@Lil.nelly 16 September 2020 more from that month

A little peak into my life

Every time I try to be better, something comes up... When I get over an addiction, another comes up.. When I try to love,.............you know what happens.. Now I'm tired. Knowing if I try I let people down So I act like I don't care. I push people away. I have so many digital friends but no actual one I don't know if I'm cursed or something. I've tried everything but gained almost nothing. I feel like I've let my family down. I'm not even staying with them any longer, That's because I want to be someone they'll be proud of. I miss them....soooo much but they have no idea. I'm not perfect ..that I know. I make mistakes I can't take back . I try to cover them up but I make it worse eventually. I once gambled with my school fees so I could have extra cash to get things I needed for school,it didn't end well.....lost it all. **I'm sorry** I'm trying .....I'm scare I'll still never be good enough If there is one thing I'm good at its music. I'm a fair singer with a good ear for music. I've been singing since primary School. Wanted to take music as a career at a tender age but my parents said I needed to study , " why don't I study music " i said but they said it wasn't a professional course. But now I find myself dabbling into the same music... It gives me joy,it makes me a good person. Although I have one track out I want to put more out for people to hear.I'm working on that but it ain't easy....**lack of enough financial strength.** I'm gonna try harder....that I can assure everyone who reads this. I'm gonna be better I know I'm just human but...... I'm Nelson I'm **Me** So.....@Macronald this is all I have and I hope you enjoy it. A little peak into my life. https://read.cash/@Macronald/20-get-sponsored-here-ece79d6e#comment-9242cbae