@HappySadLife 13 August 2021 edited more from that month

Am I just too amatuer and lack the skills to create my own fictional story ?

I've been wanting to write a story of my own, a fictional one, but I still can't seem to find my will to do that. I get motivated when I see one of my friend writes her own fictions, it sends me the thought of I should write also because why not? I already have a plots and even the possibly ending. Writing a first chapter won't be that easy but it's not a big deal for me and yet... Jeez! I'm still having a hard time to start. I tried looking at some saved documents on my phone -- forgotten docs and was just sitting for quite a while on my files. I red some of them and notice it contains not only my past school works and softcopy outputs but also my story drafts that has been halted. I got surprise and also feel good by it cause I did not remember they still existed. What I know is the ones saved on my laptop. To be honest, I am quite well aware on why I cannot start writing. It's because I am a lazy person. When I start to write I suddenly feel sleepy or sometimes I just stare at it and get astonished. Yeah, it's the one in your mind right now, *mental block* or *writer's block* you call when an auhor is unable to get ideas or inspiration to write. Also watching my anticipated korean dramas and anime hinders me from writing. As I watch more and more episodes the more I get hook on the series and I just forget about creating my dream fiction. Here comes the one you call **mañana** **habit** that I have adapted from my nation's culture lol. You can also call it the time where I do indifinite procrastination. I always ended up saying to myself that I will do it later or next week or next month or until I get a new phone or until before the opening of our classes or when the time comes where I finally have enough motivation lmao 😃. But that's all absurbed! Why can't I just do it instead of waiting? I could make this article but the fiction that I've been dreaming of... Or maybe it's because deep within me the truth is, I am not really serious about writing ? Or maybe I am just too amatuer and lack the talent to create my own fictional story ?