Just This One!

May is here and my soon flight is near. Remember the article I shared here? That I will be working in Doha, Qatar soon. Even, I didn't completed yet the documents I need before my departure, I'm motivating myself to be positive, that the opportunity that came is really for me.

Ehe! Kidding! Honestly, I'm not a hundred percent positive in this application even my friend assured me that I will be hired. I can't help but think negative because of the situation again of my country. There is a warning that government will implement lockdown again and for sure I will get hard time to process my other documents.

What if I already paid for placement but the government here will restrict all for departure? Or in the other hand Doha will ban the arrival there? So I will be delayed to work? For how many days? Weeks? Months? Or another years again. I need to start immediately because my mom will lend me all her savings and I want to give it to her back once I get my salary so we can start to save for our plans.

It's 8 days to go before the election here in the Philippines and I bet all Filipino's can predict that after they got the results for the new leader of the state they will declare lockdowns again.

Political rallies here, rallies there, no social distancing and no health protocol was followed but you will get shocked that media will highlight the caused of surge of virus again is the gathering's who went on vacation this summer.

I'm afraid that my plans and hopes will disappear when it didn't happen, that's why I don't expect too much to avoid disappointments. I haven't tell it anyone except here because I know I won't be criticized here.

It's true that not because it came it won't be hard to get. Whews!

I still push and excite myself to get this job for the sake of the salary I will earn there. That would be a big help for my siblings for their studies. Also to my mom who dreams to get her own house. Ugh! Her teary eyes flash back to me now when she received a message that our application for housing loan was disapproved because I forged the signature of my father which is suggestions of the employee who works on that develop houses that can be loaned in Pag-Ibig. She said some passed but unfortunately were not.

Maybe that house wasn't really for us because it will takes us 25 years to pay it. But if I will get that job we can both save enough money to buy a house and lot in cash.

(Sigh)

I prayed that there won't be a problem in my application so that process will be smoothly done. Also, I hope government will not declared lockdowns again. That they will find another way except for long quarantine. 2 years is already too much. I hope they are not the one who will hinder my dreams.

Just this one!

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Please include me in your prayers ❤️