@JeshiRu 14 October 2021 more from that month

As a long time gambling addict with many years clean, I'd like to say something that may help you. My worst fear is gambling again and having a winning session. Winning money is the worst thing that could possibly happen. Why? Because I have spent years in a recovery program rewiring and relearning my brain to know that gambling is not a way to make money. I gambled for fifteen years, read books on strategy, practiced, tried every angle you could imagine and never won. I mean, even if I did win, I'd lose it all back. That money I won was never mine. I'm an addict and I have no control over my gambling; it has control over me. In my program I learned; the only way to win is by not playing anymore. This is your exit. It is so hard to see. Why? Because the exit is hidden in plain sight. Prayers and love. Hope everyone is hanging in there. Ctto