Greetings;

Hello reader's and writer's how are you all today? I hope you guys are doing well, please stay safe and healthy.

So today I was feelin' blue, I'm not really sure actually about what I'm really feeling, as I felt demotivated again. I feel like I'm starting to lose on focus about my own tract again. Every day I always felt some heavyweight in my chest, I sometimes have a mild headache. Well for sure it is because of stress. It's really hard to maintain every thing, thought I wanted to keep my line straight, but most of the time it really goes zigzag.

Have you once woke up and by just opening your eyes, you are already feel exhausted? You felt like you haven't sleep yet, even after lying in your bed for five hour's? The feeling where you didn't do anything but you feel tired? That's what I'm actually facing right now, I'm struggling to focus too. I know I should take some rest to regain my strength. But what can i do if my eyes are close but my mind are wide awake? Maybe I need some therapy, oh i need some vacation right now. How i wish i really can, just like before! As a mom, having a Me time is already hard for me as i already have a very playful son. I won't deny that after the day end my body are so tired and my eyes wants to fall asleep immediately. That is why sometimes, while I'm typing my blog I fall asleep, lol.

And because of this stress i really can't think of what topic should i write for tonight's entry.

The reason of my stress, is because i feel upset to someone i really do care about. Actually it happen last Sunday, so since that day I'm not already in the good mood. I feel upset as I really hate lies, and someone had lied to me. I don't like a lier person, I think most of us hate it. For sure none of us would like to know that someone is lying on you. I've been waiting for that person to tell me the reason for that lie. But he didn't even talk to me, though he knew that I'm already mad. That is why this morning i decided to confronted him and the reason was unreasonable.

I can't believe for sometimes of how people become insensitive. Sometimes they become disrespectful to others too. I know that I'm not perfect, but as much as I could i didn't hide any truth to someone, specially to those who has care for me. As I also felt betrayed by that. Do i sounds sensitive? Am I being childish? I think for me it's normal to feel upset, I have a feelings too as I am a human.

But does it really hard to tell the truth than to tell a lie? Okay, for some reasons I know sometimes we have to tell a lie for a reasonable cause. But if the reason is only because you wanted to hang out with your friends and you wanted to make sure you can join them, you will lied? Was it reasonable enough to ruin someone's trust? I think it's a big NO . It's a toxic mindset, and you are being selfish too. Continuous lie will surely broke any kind of relationship, that may lead you to some regrets at the end.

Anyway I should cut this blog from here, I'm not sure if I'm making any sense for writing this blog 😅. Another rant's was all about. Sorry guys if I don't have a good topic for today, as I really felt demotivated. For now let's all have a rest, Goodnight.

Closing thoughts:

To avoid misunderstandings we should learn how to be sensitive with the feelings of others. We weren't perfect, but we can change our toxicity into positivity. We shall live our lives in a toxic free lives, without stress and without stressing anybody. Remember, stress can kill, so don't be someone's toxic.

December 07,2021 23:39

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