We settled too young
[October 13,2021|Wenesday]
My boyfriend and I were together for two years. I was 16 years old and he's just a year ahead of me when our love story had started.
Dranreb and I are like two opposite ends of a pool. I would squander my time from studying and would even kiss death just to ace my exams, while Dranreb on the other hand, is a type of student who would escape in class if he'd find his subjects boring and dull. He did nothing but to slack in school and flunk his subjects.
Well, what would I expect from a privilege guy? Dranreb is already filthy rich and even if he would fail in class, he still has a bright future that awaits him because he's the sole beneficiary of his parents who are business tycoons.
But despite of him being a pampered brat, I accepted him for who he is. My friends would even say that I deserve better, that Dranreb is too little for someone like me who has goals and dreams in life.
But who cares? I love him. And you just can't teach your heart to whom it would beat and love for.
Kahit loko-loko 'yon, mahal na mahal ko 'yon. Some may paint him as a bad boy who has no plans for his future but for me, he's more than just a bad boy— he's more than those grades he had in school.
I know that deep inside of him, may pangarap din siya.
It's just that, he was used to live in a lavish life where everything was already served on a silver platter, so he doesn't know how to exert efforts and how to value his life.
Nasa isip niya na kasi na kahit magbulakbol siya, may magandang kinabukasan pa ring naghihintay sa kaniya.
And I know that he needs to wake up from the reality that not everything in this world is in favor to him and his likings.
Unexpectedly, there's this big problem we both faced that completely shattered our worlds.
Due to our recklessness and lack of sex education, I got pregnant at the age of 18.
As I told him that there's a tiny life growing inside my belly, it was my first time seeing my man got nervous as if his world was shaken literally.
But after minutes, the fright in his eyes was replaced by braveness and sheer happiness.
There, he started crying out of bliss while kissing my womb.
"Dalawa nating ginawa kaya sabay rin nating panindigan ang baby, Andrea. Alam kong sobrang bata pa natin pero nandiyan na 'yan eh," bulong niya habang hinahaplos ang sinapupunan ko.
Believe me, it was my first time seeing him being so matured as if he finally seen the reality of the world.
As an 18-year-old girl who's just a Grade 12 student, my pregnancy was never been easy.
I've got criticism and spiteful words from my parents before they finally accepted me, I also received harsh-grating judgements from people around me but despite of those things, I stood firm and took all the courage I could muster to live my life and raise my baby.
Glad that Dranreb never left my side.
Kung miserable ako, alam kong gano'n din si Dranreb.
After his parents discovered that their loving son will be a father soon, they disowned him and suspended all his credit cards and bank accounts.
Just like me, he was left with nothing.
I was expecting him to leave me in the air but during my lowest times, he acted as a real man.
Pinandigan niya kung ano 'yong nasimulan niya.
Naninirahan kami sa magulang ko at pareho kaming hindi nakapag-kolehiyo.
Dranreb immediately finds a job and since he's undergraduate and no job experiences, he landed as a construction worker.
Who would imagine that Dranreb who is known for being a spoiled kid was willing to dirt his hands and carry heavy loads just to sustain his family?
Nakita ko kung gaano ka-pursigido si Dranreb para mabigyan niya ang kaniyang mag-ina ng magandang kinabukasan.
After a couple of months, Dranreb's family wants to reconnect and sustain our needs but Dranreb declined the offer. Gusto niyang galing sa paghihirap niya ang pagkaing kinakain namin. Gusto niyang galing sa kaniyang pawis ang perang binubuhay niya sa kaniyang mag-ina.
I am not romantacizing what had happened to us but because of this, my man had proven himself that he may be a bad boy in school or in any body's eyes but he can act as a real man for his family.
And not all boys can act as a man.
Kahit pagod si Dranreb sa trabaho ay pinagsisilbihan niya pa rin ako. At dahil nahihirapan na akong kumikilos, siya na 'yong nagluluto, naglilinis ng bahay at maging taga-laba ng mga damit at undies ko.
Sa kasagsagan ng paghihirap namin, doon pa lalo pinakita ni Dranreb kung gaano niya ako kamahal at kahalaga sa buhay niya.
After nine months, I successfully gave birth to our baby. Kung masaya ako, mas masaya si Dranreb.
I saw how he cried that night while carrying our baby.
Dranreb did really grown so much. From physical to mental state. He has a jet-black straight hair with brown eyes and lean muscular body. Totally male. He exudes overwhelming maturity and power now.
After I gave birth, Dranreb encouraged me to continue my studies. Sabi niya, siya na ang mag-aalaga sa anak namin basta makapagtapos lang ako.
He was willing to sacrifice his dreams just to revive my pending goals and my dream to be a lawyer.
That moment, I thanked God for giving me such a man like Dranreb.
Because honestly, I couldn't survive without him on my side. Mababaliw siguro ako kung hiniwalayan niya ako at mag-isang hinarap ang problemang sabay naming ginawa.
Napagdesisyunan kong hindi ko na ituloy ang pag-aaral at sa halip ay iginugol ko ang oras para alagaan ang anak ko habang si Dranreb naman ay nagtatrabaho.
After five years, I was 23 and Dranreb's 24 when we finally got married. Sariling pera lahat 'yon ni Dranreb ang iginastos sa kasal namin.
That day, my man and his parents finally reconciliated and they accepted us whole-heartedly.
They expressed themselves of how proud they were to their son. They explained that they were just teaching Dranreb a lesson that not everything in this world can be relied on money and wealth.
For such a young age, Dranreb and I saw the true reality that life could offer.
I was 18 while Dranreb was 19 when I got pregnant.
I was 23 and he's 24 when we went into marriage.
Honestly, we were too young for these.
That's why as time passes by, I couldn't help but to question our decisions why we went into a relationship too young, why we got a baby too soon and why we got married too early. And those questions were just answered when Dranreb unexpectedly died due to Leukemia at the age of 26.
There, I finally understood why God gave Dranreb into my life too early and why the two of us settled too young.
It is because we were not meant to grow old together.
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I'm already tired but...
[October 12,2021|Tuesday]
Hello, everyone! Another day, another article to be published! OK, then. These past few days I have been feeling tired, probably because of my module, activity videos at school and here at home. Every night I wonder if I’ve come down to life because it’s really hard. Yes, it's really hard to be a poor person, but who am I to be angry? Because I was born poor? Who am I to act out what we have now?Who am I to regret everything we have now? This is what the Lord has given me, so I should appreciate it.
I always think if we were rich now, we would not have suffered like this, but this is what God has given us. I have to accept it wholeheartedly. I know all the problems that come into our lives are just a test, a test that we have to go through, a test that especially strengthens our family. When I want to give up, I think of my family and our situation now. If I give up, how can I achieve my dreams with my family? How can I give in to my family's wishes if I'm giving up right now?
There is no problem that can not be overcome, and there is no problem that has no solution. Everything has a solution.
***I always say that even if we don't have enough money,***
**I have a loving family;**
A loving family that always supports everything we do in life, a family that encourages me whenever I'm tired in life and I just want to give up. But who am I to give up in life if there are people who trusting me? Who am I to get tired as long as my family is always there and they are ready to help me with any problem that comes to me or in our life?
Yes, I know we are all tired, but there is the word "rest". More and more , we will fight in life because we cannot rest for life. If we rest and do nothing in our life, nothing will happen to us. There is no magic in our lives to ask for what we want. If you want an expensive cellphone you work for it, if you want a house and a lot, you work as well. They say that no one is free in the day of hardship; everyone is forced to suffer,if you want a pretty house, you have to work hard to get it,***if you want it,work hard for it*** .So sometimes when I'm tired, I take a break, but only for a short break, because I don't want to train myself to take a break because I know when I get to the stage where I need to work, rest is no longer fashionable because I'm just an employee, and I'll take a break if I'm the boss,lol!
Sometimes I hear from my classmates that how luck of some of our classmates is because they are rich. Well, that's really how life is. We don't know if we were born poor or if we are the ones who make our lives miserable, because if our lives are already hard, why do we have more torture? You see, many rich people come from hardships. Yes, they get tired, but they do not give up, so now they are the ones who help the poor people in our country. It just takes a little bit of effort and diligence in life so that we can also overcome the hardships we are experiencing now.
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*****Closing thought;*****
***Come on! Always think positive thoughts.Stand up and fight against the hardships in your life! And don't forget to put God at the center of our lives.***
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Love needs communication
[October 11,2021|Monday]
*Hello fellow readers, I just want to thank those who commented and upvoted my privious article. Since I haven't written an article today, I decided to published my last fictional story.*
"I'm waiting you here at the restaurant, Casper."
Unti-unti akong nakaramdam ng panghahapdi sa dibdib nang mabasa ang message ni Veronica sa boyfriend ko.
This is not the first time she sent a message like this to Casper. Yes, she's the bestfriend of my boyfriend and I should not put a malice between them, but whenever they are both meeting each other without my consent is something that I could no longer take.
Nang matapos magbihis ni Casper ay agad kong binitawan ang phone niya at inilagay sa tamang pwesto nito.
"Hey, babe. What's wrong? Parang nakakita ka yata ng multo diyan sa mukha mo," Casper mumbled as soon as he approached me.
I had so many weapons of words to throw at him but my mouth was shut tight, words dissolved in my tongue.
"Saan nga pala ang punta mo, babe?" are the only words I managed to utter.
Please tell me the truth, Casper. Just the truth.
"Pinatawag kami ng manager ko babe, e. May urgent meeting daw."
And he lied.
He just freaking lied on me, giving me signals that there's really something wrong with him.
But instead of confronting him, I just heaved a sigh while trying to recollect my shattered self.
"Ingat ka sa trabaho mo babe ha? I love you," I whispered.
Nang makaalis siya ay tuluyan na akong nanghina. I want to scream out all the pain inside of me pero hindi ko magawa.
Gusto kong manumbat pero sa huli ay napupunta sa hindi ko kaya.
This is the thing I'm really good at. I'm hiding my pain. I'm hiding what's inside my heart. I'm good at keeping secrets that led me into destruction.
God, Casper is my boyfriend for five years already and he's been there for me through my ups and my lowest times. My world only revolves at him and the thought of him cheating on me is really depressing.
"I love you, babe," Casper whispered casually when we got into bed.
Tinugunan ko lamang siya ng mapaklang ngiti.
Hindi ba niya ramdam na nagtatampo ako o sadyang magaling lang akong magtago ng nararamdaman ko?
"May surprise pala ako sa 'yo next week, babe," he whispered giddily.
But I lost my interest at everything.
"I love you so much, babe," Casper said again those precious words and hugged me.
Napabuga na lamang ako ng malalim na hininga habang nakatingin sa natutulog na maamong mukha ni Casper.
"You keep on telling me that you love me, but your actions fails you," I whispered when he fell asleep.
More days have passed and Casper continued meeting up with Veronica, an enough signal that he's really cheating on me. But instead of addressing the issue, I ignored all of those red flags.
Each day, I could smell a stink in his words, I felt a twist at his promises, I sensed a secret the way he avoided my eyes. I could feel that a part of him has always been isolated like there's a restriction that I wasn't allowed to step foot.
He's no longer the man I used to know.
Patuloy pa rin siyang nakikipagkita kay Veronica pero wala akong lakas na tanungin siya kung ano ba talaga ang dahilan ba't sila nagkikita.
Instead of giving me love, Casper is sending me poisonous gestures. Kung dati ay panatag ako sa kaniya but now, he's giving me so much chaos in my mind and in my heart.
That's why even if my heart doesn't want to cooperate, I forced myself to leave.
I left him and let him go for I know my worth. Ayokong niloloko ako.
For freaking five years, I left him with no explanations.
And now that it's been three years since I parted my ways, Casper contacted me, messaging me to meet at our favorite coffee shop.
There I saw him sitting on our favorite corner of the area. As soon as the cold wind brushed through my skin and as the smell of his favorite perfume got into my senses, I remembered him. I remembered everything, but there's a missing piece in that memory. And that missing piece will never be found again.
"Why did you leave me instead of pointing out our problems, babe?" panimula ni Casper.
