Hello self, how are you?

"The mind is willing but the flesh is weak". Have you ever heard this line? I was not physically okay for the entire week as I felt I was badly beaten. My back down to my hips was aching and I had a feeling it would be broken anytime. I felt this since I had my booster shot last week. I only remember today that this is what my sister actually feels the same after she got vaccinated (Pfizer). She was diagnosed with G6PD and it seems that Pfizer had a content that triggered. I on the other hand does not have G6PD luckily still I have some symptoms and also have a lot of allergies. I forgot that I should not take this vaccine brand.

It also added that we are busy packing documents at the office since we are going to transfer. I can't stand the dust. My allergic rhinitis was triggered and I kept on sneezing, my tears were already falling. So for several days, I've been drinking anti - allergy med and dozing of into sleep when I get home.

I was hoping I would feel better next week as I felt like I am in my 50's already though I am decades younger.

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A day ago I read an article of @Olasquare about loving ourselves and encouraging everyone to write a love letter to yourself, for the link click here. So for today I will be writing one.

Hello Self,

How are you? I know you have been wanting to ask " How are you?" if you are still okay despite this pandemic and working away from your family. If you can still manage the stress , your mental health. I know you want them first to ask you that question before asking when you will be sending money and telling what you need to pay. But hey! Before you get mad at your family please remember that your parents didn't raise you to be vocal with your feelings nor to be clingy. You and your siblings were used of telling what you need directly to the point and saying sweet words are NOT in your vocabulary. So if you feel sad or mad you have no one to blame but only your self for getting emotional as the years goes by. Perhaps your just getting older, are YOU?

If you are still sad, always remember that it's YOU who chose to leave your home since you are just sixteen. You told your family that you will be working away to support them financially. Though they didn't know you just want to find peace and just want your Father to stay away from trouble because of your perv3rt cousin. They didn't know all your fears because you chose to hind it from them. You did because of the thought that no one will believed you aside from your family or your Father might be in trouble. As he always bring his "bolo" and kept on telling everyone he might kill someone.

I know you've been through a lot starting from working at very young age and even try to live with your relatives just to finish your studies. Just because you know that EDUCATION could be a ladder to have a better life. Look at you, I know your parents was so proud of you when you finish your studies without there help. Your mother even have a teary eyes while marching with you on your graduation day and your Father looks so proud watching.

Years goes by and you manage to reach your goals. Congratulations for being so strong. Who would have thought you will be gone this far? I am happy to say that all your efforts and hard work have been paid off. Even all your heartaches was worth it as it led you to a better man that God reserved for you.

Self, I know you still have some worries and frustrations because of this pandemic but I am telling you just trust him. Trust GOD, he will grant all your prayers in his perfect time least you expected .

Closing thoughts.

I know Olasquare said a love letter, but when I ask myself how am I and I began writing I suddenly felt sad and I a feeling of being alone again (signed). I am really getting old as I became emotional, anyone experienced this?

Though every time I felt like this I would divert my mind to stay positive by thinking of happy thoughts. I am telling myself how blessed I am compare with others. I am still alive and kicking, my family were perfectly fine and most of all I have a loving husband who never fails to understand me. What else I could ask for? God was always been good to me all through out.

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