my whole life too.
For I can't help falling inlove with you.
That was my parents theme song and my mom used to sing that song for me when I was a child. She was a piano teacher and she really loves music.
I thought I was the first blessing to them but not my Mom told me about my brother. Until now they cannot accept the fact that they loss him when he's still on mom's stomach by hearing those things from them makes me feel like I was not enough. They treated me as their princess, I saw how much my Dad loves my Mom but they can't hide from me the days when they were fighting. I was just in the corner of my room, holding my ears, wiping my tears and acting like nothing happened that day.
I want you to stay, never go away from me
Stay forever
But now, now that you are gone
All I can do is to pray for you
To be here beside me again
My mom bumped into a car accident while trying to save me. My life suddenly changed and broke into pieces. I couldn't look into Dad's eyes and I know he's blaming for mom's death. I was left alone saying "Mom, please wake up. I can't live without you... Please "
I got up in bed when I heard the sound of a guitar. I immediately went downstairs and followed its sound. The sound brought me to our basement and there I saw an old guitar
"Can you play the guitar? Raquel?"
I looked back when I heard a man's voice.
"Who are you?"
He's taller than me and looks older too. Its nose is long and his eyelashes are thick too. He's not that white but his body is just right. It only wears white T-shirts and jeans pants, it also comes with a guitar. He just smiled and started to play the guitar.
I'm only one call away
I'll be there to save the day
Superman got nothing on me
I'm only one call away.....
My Dad became so busy everyday in his work. He's doing it for forgetting or maybe he doesn't want to see me. We almost have everything, I get everything I want, I live in a mansion but this is not the true happiness for me. I rather choose to live in a simple life while having a whole family than living in lonely mansion.
"Just follow my strumming patterns okay?"
He was always there. I don't know but I was never scared even when we first met. Maybe it's because mom always told me when I was a kid.
He patiently taught me how to play a guitar.
There goes my heart beating
Cause you are the reason
I'm loosing my sleep
Please Comeback now
There goes my mind racing
And you are the reason
That I'm still breathing
I'm hopeless now
"How did you learn playing guitar?"I asked him
"Self taught? Or maybe I inherited it in my parents too"
I look at him and smiled a little, if only he were alive.
"Oh! don't stare at me, I might melt "
His self confidence is also severe, so I snob at him but he just grabbed my head and messed my hair.
"Do you have a boyfriend already?"
"What if there is?"I said, but I was just kidding him to see its reaction
"Then who is he?"
Sometimes I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold
Got that young love even when we're old
Sometimes I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end
My life as a teenager became much hard he was still there. He supported me in everything. He gave me the best advice for every situation I encountered.
"I'm such a failure" I said while crying to him
"Who told you that? "I saw the concern in his eyes.
He gave me my guitar and even started playing. He repeated the intro of the song because he wanted me to sing.
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
It's about how fast I get there
It's about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
I always tried to do my best in school hoping that someday my Father will be there to appreciate me. I still love him sometimes in my mind that he might not really love me.
"I can't take this anymore, please... let me see you"
"I'm here!"he waved at me, saw that he was still smiling but then immediately put his hands down when he saw that I was crying
"What happened?"
"He never loved me"
"I told you, I don't really like that guy for you either"
In my first heartbreak he was also there. He became my comfort zone. I don't feel like I'm alone when I'm with him.
" Hey! Forget that guy, it's bad to sleep late!"
"What time is it?"
"It's 12:51am!"
I just smiled and took my guitar.
Cause it's 12: 51 and I thought my feelings were gone
But I'm lying on my bed thinking of you again
And the moon shines so bright but I gotta dry these tears tonight
Cause you're moving on and I'm not that strong to hold on any longer
Playing a guitar and singing became my favorite hobby. Music makes me feel alive even though my life is full of sadness. It was also my way of calling him because I knew he would accompany me every time I played.
I always try to hug him even though I know I'm just embracing the wind. I wish I could touch him, I wish he was really here.
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn,
What I do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here
I'm starting to become an independent woman but I'm still longing for my Dad's love. I got news about his company. He almost broke the sky and the land because of the bankruptcy. I saw him cry in his office and I still had the courage before he was able to talk.
"Dad?"
"Go to your room Raquel! You don't have to worry about me!"
My tears started to fall. I was expecting this from him but I couldn't help but cry.