My heart constricted in pain with his question. I sat still on my chair, barely able to move and to breathe.
"I-I'm sorr—"
"Did I confuse you with my actions before, Chels?" he asked.
I thought I finally moved on but when his cold eyes landed on me, my heart swelled in pain.
I swallowed hard before I spoke. "Yes, you made me overthink with your actions, Casper. I'm sorry if I don't have the courage to tell you that. I'm sorry if I'm just hiding my feelings and silently enduring my pain instead of telling it to you. I'm sorry if I didn't say anything when I was jealous. I'm sorry for concealing everything."
"You got jealous because of Veronica?" he asked unbelievably and right after that, he bowed his head.
"Maybe it's all my fault why we ended up like this, Chels. Kasalanan ko kung bakit ka nag overthink. Kasalanan ko kung bakit hindi ka naging panatag sa akin. Sana pala ay sinabi ko na lang sa 'yo 'yong plano ko..." he trailed.
"Do you remember the surprise that I told you before? I was planning to marry you, Chels. And I asked for help to Veronica pero hindi ko akalain na maging ganito ang kalalabasan..."
Tuluyan na akong napaluha sa nalaman ko. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin at sasabihin.
"If only we had a proper communication, maybe we shouldn't end up like this. Nagsikreto ako kaya pinagdudahan mo ako. It's entirely my fault Chels. But I want to win you back again. I want to continue marrying you, Chelsea Montero," he said sincerely.
And there, I cried. I cried so much. Parang anytime ay kakapusin ako ng hininga. This is precisely why we met today— for him to win me back again and to have a brand new start.
Upon reaching home, I immediately broke into tears of joy and pain. All those years of questioning myself why Casper was meeting Veronica has now ended. I sighed a breath of relief.
But at the same time, I felt a pang of pain and a sense of regret in my chest. I badly wanted to say yes to him but he's already a year late. Because I'm already married to someone else.
-***Thanks for reading***
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14 years old me
[October 10,2021|Sunday]
Hello, everyone! I'm sorry that the ones I've published are fictional stories in the past few days, I'm just really busy and that's all the brain can handle when doing and writing hehe. For hundreds of days, I have been busy with my studies, and I am also wondering if I can afford to finish my articles.
Yesterday I thought about making my own article about myself, because my birth month is next month, I just want to appreciate what I have done now that I am only 14 years old. A lot has happened this year to me and my family. So I want to share what I want to do and say in this article.
***Let's start..***
Even though I am 14 years old, I want to do a lot, not only for myself but also for my whole family.
***I want to vote..***
I don’t know why I would want to vote in the coming election. I also don't open my social media accounts because it's all about the election and others are still making this meme. I know these other memes are just for fun, but for me, they shouldn't make the coming election a joke. We need to take voting seriously because it is also for us and our country.
But I'm still not allowed to vote because of my age. I'll just listen to the news and do other productive things instead of being annoyed by what's happening on social media.What can I say but good luck!
***I want to help my uncle..***
I want to give my saved money to my uncle in the province, because I accidentally saw the conversation between my mom and my uncle when my uncle asked for money from my mother because they have don't have to buy my cousin's diaper, which means my one-month-old cousin.
I feel sorry for my uncle's situation because it is also difficult to get money in the province because his only jobs are fishing and rice farming. I want to give him the money I have saved from this platform. I have already accumulated enough money to send to my uncle, but I'm afraid that mama won't allow me to give what I have accumulated because she doesn't want to involve us in their problems. I don't want to not send it because I know it's a big help to my uncle and my cousin's.
***I want to feed some stray dog***
One of the things I like is to help stray dogs, because every time I see dogs without food I feel so sorry for them because they have to go hungry and lack food. We had 8 dogs, and the two there we just got into a house that was broken and unoccupied.Every time I see a dog looking for something to eat, side by side, I call them and feed them. If we only had enough money and a pretty big house, I would take them and take care of them. But we are just poor and sometimes there is a lack of food.
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*So I thought of joining here at Read Cash because I want to help and make a way so that somehow we don’t run short of food. There were only four of us in the house and eight dogs, so our two kilos of rice would be consumed in just one day. Our dog eats more than we do because there are more of us. When there are face-to-face classes, I won't ask my parents for money. I want to use my own money because I know how hard our lives are and I also saved money to buy my school uniform. I'm shy of my mother and father because I can see how much they are already struggling and their bodies are hurting. If I could speed up the time, I would do it because I want to finish school and find a job. At the age of 14,I want to do a lot, but I can't do it.*
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When the sky meets the sea
[October 7,2021|Thursday]
"Long distance relationship sucks," is what I always believed in since I hit my puberty stage.
For me, LDR is some sort of gambling where you have to put your heart in a dangerous game that is full of uncertainties and doubts. Worse, you have no idea whether you will win or lose at the end.
That's why, as much as possible, I always restrain my feelings not to go deeper when I'd admire some random girls on the internet who are miles apart from me.
But unexpectedly, as I went into College, there was this lady who completely shattered my belief.
Her name is Clouie, a Tourism student.
I only met her on Facebook. Maganda siya, maputi, matangkad at matalino. She almost have it all, a complete package, I must say.
Unlike the other girls I've hooked up before, she's way different.
Clouie is a classy and sophiscated woman. She's beautiful but she just rarely post pictures of her face. Minsan pa ay puro litrato lang ng mga ulap at eroplano ang pino-post niya.
She loves anything about aviation, as what I've observed. No wonder why she took up Tourism as her course.
Weeks of stalking and liking her posts, my admiration for her became deeper and deeper.
I tried to restrain myself not to chat or at least have an interaction with her but I failed.
To my fascination, I chatted her and unexpectedly, she replied.
I formally introduced myself and believe me, it was my first time to feel nervous while conversing with a woman.
Para akong naulol bigla.
When I mentioned to her that I am a seaman on the making, she replied, "Basta seaman, manloloko."
I just chuckled as I replied, "That's stereotyping, Ms. Flight Attendant.".
"Look at your photos, may balbas ka. Sign ng pagiging playboy," she replied again.
That's why when tomorrow came, I sent her pictures of me clean-shaven.
"Oh, wala na akong balbas. Playboy pa rin ba ako?"
"Ediwaw!" she just replied tersely.
From that day onwards, our simple chats progressed to video calls.
Damn, if she's beautiful on her pictures, she's more alluring in video calls.
To add something, apart from being genetically blessed, what I also admired about her is on how she speaks and how she delivers her words. She has a soft, velvety voice but radiates power, clarity and grace.
The airline that she'd apply in the future will definitely admire her. Ngayon pa lang, she already has a potential to be a good stewardess and a great asset for an airline company.
As we get to know each other, I've discovered that Clouie is from Davao while I, on the other hand is from Bulacan.
Luzon at Mindanao? Ang layo no'n.
Months of chatting her, mas lalo pa akong napalapit sa kaniya. That's why I formally asked if it's okay to court her and she allowed me.
Hindi pa nag-iisang buwan ang panliligaw ko kay Clouie ay sinagot niya na ako.
"Pre, walang nagtatagal sa LDR," one of my friends once warned me.
"Nagsasayang ka lang ng oras mo diyan, tol," another friend of mine commented.
But instead of getting down from their distasteful remarks on our relationship, I just ignored them.
I followed what my heart beat says and chose the woman I only met on the internet.
Clouie and I remained strong despite being miles apart.
Some would say, it's stupid for someone to kiss their phone or laptop screens, or even cuddling a pillow wishing it was your other half but if it's closest thing foe you to see or feel that person, it would all feel so real.
Clouie and I may be physicaly distant with each other but we are emotionally binded by love.
Distance really tested our relationship. And I would be lying if I didn't find it difficult.
Because as time passes by, akala ko distansiya lang ang magiging problema naming dalawa pero no'ng nag-intern siya habang ako naman ay nagte-training ay oras na naman ang aming naging kalaban.
Nasa point na rin ako ng pagdududa na baka may ibang lalaki siya. Na baka makahanap siya ng lalakeng piloto o kapwa niya rin flight attendant na lalake na mas better sa akin— a man who shares the same interest as hers.
Pero sa kabila nang lahat, nanaig pa rin ang pagmamahal ko sa kaniya.
I never allowed any negative thoughts to fill my mind and heart. Instead, I just focused on how can I communicate with her despite our hectic schedules.
Long distance is really hard, I must admit. But with the right commitment and right communication— distance would not matter.
After Clouie and I both graduated in our courses and as we got jobs in our respective fields, I decided to meet her personally.
After years of being far away, I finally had the chance to hug and kiss her in person and it felt like I won in a lottery. Walang kasisidlan 'yong saya ko no'ng nahawakan at nayakap ko siya sa personal.
Clouie was all in tears while hugging me.
"I love you, William," she whispered tenderly as she broke into tears.
When she said those three words in person is so damn heartfelt.
'Di ko na rin napigilan ang mapaluha.
Every tears and efforts we had both poured has been paid-off and I could say that everything was worth the risk.
After years of being in a relationship, me and Clouie finally got married.
Being in a distance relationship has taught me a lot of things. It taught me the value of honesty, time, openness and trust. And once you know the value of these things— everything will go smoothy along the way.
They say, long distance will never work. Yes, long distance will never work for those who don't choose to make it work.
Now, I am a seaman while Clouie is a Flight Attendant.
My expertise is sea while she controls the sky.
Both are far away from each other but in the glory of love, we met.
-***Thank you for reading***
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***NOTE:***
***Trust, love, commitment and communication can unites the two persons. Distance will never be a reason for the people who are truly and madly in love.༼ つ ◕‿◕ ༽つ***
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He's both a blessing and a lesson
[October 5,2021|Tuesday]
"They say, there are two kinds of people you will meet in this world— it's either a blessing or a lesson."
With tears in my eyes, I stared at my man who looked so manly and dashingly handsome while wearing a black tuxedo.
For five years of being in a relationship with Jay, I couldn't believe that we would reach up to this point where we are inside a church with me, wearing a white gown and him wearing a tuxedo.
My man is not perfect, he's just my Jay. Supportive. Loud. Giggly. Childish at times. Flawed. Ambitious. And Determined.
In my mind, he's always this fixture that was going to stay beside me until we were both saggy and grey.
I've known him since we were in College and I've already memorized every details about him starting from his favorite song, his favorite ice cream flavor, his favorite movie and tv shows down to his dog's name, his sibling's name and even his daily routines.
God, I've never been so sure and certain to a person, not until I met him.
Hindi ko na napigilan ang mapaluha sa mga naisip hanggang sa makabalik ako sa reyalidad.
My eyes transfixed to all the wedding guests and visitors and I could clearly see that they are anticipating with my next statement.
I then tightly held the microphone as I continued my speech.
"Yes, you can find either a blessing and a lesson in this world. But isn't it more heartwarming when you found someone who is both a blessing and a lesson at the same time? Lesson siya kasi marami kang natutunan sa sarili mo at sa relasiyon niyo. Nalalaman mo kung ano 'yong mali at mabuting gawin. In other words, nagiging better kayo. Blessing naman siya kasi marunong siyang mag-stay kahit ang dami mong pagkukulang na pwede niyang mahanap sa iba. 'Yong tipong tanggap ka kahit walang-wala ka. 'Yong tipong kaya kang ipaglaban. Sobrang sarap lang sa feeling 'pag merong gano'ng klaseng tao sa buhay mo."
My tears began to fall as I stared at my man.
Yeah, I'm pertaining to him.
He is both a blessing and a lesson to me.
I wiped those tears that fell from my eyes as I continued from speaking.
"Sobrang mapagmahal na tao si Jay kahit masiyadong pikunin at childish minsan. Daig pa nga ang babae kung magtampo," I chuckled.
That revelation earned some laughs from the audience. I even saw my man laughing awkwardly along with the people.
I smiled before I spoke.
"Madali rin siyang mairita. I could even remember how frustrated he was when he called me and the signal was too slow. Kaya ayon, sinugod niya ang PLDT. Only to find out, hindi pala sila nakabayad ng bill."
Humalakhak muli ang mga tao.
