Art of knowing myself

I,myself, and I. This prompt was created by @Theblackdoll , she make a prompt challenging us if we really know ourselves. So yeah, I accepted the challenged and gonna tag her too. Art or knowing myself Lazysnail's version.

I promised everyone in my previous Article I'm gonna reveal the girls name in the article I'm working on "you look so beautiful in white" well, because I'm not in a mood to continue the story today and pushing myself to do something I'm not in a mood leads to a boring story so no, I'm gonna postponed the story for today and move it to tomorrow. The girls name is Jofralyn "lyn" for short. Their name resemble my 2 friends who I love to be with. They're also a lovers In our group yet they both shy to each other. And has personal problem.

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Going back, I talked to much. This promp is supposed to challenge us if we really know ourselves to the fullest. It's all about ourselves. Talking about our likes, Attitude, characteristics. Or any other thing that's you think kinda unique on yourself. Do I really know myself? The answer is I don't know. I love manipulating people, making a story to make them believe on something I just made off. And so that leads to me unconsciously manipulating myself and becoming confused to what really I am in the first place. Yeah that's a bad news I know it. Something hard to remove in a blink of an eye. But what I'm gonna talk ate things I knew for sure that I am. No cap on it. No making any story, just me getting honest to myself . Here we go

I'm an overthinker

You read it right. This happen most of the time when I'm alone and have free time, when a small thing enter my mind it will gonna burst out and makes me crazy. I'm creating scenario in my head telling something that is not actually happening in real life. Though sometimes it's good because I'm becoming prepared for me making a hundred of different scenarios, I knew what will gonna happen and will not gonna hurt by it.

I have trust issues

This is a continuation of me being an overthinker, it's actually one result of that one. When I am with my friends especially in school. When my friends get too closed to me when they get too polite on me like I feel like they're treating me to good to be true. An idea will gonna enter in my mind, I'm thinking that maybe they're doing it because when I'm not with them they're making dare to each other and that is to make closed with me for a day or week. That leads me to being unhappy all the time. I feel uncomfortable when that idea entered my mind. I feel like no one is taking me seriously as their friends.

Stop with the sadness let's now talk about my likes

Supernatural

I love to watch series movie, to be in fact I watch a 15 season series film. and that is supernatural. Since my 8th grade, I'm watching this movie with my 2 friends. One of them is chikakiku. Before, I was scared in ghost and spirits, but this makes me overcome my fear. This series are about 2 brothers who's hunting down different entities, like vampires, werewolves, they went to the point where they gave demon, the 7 deadly sin, and even the king of hell. But that didn't stop on that one. They also fight with the angel, arc angel and even the sister of God. I watch a lot of series like lucifer, the flash, arrow, scorpion, Gotham. Prison break, the big bang theory. And many more. Well I have a lot of free time before.

I'm a leader and not a follower

I just realized it just almost a year ago. Everytime there's an activity or something needed to do by group. It's always me who's put in charge for holding a group to success. They always choose me to do it. Except for dance choreography. Going back. I'm a perfect planner (not boasting here) but I always have 3 plans to be prepared. Even in church, when I join their youth community. After a week of joining I become the second leader and the main head feels jealous to me. Because our priest gave more attention on me. I don't like to follow plan because I know I have a better One and I am right. They just want to get the passing grades but I want it to get perfect grades.

Well, Imma 'bout to tell more something about my likes but I knew you wouldn't gonna have interest on it.

I'm a well well person

In a group of of people, there's someone who people like so much to the point they want to be with them all the time, there's also people they hate like he didn't do anything but all his existence was already judged. And there's me a well well person, no one loves me and no hates me too. It's just me minding my own business. When they talk to me I'm gonna talk to them. I'm average on many things. I don't want to be fool on something when I know I can achieve it.

I love critical thinking

Anything that will gonna make my brain burst is what I love. Riddles, logic, puzzles, mystery or any other thing. I jus love them for they make this overthinking brain do something else for a moment. When I'm alone I'm playing rubik's cube so that I won't think of anything else. But sometimes I still did.

Author's message

Thank you @Theblackdoll for giving us such great ideas and content for a day. This is my entry on your prompt.