@Farooqkhan 16 August 2021

We all breathed a sigh of relief when Father John died. Ever since we regained consciousness, they have been riding on our heads. They made our lives miserable. We find no peace during the day, nor rest at night. The truth is, sometimes we would get upset and say. God willing! Let them die. ” After praying, even though we were immediately angry that this is what happened, it is our father, we should not pray for others, we would call ourselves bad in our hearts and decide that We will not ask for such a prayer in the future, but then there would be an opportunity for annoyance that would come out of our mouths. Now we don't know how it happened. Suddenly he had a heart attack and he recovered from the other world. At first we couldn't believe it. It was as if a heavy load had been removed from our chests. We took a deep breath and then began to prepare for his burial. And you and I clearly felt that our mother John also breathed a sigh of relief when she heard the news of his death. She was just as upset with him as we were. "May Allah not give such a husband to anyone; and may not give such a father to anyone." We cried a lot in our house for three days. We all cried a lot. But whatever we are, the first few tears must have been tears of sorrow. The tears that followed were forcibly taken out. … She doesn't even cry when her father dies… What a child she is, and Amy John gets ridiculed by the women around her… What a hard-hearted wife… The helpless husbands have lost their lives and they can't even shed tears Therefore, it was necessary to shed tears in order to get rid of such statements. So, take them out and take them out well. Is it difficult to take out artificial tears nowadays? The excuses are ready, we had many other ways about it anyway; so people applauded very well; really; she loved her father very much; how much her mother loved her husband; then So crying and red eyes Then after three days all the seduction was over. We thought, we will sell the horses and sleep after a while. We will enjoy a good night's sleep. No one will wake us up in the morning for prayers. No one will sit in front of the TV. Will stop, no one will stop us from listening to songs سے from morning we will have only luxury With this thought we fell asleep for a long time. What else would we do if we didn't have to worry about getting up early in the morning? The next day we slept until eight o'clock; after a while we got a restful sleep, then it became our routine, we moved away from prayer, fasting; and got closer to everything else; we rejoiced in ourselves. … Never thought about what our routines were when we were in Abajan and what happened now We spent the whole ten years in the same state of carelessness. Ten years later, all of a sudden we found out. Now in front of us stood a mountain of narrow-mindedness; we did not have the courage to face this mountain at all; we had all become the rope of rest; Don't die; but there was water that passed through my head;