"But that's what makes Jay so special above everyone else. His naivety and stubborness are his greatest assets that made him so attractive and loveable."
I smiled at my man and he just gave me an awkward grin.
"Jay might be a carefree and a happy-go-lucky man, but he knows when to act as clown and serious. He would shift in a serious mode when he wears his Engineering attire. Really, he's completely different once he'd wear his Engineering outfit. He exudes power and maturity. Totally male."
Narinig ko ang palakpak ng mga tao at kita ko ang pagsilay ng ngiti sa labi ni Jay.
My speech was supposed to be happy and sweet, not until I reached at the ending part of my script.
"So, to the wife of Jay, please take care of him. Shower him love and make him feel that he's special for he loves that."
I stared at Kiara and let out a small smile.
"Congratulations on your wedding," I said as my closing statement of my speech.
Jay and I looked at each other. And that's when I knew we are finally letting each other go, we are finally accepting the fact that we love each other but we can't be together.
Because three years ago, Jay and I got lost. Maayos kaming nagsimula. Masaya. May hindi pagkakaunawaan, pero naayos naman kalaunan.
We were so sure of each other. At sa sobrang kampante namin, may mga oras na hindi na namin hinahanap ang isat-isa.
Hanggang sa tuluyan na kaming nawala at hindi na nahabol ang isa't-isa.
Jay successfully became Engineer while I became an Architect.
Natupad nga niya ang pangarap niya, nawala naman ako sa buhay niya.
We used to talk about our future together. And now, it's here but he wasn't.
He had finally lose grip on our relationship.
"Thank you for sharing your experience with our groom, Ma'am," sabi ng MC.
Nang makaupo ako sa upuan ay siyang pagbagsak ng aking mga luha. Ang bigat na ng dibdib ko dahil sa sobrang sakit.
I think this is the saddest part of having an ex whom you deeply love— It's when you still have this left over information about them.
You know their favorites, dislikes, fears, their family members' name and birthdays and also their daily routines.
You learned all these details about them and now, they are completely gone.
Sana pala, hindi ko na lang hinayaan ang sarili kong magsalita sa kasal nila.
Yes, my speech wasn't about us and how we deeply love each other— It's about Jay, how he fell for me and how he fell out of love at the end.
It sucks, right? That the man you treated as blessing and the man who gave you so much lessons turned out to be someone else's future.
And now, he became one of my memories.
Sobrang sakit.
He gave me the ring but he gave her the vow— a promise of forever that I will never possess and a lifetime with him that I will never have.
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Be a woman with high standards
[October 4,2021|Monday] ***[3:20pm]***
*"Ba't 'di mo sinagot si Adrian? Ang pogi kaya no'n!"*
My best friend in College blurted out.
A cruel smirk crept unto my lips upon hearing my best friend's words and later, I let out a soft chuckle.
"*Well, I told him to wait for three years, but he refused to. Nakakatawa lang na sumuko siya agad without knowing that I just tested how depth his love for me. You know, men are hunters by nature and go hard for what they want. If he's not going hard for you, you are not what he wants,"* I smiled mischievously. "*And Adrian missed that point. Hindi pa siya nakakaakyat sa pader na binuo ko, nahulog na agad siya."*
Kareena just nodded her head and remained in silence while digesting what I just said earlier.
"*You are really building your walls too high, Missy*," she commented.
"*Bakit hindi? Small things cannot get me because I, myself always do big things.*" I smirked as I sipped my favorite chocolate matcha green tea.
I heard her taking a sharp breathe as she spoke again. "*Sa sobrang picky mo, hindi ka na makakapag-asawa niyan.*"
Upon hearing her remarks, something inside me had snapped. I stared at her intently and smiled widely, enough to annoy her.
"*It's better to be single with high standards than in a relationship while settling for less, Kareena,*" I boldy spatted. "*I'm not afraid to be single forever. I know what I bring to the table, so trust me when I say I'm not afraid eating alone."*
With that statement, I gracefully turned my back, leaving her speechless.
—
"*God, Missy! Really? You dumped the man named Nero fucking Lauren? The one of the most well-known business tycoon here in the Philippines? You must be kidding, right?*" Kareena squealed as soon as she entered the room.
Here we go again...
I heaved a deep sigh and stared at her boredly.
"*Yeah, he's filthy rich, I must admit that. But he's a playboy, Kareena. While courting me, I found out that he's making out with someone else. And I'm not a freaking back up plan and definitely not a second choice!*" I exclaimed, losing my poise and composure.
"*Why does it easy for you to detach yourself from people, Missy? You are really heartless,*" she commented.
"*I don't detach, Kareena. I delete them. And that's not being heartless, I just know my worth and I will never stick myself with a cheater! That would be so low of me,*" I uttered.
God, if only Kareena's not my bestfriend, I would definitely not entertain her. Aside from she's annoying at times, she also speaks nonsense and no substance.
—
After three years, my bestfriend and I met again in a mall. She is now a fashion model while I am a lawyer.
"*Mukhang stress na stress ka sa pagiging abogada mo, besh. Okay lang naman sa akin na hindi ka mag-ayos pero girl, baka dito mo na mahanap ang destiny mo sa mall,*" Kareena said loudly while cracking in fits of laughter.
After all these years, Kareena is still the same.
"*I know I look like a crap today, Kareena. Hindi ako nagsuklay at hindi rin ako pumorma. And not to mention na hindi rin ako nag toothbrush,*" I couldn't help myself but to laugh harder.
Natawa na rin si Kareena sa sinabi ko.
*"By the way, tama ba 'yong balita ko na may boyfriend ka na? May car ba siya, bes? Maraming pera? Pogi? May abs?"* Kareena asked like a damn slut.
Mahina lang akong natawa.
*"No, he's not that wealthy, and not that handsome, either. Sakto lang,"* I said plainly.
*"So, binabaan mo na ang standard mo sa lalake?"* she asked while chuckling.
I was about to answer her question when a guy caught Kareena's attention.
*"Bes, look oh! Tinutulungan no'ng lalaki 'yong matandang babae para makatawid sa kalsada,"* Kareena beamed and her eyes sparkled.
I stared at the guy and my heart warmed at his manly gesture.
Sinundan lang namin siya ng tingin ng bestfriend ko at halos kurutin na ako ni Kareena sa sobrang kilig.
*"God, kung wala lang akong jowa, lalandiin ko 'yong lalake. Damn, ang sweet niya!"* litanya ni Kareena habang panay hampas sa balikat ko.
Mas lalo pang lumakas ang paghampas ni Kareena sa balikat ko nang lumapit sa amin ang lalake.
*"I'm so sorry for waiting that long, love. May tinulungan lang akong makatawid ng kalsada,"* the guy said gently at me.
Kareena got stunned when the guy kissed my lips and snaked his hands around my tiny waist.
*"Oh..."* Agad akong napangiti. *"Love, si Kareena pala, bestfriend ko."*
Kareena shyly smiled at my boyfriend as she extended her hand for a shake.
*"Kareena, si Troy, boyfriend ko."*
They shook their hands as they exchanged pleasantries with each other.
Kareena remained silent all throught the dinner and she went crazy when my boyfriend excused himself to go to the comfort room.
Mabilis niya akong hinampas at kinurot dahil sa labis na kilig.
*"Gaga ka, ba't di mo sinabi na boyfriend mo pala 'yan! Hinalikan ka pa niya sa lips na wala kang toothbrush at 'di nakapag-ayos, lukaret ka!"* she exclaimed.
Natawa na lang ako.
*"There's no reason for me to still fix myself whenever my boyfriend is around because he had already seen and love my messy parts, Kareena. He already fell in love with my hard edges, grumpy moods, my toxic traits and my deepest insecurities. He may not be the richest among all the men who courted me from the past, but he's rich with values and respect."*
I smiled proudly at her and I couldn't help but to tear up silently.
*"And to answer your question if binabaan ko na ba ang standard ko?" I brushed my tears away as I continued. "No, I didn't lower my standard, Kareena. I am still the woman you knew who always sets her bar too high. I am still the queen you knew in College."*
My tears kept on running down my cheeks but I still smiled at her.
*"And yes, Troy didn't meet my standard because guess what? He surpassed it!"* I uttered proudly.
Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong mapaluha.
*"Did you witness how he gently helped the old woman to walk across the street? He's also like that to his mother and his little sisters, Kareena. And that stood him out among the other men I knew. I keep my walls too high but a man who has respect with his mother or sisters will always be enough for me,"* I cried silently.
When my boyfriend finally got back, I immediately hugged him tightly and showered him some kisses.
I stared at Kareena who's also now crying because of too much happiness.
And for the last time, I smiled widely and held my chin high.
*"We are queens and born to be expensive, Kareena. And only men who knows how to value a woman's heart could afford us."*
***-Thanks for reading***
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See you in another life, my almost
[October 3,2021|Sunday] **[10:02pm**
I fell in love to my best friend.
I know it sounds so wrong, but it all happened out of my control and in an unexpected way.
Well, you just can't just teach your heart to whom it would beat and love for.
I always tried to control my emotions, but he gave me more reasons to fall for him even harder. The way he always checked if I'm done with my assignments, the way he cared for my grades and my future are really something that my heart could no longer take.
As we graduated in College until I became a Nurse and him as a licensed Mechanical Engineer, I still secretly admired and continued loving him from afar.
I want to confess, but I'm afraid of what would be the outcome of my confession. It might lead to a love story or another tragedy for us.
Kung wala rin namang kasiguraduhan ang lahat, mas mabuti pang itatago ko na lang ang lahat.
Ayokong masira ang pagsasama namin dahil lang sa lintek na nararamdaman ko!
"*Ba't 'di ka pa nagkakajowa, pre?*"
Bumalik ako sa reyalidad nang marinig ang pagtanong ng kaklase ko kay Migs.
We were having a batch reunion right now and there were empty bottles and cases of beer at the center table.
Before Migs answered the question, I caught him staring at me.
Bigla akong napalunok nang mariin at ramdam ko ang pagbilis ng tibok ng puso ko.
Damn this stupid heart!
"*I don't rush things naman, pre. Kung may darating, edi mamahalin. Kung wala pa, edi tamang hintay na lang muna*," he chuckled.
Damn you! Nandito naman ako! I've always been here for you, Migs!
"*E, ikaw Claire, ba't 'di ka pa nagkakajowa? May hinihintay ka ba?*" tanong ng isa kong kaklase.
That question caught me off guard.
**"***Uhmm...***"** I stuttered.
Everyone is now staring at me, waiting for me to answer the question.
Napayuko ako. I tried to open my mouth.
Almost said something.
Almost confessed my feelings.
Almost.
**"***I have no time for that, Rachel. Focus muna ako sa career ko*,**"** I lied as I tried my voice not to break in front of them.
**"***Mag-bestfriend nga talaga kayong dalawa*,**"** komento ng isa pa naming kaklase.
Tahimik ko lang na dinamdam sa sulok ang panghahapdi ng dibdib ko.
Damn, how many more months and years do I have to keep everything? How many more attempts do I have to waste before I say my true feelings?!
Ang hirap!
Nagsimulang mamuo ang mga luha sa sulok ng mga mata ko habang patuloy sa paninikip ang aking dibdib.
Agad akong nagpaalam sa kanila na pupunta lang ako ng comfort room at nang makarating ako sa cr ay doon na nagsibagsakan ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan.
Isang oras din akong iyak nang iyak sa loob at nang mahimasmasan ako ay naabutan ko na lang si Migs na kahalikan ang isa kong kaklase, si Beatrice.
Since College, patay na patay na talaga ang babaeng 'to kay Migs.
My hands started shaking and my knees are badly buckling. Parang anytime ay matutumba ako.
Napatingin ako sa mga kaklase ko at hinayaan lang nilang maglaplapan ang dalawa.
Well, I couldn't blame them. They've been shipping these two since then. Siguro, plano na nila 'to. At isa pa, both of them are single, so there's nothing to worry about.
My vision started to blur, not because of the alcohol but because of tears.
Mas lalong bumigat ang paghinga ko habang nakikita si Migs na may kahalikang iba.
