@Eybyoung 24 January 2022 more from that month

**Another Frustrated Morning** I woke up a bit annoyed, I bought an adhesive paper to cover the wood chair we made so it's a bit presentable with my sisters visitor on her birthday. My sister asked mom a lil money to buy for thumbtack, and she murmured “Why did you bought that? What's so special with your visitors they are not that VIP anyway and we are poor they can understand our situation. You should've bought floormat instead of that” something like that.. I on the other hand who initiated to buy got annoyed, .. I told her it's cheap and they can throw it if they think it's useless. My mom has this negative vibes as well that annoys me,.. I thought the day will be good, but ended worse. I cried again with frustrations.. I'm tired doubling my effort in earning money so I can cover up all our daily needs yet they seem not like to cooperate. All I want is they'll look out for my daughter while I do my work, writing, gaming and trading.. because I am providing our needs it's the least they can help me to look out for my daughter for the meantime but they're showing not interest to babysit my daughter. Both mom and siblings. I keep striving hard for their fvcking sake yet they aren't recognizing my effort. I am tired and feed up! Once my sister's birthday will be done I'll leave them.. I'll give the 20k for mom and let her roll it while all that I spent will be help for them. I'm so done.. I need to be mentally, psychologically and physically healthy for my daughter and being with them just adding up my frustrations. I'll choose myself and my daughter.. since they aren't cooperating at all. Fvck this heart that is always being merciful to others but neglecting myself!