Pet, me, and my babies

I don't have the luck to have a pet for a long time. I have not tried hard by the way. Because the older me is not much more interested in it. But when I was a little girl, I used to fetch pets. I loved babies and also thought when I will have my own😅 By now I have become a robotic person and those things have completely vanished. I can remember, I used to play with my pillow. Except sleeping on it, I had another connection with it. I considered it as my baby🤪 I took it on my lap as my mother used to take me. Even when I was in her lap, my pillow was in mine. I thought in this way: my mom's baby is in her lap and my baby is in my lap😅 How silly it was! And except for the pillow, I had another wooden baby. I never took it on my lap because it was not soft like the pillow 😅 and if I ever tried, I just got hurt from its sharp edge😐 However, every day I made it to take bath😁 One morning, I thought it was high time to do this. And near I found a bucket full of water💦 (I didn't notice there was a catfish swimming there)😐 However, maybe the fish also got hurt from my wooden baby. So, it opened its mouth and bit on my hand 😫 I was to skip my heartbeat. I had to meet the doctor 🏥 finally and the spot is still on my hand. At this part, I gradually lost interest in my babies and one day forgot about them. And then I announced to have pets🥰 (I was the only baby in the house, so I needed a companion) However, soon I got my pet! It was a true black cat 🐈‍⬛ 🖤 I named it Mini. It was good but felt less interest in me. Because he was a traveler cat. All the time it visited different people's houses. 😑 But my love for it was limitless. I must have taken the vows to make it fall in love too. I tried every attempt. And gradually I thought yes! Finally, I also have a pet. One day, I and my mom went out for a walk. After we have returned, I felt hungry and asked mom to plate my food. She cooked Hilsha, that time it was my most favorite food. But when she looked into the bowl, there was not a single piece of it! 😱 And soon my Mini ran out of the room. My love for it vanished in a minute when I figured out that it was that evil who ate my part💔 We did not do anything to hurt it. But after that day, it never returned 😓 That was my first and last pet. I had always dreamed of having them and a beautiful garden. But soon after that, I was admitted to the school and never could think about my dreams. And after many years, I have ended up with nothing: even not a good friend. 😒 My life is circled around my family. All my joys and supports come from them. After I have lost my Mini, my mother became my friend and she is still my best friend. But I have no good friends doesn't mean I don't have any. I have and we meet, but they are not like how I want.🥲 But this life is neither too bad. I can always have me-time 😅 and forget about what I don't have to remember what I can do 😊 I could not still make enough time to write a story. But I think soon I will be free enough. :) :)