Hindi ko na kaya ang mga nasaksikan ko kaya dire-diretso kong kinuha ang bag ko atsaka umalis ng bar.
Narinig ko pa ang pagtanong ng kaklase ko kung saan ako pupunta pero hindi ko na siya pinansin.
All I want is to disappear out of this fucking place and out of Mig's sight!
Wala namang kami, but I felt so betrayed!
How could he do this to me!
How could he kiss another girl just like that?!
Nang makauwi ako ng bahay ay doon na ako napahikbi nang todo.
Iyak lamang ako ng iyak.
I thought it would be the worst scene of my life, but I was wrong.
Because four months after the incident, I found myself attending the wedding of Migs.
Nagbunga ang pagtatalik nilang dalawa sa bar and knowing Migs as a real man, pinagutan niya ang kaniyang mag-ina.
"*C-Congrats...*" My voice quivered.
"*Claire...*" The way Migs spoke my name gently, it sent thousands of sharpened knives straight to my chest.
"*I love you...*"
For the first time in years, I finally told those three precious words in front of him.
Tuluyan na akong napaluha. Maging si Migs ay umiiyak na rin.
"*Fuck! You made me so hard to let you go, Claire! Bakit ngayon mo pa sinabi 'yan!*" he exclaimed.
More tears sprung to his eyes and it pained my heart so much.
"*That night, our classmates drugged me, Claire! They set up everything! No'ng nakita mo akong may kahalikang iba, sana pinigilan mo ako, pero alam mo 'yong masakit? Yun yung hinayaan mo lang akong maagaw ng iba*," hikbi niya.
There, I bursted into tears.
"*Ano ka ba, nangyari na ang nangyari—*"
"*BUT I WILL ALWAYS BE HAUNTED BY OUR ALMOST, CLAIRE!*" he cut me off.
Mas lalo akong napaluha sa sinabi niya.
If only destiny waits us more longer...
"*I'm sorry*..." is all the words I managed to utter.
"*Let's forget about the past, Migs. Palayain na natin ang isa't-isa*," pagmamakaawa ko.
"*No...*" napailing siya. "*If only you could see it from my point of view, you'd understand why it hurts so bad, Claire. Sobrang sakit nang nangyari sa atin and I will never forgive myself for not writing our own love story! I will always be haunted of my mistakes!*" he roared.
Para na akong tanga sa kaiiyak.
"*Shhhh*," I pressed my thumb to his lips. "*Tanggap ko na*."
Mas lalo akong napaiyak.
"*I've always been loving you secretly, Migs. And I think, I can do it again this time*," I smiled weakly.
Patuloy pa rin sa pag-iiyak si Migs. Para siyang naliligaw na bata.
"*Maybe, we are both stars but placed in different constellation, that's the reason why we are never meant to align*," I whispered.
I hugged my man for one last moment and there, I cried on his shoulders.
Maybe, one of the most painful part is when you both have feelings for each other, but you also know you are better off as friends.
I've been loving him secretly and I think I can do it again.
Remember, you don't need to own a person to love them!
Before I could turn my back, Migs dropped his final words which made me so hard to let go.
"*You are the sweetest pain I don't want to heal, Claire. See you in another life, my almost*."
-***Thank you for reading:)***
**[11:21 pm✨]**
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Right love, No enough time
[October 2,2021|Saturday]
"Ma'am, which is more painful? Meeting the right person in the wrong time or meeting a wrong person in the right time?"
One of my classmates dropped such intriguing question, leaving the whole class to be in chaos. Different opinions were heard, arguments were laid and loud noises filled the four corners of the room.
"Of course, it's more painful when you meet a wrong person in the right time. Imagine, you are ready to commit and be in a relationship but your love and efforts were just wasted because your partner is just a wrong person for you. Ang sakit kaya no'n!" one of my classmates uttered in conviction.
Some reiterated and agreed but there are others who opposed.
"No, I think mas masakit 'yong right person in the wrong time kasi wala kayong magawang dalawa because the time is not just right. Itinigil niyo kasi kailangan. Tinapos kasi mali at hindi pwede," my other classmate concurred.
"Boom bars!"
"Ganiyan talaga ang linyahan ng mga katoliko na nainlove sa INC," sigaw ng isa na siyang nagpahalakhak sa lahat.
Mahina akong natawa sa naging sagutan ng mga kaklase ko pero nabigla ako nang makita ang unti-unti pamumuo ng mga luha sa gilid ng mga mata ni Ma'am.
I saw how she was caught off-guard by the question.
"Ikaw, Ma'am. What is your opinion about this?" singit ng isa.
Lahat kami ay tuluyan nang nakatingin sa kaniya. She slightly adjusted the gold-rimmed eyeglasses at the bridge of her nose as she let out a small smile.
"If I were to answer which is more painful among the two, well... none of the choices," she smiled faintly.
Ms. Quizon crossed her arms as she plastered a small smile. I was mesmerized by her beauty for a moment. She's already in her mid 20's and I could say that she aged gracefully.
Kita ko ang mariing paglunok ni Ma'am bago siya nagsalita.
"They said, meeting the right person in the wrong time is the worst heartbreak that can ever happened to you. But no one had no idea how painful it is to meet the right person in the right timeline, in the right place and in the right version of reality.
Yeah, everything seems to fall in the right places— it's just that, there's no enough time for the both of you."
"What do you mean, Ma'am?" tanong ng isa.
"Well, to put it simply, it's more painful to be with the right person but no enough time," she answered painfully.
Everyone was just in silence and we let our teacher tell us a story which happened in her life long years ago.
"So, I met this guy named Mark and we were in a relationship for eight years."
I saw how Ms. Quizon flustered by just merely uttering her boyfriend's name.
"And then what happened next, Ma'am?"
"Mark was a loving boyfriend to me. He had been consistent with his actions and he never fails to put a curve on my lips."
While hearing those words, it seems like the butterflies in the universe migrated to my stomach.
I also heared some giggles coming from the class.
"Wow, mukhang in love si Ma'am," komento ng isa.
"Being in love is just an understatement of how devoted I am to my man," Ma'am Quizon quickly supplied.
"Mark completed me," she smiled. "Siya lang ang lalaking kumumpleto sa pagkatao ko. He knows how to calm down the demons in my head and he knows how to dance along with my nightmares. He taught me the meaning of life even if he couldn't see the meaning of his. Mark kissed away all the devils from my past, embraced my scars and perfectly accepted my imperfections."
I suddenly clutched my chest as I felt my eyes starting to water.
Damn, that was so heartfelt!
"At the age of 17, I found the purest love that a man could ever give to a woman. Mark became my safe haven. With him I felt at peace and in his arms, I felt at home."
After uttering those words, there, the tears that she suppressed for too long finally fell down.
Hindi ko na rin napigilan ang maluha.
"I had loved Mark at the right time and at the right version of reality. Everything was right— it's just that we had no enough time."
Tuluyan nang napahagulhol si Ma'am.
"Because Mark found someone else," her voice broke.
"Did he cheat, Ma'am?"
Ms. Quizon just smiled painfully.
"No, he didn't. He had no affairs with other girls but he found someone else."
"What do you mean, Ma'am?"
Mas lalong napaluha si Ma'am sa harapan namin.
"Because right after we celebrated our eight years anniversary, Mark was diagnosed of having a stage three brain cancer," she smiled faintly.
All of us gasped. Parang may bumabara sa lalamunan ko.
"Then what happened?" This time, I finally asked.
"I became Mark's strength. I didn't let him see I was falling apart because it was only me, who can save our relationship."
"But after choosing him everyday and encouraged him to live everyday, I've realized that everyday wasn't enough for us to have a happy ending afterall."
Ms. Quizon wiped her tears and she fakedly smiled.
"Because for years of battling with cancer, Mark finally told me that he found someone else who can be his home for an everlasting rest."
"Who was it?"
Ms. Quizon bitterly smiled before she continued.
"It was God," her voice broke. "He found comfort and peace in God's hands than in my arms," she whispered painfully.
And there, I bursted in tears. All of the class finally broke down.
"And that's when I requested his doctor to remove the life support that kept him alive for years. Tuluyan ko na siyang ipinaubaya sa itaas," hagulhol niya.
"He was my home and I'm home sick of two arms that I can no longer hold forever," she cried.
"I hated him at first for leaving me. I even tried to convince myself that he was selfish because he left me but soon enough, I later understand that it was so selfish of me to try to make him stay and live even if he badly wanted to rest."
Iyak lamang kami nang iyak.
"We had so many dreams to fulfill, family to build and memories to create but all of those things have been taken away because the truth is— we are right person to each other but we had no enough time for a happy ending."
And there, my heart broke down completely.
"It's been long years since Mark left me but no one can ever replace him to the point that I can never love back again because I know for that fact that I'll look for him in the faces of other people. I will still search for him in the faces of other men. He was my greatest love afterall," she smiled faintly.
"Me and my man became in a relationship at the age of 17 and I know we were too young for that. And I may sound stupid in front of you, but trust me, the love you give at the age of 17 might also be the purest love you can give in your lifetime," Ms. Quizon smiled genuinely.
All of us silently cried in our chairs, letting our hearts burst in pain.
"I guess, this is the painful part of finding pure love in a man. Because once it ends, it would also be your greatest heartbreak."
Iyak lamang kami ng iyak.
"But do you know what's the best part of my story even if it ended tragically?"
Ms. Quizon smiled and for one last moment, she cried.
"Because even though we were right persons for each other with no enough time— it was never a waste of time loving him and I know that what happened between us was real."
For one last moment, everyone of us cried but this time— with a smile on our faces.
-***Thank you:)***
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He became the man that every woman feared to be
[October 1,2021|Friday]
This story was just taken from my mind, it didn't really happen in life, it was just made up by my mind. it's fictional story!
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I was busy scrolling down the gallery of my phone and accidentally, I bumped in the video section where I saw a collection of random videos from my favorite couple.
Those recordings were filmed years ago and out of curiosity, I played and rewatched those clips.
"Love, bati na tayo please. H-Hindi ko kaya na nag-aaway tayo, love. Mas gugustuhin ko na lang na mali ako kaysa sa nagkakasakitan tayo," the guy cried, not minding if he would lose his manliness to his girl.
My heart moved at the guy's statement.
I could no longer hold my emotions and there, I cried.
I have rewatched the clip for a thousand times already but it still never fails to bring me into tears.
Damn, how lucky the girl was!
I played another video of them wherein his girlfriend pulled another silly prank against him.
"Love, ang daming chix doon, oh!" she yelled as she pointed those ladies from afar.
Instead of staring at them, the guy just ignored her as he listed something on the notes in his phone.
"Number 14 rule. Stay faithful even if your woman is not around."
"What's with the lists, love?" his girlfriend asked curiously.
The guy just stared at his girlfriend like she's a blessing given from above.
"I'm sorry, love but I have no time to look at those ladies you are pointing out because I am busy looking and finding ways on how to love my woman."
That made the girl blushed.
Hindi ko na rin napigilan ang kiligin sa kanilang dalawa.
Their relationship is just so genuine and so pure that it brought me into tears.
I played another video and this time, it was all about self-insecurities.
"Love, ang taba-taba ko na. I'm sorry... Would you still love me?" the girl asked.
"You are feeling sorry because of your body? And why would I not love your body? The body who carries your heart and your soul that makes me smile everyday? Damn, baby! I don't care of what you look like or what would other say to you because if you are in the hands of a right man, you are always beautiful in his eyes," he said sincerely.
Ugh, when he uttered those words in front of his girl is so damn heartfelt!
Bigla na lang ulit akong napaluha sa labis na saya.
I was about to play another video when suddenly my man interrupted me, pulling me in reality.
"L-Love..." my voice broke.
"Kanina ka pa diyan nood nang nood. Matulog ka na nga," he said aggressively.
"Hindi natin aayusin?" I asked, referring on our confrontation earlier about this girl whom he's hooking up recently.
"Bahala ka sa buhay mo," he said coldly as he turned his back and ignored me.
My heart dropped to my stomach. I could feel the terrible tightening of my chest and the painful constriction of my throat.
Hindi ako makahinga.