"I-I miss you Dad, please don't forget that I'm still here..I'm still here Dad...and I will always be here for you"
He just stared into my eyes. I knew he was tired and his eyes were crying. I hoped he would talk to me but he just stooped and I didn't hear anything from him. I can feel the pain inside so I ran and locked my room.
"Please let me see you..."
"I'm here, It's alright"
I know that he was also trying to hug me even though I didn't feel his body.
"Do you want to play a song?"he asked, I just nodded and picked up the guitar again.
I've got way too much time to be this hurt
Somebody help, it's getting worse
What do you do with a broken heart?
Once the light fades, everything is dark
Way too much whiskey in my blood
I feel my body giving up
Can I hold on for another night?-
He stopped playing and stared at me again. He always shows his smiles to make me happy too but this time it was different. He guided me in sadness.
"No more nights for me, Raquel" he said
"Are you going to leave me as well?"
"You are a brave woman, even without me you can make through this"
"No!... if you'll leave can you please take me?"
"Listen Raquel, I need to go now but always remember that I will always be by your side"
"I love you older brother "
It's exhausting but why don't I run out of tears? The first time I saw him, I already know who he was. When I was a child my Mom told me the story about Guardian Angels. She made me believe that it was the job of my brother so he never had the opportunity to live in this world.
He is my Guardian Angel
"Shhh... big bro loves you so promise me that you will take care of Dad okay?, he needs you here"
So I'll sing Hallelujah
You were an angel in the shape of my mum
When I fell down you'd be there holding me up
Spread your wings as you go
And when God takes you back we'll say Hallelujah
You're home
"That's my song for you"
"Thanks Raquel! but you need to wake up now" whispered to me
"Raquel! Wake up!"
I woke up and Dad was next to me, still crying. I got up and he embraced me immediately.
"Oh thank God!... Why did you take those drugs?!"Dad's worried question,
"I'm sorry Dad, it was just a sleeping pills"
"No, Raquel... I'm so sorry... forgive me"
"He was in my dreams dad, he visited me in my dreams since I was a child. I took those pills to talk to him a lot of time"
He sighed and rubbed my hair. He wiped my tears earlier.
"I appreciate you a lot my princess! I'm sorry for all my shortcomings and lapses, Daddy loves you so much"
I hugged him again.
"I love you too Dad"
He looked beside me and saw my guitar next to me. It's always been by my side when I sleep. He just stared there and looked at me.
"Do you know how to play a guitar?"Dad asked
I just nodded and took it.
When I was younger I saw my Daddy cry and curse at the wind,
He broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to re-assembled it
And my momma swore she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it doesn't exist
My Dad continues the song
But Darling ,
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You...are the only exception
"So you also love music? you're an inheritance to your mommy "
"No dad! I inherited it from you... because this is yours right?"
We smiled together when I showed him his name at the back of it.
End~
Trailer: Zombie Apocalypse
"Bryce Nathan Richards! I-I like you. "
His emotion did not change. Bryce turned his back on me and walked away.
I admit because I thought we were feeling the same way. I thought we liked each other. I thought he liked me too.
That was 3 or 4 years ago? I was annoyed with myself then. I couldn't help but ask 'Why did I do that?'but when I remember those we had together, the questions were changed.
"Why did he leave me?"
"What did I do wrong?"
-
"Run! leave this place! "
I continued my walk into school ignoring any chaos going on outside.
"Erica we are late!"
She's Max, my best friend since grade 7. The person I trusted all my secrets. And even though we had a different course in college, our friendship remained.
"Do you know that person ? "she asked
I looked at what the student was pointing above and my eyes widened. The president of our club as well as my friend named Nessa will commit suicide at the height of the school building?
"Go away Erica! We will die too! so I'll be ahead!"she cried.
"Is that the solution to your problem?"
That was the craziest thing I have ever heard this day.
Why do people acting so weird?
-
Suddenly my peaceful and quiet reputation disappeared when I was suddenly called to the Principal's office. Nothing worse today?
"Mr. Brandon it's almost a month since you brought chaos to this school "the principal said.
My name is included in the lists of members of his illegal organization. But I didn't have a signature there and they didn't have much evidence for me.
"Erica didn't know it, I just put her name" Max admits that she can't look straight at me.
Why would my best friend do that to me?
Is that because of her connection with Brandon?
I was going to talk but the door opened again and the trembling student entered " O-outside there are-"
He's Josh a bespectacled boy and the President of the Student Council.
