Stop stalking!!! 😂😂 well I started doing this and it made the healing process longer, stalking her Facebook or snap makes it a lot longer to heal.....my life after she left me 'Galaxies of love'.
I grew up then tried to use alcohol to clean my wounds and this time an effort to take away the sting because one time I fell in love....which would actually hurt more. I loved the experience but failed to control, I'm still scared to scar again. Afraid people will laugh at me because I'm too fearful to commit to love. I never wanted to be at that spot anymore, in a more sensible way "what do I commit to after the pain and rejection?"
So this is particularly about my past experience that I couldn't let go of. I learnt from my comment section yesterday, there shouldn't ever be fear to live again and no shame in rejection, it's just a way to know who either loves you or the way around. If I could turn back time I never wanted my heart broken, maybe we shouldn't have been close. Would I then deny the truth that I was the main arthur of the relationship.
I never really wanted her to leave the way she did....
She left without saying goodbye or cared to exchange contacts, I meant nothing to her even though I felt a connection already. I just have to ignore and move on, if I dwell too much on it I would hurt me. I'm sure she's happy without me, we are all young minds and fresh....love or friendship isn't going to be hard to find again, she's pretty an I'm equally good looking.
I was fascinated by my body's ability to make itself whole again whenever a piece of it left
So this is me trying to pick up my fragments, and turn them back to my solid form. I'm still surprised how I was never trying to mess with myself after that because I knew it was all good. So I never really wanted to be free from her spell in such a short time, but this is me living my life again. Initially I would pull up at home leaving my pieces everywhere I went. The best way out of any scar is to love the way it forms on your skin.
I never really wanted a relationship that would end in such a short term
It all ended in less than a semester, not up to a month. Maybe if it stayed longer we would have had a stronger connection. What could I have done in this case?. Was I at fault? This kept on running through my mind, even when I post yesterday, was it because of me she left?....I choose now to believe that she must have gotten admission into a good school and kept it low even to her close friends.
I never wanted us both to meet
If I could wish again, never meeting her or approaching her would have been better for me or the both of us anyway. Maybe if we didn't get too close she wouldn't feel the way she did.
I know I have been really direct on my relationship but something funny "I would never want to happen the way it did is choosing my course which I'm studying now"
I didn't like it when session started, and even the sound of it annoys me....but with time I loved it, maybe because of the money or maybe because I learnt it the hard way, I would never know. But have you had this thoughts before of how you could have studied something you loved.
This is all for now, thank you for reading.
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21 SEPTEMBER 2021
There are so many people who are good to you and would never wanted to oath way with. When they finally leaves without words of goodbye, it will.be just like an arrow that Pierce through your heart.
So, you will be thinking if you never met, it would.habe been a different case.