These past few months, Dean became so cold and distant. Yung tipong kami pa pero pinaparamdam niyang hindi na ako.
And as times goes by, his touch and his presence became stranger to me. Not because I fell out of love but because he changed a lot.
Some people would say that it is painful when your favorite person became a stranger after breaking up.
But I've realized, it hurts more when your partner became a stranger while you are still in a relationship.
Yung tipong nasa akin pa siya at may kami pa pero bakit unti-unti ko siyang hindi na makilala?
Swallowing hard, I looked at my man.
"L-Love, do you still love me?" I whispered out of nowhere.
Suddenly, he got up from his bed and looked at me.
"I don't know," he answered shortly.
"J-Just tell me," I asked, almost begging.
He just looked away, couldn't stare at me straightly.
"I'm still trying..." he whispered.
And there, my heart shattered into pieces. Parang tinarakan ng ilang libung patalim ang dibdib ko.
"I am even questioning myself if I did really love you. I guess, infatuation lang lahat," sabi niya.
"For three years? Infatuation lang pala?" I chuckled painfully.
"A-Ano bang mali sa akin? Pangit ba ako?" I yelled at him.
"No..." He glanced at me. "You are pretty, Pauline—"
I thought it was a compliment but the next words he uttered completely broke my heart.
"Your beauty is a kind of beauty that is only worth for fucking and not for a lifetime commitment."
Tuluyan na akong nadurog.
"Ikaw pa ba 'yan, Dean?" my lips quivered violently.
"Yang mga pinagsasabi at pinapakita mo, hndi ikaw 'to, eh!" I cried.
'Bumalik ka na sa dating ikaw mo love please..." I begged.
When our eyes met, I could no longer see him as my man.
He became the man that every woman feared to be.
'Di ko na napigilan ang maluha sa harap niya.
"Let's break up..." he said coldly.
There, my whole world collapsed.
I wanted to stop him but my knees had grown weak and my lips are badly trembling.
Wala akong nagawa kundi ang tignan siyang umalis dala-dala ang mga gamit niya.
I felt so powerless.
When I looked at my phone, I watched again those videos and there, I cried even more.
Because the couple in the video was actually me and my man who were so inlove with each other years ago.
Kung dati'y 'di niya kayang mag-away kami, ngayon ay siya na ang gumagawa para maghiwalay kami.
He once adored my beauty with pure intentions but now, he only see me as nothing but a woman that is only worth to be fucked.
I guess, he was just my greatest blessing but not my answered prayers.
With so much tears in my eyes, I deleted those videos one by one.
And for one last moment, I cried and smiled painfully.
And there, I've finally accepted that my man doesn't love me anymore— only the old him does.
-***Thank you***
***Closing thought;***
*Nothing's permanent in this world, except "CHANGES" kaya nakakatakot na magmahal ngayon, pero yeah di naman lahat ganyan, it takes time to find your real soulmate, don't find him, just wait for him, he'll find you. The real man knows your worth, even if it takes you a few more years, he still knows your value.*
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I always want to be alone
[September 25,2021|Saturday]
I haven't written or published an article in the past few days because I was drowsy and my body is too lazy to write and think about what topic I should write about.
I asked my brother what a good topic I would write about because nothing really enters my brain and I also have a very bad headache because of math. I thought I wanted the subject of math, but I was wrong. I really hate math since my teacher started discussing the topic. I really prefer to go face-to-face in the online class. My vision is gradually fading because of lack of oxygen in my head.
While I was lying on my bed, my older brother came into my room and said "write down the fact that you are always alone" and he left as if nothing had happened. I didn't go around anymore and I did as he suggested.
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Am I the only one who likes to be alone? Or am I such an introvert? For me, it's fun to be alone because what I can do expands and I find out more about myself. When my older brother or mom wants to come into my room to tease me, I always just drive them away and say "I'm busy, don't piss me off." They will just come out and laugh even if nothing is funny.
I only go out of the house once or join friends when I go out. They almost always tell me I'm a white lady because I'm too white and I don't look like I'm in the sun anymore. Sometimes we also go to the videoki bar to sing (obviously videoki bar nga diba). My friends always sing sad songs because they are always broken in their crushes, but they don't run out of crushes because they really have a list of what the names are on.
The things I do when I want to be alone are ..
***Watching kdrama & Netflix***
Most of us are addicted to Kdramas or movies. When I want to watch a Kdrama, I really lock the door of my room because I don't want to be a nuisance and I don't want to watch the whole thing because of the thrilling scenes. Sometimes I even scream and tweak myself because I can't stop the fun when I see the two stars kiss haha lol! Kiss lang bawal yung Ibs, so iniskip ko talaga,I'm a good child haha!
One of my favorite dramas is "True Beauty." My aunt is addicted to watching it and she never stops being funny when watching every episode. Sometimes I just see that his eyes are swollen because of the tears. I just laugh because it's true that this drama is really tearful but mixed with comedy.
***I wrote in my diary***
I write every day about the things that happen to me such as my happy moments or moments that I am very stressed, because through that I have realized how I can be happy and who is stressing me every day. It also helps to identify myself, sometimes I read what I wrote when I was in 7th grades and I just laugh like a fool alone, sometimes they even knock mama in my room because they heard my loud laughed 😂
When mama read my diary, she also read what was happening at school, and I also wrote there about what was happening to me when I saw my crush. Haha, at that time, I just wanted to disappear as if nothing had happened, so much embarrassment. When mama read that, she cried with laughter and asked who I was referring to as my crush. Haha
***Watching podcast***
I do this every day to expand my knowledge of life and it is also important for me to listen to podcasts or documentaries because I am learning more to pronounce English and my accent, I am not very good at english or speaking english but from watching my podcast about life or advise has expanded my knowledge and I can speak English directly and seamlessly.
***Sleep.Sleep.Sleep***
Most of what I do is sleep; I sleep all morning and stay awake at night; that's my routine before class and it's something I always do, but when I have an online class, I don't sleep much because of the amount of assignments and activities I'll be doing.Sometimes my cousin asked me if what I was doing wasn't boring because I was just asleep and didn't come out of my room. I just didn't answer them because they already knew what I was going to answer. My saliva will be wasted if they ask me over and over again, and I will tell you over and over again, "I want to be alone."
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Author's note;
*For me, it helps to be alone when I have a problem or I'm busy. I really want to be alone because you will be free to think and you will discover different talents that only you know. But it also hurts our mental health. Yes, I admit, sometimes I have a hard time interacting with a lot of people because I'm used to being alone.*
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My dreams
[September 23,2021|Thursday]
I was so busy that I forgot to write an article today. I was also busy with the module and reading the book. I told myself I would write an article every day, but I failed because of my laziness and my brain did not want to cooperate.
My brain is numb because of the modules. I also can't think properly because a lot has happened to me or us. I was also doing something at home yesterday, so I'm not very focused to think!
Earlier, while I was washing the plate, I remembered the question in the module "*What are your dreams*?" and I wondered if I could do it and publish it here on the read.cash platform. Until I convinced myself to make it a topic in my article, and now this is what I'm going to do. I'm going to tell you what my dreams are in my life.
***Let's go....***
***I want to buy a house and lot for my family.***
I no longer dream of a nice house or a big house. It's okay to keep it simple because since I was a child, my parents always told me that no matter how small our house is, as long as the people who live there love, give, and most of all, with fear of the God.I'm also afraid of big houses because I think there are ghosts. Sometimes I wonder if I can give my family the house that my family dreams of because sometimes I want to give up on life with so much hardship.
***Buy a car***
Yeah! I want to buy a car because my family loves to travel and I also want to go to places far away like Batanes, when I was young I really wanted to go to Batanes because the view is so beautiful and the air is fresh. And also for myself when I already have a job, I won't have to wait for a jeep anymore, because here we have a very difficult jeep and sometimes it's crowded during rush hour,every year we also go home to Bicol to have a fiesta, sometimes when we go home to Bicol by bus I wonder if it's good when you use your own car to go home with your family.
***I want to go to South Korea***
I really want to go to South Korea because I want to taste their famous food like Kimchi and Bibimbap. I also want to go to Nami Island because the trees there are so nice and relaxing to the eyes. Of course, I won’t miss seeing even just one of the artists I admire.Like Cha eunwoo oppa!
First, I'm not a fan of Korean dramas because I'm not fond of movies and dramas yet. I'm really focused on reading books. If my aunt hadn't shown me the Korean drama she was watching, which is Defendant of the Sun, I wouldn't have stopped reading.
At first I was annoyed because I couldn't understand what they were saying, so I was a bit of a badtrip, but when my aunt opened it and the English subtitles made me want to watch, I immediately attracted myself to a bid called Song Jung Ki, which I immediately watched.
***Buy new Laptop***
I really hope this Christmas I can buy a new laptop because I really need it, especially since I haven't had face-to-face classes yet. I don't expect to buy a new cellphone because I don't use it much and the laptop is really more important to me and to my older brother because the laptop that my aunt gave us is broken. We also took advantage of that for a long time, and I thank because I can do what the cellphone can't.
***I want to become a Lawyer***
When I was in elementary school, I wanted to be a teacher, because I could see how they would teach and discipline us. But when I entered junior high school,
I realized that I wanted to be a lawyer, not because of the high salary. I wanted to do it because it is what my mind and heart see. I want to tell my parents that I want to be a lawyer, but I can't say that because I'm afraid that they will stop me. I'm afraid that they might not support me because of the hardships of life.
I have also tried to tell them a few times, but I am driven by extreme fear and nervousness, but always when I say to myself that walang imposible sa taong may pangarap in english "*nothing is impossible with the person with the big dream".*
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I still have a lot of dreams to write but I think the article I wrote is kinda long so I'll just write it next time.lol! I'm already feeling drowsy and lazy haha!
***You? what are your dreams that you want to achieve?***
*****-Thank you for reading*****
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Guilty or not Guilty
[September 21,2020|Tuesday]
¡Buenas tardes,mi Señorita y Señorito
I was thinking about what topic I could publish yesterday, because I don't have any ideas and my brain is mentally blocked.
Because I can't think of a topic, my friend suggested that I shoot it. I also want to have fun and laugh, so I'll follow what she said. He sent me 5 questions and here those questions will be answered.Because I love my friend, I will answer his questions to me haha! if you read this hope you enjoy huh! I'm serious about answering here no to jokes HAHA
***Here's the five(5) questions;***
Don't you take a bath every day?
Did you have a boyfriend?
Do you brush your teeth every day?
Did you run away from your house?
Did you have failing grades?
***Let's start....***
***Don't you take a bath every day?***
**Not Guilty**! I can't sleep without taking a bath at least once a day, haha Besides, I can't not take a bath because mama will scold me and say that I'm lazy again. Sometimes I think about not taking a bath when laziness hits me, but they themselves take me to the comfort room because they know I won't be able to take a bath again. But they always win, so every day I really take a bath. twice a day or three when the weather is hot.
***Did you have a boyfriend?***
*Not Guilty*! I still don't think about having a boyfriend. I want to focus on my studies and my family first. I also want to achieve my dream of being alone. I know my family is there all the time, but it's still different when you reach your dream by yourself and no one else. We'll only get there when it's time and he's really destined for you.Am I too bitter?Lols!because my friends tell me bitter because of my mind set lol! it's not a loss not to have a boyfriend
***Do you brush your teeth every day?***
I'm a bit Guilty here haha, only once when I'm so drowsy and my eyes can't wake up so the ending I didn't brush my teeth but the next day I brushed my teeth twice because one was for this morning and the other was last night haha! I am brilliant, right?.So that I don't forget to brush my teeth again, I set an alarm so that I don't forget and I can do my routine properly.
***Did you run away from your house?***
Only once, because we had a practice at school and mom didn't allow me to go because there was no one at home, so I ran away and practiced, but even before I went home, I told myself that I would face mama's punishment because it was also wrong to escape and I did not follow what she told me. I have a reason and I need to practice because the event at our school is near and I don't want to have low grades.