He couldn't keep saying so we went out for it.
"What's happening here?!!! "
People are like corps or infected being that shamble towards the other to eat them. Blood is everywhere and all students are trying to escape. I observed more and saw how everyone dies and whatever the cause? they became one of the undead.
"They are here, they have begun"
-
INSPIRED IN HOLLYWOOD'S ZOMBIE SERIES
-
We get out of school and were able to go together to a Private house. I saw how people with us died earlier, how we found some and how we went about without being able to save others.
"Worst life ever! Grrrr "
She's Lyka, I met her in Junior highschool and she was close friends with Bryce. News spread that they're been together then after they broke up. I was like "What the heck?"
"Master! I'm hungry!"
He's Mikee, we're on the same city and he's also a close friend of Bryce. He was so inlove with Mac in junior highschool we but my best friend rejected him.
-
While waiting for our only hope and chance to leave this City, we remained lock in an ongoing battle against the infected, other human beings and people around us
Because not all memories in the past remain where it belongs. Everything is just hidden inside us but it is not over for a reason.
-
"Lyka and Max are missing?"I asked
"You haven't changed Mikee, Max is still doomed because of you!"
"Stop it Brandon, will you keep that up?"
"When something goes wrong with Max, it's your fault!"
-
With the fall of humanity, other interpersonal conflict arises. We need to speak, we need to listen because they have a different story to tell. They have their own thoughts, own perspective, own problems and own past.
-
"Kill her!"he shouted
"Please don't do this!"
"And why would I listen to my sworn enemy?"
"I used to be your... best friend "
"Yes, Nessa my best friend... No!! not after you lied and betrayed me!"
"I lied but I never betrayed you" she cried
-
Maybe they have gone through something that change them... or may they not actually change, you will never know who they really are.
-
"Can you take care of them for me Erica?"
"Please, don't say that"
"I'm not scared to die and believe me I prayed for it before"
I remained silent. "I want to see my family Erica, I want to go home"
"We are your family" I faced her "and we'll go home together"
The disease turned someone into zombies, other people called them as walkers and we called them as infected persons. Human race gets wiped out. The whole city destroyed and every place was covered by blood.
-
'SERIES 1: IN THE CITY OF BLOOD'
-
"Even if we get out of here, we will not be safe"
"What do you mean?"
"Look around you Erica, it's not as bad as we can find another city"
"No... No"
"We will go to find your family, we will find your brother"
I looked into her eyes and my heart started to race "Why do you care about them so much?"
"I will do everything to protect your family and I will do anything to protect you if you would let me"
"I'm tired of guessing Bryce. After leaving me that day? What is my family to you? Who am I in your life?"
"Do you really want to know?"
"Yes"
-
I came but you never wait
"The sting, it's only 50 pesos! How about yours?"
I opened the wallet I got and gave a hundred. I smiled and bragged about it.
"So unfair! you always get the higher amount”he said
'the plague of society', We are known for that name but in reality we are just two of the few young people in the world.
No home and no proper clothing. There is no hope and always in hunger. No one likes a life like this but we have learned to accept our bitter fate. I was ten years old and he was only eight years old. At an early age we were trained in stealing.
"Look Carl! the students are coming out ”said Celene
"We have to gain today"
I started walking but I didn't feel like she was following so I returned to him.
"What are you waiting? "
"Is it fun to study in a school?"he suddenly responded as he still looked into the eyes of the students going out.
"Of course not! For sure they are having headaches every time they're in school”
"If I get the chance to study I assure you I'll do my best to finish it and have a degree"
"What? You want to study? "I asked
"To have lots of money"
"In your dreams"
I saw her sadness as I said it. I couldn't recover it so I approached her and held her hand.
"We can save money for you to study"
Her facial expression changed quickly. She smiled and hugged me.
"... and when we get rich I'll buy everything you want ” she added.
"Why do you want to get rich? "
"Why? For us to have a good life a better life.. what about you? What do you want?"
"I just want a simple life... as long as the whole family is can eat three times a day "
"Is that so? meaning when I'm rich... you won't marry me? "
I was shocked at what she said. I blushed and stooped, she just laughed at my side.
"What are you saying, that's nonsense "I said and left.
My parents died in a fire accident so I drove down the street until I met Celene. She says she doesn't remember much about her parents. I tried to help her but to this day we have no news. She cried and was very upset but because of her I had a companion. We often get into an argument with others, often clash with territory and often wrestle with police. I taught her how to be brave as well.
