Questions... Questions.. Questions

Question? This is what @JonicaBradley's prompt for this week. And honestly, it made me asked myself what will I write with this prompt. Will I blurt out all my questions in life with this article or will I just let those questions left unanswered.

As I think more about the prompt the more questions I can think of. That question thing is giving me more questions to ask. Should I really be asking for more questions or should I write a story with so many questions that are all left unanswered?

Honestly, that's the question that I hate the most. The questions that are left unanswered. The question that no matter what you do, you can't just find an answer to it. No matter how much you research for it you'll never find an answer. Want to know my questions that's been lingering on my mind for so many years now? I'll share with you my question that is addressed to my parents that I know I'll never find an answer.

Ok, let's start with my questions for my Dad who left us so early. Why did you have to leave us so soon? Why did you tell them to sink in their seats just to save them and yet you didn't do it? You were the one who is holding the steering wheel why didn't you find a way to escape that tragic incident? Why didn't you asked me to join that last dinner with you? Why did you let me sulk that night and let you leave the house without even looking at you? Why did you have to leave before my birthday? I still have so many places that I want to go with you but why did you leave without saying goodbye? Why did you leave just like that?

And now to my mom. I thought you don't want to leave us yet but why didn't you tell us whatever you are feeling that day? Why did you have to leave us so abruptly? Why didn't you wait for us to be by your side before you left? Do you really want to be with Dad that badly that you didn't wait for us? Or is it because what you are feeling that time is so painful that's why you left? But I know you mom, you don't easily give up so why did you give up on us so soon? Why did you spoilt kuya that much that he can't stand alone by himself right now? Still got a lot of questions for you mom but I'll stop here now.

Because there are still so many hanging questions that I know I'll never get an answer, and yet there are still more questions and this time it's for me, that why I'll stop questioning you now because I myself too have a lot of questions to myself that I still can't answer. Am I really happy with what I am doing now? Am I really happy where I am right now or do I still wish I was somewhere else? Can I really shoulder all this responsibility that I have right now? Can I really sacrifice my own happiness just to support the family of my brother? Can I really guide these kids to grow up well? Why didn't I marry someone when I was younger? Why did I say no when there's an opportunity for me to go to the US when I was younger? Why didn't I process my documents while I was in Australia? Why did I have to let go of someone that I can't leave without? Why did I let myself stay single until now? Am I not good enough? What Do I still need to learn in this life? Don't I have enough patience? How can I resolve all these things that are happening around me?

I got so many questions to myself and the more I asked myself the more questions comes to my mind. And I think I'll never run out of questions to myself right now. So when do we really have to stop? Is it ok for these questions to be left unanswered? Or should I find a way to answer all these questions?

But one thing I'm sure after writing this article, after ranting all those questions. It feels a bit light now. It feels like there was something in me that has been removed now.

And if you are also interested to write about this prompt below are @JonicaBradley's simple rules that have to be followed.

1. Write about questions

2. Write 100% original content

3. Write at least 600 words

4. Tag  @JonicaBradley

   Have fun!

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