@GarrethGrey07 10 October 2021 more from that month

"Realization as I age"

Hello reader's and writer's, how was your Sunday went? So far my Sunday is still busy as I am starting to prepare some stuff that I'm be needing for my sons upcoming birthday. My mother-in-law and I talked some plans of how we gonna celebrate his first birthday. I also order some stuff online for my son, and the money that I'll be spending was my earnings from noise.cash that I saved for a long time. As of today, it's really obvious that I don't have any topic to write again. So I just visited my Facebook account just to check for some updates. And an idea pop ups again. So I guess I'm lucky.😂

Upon checking at my Facebook photo album, this picture caught my attention. If I'm not mistaken I'm just 16 year's old from this photo. I look so young and innocent. I suddenly remember the old me, and realize how much I change. At this age I don't have friends, I live with lack of self confident and I'm afraid to try new things. I used to stay at home and prefer doing household chores than looking out for friends. I was actually afraid of making friends, as people at my age used to bully me. Yeah! I am once a victim of bullying, my school mate's used to bully and laugh at me. I experience being locked inside our classroom, having stone inside my bag and chasing my classmates because they took my notebook. And maybe that's the reason why, I become an introvert. 😅 I feel afraid getting out at my comfort zone. So whenever I look back at my teen-age years, I don't remember any happy memories 😅. Life is really unfair, how can other teen-ager have numbers of friends while the other teen-ager have no one? How a bully can bully and how a victim become a victim?

Another photo that brings a lot of lie, where people don't mind. I smile, I try so hard to look okay but my eyes can't lie. Behind that photo was a lonely me. I am already working overseas this time. Far from my family, far from the people who use to bully me. Far from the world outside, as I am being locked inside my employer's house. Oh don't get me wrong, being locked because they have to work and I'm alone at home, it's actually for our safety. At first I thought it's okay being alone. But being alone, like no mobile phone and can't be able to go outside the house, then it's a different story. I felt like I'm being in prison. I become a prisoner because I dreamed to give my family a better living. Well I can't blame anyone with that situation. I'm the one who choose it and besides I went overseas for work not to have a vacation. I'm not having a beautiful trip and attending meetings and so on. I am working as a helper and of course I must obey with my employer. It's just that, it's bored, living without a freedom. That's how I think as a younger me. But over year's, I got used to it, and understand my own reasons. Life taught me a lot of reasons as I get aged. **I realize that being lonely is not being alone, but being surrounded by the wrong people.** **I realize that the society think, that introvert can't get out from it's comfort zone.** **And I realize that if you won't face your fear's, you won't grow.**

A recent photo of me, as a mom and a partner to my partner. Can you guess my age😂? Anyway recently I realize how strong I am today. I have faced, lots of struggle's and failures, but as you can see. I'm still keep on fighting for my goals, and for my dreams. I know that I still have more to improve, so I must have trust and keep on believing myself. I may still faced a lot of challenges soon, but with my son I know I can conquer them all. Anyway, I'm also surprised that I am now become more friendly than before 😅. I found new friends through virtually, I've learned how to interact with others and I become more active from this platform. I truly didn't expect how I enhance my confidence. I couldn't imagine that I can build a new skill's and that was writing my original content. Who would have thought that I can go this far, I really feel proud of myself though. In addition, there still some things, that brings realization to me. ***I have realized that my real supporters was stranger's and the one who don't are the people I know.*** ***And yet I have realized that i don't have to be liked by everyone, I must just make myself likable.*** ***Trying new things don't bring some harm, but it can build a stronger you.*** How about you guys? How much did you improve? Any realization? And I will ended up this article this way. Written by yours truly: GarrethGrey07 October 10,2021 21:35 **Lead image is originally my own photo.**