One day we're in a quarrel again. I even challenged one of the street children. I was swallowed to see that he was not alone and they were many. I immediately pulled Celene and ran.
"Come on! You're so slow, run faster ”I complained to her.
"Just a moment! "
"Faster! They're near already they can easily chase us in that case. "
"Carl!! "
I stopped when she called my name. I looked at her and saw who was holding her arms. A cop,
"Finally! I caught you! you stole in the market one day" the police said.
"No... I don't! "
I couldn't run and leave Celene so I didn't realize I was being held by another cop.
"It's been a while, You're late now "said a policeman laughing.
We got into the police car and drove it.
"Why don't you run? "Celene whispered to me
"Well simple, I just want to know where they'll take you."
"Hey! when I was running I was bump into a police! I'm not slow "she replied
"Don't worry you're too young to be in jail" said the police driving the vehicle while looking in front of the mirror.
We stopped to an orphanage. I know this place, we treat it as a jail for street children because they say we can't act freely here.
"Carl! There's a lot of kids, I wonder if they're also studying here"
"Of course, we teach a lot in this place" a woman's response.
The police left us there. As I wondered how Celene could escape, she was thrilled to see around. People are kind to her and they are doing well but I am afraid.
"Let's stay here"
"Celene no, we have to escape"
"It's up to you, but I'll stay here"
"What?! you will not come with me? "
Shaking her head and turn away from me. I sighed.
"We will be separated here too"
"We will not be separated if you won't leave" she said.
"It's an orphanage Celene, when someone likes you and ...they will adopt you "
"Simple, I will suggest to include you as well"
"That will never happen, they'll just take what they want and no one will choose me because I'm old already "
This is what I fear for us to be apart of but it seems like I'm preventing Celene from having a family, to have parents who can take and care of her.
I was sad when thinking about it and because I didn't want us to be apart I stayed. Until that day someone choose her.
"Carl, I'm scared"
"That's all right, you can fulfill all your dreams in your new family so be kind! "
"Carl, you promise... promise that we will meet again, that you will find me ”
"Promise, Celene I will"
I met who adopted Celene. Basing on their clothes they are just simple. They are married and I am sure they are good people and a good parents to Celene.
"May I know what's your surname? "I asked
"San Diego, why did you ask? "
"I hope you will take good care of Celene"
That's what I told them before I ran away. Celene couldn't help but cry as she slowly did... away from me.
"Carl, come here"
"Why? "I wondered why Sister Kris called me.
"Mr. Lim, this is Carl ”
"I want to adopt him as soon as possible"
At first I didn't understand but I was surprised when sister Kris explain to me that he wanted to adopt me. It's rare to take such things as I usually get here at age eight and down. During my stay here I was twelve years old and still hoping that Celene might visit me.
I was not happy in those times because I knew when I left I would never see her again.
Those who adopted me were rich. They have no children and they need one to make their relationship stronger. At first I didn't understand why they chose me but eventually I found out why.
I studied abroad. They taught many things. Dressed in fancy clothes and gave whatever I want. Only in the eyes of my parents did not fall short because I could not be with them often. As the remarks about the rich in the super-sized house they hardly ever meet.
"Look Celene... isn't it your dream being rich? Your dream is a bit sad"I'm talking in the air
Every day she's the only person I think. Does her condition good? Is she educated as I am? I got the things she dreamed of, she should be here in my position, she would have been more deserving of this life and if she had been here she would have been very happy at this time.
The life I dreamed of was just simple. Up to this point am I still higher that her? Like a fifty and a hundred, our two lives are very far apart.
I promised myself that I would fulfill her dreams for the time we met she would be proud of me and I would be proud of her too.
"I'm so proud of you son, you really did a great job"
"Thanks, Mom... thanks Dad "
This is the reason why they want to adopt a child. They wanted me to finish school early and learn everything so I didn't disappoint them. They made me a part of the company and eventually I became the owner. All my hard work was fruitful and it was all for her.
"Look Celene, I studied well... maybe you're rich now "I smiled as I said that in the air.
Sometimes I went back to the orphanage and often donate. I remember myself when I saw a street children and remembered the memories when I was with Celene, I wonder what she looks like now.
Celen San Diego, that's all I know about her. I don't know where they lived then and I got other information in the documents at the orphanage about her parents too.
