@GelayyLumiere 10 December 2021 edited

Brought by Pressure

Alternative way of learning is what we call it now that we are dealing with a pandemic, online classes that are typically divided into two groups: synchronous and asynchronous, but both of them rely on Google Classroom, and in our case, they did not provide any hard copies of the module. For the past year, my body has drastically changed. Of course, I've been eating more healthily because I've been trying to lose weight, but the changes have occurred much faster than expected. Due to my irregular sleeping pattern and constant lack of sleep, I discovered that my hemoglobin levels had dropped this year, and the nurse who tested my blood advised me to live a healthy lifestyle that included 6 to 8 hours of sleep to help my body recover from being so weak. However, colleges were not easy in this situation; there will be times when I will need to do things, and these school assignments will overlap; professors simply advise students to manage their time. I did, but it's extremely difficult for me to do everything at once, particularly when it comes to video demo presentations. It took a long time to come up with concepts, conduct research, prepare props, and edit the video. I sometimes get to the point where I don't sleep for two days in a row just to finish editing a video and submit it on time. I only got it at night because I still try to help with housework during the day. Negative thoughts are always present in my mind, especially at night. There are times when I simply stare at the things that I need to finish, but I do so all night. Because online classes are so stressful, every student experiences anxiety every night and is constantly pressured by minor subjects that have more activities than the major subjects. I've always wanted to rant to our professor about how the weekend, holidays, and school break are supposed to be times for us to pursue our own interests, but instead they hold webinars that are always mandatory to attend and a slew of activities to do during that brief period of vacation. But what could I do as a student pursuing a degree? I suppose all I needed to do was shut up and respect what they always wanted us to do because that's how universities work. Last November, our university's student officers and journalists organized a petition to request an integration week, but the university's founder eliminated it, claiming that the students didn't appear to require a cut. It was aggravating, but what could we do? We had no control over their beliefs. I guess acceptance and my goal was the only driving force that keep me up into my feet pursuing this path, I care for my health but I think I need to sacrifice some of myself just for a better grades. Well I cannot deny the fact that my lifestyle isn't healthy at all but some of my piece that I have done, I feel proud about it. Its just so satisfying to realized that I survived my first year college and now I'm in my second year continuing to survived this final of first semester. Mental breakdown occurs much often this school year but thankfully I got some friends to talk too and I know I could get through this year. Hoping that we could finally beat this pandemic so that classes would go back to old normal again. I like it more, learning physically is much easy to understand such pressure and stressed could talk over about while walking home. Unwinding things before regarding school activities were much easier than now that all things have barrier. **Disclaimer:** I am neither a psychologist nor a financial advisor, and all of my piece was done for entertainment purposes only. What I've written here is merely my personal opinion, and any statements made are based on my personal views and should not be taken as fact. Always do your due diligence. Support and Follow me https://noise.cash/u/Gelayy