Didn't manage to write much recently. Mood today has been sad. I have had no motivation and I feel mentally and emotionally numb. I forced myself to go to the shops in order to get food for tonight. I forced myself to do some cleaning and I am currently forcing myself to write this and after will force myself to continue studying. Currently, I want to sleep and just sleep for several days and take time out but I also feel if I do that I won't get back up again. I guess I just need to do things on autopilot for a bit.