***Did you have failing grades?***
Guilty! I have failing grades which is 80,my family was a bit disappointed, especially my mom. At first, I seemed to cry because of my older brother teasing me, but I told them that I did everything. They just answered me, "it's OK," but I can see my mom's disappointment.At that time, I just wanted to tear up my grades because I was so annoyed. I did everything I could, but I was also tired, but I wouldn't give up. So I always focus on my studies because I don't want to disappoint them again and I don't want to fail now that I'm about to graduate from High school.
***-Thank you for reading༼ つ ◕‿◕ ༽つ***
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It's only now that I realize that I'm crazy about myself.lols!!😂
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I hope it never happens again
[September 19,2021|Sunday]
Nowadays, it is noticeable that bullying is happening not only at school but also in their homes. When I watch the news, I see a lot of bullies. When I use my social media accounts, I also can't avoid young people who bully each other.
Even I, who have been bullied by them over and over again, but I can't fight them because I'm just a kid who can't stand on his own two feet. Whenever I see people fighting, or nambubully because of their faces, bodies, etc. I want to help, but I can't because even I, who am being bullied, can't resist. How can I help them? Whenever I see someone crying because of teasing from my classmates, I remember myself with them.
***Story time....***
*When I was in Grade four, I always participated in activities and participated in all school events because my mother liked them, and it seemed like my confidence increased when I saw a lot of people. I always follow her because I also like what I do, and I am happy that I can make my grandma happy. But when the recitation came to our section, I reviewed the reviewer until our Filipino teacher came.*
*He started calling me names. I was nervous at that time, but I always thought about what Grandma was telling me: "you can do that, don't impose shame, I'm always here to support you." I always kept that in my mind, so when I was the next one, I didn't have two issues reciting what we did the other day.*
*I ended up with nothing wrong. I took a deep breath before sitting in my chair. As I watched the speaker in front of me, I saw the others. If a classmate in the back was talking to me, but I just ignored him. I just focused my attention on the person in front of me. Our recitation ended well and One One called our name to give a score.*
*I was second with the highest score in our class. I was happy and thanked the Lord, because grandma would be proud again. Our Filipino teacher left us because he still had the next class in the other building. It's recess time and my friend told me that we were going to the canteen, but I didn't come because I still had an assignment to do.*
As I was answering my assignment, someone called to me from behind. They were the four women who talked about me earlier; they sat in front of me. Someone spoke to them and she said "are you copying? Why are you so high in recitation?" Suddenly, I raised my head and looked at her. "Because I reviewed and memorized it," I said to her, but what he said to me was, "wee? Are you crazy? But that's how you score. I know if you're smart, but no one can beat you. Our first honor "
A minute later, she said again, "wee! Aren't you talking? You cheated, right? You're so stupid to copy, that's where you might just complain to your Grandma! Such a crying baby, huh?
***End..***
At that time, I restrained myself from crying because they were bullying me even more and I wanted my grandmother to feel sorry for what they were saying. I will admit that I always cry and complain to my grandmother when someone bullies me, but I have realized that not as long as I live with her, not as long as she is there for me, not as long as she lives, she will defend me from those who bully me.
Not a day goes by that they don't bully me, but the day my grandmother reported to our guidance counselor, that's when the bullying and teasing stopped.
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***Author note***:
***Sa lahat ng nakaranas ng pambubully lakasan natin ang ating loob at huwag nating hayaan na manaig sila sa mga kagustuhan nilang gawin saatin. Huwag tayong padadaig sa lahat ng taong walang magawa kundi ang tuksuhin at pag laruan ang mga taong walang laban sakanila. Labanan natin sila at huwag hayaang palawakin pa nila ang kanilang ginagawa!***
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What do I do when I'm bored?
[September 18,2021|Saturday]
In today’s era, we can’t avoid being bored. We want to have fun right now, but not in the way we go out of the house.Whether we want to entertain ourselves by going to the mall or wandering around with the whole family, but not right now because of the pandemic that the whole world is experiencing. Sometimes I wonder why you are bored with what we do or what we watch on television.
When I want to watch dramas, I spend my time there because sometimes I can't stop myself from watching them and just look for other hobbies. I just sang "bored in the house, bored in the house bored"lols!😂
***Let's start...***
What do I do when I'm bored?
Doing some chores
Cut my hair
Cut my dog's hair
***Doing some chores***
When I'm bored, I do the housework early, wash the dishes, sweep the whole house. So sometimes my older brother just says "oh! What did you eat?" I replied to him, "Just shut up brother, I'm just so bored." I'm really annoyed when he says that to me, so sometimes I just don't clean because I'm annoyed and my dad tells me that. How lazy am I for them to say that? Even though I'm not bored, I still do housework, because I'll get angry with mama when the house isn't clean when she comes home from work.
***Cut my hair***
I remember when I was in grade 7 I was so bored I went to the bottom of our house to get my cellphone but when I got there I didn't know where I put it so I went to my brother and asked if he saw my cellphone because I didn't I really remember where I put him, it's a good thing he saw my cellphone on his desk so
I immediately went to his room and I saw my cellphone charged, I didn't take it first because he wasn't fully charged yet so I left I went upstairs again and figured out what to do, wondering if I could borrow mama's tablet to watch tutorials about hairdressing while I was looking for a good tutorial my eye noticed a vloger teaching how to cut bangs, I immediately clicked on it and watched I was amazed at his video tutorial and I
thought if I could do that, I also think that's something for me so I immediately went to cr and I immediately went to the kitchen and looked for scissors, when I see the scissors I immediately go to the c.r because there is a big mirror there,before I cut my hair I watched again the tutorial.When my crib cut my hair, I regretted it because it looked like Dora's hair. I really regretted it, and I hid it from my parents, and I wore a headband for a few weeks so as not to notice the mischief I had done.lol! I'm really fool 🤣
***Cut my dog's hair/feathers***
when I'm really bored I leave the house and go to the other unit to visit my pets. sometimes they also call me a hairstylist because I cut my dogs with their long hair and I style it, sometimes I put a kiray on them to make them look human haha!yeah! I'm a big fool when I'm bored haha, sometimes our neighbors are happy when they see one of our dogs that I put on the kiray, my dog follows when I lay him down and put the kiray haha. I'm going crazy with being so bored🤣
I feel so bad,sorry babies,I'm just bored:>
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***Note:***
*When you are bored, just think of making it easier for yourself and the things that will not make you bored. Always interact with the people around you so as not to affect our mental health. Always think positive!:>*
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I am a lazy woman
[September 17,2021|Friday]
Many of us when we hear the word "lazy" the first thing that comes to our mind is being idle in housework or school,but I can't deny I'm lazy at home, lol! Many of us are worried when the house is dirty and then all of a sudden our parents come to the house and they see the house is dirty and has not been cleaned yet.
*I already experienced this haha. I forgot to clean the outside of the door of the house and I thought my older brother had cleaned it there, so I no doubt slept in my room. I also fell asleep for a few minutes, and I just woke up with the strength of my mother's voice. I immediately got up from my bed and immediately washed my face. I immediately went down to our living room and saw Mama sitting there talking to someone, so I immediately walked to the kitchen to pretend to wash the dishes, lol!, so that I wouldn't be scolded anymore.*
I'm not really lazy with housework. That's all they really see in me because we only meet my family once because my older brother and I are busy with school work and my dad is busy with their work.My best friend also calls me **lazy**. I don't know why, so when I had time, I immediately asked them what they meant, because I'm not really lazy. I always do my house chores and I'm always present when I'm cleaning in school.
And when I asked them this is what they told me:
Lazy to reply
Lazy to say Yes to my suitors
Lazy to say Yes when my friend asked me to hangout!
*****Lazy to reply ;*****
Yes! I admit that I'm lazy. I reply to chats and sometimes instead of chatting, I just send them a voice message because I really don't want to chat when I'm not in the mood. They can't blame me because I want to do it and I'm not lazy. When they tell me "why didn't you reply to me?" I tell them that I was drowsy when they chatted, I only really talk once in a chat but personally I'm talkative lol! Even on their messenger, my nickname is "lazy woman". I'm just laughing because of what they're going to do to me, and of course, I'm not that serious because I know the madness of my friends , I love them even though they call me a lazy woman because I didn't respond to their chat haha.
*****Lazy to say Yes to my suitors:*****
I don't know what's going on with my friends because they think I have suitors because they said they read something on my cellphone and they said I was chatting with a man, and I looked curious because I haven't had a boyfriend since birth and I haven't made friends with the men instead of my cousins, so I asked them what name they were referring to, but none of them spoke. I'm even more curious because maybe my account was hacked and then there were people who chatted but I wasn't the one who replied.
The next day, I received a chat from my friend. His chat with me was, "Answer your suitors first. Maybe if you just say yes, it's boring too huh." I just laughed so hard because of what she said. Nothing. I'm chatting and I don't know what she's saying.When I finished my module, I could easily go to the house of one of my best friends because I couldn't be bothered with who they said was my suitor because there really wasn't anyone.At first, when I asked her a question, she didn't answer me until she slipped in the name of who they were saying. I laughed and laughed because the name of the person they said was my cousin's name!lol🤣I try to explain to them the truth, but they don't really believe me.I can't do anything if they don't believe me.
*****Lazy to say "Yes "when my friend asked me to hangout!*****
I don't know why they call me lazy when it comes to hangouts, when going to my friends' birthday parties and when going to the mall. I just don't really like to go out because, before, I never really went out of the house. I was always in my bedroom reading or sleeping. That's what I always do when I have nothing to do at home.I'm not like other girls who like to go out or party when there is a gathering. Even at school, when they ask me if I will go with them, I don't have to say anything because they already know what I'm going to say. It's always been said, "I try." They sometimes refer to me as "kj" because I don't always accompany them to the mall.I just want to be alone when I'm not in the mood to socialize with my friends.
Sometimes I just laugh at the antics of my friends. I am very grateful that they became my friends. Even if we have different dreams, we will reach them all at once!
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*Closing thought;*
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My stress therapy
[September 16,2021|Thursday]
In today's time, many people are stressed because of the thought of bills for electricity, water, and the purchase of household necessities,as well as at school, I feel almost mixed emotions due to too much stress.
(stres) In medicine, the body's response to physical, mental, or emotional pressure. Stress causes chemical changes in the body that can raise blood pressure, heart rate, and blood sugar levels. It may also lead to feelings of frustration, anxiety, anger, or depression.
**Eat**
Sometimes when I'm stressed, I eat a lot of food, especially sweets like chocolate and milk powder. Kinda weird, right? I was addicted to eating milk powder when my uncle always told me to mix milk for my nephew,and eating spicy food. Spicy food helps me to stop being an over-thinker.For me, the cure for stress is to eat my favorites,So sometimes they scold me because I eat sweets, but they can't do anything because that's what relieves my stress and relaxes my mind.
**Scrolling on tiktok**
When I'm finished doing my modules and other chores around the house, I always go to my bedroom to watch tiktok videos, and sometimes I'll search for the Wattpad recommendation that will make me cry. I want to cry and cry until my eyes are swollen. kinda weird, but for me it's very fun. I also watched the videos on Tiktok for motivation and advice. As a student, I want to get a higher grade. I want to get an honour for my last year of high school life. Next year I will be a senior in high school.
***Listening to music***
When I'm stressed, I listen to party music, K-pop songs, and worship songs. I feel better when I hear music in my ears and songs seem to shake my head. When I'm in a good mood, I always listen to Kpop songs. I'm not a K-pop fan but I really liked their song.Also, the worship songs. Before I went to sleep, I listened to the song "How great is our God". The stress I felt is increasingly disappearing.
***Reading books/love story***
Reading love stories or about the history of our country is my passion and it also relieves stress when I learn something new. When I want to cry, I always read a love story, but in the end, a tragic one because I really want to cry. It sounds kinda weird, right?lol! Sometimes when I finish a story, I go in front of the mirror and I look at how swollen my eyes are, then I smile like a fool. Lol! My friend told me that I only started 2 months ago when I started reading. I feel like I'm crazy if I react to the stories I'm finishing. Haha!
