Did we end up together with my crush?

Our crush is one of the admiration we tend to feel an excitement at all time. We're so excited each day when we've know that our crush is in the corner and we can't contain ourselves, for sure.

We can feel all kinds of uncomfortable physical pain and torment, which our dub as “butterflies in stomach” or “heart skipping a beat/beating so fast.

As what my article yesterday about https://read.cash/@Kleah97/exchanging-gift-to-my-crush-a207d3b7 stated that I was able to have an exchanging gift to my crush before. Most of you guys asking that,

"Did we end up together??

This question makes me remind again of him and I want to share with you all of our story.

After the Christmas party or our date happened were so good by exchanging messages through chats. Every night we have time to have some calls and talking about random matters. Everything went well as we keep get in touch together. Whenever I passed by in the hallway of their department and he's there, he should make sure to himself that he will greeted me with his sweet smile and uttering some line with 'hi😊'.Of course, being greeted to your crush was always a flying butterfly in our stomach.

He always have greetings with me like 'Good morning' and 'have a good night', he keeps my day filled with joy and great. He really acted as showing his feelings with me and yeah time comes when he started courted me. Well, courted virtually though.Even I feel like the same feelings, I never rushed to be a girlfriend with him. I don't know why something in my side not yet decided to be his girl.

We never set a date again and have some hang out, well he never does after all. Actually, our date was just only first and last date.

One day, the tragic story has come. I got a news! I don't know if it is a bad for all but in my side that was a bad I guess. I had a news that he will becoming a father soon. Yes! His becoming a father to the girl he got pregnant.

My best friend told me about the whole story, she knows the rumored though since they were boardmate. The story happened that this guy and his friends gathered to have shots and unfortunately there are girls also. When alcohol hitted them all, the bad thing happened unexpectedly between my crush and the girl.

Knowing that story will make me broke. Of course even just we were not in a relationship but then we builded a mutual feelings that will about or almost in a relationship. Its hurt! Knowing that myself has no importance from him. They said that was just an accident! oh come on' but I'm not too blind by chasing him. After that happened, I think I delete all our messages for me not to remind again of his hell doing with me. So, he never even chatted or explain with me after all the happenings. Like woww, he was just like a bubble that suddenly vanish.

Three Years had passed

This time I am already fourth year college student. I already move on of what happened. I don't have yet boyfriend but I do have lots of admirers as they keep papansin with me hahah. Char! Not to brag but that was just my journey in my years of college. Hahah (It seems like interesting making this article about all those admirer😜 may mga issue rin kasi ang iba hahha) Anyway, this crush of mine was a bit a stranger again. I never get any hatred or anger with him since his not my own unless if his mine, right? So, I move on for having this kind of situation.

One time I have this first year boardmate that came from the same village with my crush. He accidentally shared a story about my crush, I am so eager as well listening since we had a bad past. But I never share it to my boardmate first about our issue. I keep listening with her and she knows about the story happened with the girl got pregnant. She said that the girl whom he got pregnant was his long time girlfriend. She even said that since high school.

In my side, like wowwww what the hell!! That one day happened I'm not so affected like so much pain but this time I feel so so much painful. Like I don't even know that he has a girlfriend while we are flirting each other before. Imagine, we are flirting first year college and he had a girlfriend since high school. Unfortunately, this was only the time that I am 4th yr. knew the whole truth. Its hurt like hell!! There's a hidden story that I was blind. I don't know what is the correct term that he betrayed me or he is just a cheater?. With these years, I felt hurt because why he never told me even one honest story and he never explain any word coming from him.

And with the thing that we were exchanging gifts 🥴🥴 Ohmygad🤦‍♀

Therefore, we never get a chance that we end up in a relationship. This was the whole story why I ended up my feelings to my crush.

I learned this situation a lot but I never got a chance to make him feel anger or any revenge. (thats bad!) And now were good friend and we greeted each other by passing the board examination.

Sometimes our decision will not compatible with our feelings. Even we feel the same feelings for someone but in the other side of our decision will never be decided.

Be kind no matter what!