Finding me was not easy. In fact I was able to build a large house that I could live in and intend to gift to Celene by the time we meet again. One day I received another information where I can find her residence.
"You mean Mr. and Mrs. Diela San Diego? that couple often fought back then so they separated ”an old woman said.
"What?! What about their daughter... do you know where she is? "
"Their adopted? I have no news... maybe she went with Diela and moved to their province ”
Upon hearing that I was not discouraged. I continued my search.
Until I finally saw her.... with someone.
That day, I didn't approach her because I can see in her eyes that she's now happy.
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Ether (ETH)
Ether is the second largest cryptocurrency after bitcoin, with a market capitalization of $ 316bn. Created in 2015, the Ethereum blockchain operates smart contracts that enable decentralized applications (dApps), which took place in 2021. As investors choose to hold bitcoin as a gold-like asset, ether is used to enable dApps including the increasingly popular decentralized financial services (DeFi). That drives a higher number of public blockchain transactions in Ethereum than Bitcoin.
Total value locked in decentralized finance rose from about $ 15bn in December to $ 66bn at the end of April, according to DeFi Pulse.
Ethereum blockchain uses a Proof-of-Work (PoW) algorithm to validate transactions and reward validators by mining coins, but it moves to a proof-of-stake algorithm (PoS) that is better energy, and gives rewards by staking, paying interest to the holders. A series of Ethereum 2.0 updates are designed to improve network security and scalability, increasing its adoption.
The price of ether has raised $ 2,000 since the beginning of the year, climbing from $ 739 at the beginning of January. Price has been outperformed bitcoin in recent days, rallying at new highs as bitcoin prices have skyrocketed. Some market observers expect the price of ether to reach $ 3,000 in the near term, with a long-term price target of $ 10,000 to $ 25,000.
Binance Coin (BNB)
Binance Coin is the third-largest cryptocurrency with a market cap of $ 90.9bn. Launched in 2017, the coin is the native cryptocurrency that not only exchanges Binance, one of the largest in the world, but also the wider Binance ecosystem, including the Binance Smart Chain (BSC). Binace aims to be the leading infrastructure service provider for the blockchain ecosystem.
The cryptocurrency rally prompted a surge in trading that was driving strong growth in Binace exchange transactions. BNB prices have risen from $ 38.80 at the beginning of 2021 to trade around $ 600 this month, attracting investors' interest rather than just exchange users.
Solana (SOL)
Solana, one of DeFi's fastest growing ecosystems, is gaining attention as more blockchain apps launch. The project was officially launched in March 2020 after three years of development. SOL cryptocurrency is a native network coin and rises from $ 1.62 to a peak of $ 47 this month. It became the 14th largest cryptocurrency with a market cap of $ 11.19bn.
Solana uses the PoS consensus algorithm mechanism that uses Proof-of-History (PoH) for one of the highest speeds for transactions and smart contract execution of any blockchain. It also offers low transaction fees for users seeking an alternative to increasing Ethereum fees.
Technical analysis from CoinCodex has been neutral to the SOL price for a short time. However, with the rapid growth of adoption, prices are expected to rise above the $ 100 level, according to forecasting sites such as Wallet Investor and Digitalcoin.
Chainlink (LINK)
Chainlink is a decentralized oracle network designed to connect smart DeFi contracts to the Ethereum blockchain with real-world applications, as blockchains cannot access external data. Oracles feed information from the real world to the network to trigger smart contracts when certain conditions are met.
Prices for LINK cryptocurrency rose from $ 11.32 at the start of the year to a peak of $ 42.66 earlier this month. It's been back in the last two weeks to trade around the $ 35 level.
Polygon (MATIC)
The Matic network is re-designated as Polygon, reflecting its goal of becoming the "Internet of Blockchains" of Ethereum. Founded in 2017, Polygon's protocol and framework aims to develop and connect Ethereum blockchains to create a multi-chain system for scaling and infrastructure development.
The MATIC token, launched in 2019, was listed on the Coinbase crypto exchange on March 11, prompting a price rally. Prices rose from $ 0.0017 at the beginning of 2021 to $ 0.36 at the start of April and a fresh high above $ 0.92 at the end of the month.
Cryptocurrency perspective: will rallies continue?
The liquidation of bitcoin positions after the price hit $ 63,000 and returns could indicate a loss of momentum that could be weighed in the market in the short term, JP Morgan analyst Nikolaos Panigirtzoglou told CNBC last week. However, some analysts predict the price will rebound in the long run and set new highs.