***Sleep in several minutes***
I'm a sleepy person. My grandma told me that when I'm tired and under a lot of stress, I should just sleep for a little while to relax my brain and body. I always follow her advice because everything she tells me is true and works. At first I didn't believe that sleeping relieves stress because I thought when you wake up you would be more tired, but when I did what my grandmother said, it disappeared and my whole body became more relaxed. I take 30 minutes to go to sleep, and when I wake up, I go back to my modules. Sleep and sleep and sleep until you fell you're okay haha!
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***Note:***
*These are my five stress therapies, and they are the ones that relieve my stress. Sometimes I also do research on Google and watch videos on YouTube. For the last one, for me, prayer to God is the best stress therapy. Always pray to God that you'll be safe and stay strong. You? What's your stress relieved?*
***-Thank you for reading***
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Hello! Denrica miss you!
[September 15,2021|Wenesday]
¡Buenas dias,mi Señorito y Señorita!
I just want to flex my hometown in Bicol because, why not? I am fulfilled to be one of the people born in that town. And I really miss the crystal clear sea and the food, as well as my relatives and cousins.
Denrica is a small island in Garchitorena. We used a boat to go to another island, and if you want to visit my home town, let's call it "Denrica." You need to use a big motor boat because it takes 2 hours before we arrive at the beautiful destination. You won't be bored on the ride because we will pass some beautiful islands, and you can take pictures while we have not yet reached Denrica.
If I'm sad, I always think of Denrica because all of my unforgettable experiences are based on the moment I was born.I'm glad that I was born on a peaceful and grateful island that has great people. The sea of Denrica is beautiful. It's so clear and clean. When May arrives, the island becomes very colorful because May is a part of the traditions that celebrate the saints' fiesta.There is a basketball game, a race of boats, and my favorite, the party.
When you look at the island in the distance, it opens up beautiful scenery and a clean sea,as you can see, I'm at the top of the motor boat because that's where I especially enjoy the view.
This is our church. It is the only one because Denrica is a small island and, as well as living here, the one on the side is the boarding house for the teachers. The teachers there don't really live on the island; they only go home on Saturday and return to the island on Monday. It's hard sometimes in Denrica when it's raining because the fishermen can't go to sea and sometimes the low-lying areas are flooded.
You won't get tired of looking at the sea around the boat because you can see the bottom is so clean. You will also lose the stress you feel when you board the boat. When you go to Denrica, you need to bring your camera because the island of Denrica has many beautiful views, and when you go up the mountain, you will see small streams that can be bathed in. The food there is also free and the people are kind.
Right? The picture is so beautiful that I can really be proud of my town. So sometimes I wonder when I will be able to come back again. Because of the pandemic, I haven't been home to Denrica for 2 years, and I can't even visit my grandfather and my uncle's families. Next to our barangay is a resort that is being built. It has not been finished yet because of the pandemic.I'm sure when the construction of the resort on the other island is completed, there will be more visitors and tourists to our island.
This is the whole resort. I only visited here once when we visited my grandmother’s brother. The view is so nice and worth your fare when you visit this place. There are also vegetables and fruits here, so you can live here even if you don't have a job. I'm still young, and we always bathe here because there is a net under the sea for jelly fish. They really make sure of our safety when we want to bathe in the sea. You will be happier because there is no entrance fee and you can take a bath here in the afternoon.
***Thanks for reading about my homeland I hope you enjoyed reading.***
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***Closing thought:***
*Hopefully this pandemic will end because many of us are already suffering and losing their jobs. Our economy is also collapsing due to the pandemic, hopefully this coming Christmas we will be happy. we can also overcome this nightmare. Thank you!*
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What are your favorite foods?
[September 14,2021|Tuesday]
¡Buenas tardes a todos, co lector!( ◜‿◝ )♡
Most of us Filipinos love to eat. That's why "food is life". Sometimes the stress we experience we just go through when we eat, so sometimes we don't see that we are gradually growing or becoming chubby lol!
*I want to share my food favorites, because why not? I also can't think of a topic and nothing enters my brain, so this first!*
***Let's start!***
*****Sinampalokang baboy*****
*I remember when it was raining and I told my dad I wanted soup because it was just right at the right time. He told me that he would cook sinampalokang baboy, but I was curious because I hadn't tasted that cup because we rarely sell pork in our area in Bicol. So I got excited and asked how to cook, because I wanted to know when I grew up if I could cook that too for my future kiddos. When I tasted papa's cooking, I didn't count how much rice I had and I didn't feel full because it was so delicious. That's why I really love sinampalokan baboy .*
*****Adobong baboy*****
*Our whole family would get caught in the adobong baboy, so maybe I got infected with eating it too. It was really delicious, especially when cooked by grandma. Yesterday our dish was marinated chicken. This afternoon it is marinated chicken. It's not obvious that our favorite is adobo lol!nothing can match grandma's cooking, her adobo is the most delicious for me and nothing can beat it.*
***Desserts***
***Cheesecake***
*This is what my tongue always looks for when I go to the cafeteria, in case he is too expensive compared to those who sell in the bakery, I also liked it because I found out if it was also my favorite Of my crush haha, I tried, I liked it every day kunang kainin kaya pag dating sa bahay wala nakung panlagay sa alkansya ko hehe.and also my uncle also makes cheese cake because he works in the bakery, so the mistakes he makes he just takes home, so I'm always full. I'm the only one who loves cheesecake in our whole family, because they don't like sweets.*
*****Donuts*****
*At first, I didn't like the donut because mama avoids giving us sweet foods because she doesn't want us to suffer from diabetes. But when we went home to my uncle's house, there were already donuts in the refrigerator, so I tasted them. Then I realized that they were really delicious, and my cousin was right in saying that they were delicious. I couldn't stop eating them, so when my mom always paid me, I told him to buy donuts.*
*****Ice creams*****
*I remember always waiting in front of our house just to watch out for the ice cream vendor. I always find myself eating in my bedroom secretly, because we are not allowed to eat too much sweets, but until now mama still doesn't know that I eat sweets haha! Until now, I still secretly eat sweets, one of which is ice cream lol!*
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Others have many favorite foods, but for me to say that I love a food, I look for it and get restless when I can’t taste it. When none of them are ready during gatherings with our whole family, I can't really enjoy the celebration if I can't see that. Lol! I'm addicted to those foods!
***You? what are your favorite foods? comment your favorites food ,maybe we are the same!lol! Just kidding!***
Thank you po pala sa mga nag comment and nag upvoted sa privious article ko,sorry po if hindi ako minsan nakakapag reply dahil busy na rin po ako sa modules ko hehe
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A day in my life with my boyfriend
[September 12,2021|Sunday]
Buenas tardes! mi Señorito y Señorita!
*I just wanna share my day life with my boyfriend,how we talk, talk about what's going on with us every day and how we celebrate our birthdays,date and also family gathering.*
Yesterday we decided to meet up at Vista mall. So the next day I got ready and chose a nice dress, of course I was excited because this is the only time we will meet up again since we had a hard lockdown here in our barangay.
While I was waiting with him at the Vista mall, I wandered around first so that I wouldn't get bored. As I was on my way to the dunken dunot store my cellphone rang, I immediately took it out of the sling bag I was carrying. I just smiled when my boyfriend texted that he was here.
I didn't go to the store first because I didn't want to wait for him outside the mall, in the distance I could see him waving at me. I quickly approached him and when I approached him, he immediately kissed my head and I smiled there. we went to a nearby restaurant because we both didn't eat lunch, while we were waiting for our order we talked first about the things that happened to us when our barangay was locked down.
While he was telling me about his brother's antics, our order suddenly came so he stopped talking first. Before we consumed our orders we prayed first and thanked the Lord, when I opened my eyes many were looking at us so I just gave them a smile on my face, I was curious why they were looking eh we just prayed and thanked .
After we ate we went to the arcade to play and have fun. At first I was embarrassed to play games because there were so many people but when I tried to make it look funny, my face turned red with so much fun. Only now am I happy again, because I also stress about school works and doing some chores.
We got in his car and drove me home, while we were in the car he always teased me and talked about our future, the butterflies in my stomach were severe. He thrills me every day but today is different, I can't say how much he makes me happy now or every day.
We arrived home safely, I let him in first because it was raining. Dad and I talked first while I prepared a snack for the two of them, while I was preparing something for them to eat I was thinking about the fun that happened earlier, how we ate, played games and took pictures.
Papa and he had a long story so he came home at 8:30, I took him out of our house and we talked before he went home. As he was leaving, the butterflies in my stomach gradually increased, as I went up to my room my cellphone rang, I immediately opened it and almost dropped my whole body. When I read his message to me.
"***I love you!***"
I immediately woke up to reality and replenished him immediately, I also didn't know what to do when he was my roommate and talker. As I made my bed I wondered if he and his family were happy with me. Then when I made my bed my cellphone rang again and I picked it up. We talked via video call and it can be told if my face is already red from the excitement.
1:30 am in the morning our conversation ended and we decided to go to sleep but I went to the kitchen first so I quickly went down the stairs but I fell so I suddenly woke up?woke up to the fact that I really don't have a *boyfriend* and it's just my dream, a dream that made my morning so happy! Kahit sa panaginip man lang magkaroon ako ng boyfie masaya naku haha stay single muna tayo ngayon:))
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I hope everything is just a dream
[September 11,2021|Saturday]
Buenas tardes!mi Señorita y Señorito!
In recent days I have not been able to write and think properly because our family is going through a big ordeal.
As a fifteen year old, I didn’t know what to do with the trouble and sadness that engulfed our family,I need a comforter but no one's care about my feeling,I already texted my fellow classmates, Friend,and cousin about our situation but I failed,but I'm thankful to the one person to comfort me she's not my cousin, auntie, Uncle or etc.
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I always thinking that when May comes I will surprise my grandmother, and hug her tightly, talk, eat together and laugh.
I'm excited to get a high grade now that I'm in high school, because this year is my last year as a high school student turning junior next year if makapasa lol!, I always imagining going up on stage with my grandmother and telling her that I'm graduating this year but everything fell apart. my dream for grandma and me when I found out....
August 30,2021 my grandmother was able to send a chat to me and talk to me via messenger, she even told me about their life in Bicol, she said she was very happy, she said she was satisfied and her body was still strong,I'm so happy to hear that because I want to be with her and see my future.
that's the last chat her had with me before the change of month, the month of September for a few days her also didn't notice me, I know that the cignal will be tortured there, sometimes you have to climb a mountain to get online and talk to your loved one life, September 3 my grandmother texted me again and told me that my aunt had already given birth, in the chat I could see the excited look on her face.
We talked until noon, she said goodbye to me to eat but when the afternoon came he didn't call again, I understand because it's just chamba if a signal comes to your house, since that day he won't be there again chat, maybe he's busy and taking care of my cousin.
We haven't talked for a few days. I'm just asking my cousin if they're okay, because they're also close to home. I were praying that they would be fine and that their lives would be longer, always when I talk to the lord and I pour out all my emotions. Because I miss them so much, Cavite is far from Bicol, so I'll just pray first. I can help my Grandpa and Grandma.
September 10,2021 I was doing my laundry past 9:30 am while I was wondering if I should tell Lola that I want to take law at the most famous law school in the country, while I was dday dreaming I just heard someone crying older brother in the bedroom,I heard papa asked this but He just said "grandma, no more!" Suddenly I got up and went to the door but before I could go inside my uncle suddenly passed by and his eyes were red.
He told me that my grandmother was gone, I just laughed because I can't believe it, it was just a dream!someone suddenly called me via video call I answered it and as my uncle said my grandmother was gone, I just knelt down and released my cellphone at that heard. Until now I can't accept that the woman who encouraged me and gave me endless love is gone. Until now I can't accept, Kopa said last night he will be the first to know what to take if the course but ... nothing she left me..... she's gone! she's gone!why?! Unfair!!!
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**Note**;
***Hanggang ngayon hindi ko matanggap,isang araw palang siyang wala pero...ansakit siya nalang natitira saakin pero..bat ganoon?! Matatanggap ko rin na wala na siya pero hindi po ngayon. (Sorry if my grammatically incorrect,hindi ko na po hehe(. ❛ ᴗ ❛.))***
**-Thank you po!**
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Graduation day is the saddest day
[September 9,2021|Thursday]
Hola! Buenas dias,mi Señorito y Señorita!
