@GelayyLumiere 18 January 2022

Lost In Thoughts I wouldn't want to go inside our house yet as it's already past midnight, I'm enjoying the atmosphere outside with the moon hidden by thick clouds in the sky. I haven't seen any stars in quite a while, and it's only a matter of seconds as the moon appears in the sky. I can feel the sensation of the wind on my skin as I move around, it just felt so relaxing having a night like this. I didn't realize how much time had passed until I was outside with my friends, who were also chit-chatting. I just felt as if I was lost in my own thoughts while staring at the sky, to b honest I don't really know what should I feel while looking at it. I'm having mixed emotions right now maybe I'm just overwhelmed by my current state due to the stress that I receive from this examination week, I'm not frustrated though I just don't really know how could I explain what exactly I'm feeling right now. I'm not sad, but I'm missing something from my past on the inside that has been bothering me lately. I suddenly recall the blessings I receive, the life decisions I make, and the regrets I have from past decisions that haunt me to this day. You've probably had the feeling that you want to talk to someone but are afraid of the idea that you might just bother them or by the judgment that you may receive from them after you tell what you really feel. It's true that "having a positive mindset will attract positive things," but every situation would then put you towards the trial. Even if you don't have a problem, you'll come to the point when you suddenly feel anxious until you probably won't even notice you're panicking and overthinking over nothing. It's just so hard to comprehend all of the emotions at a time like this, maybe this was a part adulting stage, all of these unwanted thoughts and overthinking just make you want to be a child again. The amount of realization from my childhood dreams that I have now realized that most of them were impossible to achieve even after I graduate college, there's just so many trials in real life before I can taste success. How I wish I could stay as a child forever and just dream about the impossible. **Disclaimer**: I am neither a psychologist nor a financial advisor, and all of my pieces were done for entertainment purposes only. What I've written here is merely my personal opinion, and any statements made are based on my personal views and should not be taken as fact. Always do your due diligence. Support and Follow me https://noise.cash/u/Gelayy