Inconstant person.

We have this word of life 'temporary'. We are so expose this kind of life wherein there's no constant thing in this world just only 'change'. We meet lots of people in this world that we tend to know them deeply and we used to know them everyday.

Definitely, they were a season person that suddenly came into our life accidentally and unfortunately stay in a while and left us behind.

I have this person who've known as my former student way back my On the Job Training (OJT). Since, my former student was already a Senior High which is already a second year college I tend to have a hesitation and limit myself to become an authoritarian because as what our age gap was just almost the same. Of course, as a student teacher that time you really need to possess the aspect of being a respectable teacher no matter how your age, gap, culture and beliefs. You really need to practice and act professionally. Since my students are all adults I adjust my used strategies for them. So, what I did was techinically vibe them as what the adults used to be. I never set any stricts scenario, I just vibe them according to their craziness. Educators is flexible so, no matter what the situation will be there were always boundaries. Vibe them with limitations because you are a teacher and they are the students.

When the gaps makes me bothered I did my part to become their close partner or close teacher for me not to bothered any hesitations. So, mostly I was close to all boys in Senior High so that It's easy for me to establish rapport for everyone.

• Going back to the title why I concluded that "Inconstant person"?

This person that I actually close was my former student. He is so kind and active in class. He really respect me as his student teacher and as his mentor in all kind. It's been a year that he contacted me in facebook. It's nothing and he is just remember me as his once a teacher.

We absolutely establish so much closeness as the country implemented lockdown for the first time. We really build a closeness relationship of being a friend. He actually calls me a 'coach' because when he calls me ma'am, he feels like there's an authority and a certain distant between me and him. That time I'm not in a relationship and he is as well so, no bothered for both of us to keep in touch. There's no day that he cannot show his concerns for me, he even shared his life with me when it comes family problems, schools, or even his personal life. I just so kind and willing to listen in his non sense and very dramatic life. Our closeness even more tighter when he invited me to join his addicted online games. That was the time that we are so open up about our exe's too. When the time that he tried to have my number because he wanted to have someone to talked to. When this things happened he always ask permission that he will call me and shared his imperfect life, he even cry at me over phone for he is so hopeless about life and schools. Yeah! I forgot he is a first year college and took up a criminology at Cavite State University. We even more closer as he more open up with me. Obviously, I'm his one call away.

There were time that a little by little his approach with me is something change. With the reason with that was because his ex wanted to have a relationship again with him. So, our communication was already change as well. But then when life hit him again with painfulness he tried to contact me again. In my part that time was just I'm his open arms when he is in trouble. It was again a smooth closeness as he realized that he is not yet ready to be with someone again.

Well, time passed by that he is again healed with the help of me.

He keep trying again entertaining girls. He tried to court again his exes before until such time he already found the one. I don't know if it is already that one is for infinity. So, this time I was nowhere in his part. He forgot my position in his life. And he forgot to thank me that I was once his arms when he needed one. Actually, it's okay for me that he is already standing in his own. He already living his life that there were no coaches coming from his coach which is me.

Actually last week, he chatted me and it's been years as well that he never even remember me as what the good things I've ever done and gave to him.

He chatted me that 'How am I? How's my lovelife? And I think he chatted me it's because he experiencing a down moments again but he felt doubt as he shared again with his problem with me. Hehehe maybe he realized that he will remember me when life hits him again.

Therefore, there are people will left you behind until such time they found their life to others. They will remember you when they needed someone without thinking that you are a human that needs someone as well. I can say that he is an inconstant person in my life that he is just there with me when he needs me.

Thankfully that this situation taught me of how life full of hope wherein no matter how insconstant they were, there will be a constant at the end.

January 21, 2022: Adios people♡