There are signs of cryptocurrency markets being overheated in the short term, but individual coins can continue to perform well. For example, some investors revolve around bitcoin and ether. Due to the high volatility of cryptocurrency prices, it is especially important to do your own research and consider the level of risk that is appropriate for your portfolio.
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DeFi: The future of banking?
Blockchain has been the talk of the town for more than a decade now. A blockchain-supported financial ecosystem is said to give greater autonomy, more liquidity, higher security, and enhanced transparency. The job at hand is to create a user interface for all. For the banking sector, decentralized digital finance, or simply decentralized finance (DeFi) is a fast-growing implementation within blockchain.
The emergence of DeFi
As of August 2020, the total value locked in DeFi stands at $6.19 billion and DeFi assets have exponentially grown 20 folds as compared with that in February 2019. More than 0.04% of the total Ethereum supply is locked up in DeFi applications.
DeFi environments are global as there is no geographical limitation to access the networks and services. They are not centrally managed or operated by any institution or employee, the environments are transparent and entirely run and maintained by smart contracts and algorithms. They are also open source, meaning anyone can create decentralized applications (dApps) without any limitations. And all activities can be seen by each member, which makes the system auditable by any member, giving them the opportunity to understand the code’s functionalities.
The future of finance is being built around factors such as removing the middleman to decrease cost and increase resilience, decentralizing the authority to create autonomy, and creating a well distributed framework. Global crises like COVID-19 clearly define that when control is with only few actors, the risks are so great that they threaten entire systems, giving DeFi a chance to prove its worth.
DeFi has seen several types of implementations in the financial sector as it eases the way we handle money and improves financial security while enhancing liquidity. DeFi is challenging some top financial tools by providing use-cases like lending, decentralized exchanges (DEXs), derivatives, wallets, asset management, insurance, and savings.
Lending platforms on blockchain are one of the biggest and most highly implemented use-cases in DeFi. They use smart contracts to automate several rules and define limits, but they are still at a very early stage for mainstream use and to be acceptable to general users. These platforms are mainly being used by blockchain enthusiasts and crypto speculators as they currently fall within the “grey” regulation zone. To bring DeFi to the general public, they need to go under extensive penetration testing, protocol reliability testing, strength testing, and volume and scalability testing. These dApps can only be taken advantage of by the average users when the underlying technological vulnerabilities are resolved.
Issues and benefits
One of the major issues faced by DeFi and blockchain projects in terms of mass adoption is the complexity of their user interface (UI). In order to reach maximum users, these platforms need to simplify their UIs for mass adoption. As DeFi platforms are relatively new and immature, users who intend to invest their funds in these platforms must take into account the risks associated with them.
Even then, DeFi projects have a long-term scope with well-built features like higher transaction speed, eradication of centralized authority, easy accessibility, removal of any intermediaries and third parties making it cheaper and faster.
DeFi platforms have been a center of attention for hackers and have seen some major attacks, including on venture capital firms like Volt Capital, Paradigm Capital, and Collaborative Funds. Chinese DeFi protocol, dForce, lost around $25 million of its assets in an attack, which was later returned by the hackers. A similar attack was made on DAO in 2016.
Traditional financial institutes or centralized crypto exchanges have been subject to various hacker attacks over the years as well. To overcome the risk of attacks, some DeFi applications are not completely decentralized. They keep some operations controlled centrally like keeping the administrator private keys, etc.
While some of us want an upgrade in our financial systems, others wonder if the implementation of DeFi is going to make the system even more prone to errors and manipulation, giving way to lack of accountability. The question that arises is whether DeFi platforms can fix errors when something goes wrong, then how decentralized they actually are? Also, while decentralization and autonomy seem great, they too have their grey sides. If a person loses their password, private key, or their address, it can cost the user his/her entire investment. And smart contracts are pieces of codes that put all activities in place, so if one is hacked all data and funds of the platform could be compromised.
The complex concepts and working of DeFi call for specialized knowledge to handle its tools and operate apps. Steps are being taken by several organizations to educate people regarding the basics of blockchain and its operations.
DeFi’s aim is to construct a completely distinct financial ecosystem where no central authority has power, and which can be accessed by anyone from around the world. It will create an inter-protocol communication system to ensure interoperability. Post the pandemic, Defi will be able to show its full potential to radically transform the financial services industry.
