Well, some said I am pretty but you know sometimes I don't believe it and sometimes I believe it haha! But what I really want is to have a beautiful soul. Pretty face will fade but a soul with beautiful character remains until lifetime. Our character is our greatest legacy we can ever have.
I know most of you knows the famous story of an “ugly duckling turns into a beautiful swan,” I was like that literally, mentally and psychologically.
Ugly duckling turns into a beautiful swan (physical)
When I was younger, people bully me because of my dark skin. I look untidy as well because I don't have nice clothes to wear, I was born with very poor parents. We can't afford to buy nicer clothes, much more skin care products to make my skin lighter as I always exposed in the sun because sometimes I help working in the farm.
When I grow up and started to find my own money, I was able to buy some products that can help me in lightening my skin complexion. Some people who bullies me when I was younger started to appreciate me that I was “pretty”duhhh.. who you kayo sakin, cheret 😂.
An ugly duckling turn into a beautiful swan (mentally & psychologically)
Most of you know, I mean those who have been following my blog since then that I suffer too many mental, psychological and emotional distress due to my situation.
With all the traumatic experience, insecurities, inferiority complex that I dealt with I lost self confidence. I don't see any good with me, I don't see any potential and I felt like I am just a piece of crap that ever existed in this universe.
I even ask the heaven “Why I am still living? Why not let me be the one who died instead of my two siblings?” you read it right two of my half siblings already died. My mom was heartbroken twice losing her son and daughter. Both of them are loved and precious by mom and the whole family, while I am not. So I was thinking back then, why can't I just died instead of them. Nobody care for me anyway during those times, if I die.. maybe mom will be hurt but not much.
After all that happens, I just turned a beautiful swan inside recently. When I started to love myself, to appreciate and always believe in me. It was a hard battle, winning against yourself is always the hardest battle your ever had in your life.
Conquering all your negativity and turning it into positivity is not that easy, it takes a lot of courage to continue seeing the positive side even on the worst situation. Plus the fact that it doesn't happen on the first try, I mean winnings doesn't happen on the first try, sometimes we failed a lot before we master some things and it goes the same with battling against yourself.
I was glad, I never give up on me. Because if I did, I couldn't write this one, that an ugly duckling turns into a beautiful swan.
Closing Thoughts
We all experience to be an ugly duckling, we we're ugly when we don't believe and belittle ourselves. We all have bad situations that will make us an ugly duckling but once we conquered it all, we will surely turn into a beautiful swan.
Just like the literal ugly duckling story, he endured all the bully, live by himself as nobody likes him because he was ugly but one day.. he turns into a beautiful swan because he finally found the place where he belongs.
Sometimes we just have to keep wandering and never give, until we found our own place where we shine, where we are appreciated. Let's not force ourselves to live with others expectations, to fit in the societies standard because we can have our own life that doesn't need an approval to anyone.
Keep finding yourself, you will find your place as well that is always within you.
Thank you for reading!
P.S I wrote this the other day, but right now I felt like an ugly duck again.
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Date Published: October 23, 2021
HAHAHAHA yung who you talaga e, noong highschool ako ate eyb may crush ako sa classmate ko then hndi niya man lang ako pinapansin lol, ngayon ilang years na siya sa friend request ko at nakapag message na rin saakin ng ilang ulit bwahahha🤣 nag kita rin kami personal and siya unang nag approach sakin haha.