Someone to hold on to

Something really terrible happened to me today. I was given a task at work this evening. It was something big and my boss entrusted it in my hands. I want to believe he thinks I'm capable just like other of my colleagues.

You know what?

I watched the work in my hands shatter. Right before my eyes I ruined everything. You won't understand.

I thought I was still on the right direction, so I took it to him to assess.

The way he sent me to start all over ehhh. You won't fully understand what this means.

It was painful.

To think that I was consistently engaging the Holy Spirit, yet this happened.

I was walking home broken and devastated. Do you know frustration? Yeah, that's the word.

I played a song, it turned out to sour my mood the more, so I paused it.

I wanted to call someone, but...

Then, I started talking to God. I was just pouring out my frustrations. I was so plain ehhh...I just said it as it was in my heart.

Then HE said to me: "Even ME, GOD, Clays get marred in my hands and then I start all over....talk more of you. As skilful as I am, Clays get ruined in my hands...but I don't leave them ruined. I make out something more beautiful than the latter..."

You don't understand what those words did to me this evening. You won't.

Those words brought peace to my heart.

I don't have much to tell you. I dont know who needs to hear this, but I'd say it - TALK TO GOD!

Let HIM know just how you feel. Don't speak in tongues, talk to HIM. Speak into HIS ears for HE listens. Pray in your understanding. Talk like you're with someone who IS existing.

If it means you shouting, do it. If it makes you cry, let those tears drop.

Never be silent. Don't let the devil silence you in any situation...so he can speak to you and magnify your frustrations. TALK TO GOD!

Meanwhile, I don't know how tomorrow would be. But I'm going back to that shattered piece and I'm believing that 'light' will pop out of 'darkness'. I'm still uncertain (honestly) but I've got something and SOMEONE to hold on to AGAIN.

This is when being a Christian goes really practical.

Good evening