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"Factors of being a young mom" [sample research]
Abstract
The purpose of this research is to know what young mothers are going through in six aspects: emotional, spiritual, mental, financial, relational, and social. The said research is based on quantitative method and is used by nonrandom convenient sampling, in which respondents are selected by researchers based on “convenience”.
The number of respondents was five (35) young mothers aged twelve to eighteen living in Sta. Rosa Alaminos, Laguna. The resulting result is no difference in the mean score of six factors when it comes to the level of final entry, age of first childbirth and when touched upon identity; whether it has stopped or continued their study and there is a difference in the mean score on emotional and social factors when it is touched on the marital state.
Introduction
"Youth is the hope of our people", according to Dr. Jose Rizal, our national hero. They will serve as future leaders and will develop our country. In their cheap minds, a good idea and a great deal of thought can be contributed to our country. The shaping of a child's personality depends on the hand of the mother-in-law. It is the parents' responsibility for how they can properly raise and fear God for their child.
A young mother is a young person who is early in the heavy responsibility of being a parent they are twelve to eighteen years old. Increasing numbers of young people who are pregnant or early married are becoming an issue in the Philippines. Because being a parent at a young age is not right and there are many side effects. Researchers gather information by raving to get their identity and to get specific information about what they are going through as young mothers. Researchers will discuss the pathways of young mothers, through the following factors: emotional, spiritual, mental, financial, relational, and social; and find out if they are positive or negative.
Methodology
This study focused on the experiences of young mothers in six factors; emotional, spiritual, mental, financial, relational, and social. This will take into account the Quantitative method by which to use a methodological sample that is exposed if they can answer all questions in the survey questionnaire.
This research was conducted in Brgy. Sta. Rosa, Alaminos, Laguna. This is the given area of the municipality of Alaminos, Laguna where there is a large number of girls pregnant early. This research was used by non-random convenient sampling, in which respondents were selected by researchers based on the given municipal record of Alaminos, Laguna.
Respondents were select young mothers aged twelve to eighteen. They were our chosen respondents because they were the ones who fit our study, they are the ones who know what young mothers are experiencing, and so we can find out what they went through in life with a child at a young age, They are individuals on the adolescence stage where they should still be entertained as children.
What the researchers used was the instrument of the survey. This is a constricted test instrument that is provided in the analysis by validating experts, piloting testing, and capturing the reliability score. This questionnaire survey was prepared by researchers to gather data to find out what young mothers are going through in six factors; emotional, spiritual, mental, financial, relational, and social, and to find out if they are actually raising written or negative statements. It is divided into two parts. The first part of our questionnaire was that respondents identified their level of education, age of first birth, marital state, stopped or continued education. The second part is used by the 4 points Likert scale it is those who strongly disagree, disagree, agree, and totally agree.
To obtain the level of what they have experienced in life through six factors; emotional, spiritual, mental, financial, relational, and social. Data Recruitment Process For approval, researchers submitted the title, after the title was approved, researchers searched for relevant literature. Researchers created a question and consulted their professor. Researchers asked statisticians to find out what to use test instrument. Researchers have evaluated their questions with experts and statisticians.
Delivered to Pilot Testing and took the reliability score. Researchers have submitted a Communication Letter to the municipality of Alaminos, Laguna to find a record of young mothers. Researchers gathered the data through a questionnaire survey of 35 respondents and the data gathered were well analyzed and the result was presented in the discussion, conclusion, and recommendation.
Recommendation
1. To parents, need to be broad-minded and know what young mothers can be. This will help them educate and guide their children to avoid becoming a young mother.
2. To young people, Learning and knowing the potential of a young mother can help them to avoid entering this difficult situation, even when their parents and their families are there to help them they must keep in mind that not for life they have to rely on the help of others.
3. To Young Mothers, preparing themselves and knowing what they can still experience can greatly help them. It's good to hear their parents' advice.
4. To future researchers, This can be a guide for future researchers, expanding this study is a bit of good advice. Discovering more important data or information can help to further the knowledge of young mothers.
The next researchers will also emphasize the culture, specifically the skill and beliefs of the selected respondents based on the location of the study, it helps to better understand the factors that affect the mentality of young mothers who have led them to take responsibility as parents.
How important Education is
Having a high education is a basis for changing the course of a society towards a prosperous economy.
Higher education not only revives books or things learned in our universities and schools. Although, with these basic elements in order to have adequate education, practical education based on our daily lives is still a must-see.
