Losing my grandfather seems like a dream upto now.

This article may not be so well composed regarding it's thoughts but I will do my best to convey what's in my heart right now. Starting to bring out what's on my mind and heart right now may be so hard but I have to since I can't keep it forever.

But to be honest with you my friends I'm still hoping that I can still wake up from this nightmare because I can't accept it right away. In my mind I questioned my self if what's happening is real. How come it happened so fast when it's not like gonna happen.

Last sunday morning my grandfather didn't wake up anymore from his sleep. When we're about to have our breakfast, my grandma told me to wake up my grandpa because it's already 7 in the morning and my grandpa is not used to wake up that time so my grand found it weird.

I found it weird also because I used to hear him making his coffee at 4am. I can hear it clearly because my room is just parallel to the kitchen. I didn't hear any sound but in my mind, maybe he's just tired that's why he didn't wake up early.

So I checked him up for us to have breakfast already but when I called him, Amang, amang(grandpa) manganin (let's eat.) He didn't answer. I repeat it but that time I opened his mosquito net and touched his hand.

When I toched his skin, my heart furiously beat up and I repeatedly called him. When I moved his body, it's already heavy. I called my grandma with my voice trembling. I began to cry while saying, lola wala na si lolo, iniwan na tayo. (Grandma, grandpa is gone, he left us already.)

She began to cry also. I called my father and said to him that grandpa is already gone. He hurriedly went here and checked him out. He's waking him up but he's not moving anymore. He began to cry also.

While crying he went to the house of my grandpa's sister to inform her that he's already gone. She was shocked and went here without a second thought. She cried also while tapping the shoulder of my grandpa but grandpa is not responding anymore.

The news spread like a wildfire here in our place and all of our neighbours rushed here to checked what's going on why we're crying. Even some of the people in different puroks, they came here also. Everyone was shocked to know the situation.

I converted some of my bch in coin.ph, I'm lucky that I still have some in it because all my bch is in Smartbch. I bought load then called my aunts and uncle. When they heard what happened they cried. Especially the youngest among them. It's been long since they didn't see him and that's the news they will get.

Everyone was hurt by what happened. Everyone can't accept the fact that he's already gone. Well we are really surprised because he's too strong and don't have any sickness or anything wrong that we observed about him. Everything happened so fast. Still it won't register in our minds.

With all that happenings I want to convert some bch but I don't have in my wallet so I asked in telegram who has funds in their gcash or coinsph. I told them that I will borrow for the mean time and will pay it later on with bitcoincash. Sir @Eunoia saved me, I borrowed 5 thousand to be used in embalming and for his new clothes for him to wear. I just can't stop my tears from flowing out damn!

I already reached out also for help in the group because we lack of funds right now. His coffin is worth 25k, we partially paid 3k only and it they are not treating us well now. There's a gap at the bottom in his coffin. I can't stop to think that they're treating us like this because we're poor, I want to punch them so bad for having no respect even for the dead.

Generous friends in the group already gave their help. Thanks to them that it lessen the needed money to be used.

Still we have a balance of 22k for the coffin and they said that they will retrieve it if we are not able to pay the whole cost this friday. And also the space for his place at the cemetery cost 15k and also for the other expenses. I have a remaining 0.5 bitcoincash now and I'm planning to convert it all for granda.

I planned not to wrote for the whole 9 days of his burial but I will do what I can to help. I don't want my grandpa to be treated like that. He's so kind to be disrespected by some strangers.😢 He don't have any enemies here. His death was peaceful and I want it to be peaceful till the end of his burial.

I've been here for 8 months here already and I've witnessed how generous the friends here in this community. That's why I will used this opportunity to knock on your doors for little help for my grandpa. (kakapalan kona po muka ko para kay lolo kahit nahihiya man po ako). Every help now is important no matter how big or small it is I will accept it and will be always grateful to you friends.

For those who want to give in bitcoincash here's the address. I already receieved $37(current price) already from the generous friends in telegram.

bitcoincash:qqc9qnhrxlsgc3wr8rcp8k944t6szc0quu5m60xu0w

And for cash here's my coinsph/gcash

09169570332, Leymar G. Ortiguero

He died at the age of 68 and his last day of burial is on monday April 25. Sana magising na ako kung panaginip man to. Ang hirap tanggapin. I want to wake up already so badly. 5 days to go and I,we can't see him anymore.😢

Thank you in advance and thank you for reading friends.