@Lesly90 3 August 2022 more from that month

What I hate about myself

There are fewer people who hate themselves as we know mostly love themselves and appreciate their self more than others. It's okay if you love your self as we know that too that self love is most important thing. If we l ourselves than we can love other's too. It's a common thing that learn to love yourself first than live other's. But i think there's some things in us which aren't good but besides this fact that these things or action aren't good but some people still say no I do right who the hell you are saying this isn't good. You may met such people in your life too. As we met a lot of people and everyone is of different habit's or quality. *****I'm the one who easily accept okay I'm wrong and you are right. I'll try to do it better in future. It doesn't mean i said okay just in front of them but no i admit that i was wrong and now i should do it right.***** You may be laugh here *****Two topics come in my mind that i should write on them***** What i love about myself What i hate about myself And i want to write about first what i love about myself but believe me it's too hard for me to write on this topic. My mind is blank just like I'm in a exam hall and i Know nothing, as i never read these questions so I'm disqualified to give the answer. So, today i choose to write on what i hate about myself. *****I think there are hundreds of things which i hate about myself***** I've no control on my anger I easily cried or start weeping I don't do my worship I've no control on my anger I hate this so much because when I'm in anger I don't notice who is in front of me i just continue to bullying them. Even my sister used to saidto me that you face worst days of your life due to your anger because no one in this world who bear your anger. But than i try to start control on my anger but still sometimes i failed. After my bullying speech when time is over when things getting better than i feel sorry that i shouldn't say this or i shouldn't behave like this but than time getting over.

I easily start to cry I don't know why but feom past 6 to 7 years i easily start to crying when I'm getting hurt. And i hate this one because my eye sight is not good as normal human have good eye sight. I have poor vision or poor sight and when i cry it affects on my vision too. Tears are good for eyes but not enough that it may hurt you. Mom adviced me to have a big heart like lion and i start to act upon on it but start to cry at night or when I'm alone.

I love powerful girls, super woman who have big heart's but I'm not a super woman that's why i hate it most. I don't do my worships A Muslim offered 5 prayers a day, Cristian go to church every Saturday or Sunday but i never do my worships. It doesn't mean I've no faith on God, I've strong faith on him but i don't know why I don't want to do worships just like British people as they also don't focus on worships.

But I'm an Asian not a British and I'm living in asiatic community so due to my this behavior worst gossips I've to heard about myself. *****When someone asks me***** "***Why don't you offer prayer***" `I simply or confidentiality reply` *****It's the matter of me and my God you should stay away from it.***** I hate it when people ask me They know i don't offer prayer than why they asking me. I hate it when they asking such question. I don't know why they're asking such question. Rather they would asked about my health or something else but no they repeat it. ***~~Sigh! I try to start my worships but i failed to continue it. I can't do it. I hate it too that i can't continue my worships.~~*** It doesn't mean that i don't pray, i pray to God. It doesn't mean i don't read the verses no i read my Holy book too. I read it with English or urdu translation too but I'm not like people who focus on their worships. Ending thoughts I'm not a good person in my views but people said I'm good i don't know why they're said this that I'm good. The way to see me to myself and the way people see to me is totally different. But they also agree on it that I've too much anger. What they see in me is what define my lovely personality or you can say what I love about myself. I'll write about it tomorrow. `All the pictures are from unsplash picture including lead image` Thank you for reading my article and thank you for your time and love 💕