This article is all about my graduation day in grade six,I just wanna share to everyone the saddest day in my life.
The day after tomorrow is the graduation day,Before graduation we rehearsed first, every time I set foot on the stage I cried because finally in my 7 years in elementary I also finished it without failing the exam or Grade , I think about my grandmother and mother before or after exam, because I want them to be proud of me and I won't waste my mother's hardship in manila even papa.
Even before the ceremony, I always told my Grandmother that I would take her with me when I went on stage to get the medals and certificates that I had worked so hard for for 9 months as a sixth grade student, but it always wasn't,silent when I say that to her I want to ask her but I am afraid to scold.
I just let it go because grandma doesn't let me down in all of the school curriculum that she is always with me, while I was fixing my uniform I thought if I call mama so that I can take her with me if grandma doesn't want to, my grandmother told me that she would not be able to accompany me on stage because she would also go to my aunt that day so,and mama she said she wasn't sure if he would be able to come or come home on the day of my graduation because she had a job and maybe his boss wouldn't allow her to go to my graduation, I just faked a smile so he wouldn't see my reaction.
I can't blame mama because she's really far away to work, she worked in Cavite while we were in Bicol. I didn't lose hope and I just adjusted what I was going to wear on the day of the ceremony while I was getting ready. Grandma suddenly called me to talk to me. , I understood that because it was also important to my grandmother. But I'm sad because who will come with me to the stage? Who will attach me a medal and certificate?
I just wanted to cry because I thought I would be happy, I thought the people who give me motivation will come with me to go on stage. Even my father would not come with me on stage for no good reason. It was good that my uncle's wife was there to support and accompany me on stage that way I was happy but when graduation day came many of me asked why my aunt came with me, why not my mama or papa I just smiled at them for my answer, I don't want to cry on the day of my graduation.
When my name was called they couldn't see the smile on my lips because I was just looking at the ground as I was going to the stage, I didn't even look at my aunt who was already on stage because I was so slow. When I was given the medal and certificate, our principal(my tita), who was also my aunt, hugged me and smiled, I also smiled back at her, as I went down the stage I saw my classmates smiling at me but I ignored them because I wanted to cry.
The ceremony was over and I still wanted to take a picture of my classmates and friends with me but I refused them and I just went straight home and didn't eat anything ready for me, I went straight to my room and lay down my body and cried. On that day I can't say that I was very happy, even though I had a medal and a certificate, I just didn't have it because I just wanted to be with my family on the day of my graduation but nothing, only my aunt and cousins.
Because on that day every time the awarding ceremony comes to our school I don't get excited anymore because that's what happens in the past, no one comes to me so I'm very jealous of others,my classmate with their parents. Even here when I study in cavite, even when papa or mama don't come to meetings because they are always busy with work, mama always has a meeting with his boss and my papa is also busy. Kaya minsan nakikita nalang nila akong may dalang certificate of awarding at sinasabi lang nila saakin "very good" then balik na naman sa paperwork. I never blame my parents because para sakin din naman iyon at hindi ko sila masisisi kung gusto nila ako bigyan ng magandang buhay.
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Meet my Babies
[September 6,2021|Monday]
We all know how difficult it is to take care of pets, especially those like fur parents. Sometimes they make noise but we can't blame them because it is their job to protect us from the people or those who come to our home.
For me, taking care of a dog is like taking care of a family, you feed them at the right time, take a bath, if you are a little rich you can dress them and of course it also relieves stress even when they are annoying:)
Last time I need to cry in front of my parents because my parents dicided to call the shelter for dog,I don't know if they'll serious or pranking me because they know how I serious to care my doggies,that day I hate my brother because he did not even object to my parents decisions I ran to my bedroom to cry and imagine what would happen to my pet dog if they continue to go to the shelter.
I didn't leave the room that day because I didn't want to see my older brother and I was still upset with my parents,I don't know why they would do that to our pet dogs, I'm wondering how to get them here at home without me crying. While I was not leaving the room, I thought about scrolling on Facebook for fun, later someone popped up on my messenger. I immediately looked at it. I saw my brother's face. At first, I didn't bother to look at his message to me, but in the end I looked at his message and the message he send to is " ***PRANKING TIME***",I want to punch my brother in the face because of anger and annoyance!
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Meet my babies
Meet my first dog,her name is '**Patpat**' is naughty and sweet, when he hasn't seen papa he always sits in front of the gate and sleeps there until papa doesn't come home, when she knows that papa didn't come that night the next day she doesn't will eat na parang may sakit ay linalayo niya sakanya ang pagkain at nung dumating na si papa galing trabaho doon lang siya kumain at nakipag laro sa iba naming aso V●ᴥ●V
This is Molly, she's the daughter of Patpat. It was just quiet. I took this photo when she was just recovering from a serious illness, Molly almost disappeared because she vomited every day and stopped eating. We wanted to take her to the vet, but it was difficult. we are alone and helpless in life so I just thought of a way, I searched on Google and YouTube what is a good medicine for him, I saw a video that said only sugar is the medicine for his condition, I followed it and took sugar to feed him, the next day we were just surprised when he ate and drank water.On the first day she couldn't stand and her legs were still shaking so I really fed and took care of her because I don't wanna loose my pet dog again , in the following days she gradually stood up and played with other dogs.
Another one,she's mikmik,sometimes I call her energy because she is very energetic especially in the morning, she won't stop you until you give him dog food, sometimes I worry about her because she is alert to everything that passes by and sometimes someone just asks us for horseradish her mouth is won't stop barking until the person asking for horseradish leaves.
The fourth one,she's chuchu ,yes out of 8 dog 7 are girl only 1 boy. I preferred to call her smiley because if you have a food and give it to him bibigyan ka niya ng malaking ngiti,siya ang favorite ni mama sa 8 naming aso dahil siya lang ang ngumingiti at laging tulog lol!
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*The remaining four are in the next article because I haven't taken a photo of them yet because they are on the other side of the unit.*
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If you think being a fur parent is a piece of cake, you are definitely wrong. Being a fur parent demands the same amount of commitment, dedication, time and effort as being somebody’s parent! Fur babies need the same love, care and attention. It’s not easier, but yes, it’s as fulfilling!
Being a fur parent doesn’t come with manuals. Not all fur babies are the same, and how we raise them shouldn’t be either.
As a fur parent, you have the freedom to raise your baby the way you want to. There’s no right and wrong, we all have our own tricks and styles, and at the end of the day, it’s really just a matter of finding out what works best for us and our fur babies!
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Ber months is our birthday
[September 5,2021|Sunday]
When we hear 'ber months' the first thing that comes to our mind is Christmas, but in our family ber months is our birthday one of the special days with us, there are only four of us at home and we also have our pet dog with us we have 8 dogs and 1 cat (mas marami po talaga ang mga alaga naming hayop haha)
Here the main topic:
September is my oldest brother birthday, we're just two siblings. Kada sasapit ang kanyang kaarawan pinag hahandaan talaga ng mga magulang namin dahil minsan bigla bigla nalang ang pag dating ng mga kaibigan niya syempre nakaka stress yun dahil wala naman sinabi ang kuya ko na marami palang pupunta tapos ang handa Lang namin ay bali pang animan lang na Tao. Pero masaya rin dahil nakakatuwa ang mga kaibigan niya tapos plus points narin yung pogi points lol! I prefer to called him bro minsan kuya kapag ng lalambing baka mabigyan ng pang shopping hehe.
October 20, is my mother's birthday,ito simple lang talaga nag uusap lang sila tita,ayaw kasi ni mamang madaming handa dahil nasasayang lang daw kapag unti lang ang pumupunta halos ipakain na namin sa aso namin ang pancit malabon dahil sa dami ng dala ng tita ko haha. October 19 my cousin birthday also lol!
Ito mahaba haba sasabihin ko dito dahil buwan Ng kaarawan ko ito haha! November 14 is my birthday,medyo malungkot dahil laging may pasok sa school hindi Naman ako pwedeng mag skip dahil sa pinanghahawakan kung attendance at grades minsan nakakatamad pumasok kapag kaarawan mo dahil hindi mo alam kung may mangbabato sayo ng itlog o mambabasag sa ulo ko/mo, November 10,12 is my cousins birthday also lol!
December 1 is my father's birthday,ito bungga ito dahil andami niyang kaibigan na iniimbita pero ang handa ay puro alak kaya Hindi namin alam kung handaan paba yun o inuman na agad ,the last time kasi na nag handa kami para kay papa dalawang putahi lang ang naubos at yung cake sa sobrang panghihinayang ni mama alak nalang ang ipinang reregalo Kay papa haha gusto din naman yun ng mga kaibigan niya dahil mahilig din sila pag dating ng inuman haha
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Every year, Filipinos all around the world mark September 1, as the start of the Christmas countdown. The "Ber months" countdown, which runs from September to December, is one of the most important traditions that sets apart Christmas in the Philippines from celebrations in the rest of the world.
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Thank God dahil I didn't expect the manonotice agad ako ni @TheRandomRewarder ,akala kopo months or weeks bago ako ma notice saya ng umaga ko lol! Sulat lang ng sulat hindi muna ako magiging tamad at gagamitin kopo muna pag iisip ko ,ang hirap din kasing mag isip na susunod na topic or isusulat ,minsan nahihirapan ako mag english lol! Nakaka nosebleed,again thank God happy Sunday everyone:>
Embarrassing things that happened in my life
September 4,2021|Saturday
Hello everyone this is my first article, I wanna introduce my self first before the main topic. I am 15 year's old,yes I know I'm a minor for this platform but I wanna help my mother for my tuition and also to my brother, he's turning college next year.
***Proceed to the main topic;***
*****Grade 8 moment*****
when I was in grade 8, my teacher gave us the task to make a slum book for the grade and that was a plus point, of course I was a good kid so I did it and started. I thought it would be easy to do but there are so many answers or questions in the slum book. I started answering and there was "puppy love" written on it. I couldn't understand what it meant because I was still young and very innocent of those questions. At first I skipped it because
I didn't know what to answer and I was embarrassed to ask what it meant, of course I was very proud I just let it go and just skipped it. I asked my friend if the answer could not be complete because I don't know what "puppy love" is so annoying, my friend said it's not allowed to do those points so it was decided if they search on Google what it really means then it came out "Dear Dog"lol! I'm so innocent that time and ang linagay ko ay ang mga pangalan ng mga ako ko lol!! Nag tawanan ang lahat ng kaklase ko especially mga supportive Kung kaibigan.... I hate grade 8 days(｡•́︿•̀｡)
*****Intramural s day:*****
just after the intrams so we decided to hang out at the diner next to the oval, while we were walking out of the oval I dragged my friend because it was crowded with people watchin,while we were fighting I let go of my friend's arm so I shouted his name even though there were many people around me, while I was looking for my friend's arm I felt someone holding my shoulder I didn't look at it because I thought it was my friend , I pulled him by the arm until we could get out of the gate. Suddenly he sneezed when I looked around,I lost my word and I was embarrassed, I thought it was my friend, that was the escort of our school !!! shuta ampogi haha he give me a smirk and winked at me aaaaaa!!
*****WRONG TURN:*****
I am Grade six that time when Buwan Ng Wika comes,that day our teacher's are so busy because the day after tomorrow is the biggest event on school. More games and my favorite is Ms. And Mr,I thought to my self if I went to the practice of the contestants so I slipped in front to see them in full, later later someone came and asked me if I was there I suddenly nodded (but sa totoo Hindi tlaga ako kasali dun)so I pulled forward and practiced, I said no I'm not involved but I'm not allowed to back out so I just cried with so much nervousness because I don't know and I don't have anything to wear. Nakalabasa ako at hindi alam Ang gagwin pati talent wala ako!!
This is my favorite embarrassing moment,Sana hindi na iyon maulit at ayaw kuna iyon balikan. Sobrang nakakahiya promiseee period!!!
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**Always be positive and remember life is like a game sometimes you win and sometimes you loose**.
-**Thank you**
@G_lenahhh
