@Gerl 2 March 2021 more from that month

"Know that even in your hardest moments, you must breathe. Feel lighter. You are a fighter. Don’t give up. You are still growing, and you can bloom while you grow." You're going to walk in a large crowd sometimes and you feel heavy. Your heart races, and you know why. You don't know. Sometimes you feel appreciated, but later invisible, then you realize you are not enough. You can only keep playing again and again in your head like a mix-tape and you cannot control or stop it. But you feel sometimes that the weight of the world is on you. For the unnecessary things, you will be obliged to apologize – the feeling of too much – of thinking, feeling, and caring. Then you attach yourself to people, objects, things. Then silence goes. The silence in this world, all stops before you.