My brain get freeze while looking at the piece of paper. I get anxious and nervous. How I let this happen! What I'm going to do?! What if the caretaker or owner knocks now?

Self, stay still! Self just focus!

After the stress I had with my brother in the last 3 weeks I'm already back to my track, grinding here. I'm active and hyper again thinking that everything is fine, that I didn't forget anything from those days that I'm not in myself.

My 1 week come back was very productive and my plans for my earnings is to save for my bills, well as usual. I check my wallet and saw it's still far from my target.

I stand up and check the calendar that is stick to my door when suddenly I get shivers. "It's already 20th of the month?! Oh God! Today is my due rent in my apartment" I look to my receipts to check the last time I paid and my eyes got widened, I didn't pay my rent last month because I spent all my money for my brother. I remember it all now.

I was staring the receipt for 10 minutes until I get back to my senses. "Why you let this happen self? Why did you forgot about it?!"

I opened my Bitcoin.com wallet again and feel pitied, I only have $40. It's not enough, because my house rent cost $70 monthly and I missed to pay last month so I need $100 more.

I have CPRX worth $60+ in Abra but still its not yet available to withdraw. I'm having headache because of my negligence.

What if the caretaker knocks tomorrow?

What if she asks for the payment and I can't provide it? What if she throw my things out? This all runs in my head. I'm nervous. It's so hard to live in a rental house especially when you don't have stable business or job.

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So I was thinking to loan money in online but I'm afraid I will get scam. I searched in playstore and read their reviews and this 3 loan app stand a quiet good review.

Tala

When I searched loan app in playstore this one leads. I often see this Tala loan app appears in advertisement and I can say it's quite convincing.

Look it's recent positive review.

Sounds good right? Then I also check the recent poor review.

This get me an idea that before they let you borrow they will ask a proof that you are working or has a source of income which I don't have because I closed my business already for the reason of out funds, except here in blogging. But I don't think they will believe me because it's crypto. We know it's unstable.

I searched another loan app and this Cashalo follows.

Cashalo

You will notice that the number of unsatisfied customer is many compared to Tala. I checked also their recent positive and negative reviews.

I was shocked to see the name of my friend. Her review was just last week ago. I believe in her negative thoughts about the app, so I won't choose this. I look to that billease she was talking and check the background.

Billease

I didn't go far to check the users review after I read the description of the app. Their service is for online transactions and I cannot cash it out.

(Sigh)

I thought some of my friends here if I can borrow to them but I'm hesitant to ask because I know they also in need. I ask my boyfriend if he have some extra, though I already know the answer because he's grandpa was on the hospital and I expected he is zero.

Have you tried to borrow money in online loan app? If you do, please comment your suggestions I'm desperate to borrow now. Huhu

I'm so down today and out of focus but I will try to get up to fix this problem

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