@Jeaneth 8 September 2022 more from that month

How Life Has Been With Me? Oh well, here I am again. It's been 3 days since I last published here. I don't know, this is no longer the read.cash I knew from the moment I joined the platform. It's not the busy and crowded community that I used to witness with anymore. This feels like a ghost town. Or maybe it's just me? I am no longer that active compared before. It's just that, tips are not coming in anymore and I must admit, it affected my motivation to write here. We are here to earn in the first place, right? Then again, regardless of how lonely this platform it'll be in the next coming years, if ever, I would always be grateful of what this platform has served me through the years. I found a home in here and that will never change. I'm trying to think of what topic to write about but it's just getting harder and harder to keep my focus on a thing. Well, that's always been my struggle. It takes time to gather my thoughts. Oftentimes, my brain doesn't really sustain its functionality refusing to keep my thoughts intact. While writing this, I am lying on the couch taking a rest while grandma is sleeping. For those who don't know, my grandma got sick last month. She had cough due to allergies and it took time for her to recover. That caused her to get so weak. However, she's a fighter at 88. She's already recovering. She's still trying to get back on her strength but I doubt she'll come back into that stage. In a span of 3 weeks, I have seen drastic changes of her behavior, personality and physical abilities. I noticed how her behavior changed before she got sick and now recovering. She's no longer the strong grandma I have witnessed. She's become weaker and sometimes she behaves like a child. She easily gets stressed and she's like always in a hurry. Just last week when they went to the doctor for the second opinion, when they got home, she vomited. The car ride must have been too much for her. She took a nap and when she woke up, she seemed to be a different person. The grandma we used to know wasn't there anymore. It must have been fatigue and countless sleepless nights that contributed her being disoriented. She kept on roaming around the house trying to look for a knife because she wants to open the wall because she sees an opening there and she wants to get inside. Everyone was alarmed. My cousin in abroad who's a nurse suspected that grandma is showing signs of dementia. It was a very emotional day for us. She doesn't recognize people already. Her memories of us faded. All she can remember was the people who was with her during her early adulthood days. We're glad that uncle forced her to take the sleeping pill for her to get some rest. The next day, I learned that uncle and aunt were crying while taking their breakfast because they thought it might be the end of grandma. We're happy to know that grandma is back and is now calm. She's also responsive, rational and has good appetite now. Although the strong and firm grandma that I know 2 years back will never be the same. I spoke with the doctor a year ago regarding with her heart enlargement condition and it's clear that grandma, in time will show signs of heart failure eventually. We have to prepare ourselves for that. If there's one thing I have learned in life, and my takeaway on this article, it is that nothing is permanent. Everything will change. Everything is temporary. So let's make the most of every moment we have in this world. So that's it. That's how life has been with me. I just wanna say thank you for all who stayed in touch with me here. I appreciate you all guys. Love and support. Thanks for reading. Keep safe everyone!