@Lhes 25 April 2021 more from that month

#2. April 24,2021

Questions As this afternoon as I was lying on my bed after eating late lunch without minding the hot temperature in our room I asked my self. When this pandemic will be over? It's been a year since covid -19 virus hits our country but it seems things are getting worse instead. Covid cases is getting higher and a lot of people get infected. Realizations I had realized that situation is getting worsed and I was all alone. My family is staying in province and my husband is working outside the country. If I will be infected and died, they won't even see me for the last time since I will be cremated. Should I leave my job then and went home with my family? What to do? It is hard to weigh things, should I filed a resignation and look for a job in my hometown. However considering the current economic situation plus my home town is a small island I guess i couldn't find a job. Being alone here in Manila triggers my anxiety. Sometimes I could barely sleep at night and many thought keep bugging my mind. I became paranoid that sometimes I've mistaken my allergies symtoms to covid symtoms. I am no longer motivated to do my job, It seems that I was only working because of salary in order to survive but not because I want to. With all this things that are happening I do hope that GOD will guide me in whatever will be my decisions. -end of today's thoughts -