@Goodness55 12 December 2024 more from that month

Apres minuit An hour and 33 mins past midnight as of the start, Can't sleep. Came here to write this and do some check ups :) Hoping you find these some day(the earlier the better haha) . I miss you so bad by the way(I never got to tell you this because i didn't know how you would approach it). I once in a while think about you and in my head I sometimes wish we never ended at all, it is fine I guess .. it sometimes hurts, sometimes i wonder what if, most times I hope for a better future where I am at peace with myself and with God, Sometimes i pray to God to give me my "exact" missing rib haha... Ever wondered why I texted you all of a sudden earlier this year? I got caught up emotionally for a long while this year with thoughts of you...Told my friend about it, he abruptly said i should give you a text or a call so I proposed a 50-50 scenario whereby if I lost a "random bet" I would text you , I lost lol... Am I better now? yes I guess...I have moved on but not completely I would say because sometimes i do have days were i reminisce...On February next year will be exactly 5 years since I last dated anyone lol(I have a feeling that this might be why i have not completely moved on)..Sometimes it gets lonely (now for example) Might give dating a shot again next two years or whenever life hits me again with someone like you(watched a movie recently "a bronx tale" where a character said "you're only allowed 3 great ones in your lifetime, they come along like the great fighters, once every 10 years... but sometimes you get them all at once. Me? I had my 3 when I was 16, that happens, what you gonna do, that's the way it goes") I do hope you are doing well and having the best of life..I had promised you I would 100% focus on my dreams if we ever stopped being together but I have not been able to do that with all my might..Still trying to be that beast(Last piece to being who I am meant to be). I do hope you've become the beast you've always envisioned yourself to be, Would be really great. If I were to redo life again with an option of experiencing life with you again exactly like we had, despite fully knowing how the ending might be, I would pick us everytime...I guess it was that superb. Two hours and 33 mins apres minuit.