@IamValkyrie 30 August 2021 more from that month

I Lost Him With My Selfishness

I lost him with my selfishness " ~ LM I was sitting at our mini garden. I was watching the roses in front of me when my Aunt Alenn sat next to me. "They're beautiful." Tita said as we looked at the roses. I focused my gaze on Tita. Her eyes are so sad. I wonder why. Tita is beautiful but until now she is still not married. I don't know why until now she never be with a man. "Auntie? Why aren't you married yet?" She looked at me and smiled sparingly. "I was blinded with selfishness." When she starts. I see those eyes of her full of regret and sadness. I came closer to Tita to listen to her. "When I was your age I felt love. I was nineteen back then when I met this man. He was my classmate then. At first I didn't notice him until one day he approached me. We became friends and lastly he courted me. I can't forget what he said to me before, 'I like you, why do we have to prolong it? It makes the relationship last longer, not the courtship.' he has a point. It's funny to think but I said 'yes'. I answered him. He didn't waste the opportunity he loves me more than anything else. We also had Monthsarries, until we reached a year of our relationship. Until, one day he seems so different. He has a lot of taboos. He has also become more jealous because of our fight. I ask him why he is like that. He told me, 'I just don't want to lose you.' I felt his sincerity. I just let go of his restrictions because he just didn't want me to get lost and taken away from him. In case I thought it was okay to let it go until, he was jealous of everyone, even our classmates, my friends, and my relatives. (Tita is already crying while telling the story) I'm full. I'm choked on what he's doing. I can't do the things I want anymore. I'm not happy with that kind of relationship Until the day comes when I lie to him just to be happy. To do what I want. But in the end he still knows because I'm a bad liar. He forgave me because he loves me so much. He became even more strict, I was even more choked. My lying increased and increased until he was full and couldn't take it anymore, he refused me. I still remember the last thing he said to me, 'I loved you too much but I didn't thought the woman I love will just lie to me. It hurts me to know that only woman you trust ended to be a traitor. I forgave you over and over again because I love you but now it's gone. I could no longer feel anything because of the extreme pain. I can't trust you anymore. I do not know you anymore. Your a stranger to me now. ' then he left me. " I can feel the pain that Tita is feeling. I hugged her. I knew she was feeling overwhelmed. I haven't been through what Tita has been through. "I became selfish. I lied to him for my own happiness. I was too blinded for the happiness I wanted. I didn't think that the happiness I was looking for had been with me for a long time. I just now realized that the man didn't leave. beside me even though I made many mistakes even though I lied to him a few times he forgave and accepted me again completely, the only man who asked me to be real ... no lies, the man who did nothing but love me - he is the real one My happiness ... he's my happiness. But now he's gone. He's now with another girl. He finds a new home. ita was crying. I rubbed her back. She calmed down a bit for a moment and turned to face me. He touched my face. "So you, if you find that kind of man. Keep him. Don't be too selfish. Don't let him lose his trust in you. Don't let him lose you, because we'll get to the point where we'll all regret it but it's too late . " My aunt's tears flowed as well as mine. I can feel the pain she is feeling now. I know until now that man, he is still Tita's Beloved so she didn't get married. She's torturing herself with regrets. I felt sorry for Tita. Not because she didn't get married but because until now, 'she's longing for the love of the man who will never come back to him because he finds he's new home, sadly not with her.' Trust is too precious. Once it's broken, it will never be fixed ... no matter how hard you try to fix it. It will never return to it's original shape. Crdts for the lead photo:https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.fineartamerica.com%2Fimages%2Fartworkimages%2Fmediumlarge%2F1%2Fsad-girl-vamiir.jpg&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Ffineartamerica.com%2Ffeatured%2Fsad-girl-vamiir.html&tbnid=bYmuI3MA80VC7M&vet=12ahUKEwjSo4W_x9fyAhURHKYKHSvTB8cQMygUegUIARCWAg..i&docid=xMnCP_kkpOdaNM&w=501&h=660&q=photo%20of%20girl%20sad&client=ms-android-oppo-rev1&ved=2ahUKEwjSo4W_x9fyAhURHKYKHSvTB8cQMygUegUIARCWAg