Education is strong if it is combined intelligence as a result of formal studies on Mathematics, Science, English, and things about life and how to live well.
Education is the way to a successful future of a nation. Without it, and if the citizens of a society do not have a solid and solid foundation of education, it will be difficult for them to reach development. It is only reasonable to understand that education is what will bring them to their goals.
The first purpose of education is to have knowledge of things and information in the past, present, and future. It serves as a mechanism that shapes one's mind, emotions, and interactions. It is also the cause of the good and good events of our world and the environment.
Education is needed by our youth because it will be their weapon of life for their future. Their youth is the state in which they hone their thoughts and feelings on the things they need in their old age. Education is important because it enables a person to have knowledge of his or her life, personality, and community. It is the shaping of thoughts into a successful world that everyone needs to take full advantage of the world and know its goals.
Young people should only have adequate education through their experience and formal programs available in schools. This will be their weapon so they can deal with things that are affiliated with their future. And because they are our hope, we just have to give them all the education they need so they can reach the dreams they want to fulfill.
Education is important to each other here depending on the future of each person and what his consequences here in the world. And this is our weapon for a good life. There are many ways we can achieve a good future.
Preparing for our future is an effective way for us to secure our living. But there are also obstacles that may hinder our success, so it is only right for each of us to succeed in overcoming them.
And achieving success needs full determination, self-confidence, faith in God, and many other things we must possess in order to achieve a good tomorrow.
We should always remember that we are motivated by our own destiny so whatever we claim depends on our hands. and we will always rely on our Lord in all our actions because nothing is impossible for him if you do what is right.
Importance of Education in Country Development
Education … the key to success. The only wealth that will never be disturbed or stolen — especially by the inability of anyone here in the world. , this is the most important or important thing to succeed in our lives.
What is the importance of education to help our people? How to get the right education? How education can help our lives?
The importance of education to help our people ”for example in a community of only a few who are well educated and that most are ignorant” education is important for our people to thrive. achieve the right education by learning well.
The Importance of Education For Me
Education is the only way to a good future. How Important is Education? Why is it so important? That's just a few of each of us' questions.
On September 18, 2009, my beloved Father died. I almost feel so lost. Gradually I weakened, lost courage, and gradually lost hope.
I felt very sick on those days. It seemed to break my heart and I lost my education. So in 2010, I stopped studying. Maybe I just wasted the opportunities. Every chance I just ignored. So here I am, unfinished and full of remorse.
Today there are educated people, but no good manners. That is why they have completed a good course, but do not act properly as they are educated.
Over a long period of time, I learned to Appreciate Education. For me because of this, Education is not just a mark or a finished course. You also have to stand that you are really educated.
You need to learn how other people respect and how to respect yourself. Education is what I say is the strongest foundation. To me, it is very important, because it is the only way we can achieve our goals. Education will serve as our bridge to reaching our dreams.
It can change one's life. When you are educated, it is easy for you to catch up and enjoy the desired success.
Education is the most important legacy of our parents. Everything in the world is passing away, but Wisdom never fades. EDUCATION is the only THIRD thing that will NOT do anything. YOU DON'T KNOW, because for that you need to KNOW the RIGHT you learned within the SCHOOL.
The Importance of Youth Education
The seed was planted. If the soil is nourished with fertilizer, the seed growing on it is also more healthy. It will form a root that will not break the ground.
It will have strong foundations and countless branches where it will grow its rich leaves and its rich fruit.
The seed I am referring to is youth. Their future depends on their education. With the help of parents, friends, and especially teachers, their knowledge has grown in various fields.
Those who have been able to help them through their old age. All a young person has to do is wholeheartedly accept it by learning well and living it.
If every student understood the true importance of education, the common problems of today's youth such as unplanned pregnancy, early marriage, and cessation of education would have been avoided.
Education is something that will never be seized. It is necessary to fulfill a child's dream. By doing so, he was molded to have a solid foundation so that it would not weaken or break it in its face with the trials and problems of life.
Through education, the wisdom of the child grows and is not limited to academics. It also paves the way for a child to pluck a golden lesson that will seal his life. If a child can use his wisdom properly and fully, he or she will become an integral part of his or her family, his or her motherland.
They said youth are the hope of our people right? So it is only necessary to have a proper and appropriate education in order for our forefathers to dream of a good future for the town.
@Lusipir
