I Found Peace in You

Date: November 29, 2021

Aloha Monday! Hope everyone enjoy their weekend😊 Keep hitting the rock❣️

Nothing compares having you in my life. You put so much color to make it more lively and brighter. As I celebrate my special day you never fail to amused me not with lavish gifts or surprises and even a romantic date. You never fail to make me feel safe and secure in your embrace. It is so strange that I feel peace in you that no matter how struggle and chaotic my life is, with your warm embrace I find my rest.

My natal day is beyond what I am imagining as everything went smooth and I could say a perfect special day. Full of laughter and joy are visible. I could say I am on cloud nine because I spend my entire day with my loved one's.

In the morning I went to church service to glorify God and give thanksgiving for all the goodness, faithfulness, favor and blessing I have in my life. Afternoon, my family and family are with me celebrating with small gatherings and so much chit-chat in random things. No alcohol. Evening comes, I really thought that everything is done and everyone is preparing to sleep but I was wrong because my other circle of friends arrive and invite me to wander as they represent their gifts to me. Sino ba ako para tumanggi sa grasya😅 ( Who I am to refuse). Before leaving I made sure I asked for approval from Mama and she said "Yes' '. Pinagbigyan kasi birthday, lol.

Around 8:00 pm when we decided to go home. I am way at home when I happily connect with you to update that I am finally home but you surprised me with your coldness treatment that I don't know where it came from. I tried to ignore the treatment because I don't want to welcome any negative feelings that can replace the joy and happiness I felt.

First try, failed. Second, another failed and third, failed again. Those attempts and rejects are painful but Karupukan attacks. For the last time I told myself "last try and if he rejects again, I'll  walk out and never come". Luckily, marupok din siya hahaha.

As I set and look at him, he grab me into his arm and hug me tight and whisper with wings, lol "sorry, I ruined your day", "sorry, I cannot bring you into romantic place to date" and "sorry, I don't have any gifts for you" hearing those words makes me cries and I answered him "No need to say sorry because you don't do anything wrong. Having you in my life is a great blessings" Geez, patawad sa kalandi, hahaha. 

After the small talk, I hug him and rest as I listen to his heartbeat. It sounds like a lullaby that escorts me into dreamland and my eyes slowly close. At the back of my head and heart I say "finally I am home". A home that makes feel secure, safe, love and value. Silently praying to God to keep this relationship last that will end in each other arms, living in the same proof but the God's will always prevail.

Geez, I don't know why I ended up liking this article co'z it is very different from what I am planning to write. Gosh, from horror into this hahaha problem, my mind malfunctioned to produce this one hahaha. Some of it really happened yesterday but some of it is fiction. If you really insist that it is non-fiction, then be it. Be my guest😉.

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Lead image originally mine.

JustMaryel sending you Love❣️